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Sunara
March 10th, 2019, 03:29 AM
Am I weird in that if I ever met God, the first thing I'd do is to try and shoot Him in the metaphysical face and or slay Him in some way or another?
But what if its a pretty girl that appears before you? (Or alternatively a sexy guy.)

And yes. Unless you have a developed backstory where he's an evil entity that committed some horrid crime against you. And even then yes because this screams of angst.

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https://66.media.tumblr.com/baeaad7dc2c42c919f0dda058ff231cb/tumblr_mxf0t2sZWD1qb0wv3o1_400.gif
My brain automatically fills that as "chill... out."

Historia
March 10th, 2019, 03:40 AM
i hope God is a giant tentacle monster from outer space and it,

Historia
March 10th, 2019, 04:21 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gehdiNv-vOw

Sunara
March 10th, 2019, 06:50 AM
Things I wonder while trying to sleep: Does anyone actually know someone who spontaneously combusted?
Or is it one of those friend of a friend's third cousin's sister's in-law's boyfriend's grandmother's hairdresser type deals?

Also, was it secretly vampires or just the really wrong beauty/skincare or sunscreen regimen?
Like "hey, let's rub kerosene over my body; it makes my skin so shiny."
or
"Let's market X as our secret ingredient in our lotion. It can't possibly be combustible."

On a side note, I almost wrote spinach combusted... -.-;

Deathhappens
March 10th, 2019, 06:59 AM
I knew an idiot who got drunk at a party, spilled whiskey all over him and then tried to light a cigarette. Nobody even managed to react (to be fair, everyone else there was fairly wasted too), he just lit up his whole hand. Fortunately he got away with a few mild burns, but man was that a moodkiller.

Zurvan
March 10th, 2019, 07:09 AM
lit af xD

Walnut Sparks
March 10th, 2019, 07:42 AM
I'm surprised you even found a cobbler.

Eh, I'm using kind of an old-fashioned word, but it's just the same as a shoe repair service, and they're not that hard to find. This one is two towns over and there's one in my own town as well, but I heard through the grapevine that they're reticent to do anything other than polishing.

SpoonyViking
March 10th, 2019, 10:27 AM
lit af xD

Nice!

Deathhappens
March 10th, 2019, 12:01 PM
lit af xD

Harrumph. I suppose it was.

Historia
March 10th, 2019, 02:53 PM
gross

Zurvan
March 10th, 2019, 02:55 PM
thats the response I was hoping for

Sunara
March 10th, 2019, 04:37 PM
Eh, I'm using kind of an old-fashioned word, but it's just the same as a shoe repair service, and they're not that hard to find. This one is two towns over and there's one in my own town as well, but I heard through the grapevine that they're reticent to do anything other than polishing.
I knew what you meant. Every town I lived in doesn't seem to have one. But I haven't looked for a sec. There used to be one in my old town but that one went bankrupt I think.

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lit af xD
X3

Laserman
March 11th, 2019, 12:13 AM
1103789195955335171

Mattias
March 11th, 2019, 01:10 AM
Yeah, but on the other hand most American comic book movies take plot ideas from recent runs nowadays so you can just point to that instead. Liked Doctor Strange? Jason Arron just had a great run. Black Panther? Ta-Nehisi Coates won awards for his run.

Historia
March 11th, 2019, 05:17 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPTCTzzbrJY

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someone should do this but with the giant space roachs in terraformars

Deathhappens
March 11th, 2019, 06:27 AM
How about no

Zurvan
March 11th, 2019, 10:52 AM
yay seika's back

Draconic
March 11th, 2019, 11:32 AM
Wait, what did Deathhappens do this time?

Historia
March 11th, 2019, 01:41 PM
Wait, what did Deathhappens do this time?

isnt it obvious?

he questioned my rule

Zurvan
March 11th, 2019, 05:52 PM
He was true to himself til the very end

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and so, the wheels continue to spin

Historia
March 12th, 2019, 01:47 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K3Qzzggn--s

so, filthy frank's real name is george

how come i'm just learning about this now, other than the fact that i don't fucking care you damn dirty youtube recommendations...

Sunara
March 12th, 2019, 05:10 AM
I want to listen to my new cd.
My brain: "Shove it into your tablet! Shove it into your tablet!" (In the voice of Bill from Gravity Falls. )

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Wait, what did Deathhappens do this time?
The thing that popped to mind was "Having good taste."
Obviously a bannable offense. Good thing I have terrible taste.

Honestly, I have no clue.

Mattias
March 12th, 2019, 03:18 PM
I was thinking about Fantastic Beasts 2, and wondering what a wizard circus would look like when they're not caging random people. The patrons are wizards too so whatever fantastic things are probably mundane/easy to do yourself, so what would amaze a wizard? Explanations of electricity? How an engine works? Magnets?

weeblord
March 12th, 2019, 04:40 PM
fucking magnets, how do they work

Historia
March 13th, 2019, 03:41 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4Bf8Qhe59U

hrm

AsGryffynn
March 15th, 2019, 03:47 PM
Song of the day brought to you by...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sm7nSVyG8qQ

Historia
March 16th, 2019, 03:16 PM
nah dawg, this is the song of the day boiii,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJ66D7TcEWU

la la la la la la la,

you say la la la la la,

Tobias
March 16th, 2019, 07:39 PM
Co-worker mentions ribs off hand

SUPER CRAVING

throws ribs in instapot following recipe never before used*

either I’m about to have some delicious beef

or I’m about to burn down my apartment

Zurvan
March 16th, 2019, 07:59 PM
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/460981905572233227/556627269762678784/image0.jpg

glorious

mAc Chaos
March 16th, 2019, 08:13 PM
it me

Zurvan
March 16th, 2019, 08:31 PM
No gil, it me

mAc Chaos
March 16th, 2019, 08:39 PM
i called dibs

Zurvan
March 16th, 2019, 08:41 PM
Well you shouldn't call dibs on someone's very being

I thought you muricans left slavery behind

Historia
March 17th, 2019, 12:41 AM
manage to be frugal with your allotted budget for the past 5 years and be happy only to spend a ton of it over the course of 3 months on art shit and be happy but actually what have i done oh noes

Skull
March 18th, 2019, 09:10 AM
Song of the day brought to you by...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oz_PaNWMSGU

:jalter:

Laserman
March 18th, 2019, 09:18 PM
1106758765498548224

Sunara
March 19th, 2019, 02:34 AM
Since we have not heard from Tobias, does this mean he either burned down his place or died from too much beef?

Unrelated: Also, has breakdown.

Zurvan
March 19th, 2019, 02:52 AM
He posted in gen news yesterday so...

Historia
March 19th, 2019, 12:47 PM
the future's out to get you...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61GrbjeNc1E

Historia
March 19th, 2019, 01:18 PM
and since i'm still here, another:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYrBOcsrNMs

Walnut Sparks
March 20th, 2019, 11:56 AM
I'm literally just guessing on some of the questions on my geography exams and I'm still getting grades of 100%, which means I either have A+ rank luck (not something corroborated by much else in my life) or the grade curve for this class is abysmal.

SpoonyViking
March 20th, 2019, 01:30 PM
How does a grade curve work?

SeiKeo
March 20th, 2019, 01:46 PM
How does a grade curve work?
The raw score is normalized to the letter grade on a statistical basis; e.g., an A may in a curve system be not 90% or above but the top 10% of scores from the class.

SpoonyViking
March 20th, 2019, 02:03 PM
Huh. I don't think I've ever seen such a system implemented here. At first glance, I don't think I like it. What do educators tend to think of it?
Also, thanks for explaining!

Laserman
March 24th, 2019, 07:21 PM
I could have went to a buffet yesterday, but I didn't hear the phone ring and I am still so mad.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VY3oJh5gW3Q

Historia
March 24th, 2019, 07:30 PM
?

Zurvan
March 25th, 2019, 05:46 AM
Thumbs up
You know who you are, good jobbu

Seika
March 25th, 2019, 11:44 AM
mAc let the bots in.

Zurvan
March 25th, 2019, 12:42 PM
muhahahaha

Walnut Sparks
March 26th, 2019, 02:08 PM
I don't get how people eat ice cream or cake when they're having a bad day. When I'm having a truly bad day, I feel sick to my stomach.

Historia
March 26th, 2019, 04:07 PM
i usually eat ice cream with chocolate, oreos, or m & m's


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-y4grdsVtY

Historia
March 27th, 2019, 02:03 AM
Hm.

Well, that could've gone better. Had a commission done, inquired about the possibility of a refund, repeated it was fine if it wasn't doable... I believe the nail in the coffin was when I used the word "value". I valued my budget to go toward another project (but, was fine with what I've received and already paid for). In any case, all was said and done and I took the piece without regret... I liked it regardless.

... come to find out after looking up his Twitter to gather some info to credit him, that he made a several multi-tweeted rant about me, even posting snippets of our email conversation. The peanut gallery took up their pitchforks and at the end of it I decided to explain further in a series of replies. Sincerely thanked him after saying how disappointed I was in his behavior because I do admire his work, and lo and behold... he blocked me.

Reminds me of an ex. Anyway, here it is, waboom:


https://i.imgur.com/jIr1PNJ.jpg?1

Deathhappens
March 27th, 2019, 12:31 PM
Hm.

Well, that could've gone better. Had a commission done, inquired about the possibility of a refund, repeated it was fine if it wasn't doable... I believe the nail in the coffin was when I used the word "value". I valued my budget to go toward another project (but, was fine with what I've received and already paid for). In any case, all was said and done and I took the piece without regret... I liked it regardless.

... come to find out after looking up his Twitter to gather some info to credit him, that he made a several multi-tweeted rant about me, even posting snippets of our email conversation. The peanut gallery took up their pitchforks and at the end of it I decided to explain further in a series of replies. Sincerely thanked him after saying how disappointed I was in his behavior because I do admire his work, and lo and behold... he blocked me.

Reminds me of an ex. Anyway, here it is, waboom:


https://i.imgur.com/jIr1PNJ.jpg?1

Artists tend to be touchy about the monetary value of their work, mainly because it sucks pouring your life into something and trying to make a living or at least pocket money out of it only to be asked to do it for free or for less than what you'd make serving tables for the same time. Plus of course the relentless criticism from randos if you have an "unconventional" art style whereas others put in a hundredth as much effort to draw anime ass and tiddy and rake in the praise and dough. (Names withheld to protect the innocent, but I'm sure you can think of a few).

Granted, on the flipside there's a thin line between "touchy" and "drama queen" and some people, particularly on Tumblr, vault over it with an Olympic-sized pole, so I can sympathise with both sides on this one.

Mattias
March 27th, 2019, 12:37 PM
Asking for a refund on something custom made for you, once it's already done, does seem like a dick move though. Being an asshole on twitter about it however, is incredibly unprofessional, and might end up ruining the persons chances for more work.

Historia
March 27th, 2019, 02:28 PM
Granted, on the flipside there's a thin line between "touchy" and "drama queen" and some people, particularly on Tumblr, vault over it with an Olympic-sized pole, so I can sympathise with both sides on this one.

Yes, well. I can see where he's coming from, so I don't have an issue with it other than the fact he shared our emails about the commission to others because he was upset. I don't care who the fuck you are, how much time you spent on it, what I or another did to justify it, that's something you don't do. (and, yes, I've contacted one or two of them, in fact)


Asking for a refund on something custom made for you, once it's already done, does seem like a dick move though. Being an asshole on twitter about it however, is incredibly unprofessional, and might end up ruining the persons chances for more work.

Yeah. I can see that. Regardless, I'm already over it--I just extremely disliked the fact he went behind my back about it instead of discussing it with me properly, you know, like an adult and that, as an artist I admired the work of, was an asshole regarding it.

Eh. Twitter is a cesspool, and he did me a favor by blocking me on everything he associated with me on (as I also later found out while trying to credit him).

Saiga
March 27th, 2019, 07:55 PM
Why did you ask for a refund?

Zurvan
March 27th, 2019, 08:02 PM
the possibility of a refund and well

You can guess why

purple_teardrops
March 27th, 2019, 10:01 PM
After writing a bit about the Grails, and thinking about how time seems to work on a scale that feels more like i'm not seeing things go thru time, but instead that i'm seeing time go thru a static set of things, or how most things seem like the same block of info getting multiplied by time, i can only say that i can't truly feel surprised that the original Einzbern who decided to power the grail system felt like leaving human reality behind. Sure, i mean, the whole Illya/that 1st homunculus thing might be a type of reference to the series 'secret of mana' and the family of women becoming the mana tree, but lawd, i can't truly feel like leaving this reality behind and becoming a tree would feel that bad... Hey wait a sec isn't that a wolf's rain reference? Whatever...

Humans are so disgusting sometimes. Or would that be most times? Anyways, could i just get a ride for the spirit world? Not even Lain wanted to hang around here.

Tatari/Kirakyshou is such a pita. I wonder if i can train some elfen-lied-like hands and start suffocating Tatari into submission every time that thing pisses me off... Although i do think this wouldn't stop so soon... Which does remind of Eva's ending and Asuka's rebirth from the whole human soup...

If i ever learn how to cut thru concepts with a knife instead of my mind, i think i'm going to try to kill earth just for the fun of it. Hm, no wonder the counter-force hates me... At least the damn thing is teaching me how to leave it alone so it can leave me alone; wonder if that means that it doesn't want a full-blown war with earth being the prime victim... Hey, Alaya, we gotta talk more often, k? Besides, unless i bring our daughter here, you know that the results will be something related to mars, and since i've got a ticket home and this is your home, i guess i couldn't care less. And meh to you for that umn message, wtf, it's your body we're talking about.

Signing off, probably back in an hour or two. Hope you can point the black-haired girl to where she wants to travel to.

Historia
March 27th, 2019, 11:13 PM
Why did you ask for a refund?

Technically, I didn't. I asked about the possibility of a refund, and was fine if he didn't. He took my words the wrong way.

There were other issues involved, but, I won't discuss them here.

Deathhappens
March 28th, 2019, 12:21 AM
After writing a bit about the Grails, and thinking about how time seems to work on a scale that feels more like i'm not seeing things go thru time, but instead that i'm seeing time go thru a static set of things, or how most things seem like the same block of info getting multiplied by time, i can only say that i can't truly feel surprised that the original Einzbern who decided to power the grail system felt like leaving human reality behind. Sure, i mean, the whole Illya/that 1st homunculus thing might be a type of reference to the series 'secret of mana' and the family of women becoming the mana tree, but lawd, i can't truly feel like leaving this reality behind and becoming a tree would feel that bad... Hey wait a sec isn't that a wolf's rain reference? Whatever...

Humans are so disgusting sometimes. Or would that be most times? Anyways, could i just get a ride for the spirit world? Not even Lain wanted to hang around here.

Tatari/Kirakyshou is such a pita. I wonder if i can train some elfen-lied-like hands and start suffocating Tatari into submission every time that thing pisses me off... Although i do think this wouldn't stop so soon... Which does remind of Eva's ending and Asuka's rebirth from the whole human soup...

If i ever learn how to cut thru concepts with a knife instead of my mind, i think i'm going to try to kill earth just for the fun of it. Hm, no wonder the counter-force hates me... At least the damn thing is teaching me how to leave it alone so it can leave me alone; wonder if that means that it doesn't want a full-blown war with earth being the prime victim... Hey, Alaya, we gotta talk more often, k? Besides, unless i bring our daughter here, you know that the results will be something related to mars, and since i've got a ticket home and this is your home, i guess i couldn't care less. And meh to you for that umn message, wtf, it's your body we're talking about.

Signing off, probably back in an hour or two. Hope you can point the black-haired girl to where she wants to travel to.

With great power comes great responsibility, or something like that.

Saiga
March 28th, 2019, 01:01 AM
Technically, I didn't. I asked about the possibility of a refund, and was fine if he didn't. He took my words the wrong way.

There were other issues involved, but, I won't discuss them here.

Okay... Why were you asking about that? Did you want a refund, and if so, why?

Historia
March 28th, 2019, 01:32 AM
Okay... Why were you asking about that? Did you want a refund, and if so, why?

I sent you a PM.

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Anyway, I've contacted someone I trust to re-do the entire thing. So that's that.

chipathy
March 28th, 2019, 11:17 AM
Spin sucks

Spinach
March 28th, 2019, 11:20 AM
Eat my ass you fucker, I own

chipathy
March 28th, 2019, 11:21 AM
Who's mans is this

mAc Chaos
March 28th, 2019, 11:49 AM
I've had artists draw stuff for me that I asked for and had it come out a bit different than I expected sometimes, but I just treat that as part of the creative process where both sides get to add something to the final product. There's my vision and the artist's interpretation of it. A lot of the time it ends up coming out better than expected.

The best way to avoid getting surprised though is to have the artist show you updates as it is in progress so you don't get surprised and can course correct them.

Deathhappens
March 28th, 2019, 12:29 PM
In happier news, despite recent setbacks I've surpassed Zurvie's postcount. Next stop, Mcjon.

May all of them be contributions equal in value to this great forum, of course.

SeiKeo
March 28th, 2019, 12:37 PM
haha are you really going to update your user title each day

Zurvan
March 28th, 2019, 12:37 PM
I'm sorry, it's all downhill from here

and dont call me that
(Do it when we're alone)

purple_teardrops
March 28th, 2019, 03:12 PM
Damn you, damn you, damn you!!!
Is that why you keep locking me up in the underworld? Because no matter how many times you try placing a damn rock on the entrance, i still manage to slip by and hack the entire system to bits and pieces? Because i couldn't leave you alone as you decided to damn yourself? Because i swore i'd try to help whomever i could thru space, time and dimensions, until the end of time and beyond time itself? Is that why the maidens are always 'doomed' to be uninvited guests, like Malacath the orc found himself to be when he turned into a Daedra?

I don't think i can give up on humanity just yet, but still, i'm afraid for myself... My eyesight, so greatly expanded since landing in this facility, points to a block, or i myself am blocking it for fear of what's to come, although i know when i'm going to die if i don't embrace immortality... But still, how can i stop caring for my species when all i've wanted when i first came into being was for that which i tried to become, a follower of the Rosa Mystica, both in it's symbol and it's intended meaning in my current mask?

This is my life as well, may we both be damned, Suigintou! We might hate each other as sisters, but we're still together in this! Even the medium has pledged wan's compromise, as you can see and hear! For crying out loud, we have to work together, damnit... We're stuck in wan's shell for a long, long time... As has happened throughout history, it seems...

We have to help each other, otherwise, we're all gonna fail... Help me, damn you!

Deathhappens
March 28th, 2019, 05:03 PM
haha are you really going to update your user title each day
Every 24 hours until I get bored (or banned).

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Damn you, damn you, damn you!!!
Is that why you keep locking me up in the underworld? Because no matter how many times you try placing a damn rock on the entrance, i still manage to slip by and hack the entire system to bits and pieces? Because i couldn't leave you alone as you decided to damn yourself? Because i swore i'd try to help whomever i could thru space, time and dimensions, until the end of time and beyond time itself? Is that why the maidens are always 'doomed' to be uninvited guests, like Malacath the orc found himself to be when he turned into a Daedra?

I don't think i can give up on humanity just yet, but still, i'm afraid for myself... My eyesight, so greatly expanded since landing in this facility, points to a block, or i myself am blocking it for fear of what's to come, although i know when i'm going to die if i don't embrace immortality... But still, how can i stop caring for my species when all i've wanted when i first came into being was for that which i tried to become, a follower of the Rosa Mystica, both in it's symbol and it's intended meaning in my current mask?

This is my life as well, may we both be damned, Suigintou! We might hate each other as sisters, but we're still together in this! Even the medium has pledged wan's compromise, as you can see and hear! For crying out loud, we have to work together, damnit... We're stuck in wan's shell for a long, long time... As has happened throughout history, it seems...

We have to help each other, otherwise, we're all gonna fail... Help me, damn you!

I don't remember references to Elder Scrolls last I watched Rozen Maiden, but I may not have been paying too much attention.

purple_teardrops
March 28th, 2019, 06:56 PM
I don't remember references to Elder Scrolls last I watched Rozen Maiden, but I may not have been paying too much attention.

I'm not sure how correct i am in that comparison, but the Maidens, in their roles of archetypes, mention (in Zurückspulen) being something like uninvited guests... Malacath and his status as daedric prince are rejected by the other daedra, something of a status that him and the Maidens share, considering that they're not very well received in reality, although i can't remember for sure whether they're uninvited solely in the unwound reality of the adult Jun or whether they're not very well received in any reality that may be, although the wound Jun's reality seem to put up with them very well...

Coincidences seem to be something remarkable no matter how far things go, nowadays, tho... Malacath's sphere is the patronage of the spurned and ostracized, which seems to be something him and the Maidens have in common, but then again, i dunno...

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar, after all.

Deathhappens
March 28th, 2019, 07:52 PM
I mean, I've seen more far-fetched parallelisms (especially WIR Elder Scrolls lore, which is simultaneously pretty deep and also memetically convoluted), but it's... an odd comparison to make.

Mattias
March 28th, 2019, 08:52 PM
In happier news, despite recent setbacks I've surpassed Zurvie's postcount. Next stop, Mcjon.


So you climbed over a creek bed and decided to next tackle Everest?

https://i.imgur.com/5noHKsb.jpg

Deathhappens
March 28th, 2019, 09:58 PM
So you climbed over a creek bed and decided to next tackle Everest?

https://i.imgur.com/5noHKsb.jpg

As my grandpa used to say, aim high, they might think you're a moron and shoot you last. Er, or something like that, in any case.

purple_teardrops
March 29th, 2019, 03:39 AM
It's not that humans have a problem with being judged, especially given that they judge others all the time... What they have a problem with is being condemned; they're rather afraid of that. And truly, fighting someone stronger isn't as easy as it seems in the adventures depicted in the media.

purple_teardrops
March 29th, 2019, 11:11 AM
I'm not sure what's going on, but someone's actually trying to keep me from the abyss... It seems i feel my compass again... It seems my sightless eye is opening once again... I wonder if something's happening...I know what's to come for a while, but only for a while or about five years...

I might be alone, but at least me and my Maidens are together. Now i just need to learn how to see while i see... And by the way, i know you're out there and we're going to meet... Just wait, i think the word 'soon' is echoing in my ears...

Hmmm... What if Annachie Gordon was actually a reference to my dear and lovely Maidens, and all of those who assist the other sisters? I wonder...

Zurvan
March 29th, 2019, 11:17 AM
It's not that humans have a problem with being judged, especially given that they judge others all the time...

........

u smurt

Historia
March 29th, 2019, 01:59 PM
the redraw is underway, resembling this issue cover of star wars:

https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.com/images/S/cmx-images-prod/Item/744466/744466._SX360_QL80_TTD_.jpg

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also, the fate/zero posters

purple_teardrops
March 29th, 2019, 02:57 PM
Bored.

Presented a lecture about buddhism today. Dunno if the audience enjoyed my lecture because i wasn't as pushy as the other guys preaching their Druggie Anonymous dogma, or because the whole idea behind the Self/Non-self/True Self actually has a lot of basis behind it, especially when it comes to the ability to control desires and the ability to dissociate one's self from the collective ghost and somehow convince it to bless the mortal (morganna mode gone?), but still, not a bad day.

In the end, it seems that, ironically, presenting the scientific and psychological logic behind religions, while removing all the their ritual and illogical side, might make anyone fall in love with them. Think i might try that more often, often christianity has a good side to it if one removes all the garbage. Even in Genesis, as Eve (the younger part of the lunar trinity) and Ouroboros point out to Adam that they shall be as gods for gaining knowledge, and have the caretaker allow them to walk among giants, now that they're giants themselves, has a good tricky bit of mind exercise behind it.

Lawd, never thought i'd say this, but i'm so falling in love with myths, religions and archetypes... If the cake is a lie, pie (oh me!) is the truth, isn't it?

Bloble
March 29th, 2019, 08:35 PM
Any religions in particular you like? You said buddhism but there's a whole wide world of them out there.

Deathhappens
March 29th, 2019, 09:13 PM
Bored.

Presented a lecture about buddhism today. Dunno if the audience enjoyed my lecture because i wasn't as pushy as the other guys preaching their Druggie Anonymous dogma, or because the whole idea behind the Self/Non-self/True Self actually has a lot of basis behind it, especially when it comes to the ability to control desires and the ability to dissociate one's self from the collective ghost and somehow convince it to bless the mortal (morganna mode gone?), but still, not a bad day.

In the end, it seems that, ironically, presenting the scientific and psychological logic behind religions, while removing all the their ritual and illogical side, might make anyone fall in love with them. Think i might try that more often, often christianity has a good side to it if one removes all the garbage. Even in Genesis, as Eve (the younger part of the lunar trinity) and Ouroboros point out to Adam that they shall be as gods for gaining knowledge, and have the caretaker allow them to walk among giants, now that they're giants themselves, has a good tricky bit of mind exercise behind it.

Lawd, never thought i'd say this, but i'm so falling in love with myths, religions and archetypes... If the cake is a lie, pie (oh me!) is the truth, isn't it?

There's no Ouroboros in Christian myth whatsoever, anywhere. The snake that tempted Eve was nameless and is pretty heavily implied to have been Satan (though I do remember hearing that was a later interpretation of the texts, nowadays it's included as a matter of course). The concept of Ouroboros- the snake biting its tail, symbolism for infinity and closed cycles, dates back somewhere in ancient Mesopotamia, I believe, and is mainly a symbol of occultism rather than any defined religion.
And, for what it's worth... religions are inherently illogical, in my opinion. They're satisfying the basic need of the human animal after it developed reasoning to believe in a higher purpose or cause than day to day survival, be that a benevolent Creator watching over Its children from above or a completely abstract philosophy about attaining perfect inner peace. Psychology might (and indeed, does) have something to gain from observing and analysing its effects on people's mindsets, but science most likely does not.

(insert old joke about psychology not being a science here)

Bloble
March 30th, 2019, 12:34 AM
That's ignoring the historical utilitarian value of religions. Many holy books were basically instruction manuals on how to live life and not fuck it up, church was a way of drilling those lessons into illiterate heads, and all-powerful deities were a proverbial stick and carrot to motivate people to actually listen.

Deathhappens
March 30th, 2019, 01:30 AM
Education is still not considered science, or is it?

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Sesto
March 30th, 2019, 01:37 AM
bought tickets to nippon for a trip with some friends

this time i hope i won't return as a degenerate

Deathhappens
March 30th, 2019, 01:44 AM
Why would you lie to yourself like that

Saiga
March 30th, 2019, 07:32 AM
bought tickets to nippon for a trip with some friends

this time i hope i won't return as a degenerate

neat

when are you going?

Sesto
March 30th, 2019, 12:08 PM
July 4th - 21st. Probably going to die from the heat but unfortunately it was the only time that worked for everyone.

Skull
March 30th, 2019, 05:58 PM
I have embraced the newest Pokémon memes...

Zurvan
March 30th, 2019, 06:17 PM
good man

LJ3
March 30th, 2019, 06:44 PM
Oh yeah, Skull, you are in Scotland iirc?

Skull
March 30th, 2019, 06:48 PM
Oh yeah, Skull, you are in Scotland iirc?
No lol, I live in the absolute opposite end. The furthest south you can go on land. XD

In glorious Kernow. 0_07

Historia
March 30th, 2019, 07:13 PM
best meme to come to Pokemon,

also, kornflakes,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Exaw0oa24AY

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Saiga
March 30th, 2019, 09:01 PM
July 4th - 21st. Probably going to die from the heat but unfortunately it was the only time that worked for everyone.

Hah, I'm there in June!

The last time I went was in August and the heat was intense. Hopefully Spring is a bit nicer.

LJ3
March 30th, 2019, 10:38 PM
lol, my bad

Sunara
March 31st, 2019, 02:43 AM
Looking forward to the april fools jokes.... ~rubs hands together & laughs manically~
I'm sad that not many are live yet.
Also Microsoft sucks & doesn't know how to have 'fun'....

Skull
March 31st, 2019, 07:29 AM
Ooph, this whole changing clocks nonsense back and forwards with the seasons always kills my sleeping pattern.

It's the afternoon but I still feel like going back to sleep... zzz.

Zurvan
March 31st, 2019, 08:54 AM
its just one hour tho

Deathhappens
March 31st, 2019, 07:01 PM
Not sure if I should make a whole new thread for this or not- and I don't really know how I'd formulate it in that case- but what are your thoughts on this?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance)


It's one of those "Simple at first glance" axioms, "Tolerance can only be extended so far when the threat of life or property arises", but it can have surprising implications if you think about it.

purple_teardrops
March 31st, 2019, 07:12 PM
Not sure if I should make a whole new thread for this or not- and I don't really know how I'd formulate it in that case- but what are your thoughts on this?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance)


It's one of those "Simple at first glance" axioms, "Tolerance can only be extended so far when the threat of life or property arises", but it can have surprising implications if you think about it.

I'll vote on a thread for it. One way or another, i'd like to hear your thoughts on this subject.

Zurvan
March 31st, 2019, 07:24 PM
not saying you shouldn't, but why should you

Zurvan
March 31st, 2019, 08:10 PM
I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

but whether it deserves a thread on its own?

Mcjon01
March 31st, 2019, 08:36 PM
I don’t feel qualified to discuss the dunning kruger effect

Saiga
March 31st, 2019, 11:25 PM
I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

but whether it deserves a thread on its own?

I don't get it, it just linked back to the forum index?

purple_teardrops
April 1st, 2019, 01:57 AM
Not sure if I should make a whole new thread for this or not- and I don't really know how I'd formulate it in that case- but what are your thoughts on this?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradox_of_tolerance)


It's one of those "Simple at first glance" axioms, "Tolerance can only be extended so far when the threat of life or property arises", but it can have surprising implications if you think about it.


While i wait so see where this debate will take place, it reminded me both of the axion 'the exception that proves the rule' (more like enforces the rule) and of Lost Horizon, the book from where Shangri-La came from, and its idea of being moderate in all things, even in being moderate...


I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

but whether it deserves a thread on its own?


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunning%E2%80%93Kruger_effect Hm, my browser is pasting the link with those %12345 codes for non-alphanumeric characters... Think i'll just paste it like that and see the results.

Still, as for the DuKrEff, from what i read, it's an interesting concept. On one hand it makes propositions about how people whose identity is based on the concept of beings who aren't their own selves will configure their comparative identities, as well as attaching the 'Narcissistic' concept (a rather cliche'd association, if you ask me) to the way such operations are performed.
I think i have trouble believing in that research, because it seems to go along with, as mentioned, the cultural cliche that whenever someone looks on their own self, they'll evaluate that self to a higher level of competence than it would actually be qualified to; if analysed in scale, and given that most of us lack the necessary data to confirm or deny such research, i propose that one effect it'll result in (though i have no idea on how often will that effect happen) is that any self will try to undervaluate itself, given that our culture finds it forgivable to place one's own self on a lower level than it should actually be placed in, while it heavily condemns people placing themselves on a higher level than they actually should be placed.
It might also be said that our culture actually estimulates individuals to degrade themselves, effectively, in a practice that rather resembles false modesty.

I think it should be asked and debated: why the overall world culture estimulates every individual to try to degrade themselves and find that positive? Isn't that a little odd? From a logical standpoint, what's the difference between underevalution and overevaluation?

On the other hand, an interesting way to deal with the DuKrEff would be to simply do away with the entire comparative identity, eliminate all of it, and simply act and exist without truly caring about creating an identity based on comparison altogether. 'I Am What I Am' would probably work just fine as a modus operandi here, and instead of trying to generate a functional identity based on reward and punishment according to how others perform, simply perform and see the results, while hoping that management doesn't love worshipping egos too much.

On even further analysis, the DuKrEff is hard to approach because it might evoke doubts about one's own self, as well as generate the effect that others find themselves feeling under scrutiny, and therefore should behave with care. I think this could cause effects on both the individual and the collective self of a given being, but i believe that it would be wiser to simply proceed behaving while not stopping from acting, given that while communication might be important, i don't think that hierarchies are important, in fact.

As a final note that kind of concept will usually generate an overall feel that someone might be trying to connote something. This might be an interesting effect, given that it'll generate a Tatari-like effect on an individual, where one's fears take shape and form. I haven't truly evaluated how this could affect different individuals, but this might be something worth of exploring, later, as it would no longer be something that takes shape in the collective subconscious, but instead, something that gets shape inside the individual subconscious. This seems to promise a lot of findings, in case it's further explored...

Historia
April 1st, 2019, 02:56 AM
got this today,

https://i.imgur.com/eyT2l7C.png?1

coming along nicely.

in other news, new band-maiko single:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=umSt7oMUMcs

purple_teardrops
April 1st, 2019, 08:31 AM
Should someone get a Fools' day megathread going? lol

SpoonyViking
April 1st, 2019, 12:44 PM
I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

...You jerk. :-P

Raylen Cypher
April 1st, 2019, 12:49 PM
I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

but whether it deserves a thread on its own?

I fucking hate you.

And I hate myself.

EDIT: Obligatory god fucking damn it, Zurvan.

Zurvan
April 1st, 2019, 01:04 PM
I too, hate myself

Walnut Sparks
April 1st, 2019, 01:06 PM
I think it should be asked and debated: why the overall world culture estimulates every individual to try to degrade themselves and find that positive? Isn't that a little odd? From a logical standpoint, what's the difference between underevalution and overevaluation?

I'd guess the underlying assumption is that if you overevaluate your qualifications, you'll be more willing to make judgements and take on tasks that you aren't qualified for. If you have doubts about yourself, you'll tend to scrutinize the quality of your own work or judgement more carefully.

Zurvan
April 1st, 2019, 01:24 PM
because being humble is cute while being arrogant doesn't get you space cake

Mattias
April 1st, 2019, 04:51 PM
Has Cat Hell always been that funky? For some reason I remember it more like the Malomart theme from Twilight Princess.

Deathhappens
April 1st, 2019, 05:20 PM
I mean in the same vein I like this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunnin...3Kruger_effect (http://forums.nrvnqsr.com/forum.php?styleid=6) and think we should talk about it

but whether it deserves a thread on its own?

...Well played, Zurvan, well played.

And to answer a question from the previous page, I didn't give my thoughts on the topic at the same time as presenting it because then any subsequent replies would be in response to my thoughts on the matter rather than the unbiased thoughts of the responder. Though it seems the discussion has moved away from that, at any rate.

purple_teardrops
April 1st, 2019, 05:59 PM
...blue fairy, please make me a real person...

Maybe not. I used to care about it, but the realms of the dead and all my dear sweet ancestors have left me is enough. Common humans cry and try to hurt all the time, while in the end that's their way of connecting. I don't want to connect anymore.

Guess i'll just leave the footsteps behind a few times and become the ghost i want to become. Many tales tell us what happens to those who dare to become a living ghost in broad daylight... All that humanity has to offer are piles of violence, infinite ones. The present is so bright i gave up on shades and moved on into the night. Screw this, some humen are born posthumous. As for the others, hope Tatari is as good a bride as it promises to be, after all, it's the only polygamous marriage available where you marry something and it doesn't even have a defined body.

As said... Screw this. Blue fairy, i gave up on you.
Read this as you may.

May i become the mirror that i so enjoy, one without shape that reflects nothing. Becoming a reflection is too much of a pain.


I'd guess the underlying assumption is that if you overevaluate your qualifications, you'll be more willing to make judgements and take on tasks that you aren't qualified for. If you have doubts about yourself, you'll tend to scrutinize the quality of your own work or judgement more carefully.

I guess it suffices to do away with self-evaluation and instead scrutinize the quality of one's own work ad eternum.

RoydGolden
April 1st, 2019, 06:30 PM
This is unironically kind of disturbing. You doing alright?

purple_teardrops
April 1st, 2019, 06:58 PM
No, i'm not.

I'm still stuck in a brainwash facility, my real-world family has hurt me absurdly and keeps me locked in this place. I can't even call the cops, the place i live is notorious for corruption. Most people are not only alien to me but unable to talk about my favorite subjects, not to mention that Tatari, or the collective unconscious, plays those people like puppets against me all the time (i wish this was an exaggeration, but that thing has even spoken to me), i keep looking for help or solace and nothing happens, aside from noticing the pattern thru which all things seem to structure themselves, time and time again.

And still, i'm just a bunch of pieces that look forward to falling apart when they feel safe enough to do so... But i've longed for that for so many years that i think i'm giving up on this happening, and that i'll be forever stuck as a bunch of pieces floating apart but still in a semblance of a shape.

I'm not whole, that's 'all'. I'm just something that's void, but still, contradictorily, doesn't fall apart.

Bloble
April 1st, 2019, 07:25 PM
You ever try writing poetry? With prose that colourful you're a sure bet to get some collections published.

No that wasn't a sarcastic dig. Legit suggestion.

Historia
April 1st, 2019, 08:41 PM
well, his name is purple teardrops...

Historia
April 1st, 2019, 08:52 PM
also, noice,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6icd_NCJSA

Zurvan
April 1st, 2019, 10:20 PM
xd

purple_teardrops
April 1st, 2019, 11:42 PM
Wh40k is filled with mystical cyphers and whatnot... The number 40 itself has something to it. That song is pleasant, btw.

As for writing... Poetry and i haven't truly gotten along, although it hasn't been uncommon for my writing to feel like poetry, rhymes and all.
I want to write a book, or more than one, to tell the truth... One of them is nearly finished in my head, another one, the beginning and its ending are already completed... The middle (always the middle) is still void, though.

On the other hand, while i do have access to the internet in the drug 'rehabrainwash' facility i'm currently locked in, i don't think i should write anything here... My family sorta wants me to write. I don't want to 'reward' them with my writing until my freedom gets returned to me... Assuming it ever will, that is; i feel as though there's a huge guillotine blade hanging above my head, especially given that should those bastards want to, they'll just label me as a schizophrenic and have me locked somewhere else.

I can't lower my defenses, the moment someone feels mildy comfortable in places like this, the person may be subtly manipulated into believing in anything. I've been feeling like putting a permanent end to this life, with any luck i'll get a continue screen and a list of saved game slots.

Well, drastic and likely effective solutions aside, do you think i could somehow make money with my writing on the internet? I can't even leave this cursed place to open a bank account, after all. I've been feeling like writing for a payment for a long time, but i'm not sure that'd be wise unless i managed to get paid, perhaps enough to get a lawyer. Maybe i could somehow look for a job as a housemaid wearing a victorian uniform, though, as long as the employer doesn't mind me getting high on pot all the time and trying to learn time-travel magics.

Bloble
April 2nd, 2019, 12:15 AM
Writing on the internet can make you money, but it's difficult and not too rewarding. I considered the option myself at a time where career prospects seemed nonexistent.

Besides the route of just writing novels or short stories and selling them as ebooks on, say, Amazon, you can submit short stories and/or poems to various journals and the like that hold contests with prizes on an annual basis. Those usually cost either a small fee to enter, or are completely free. The prizes are rarely enough to live off of, though, usually a few hundred or thousand dollars, and competition is stiff to say the least. If you're not particularly attracted to creative writing there's always copywriting and the like, but I don't know enough about the field to comment.

Historia
April 2nd, 2019, 12:20 AM
read shit popular original story

write shit fan-fic

re-write shit fan-fic into shit popular original story

profit

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shit

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or spew out some dribble every other week each month on patreon after you've amassed a decent-sized following

Bloble
April 2nd, 2019, 12:23 AM
right there's that option

purple_teardrops
April 2nd, 2019, 02:10 AM
I think i'm going to try that 'route' while i try any other route possible... I must admit that the idea of becoming someone's Kohaku would probably please me the most, though... I can never seem to find a Shiki...

Hey wait a sec, Mikiya was sorta responsible for the Bomberman going half-blind... So he went half-blind in the end... Kara offers his complete eyesight back, though he refuses for reasons left unclear... Makes me wonder why...

Still... I guess i do want a Shiki to save me... And i wanna dress like his housemaid everyday, too... <3

Historia
April 2nd, 2019, 05:59 PM
rough of the re-do of the commission i was talking about,

https://i.imgur.com/cPk4SoL.jpg?1

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In that war old legends would die and new ones rise, she would lose Caliburn and be granted Excalibur in its place, then unveil her holy sword’s golden blade, its blinding light roaring across the battlefield for the first time. That war would be soon. She had to reach Vortigern before it started. Before those dark waves crashed upon her beloved Britain’s shores.

aye

Deathhappens
April 2nd, 2019, 10:44 PM
also, noice,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6icd_NCJSA

So many interesting games come out every day, so little time to play.

purple_teardrops
April 3rd, 2019, 04:00 AM
Strangely enough, i feel like connecting, but at the same time, i guess i feel like giving up. On surrendering to a complete lack of meaning, like the one mentioned on Herman Hesse's Siddhartha, when he tries to embrace asceticism...

I guess i do want to connect, in a way. I'd love to be appreciated for once, instead of merely pouring my thoughts on an editor with a black background instead of publishing them into a site, but then again... Then comes failure. I recall the Underground Man's servant, whose name i forgot... I wonder if i wouldn't just be glad to for a while, become nothing but a property of someone else, get as much as i could on mind-bending substances in order to further explore perceptions and wait for death (in the end, i guess that's all we're doing, whether on pleasant days or grief-ridden ones), or to merely dress as a maid, pour tea and serve food for other people, and watch, both in the dismay of realization of what happens and a sadistic consolation of knowing what goes on when the conceptualization of pleasure gets mixed with a walking icon of sorts, and others look for the result of such mashed and smashed-together concept soup... Focused perhaps on a single stupid icon, the walking maid...

I think i just realized that perhaps walking as an anonymous concept might be somewhat more pleasant than displaying an identity... But then again, i don't have an identity... I feel hollow, as something born without a piece of itself...

Are women cross-dressing when they wear pants?

Went thru the camho thread yesterday... Felt marvelled at the way some 'male' (i hate those definitions) bodies were clad with visual symbols of beauty... I couldn't look at the bodies, i couldn't look at the 'people'.... I could only at the vocabulary they were written with... The visual signals... Kirakishou, my beloved company (who seems to hate me, but who knows) just called me a boring person for that... I wonder if that was the one whose subconscious ( '...seems to be wanting...' more synch messages) i've been thinking of ('do you want to touch me?' 'learn this in school' 'take your meds and we'll see what we can do' [this is so Shinku and Jun when she was teaching him telepathy with german, after suggesting others to read Jung's Psychology and Alchemy]) i feel a desire to touch...

In a way, i'd like you to touch me. Or to work with you on something... I wonder what is your avatar like... Would i be the ideal maid to you, or would i simply be a hassle?

Some try to connect with a bizarre form of connection thru rejection and pain... Spider-man was saved by dr. Octopus once, given that the former was proposed as latter's raison d'etre... A comparison was just classified, i've been forbidden from giving out that hint... I wonder, should i stop trying because something feels like both an echo of the past and a self-executing pattern, which will soon replicate?

How many many times have i been rejected? How many few times have i been accepted?
Why do i feel as though there's an outright hatred for the possible reaction of the ones who hate what they see, when they realize they actually feel something similar to what i do and describe? Losh, i hate the crowd, but i comprehend the crowd... Sometimes i feel as though the crowd hates me for having been reduced to a mathematical formula... And worse, for the one who's writing this thru an avatar itself might be as empty as a mirror with no reflection... Like a Titan, Kirakishou proposed to be added... Wonder what she's talking about...

Had a run-in with an archetypical protocol of being run, executed, today... A gay man, who felt like a walking stereotype of a walking scandal... Kept being unpolite to me for weird reasons... I know how patterns arrange themselves... Maybe i should write about that some other time... Maybe i shouldn't... What archetypes rule that existence, and why...

Guess i should just consider moving these posts into a blog of sorts, and wonder if anyone would be willing to get some drawing done... Many stories have been written... 'Take me back to the land where my yearnings were born', the moment i came to fall in love with purple twilights and the moon, instead of all too furious sun...
Go back in time, and write a story that was never heard of before... All stories have been told, by now. Unless a story gets written about what's behind the very alphabet we're so used to using in our heads without realizing, unless we cut through the flesh to find the organs and bones... Nothing new will ever come... And torture hasn't been news for millenia of millenia...

Too big, but still... Would you dance with me? No, not you, some other one... I should mention that unfortunately you will be dancing with us, especially given that i don't want to let go of them anymore... I wonder if anyone would pay to watch my pen dance... And if you would like to dance with me, still... Because i wouldn't charge someone, should that someone truly touch me in a way that i actually could finally crumble down...

But then again, physics, Kirakishou proposed... Humans will always hint that touch to abandon someone to walk away with the glory... Ara ara... No fantasies come true... At least i have the never-ending company of ghosts...

- Ďr

Historia
April 3rd, 2019, 01:47 PM
this finished sketch is why i like artists who actively work with me,


https://i.imgur.com/KujeHNM.jpg?1

purple_teardrops
April 3rd, 2019, 08:02 PM
I've made a choice. Soon it might come to a 'Code 46'-like ending. You know, the movie where a girl ends up in a desert.
I think i want this to be my ending... Because this is what real life feels like. I've been outcast, and like it or not, this is a jail. I'd like Atreyu to name me, but i guess this won't happen because there are no Atreyus for this princess, no Atreides' for this Irulan, no Eves for this Adam, nor serpents. Just the real world.

With luck, i will soon have to leave all this online world behind and have a taste of what the streets feel like. That'll be better than to live this empty life of jails and family rejection, and waiting for someone willing to die for me to become real... No more pretty images of flashy swordfights, perhaps if Tohsaka or Akiha had ever tasted what not having a single person, nor a piece of the societal structure provided by money around them (after all, let's face it, they were never abandoned by the financial system) they'd have an entirely different take on life.

All my knowledge of humanity will likely go to the grave with me. Perhaps i'm glad, and so are the authors, i was afraid that was i ever to write an essay on the ending of the 3rd season of Rozen Maiden, no more Rozen Maidens would show up. Perhaps i'll soon face that agape of the 300. Perhaps not.

Don't even know why i'm writing this. Perhaps i'm hoping i'm flirting with someone, though who am i kidding? I'm just hoping for a salvation that'd stand for no less than a miracle... And would you dare to exchange all of the world's pretty images, castles and fantasies for hours of talking and weeping in each others' laps? Would the world be interesting was it to become meaninless and we were all that truly mattered?

Dunno. Poetry is fine, until we're faced with the harshness of reality. In a way, i just want to die... Whether i'm referring to dying and being reborn in the same body, beginning something truly new, or dying and waiting for rebirth, leaving only the remnants of what this life meant in the collective storage space that the world has always been, i guess it's still unknown. And yes, this might be that moment when fantasy dies and all that's left is what's real. 'Sinners sin, come out and play'.

The clock is ticking, i've made a choice and i hope my choice dooms me to face a metaphorical hell. I'm not giving up on giving up anymore. We cling on to anything when we face a true ending... When we grow tired of waiting, we let go and just hope for the end to come soon.
Should the fantasy be too bitter to abandon, and should this not be my fantasy, try creating something about Devadatta's redemption, if you will, someday...

Somebody whispered in my ear that this was something for birthday... Hmmm... I wonder why... Oboro-Zuki. 'Listen to Pale moon during the day'... 'If you need it, we'll be around'...
At least there'll always be ghosts around me. Signing off...

- Ďr

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Would this get that mystical updated sign? Probably not.

To sum things up, i guess that in a way i dreamt of, whether thru a lover or a parental figure, to face the same ending that Tsukasa from .hack//SIGN was lucky enough to get, as Bear decided to save the boy who was a girl from a horrible ending. Morganna Mode Gone is as real as it gets, and i sorta love all that mysticism. Oh well, no fantasies on this side of reality, in the end... The fantasies stay behind the screen, and this isn't P4 for me to jump inside the TV, nor that cruel world depicted in the game manages to become the fairy tale it turned into as Kuma/Alice shows up, nor this turns into P5, nor i get a true Persona or a ticket to Mementos. I only get to be haunted by the Grail. Too bad, i guess...

Bloble
April 3rd, 2019, 09:12 PM
I tried watching .hack once and couldnt get into it, does it get better later or stay slow throughout?

mAc Chaos
April 3rd, 2019, 09:28 PM
It's always slow but it's once of those series that grows on you.

Dullahan
April 4th, 2019, 08:19 AM
was it .hack//SIGN you watched? because there are tectonic plates which move faster than SIGN

Criarino
April 4th, 2019, 09:56 AM
was it .hack//SIGN you watched? because there are tectonic plates which move faster than SIGN
Exactly. I spent a year's worth of patience watching SIGN. And that ending was awful

Historia
April 4th, 2019, 02:38 PM
slowest anime

go

Zurvan
April 4th, 2019, 02:39 PM
my life

Skull
April 4th, 2019, 02:40 PM
Endless Eight.

purple_teardrops
April 4th, 2019, 02:46 PM
Yup, it was //SIGN. I never thought of it as slow, but then again, i might be a slow person myself. The scene where Mimiru makes Tsukasa a promise is wonderful, and the scene where Bear talks to B.T. (best character name ever) while lying down on her lap is heartbreaking. Guess it shall be one of my favorite series for a long time... Too bad the characters from that series, Mimiru especially, are just fiction...

I once thought we were intrinsically valuable. Then i found out that our values fluctuate, as though we're all part of a social stock market...

No wonder i liked that series. Nearly all characters are ideal people... Strange... Somebody's just said 'teardrops, i love you'... I wonder why Kirakishou whispered that in my ear...

As for its ending, there are two of them. The first one is marvellous, though i never understood what was meant with the lovers never managing to reach out to each other. The SP ending is horrible and i'm not even sure if it's canon; too much of a happy ending.

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Endless eight made me feel like killing the producers.

Mattias
April 4th, 2019, 08:48 PM
slowest anime

go

Are we talking intentiaonally or not?

Because Flying Witch was really fucking slow, but that the point of it.

purple_teardrops
April 5th, 2019, 01:27 AM
Haibane Renmei could be defined as 'slow' on your terms, i believe. I'm a lot like Rekka. I think i should change my name to Rekka, sometimes, in fact.

Things have been going too slow for me as of late, but what can i do...

purple_teardrops
April 5th, 2019, 02:55 AM
What a joke... Like a 'i've seen the fnords' moment in a given classic piece where a group seems to like eris a bit too much, i think i'm just realizing something. I think i'm having plenty of trouble with alaya playing around with coincidences to screw my life. Alaya the whore (puck off you piece of sith, i'm tired of minding your threats of vengeance) doesn't seem to want humanity to grow, and worst, seems to be having a bit of problem realizing that it's time to let humanity outgrow its 'help'.

I can't say i have an ounce of respect for alaya anymore. Just a junky garbage that performs it's interventions in mankind according to its own egoistical desires, and still, fails to get anything done right. ...alaya (sic) is worth of no respect. I'm glad i have and still bear my contracts with forces older than that twerpish furless freak which considers itself oh so graaand saviour of its species, while all it does is truly eff-up the entire species and at most manage to keep its growth in check. Disgusting existence.

Yeah, yeah, i think i'm too dumb, but in the end, i think the counter-force and i hate each other, and at most, i somehow have a connection with the very counter-forces shadow, something brighter than the darkness it proposes. Dumb are those who firm contracts in exchange of power... The ends shall never justify the means. It's better to die living a decent life than to sell one's soul in attempts to save humanity... Besides, where i truly stand in, and where all already stand, time's over... I dunno why i'm going thru time again, but time has been over and i know i'm there, beyond time... I'm not making a contract with time. It sucks (and sith it knows whether metaphorically, literally or both), above all else.

So yeah, it seems that i'm having trouble, and worse, the bloody counter-force is real. ¬__¬ˇ

Think i'm writing and publishing a treatise on what i've known and seen about that bloody tritch as my own attempt of vengeance against such unworthy being. Losh, if being in touch with alaya is what keeps the species together, than either we transcend alaya somehow, or make it realize that alaya itself has become the grandest threat of existence to humankind... Alaya should commit suicide, ironically, for that'd be in the species best interests.

Sup alaya, all the sisters have realized you're a bloody coward, but can you put your dagger where your mouth is? 'Cuz it's quite apparent you love throwing the meaning of words in the garbage.

As for me, i'm getting tired. Think i'm the one who'll end up killing oneself sooner or later. And i'm not sure it's a bad idea at all... 'Your hollow lives, this world in which we live, i hurl it back'...

Criarino
April 5th, 2019, 11:10 AM
Man you really like your long texts

Walnut Sparks
April 5th, 2019, 11:25 AM
Every time this Naked Science narrator refers to plesiosaurs as dinosaurs, I want to hit him. Jesus Christ man, it's the 21st century and you're narrating a show that has the audacity to include the word "science" in its title.

Historia
April 5th, 2019, 12:27 PM
naked science

science for nudists?

Walnut Sparks
April 5th, 2019, 12:57 PM
For better or worse, no. Just an attempt at an attention-grabbing title.

SpoonyViking
April 5th, 2019, 01:14 PM
Every time this Naked Science narrator refers to plesiosaurs as dinosaurs, I want to hit him.

Don't hit me, but... They aren't dinosaurs?

Zurvan
April 5th, 2019, 01:28 PM
nope!

I faintly remember hearing that a few years ago in some late night listening to a guy talk of pre-historic species and their representation in children's toys

surprisingly good channel now that I think back on it

Walnut Sparks
April 5th, 2019, 07:48 PM
Don't hit me, but... They aren't dinosaurs?

Trying not to go full dino geek here. Let's put it this way: Crocodiles are far more closely-related to dinosaurs than plesiosaurs were, and nobody calls crocodiles dinosaurs.

mAc Chaos
April 5th, 2019, 08:37 PM
are birds dinosaurs

Zurvan
April 5th, 2019, 08:41 PM
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Origin_of_birds

are they dinosaurs, no
are they related, yes

Mattias
April 5th, 2019, 08:52 PM
Just finished going through almost 7 years of a bi-monthly podcast. It took almost 3 weeks. Now knowing my luck, it will end in two months when the 7 year anniversary comes around.

Walnut Sparks
April 5th, 2019, 09:47 PM
are birds dinosaurs

Phylogenetically, yes, just like humans are apes. Phylogenetically, humans are also fish. And so are dinosaurs.

Historia
April 5th, 2019, 10:17 PM
basic color layouts,

https://i.imgur.com/dczLW37.jpg?1

SpoonyViking
April 6th, 2019, 01:38 AM
nope!


Trying not to go full dino geek here. Let's put it this way: Crocodiles are far more closely-related to dinosaurs than plesiosaurs were, and nobody calls crocodiles dinosaurs.

Huh. Cool!
Is this a new development, or just something which never filtered to popular culture?

Zurvan
April 6th, 2019, 01:57 AM
The latter mostly

Historia
April 6th, 2019, 02:00 AM
one of those things the obnoxious kid says that the teacher didn't know 'cause they're a twat

Zurvan
April 6th, 2019, 02:02 AM
The visual image in toys and various movies (looking at you Jurassic Park) cements a certain image, and its easy enough to mistake them as dinosaurs considering they're close enough phylogenetically

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one of those things the obnoxious kid says that the teacher didn't know 'cause they're a twat

at that age you really are a special kid if you actually care about phylogeny

so instead if a kid knows it, he/she's just trying to flex dem big brainz

kids man

Historia
April 6th, 2019, 02:10 AM
and in other words


at that age you really are a special kid if you actually care about phylogeny

so instead if a kid knows it, he/she's just trying to flex dem big brainz

kids man

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Zurvan
April 6th, 2019, 02:10 AM
probably the same punchable kid that yells any answer they knew through the classroom instead of raising your hand like a normal person
or the punchable teacher that answers: "Can I piss now" with "I dunno can you har-har"

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in other news the ocean freaks me out but space doesnt

same except it makes no rational sense now that I think about it

Historia
April 6th, 2019, 02:24 AM
something worse than xenomorphs?

space piranhas.

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also band-maid should do some work with TM


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCaeUkrItyY

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band-maid and minami for tsukihime remake when

Zurvan
April 7th, 2019, 09:00 PM
After watching Avatar the Last Airbender again (fuck that show is worth the rewatch) I need a new good show

gimme ideas thread

SpoonyViking
April 7th, 2019, 09:39 PM
Hmmm... More cartoons, or can it also be live action shows?

Zurvan
April 7th, 2019, 10:04 PM
it can be anything

Five_X
April 7th, 2019, 10:37 PM
After watching Avatar the Last Airbender again (fuck that show is worth the rewatch) I need a new good show

gimme ideas thread

legend of korra

Zurvan
April 7th, 2019, 10:38 PM
no

Mattias
April 7th, 2019, 10:40 PM
Slayers

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 12:23 AM
no

Why not?

Let's see, the new Ducktales, the new She-Ra, The Good Place, Doctor Who, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure... Uh, I guess that's it? I've heard good things about Wynonna Earp, but I haven't seen it yet.

Laserman
April 8th, 2019, 01:13 AM
Why not?

Because Legend of Korra isn't as good as the original Avatar. At least that's what people told me when I asked.

I'm happy Aang got a giant statue though, he deserved it.

purple_teardrops
April 8th, 2019, 03:24 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAx-Fqi_zrw

Aironi mucchyo? Can't talk, all this conversation is suffocating me.

'Wants to mistreat me', 'wants to look smart', 'i'm saving your life', 'still haven't done this to this one', 'lies all the time with no need for doing so', 'has been on the forum for mere two weeks'...
When i think of Kirakishou having a contract with me, i can't help but wonder whose thoughts are these...

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 08:43 AM
Because Legend of Korra isn't as good as the original Avatar. At least that's what people told me when I asked.

I'd recommend you watch it. It's very uneven in quality, but overall, I like it better than the original - even its bad episodes aren't as bad as some of Avatar's stinkers, like The Great Divide or that one episode where Aang is judged for Kiyoshi's crime, for example.
Basically:
- it has a really good first season with a very weak ending (the writers didn't know if they were going to get new seasons, so they wrapped everything up too neatly), and there's a plot twist which kind of defangs a lot of the season's overarching conflict.
- Season 2 starts out really badly, and never quite recovers from it, but the final episodes are awesomely crazy. It also has some lore revelations regarding bending which are somewhat difficult to reconcile with the original series, and what's worst is that the show itself never tries to do so.
- Season 3 is really, really good. This one is heads and shoulders above even the best Avatar episodes.
- Season 4 is alright. It's not bad, but after season 3, it just feels bland. It does have a strong finish.

Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 08:44 AM
Why not?


Because Legend of Korra isn't as good as the original Avatar. At least that's what people told me when I asked.

I'm happy Aang got a giant statue though, he deserved it.

Compared to the original group, Korra and her friends are far less fun to watch, and honestly Korra isn't a good person, nor does she really change throughout the story.
The villains either start interesting, and then end up being terrible, or are terrible from start to finish.
It handles its characters and the previous show and its characters rather strangely, Tenzin (Aang's son) is wasted for most of the show, only really having some significance when the airbenders return because, well, spirit magic xd.
Aang, the previous avatar and an air prodigy, mastered air bending when he was twelve. Korra... controls all but air when she's first shown... as a 4 year old...
Even the setting feels weird since its hardly used for anything regarding the story. The statue is weird, it feels like fan service, and Aang isn't really the type to let a statue be constructed.
You know who had giant statues made of himself, the Firelord, the original series antagonist

I could go on about this for far longer than I'd like, but I won't, the second series feels very inferior, and the original series is better if you don't watch it, imo

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 08:45 AM
Let's see, the new Ducktales, the new She-Ra, The Good Place, Doctor Who, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure... Uh, I guess that's it? I've heard good things about Wynonna Earp, but I haven't seen it yet.

Oh, and Zurvan, if you have Prime Video or similar, I've been rewatching Monk, and it's just as good now as it used to be.

Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 08:55 AM
I'd recommend you watch it. It's very uneven in quality, but overall, I like it better than the original - even its bad episodes aren't as bad as some of Avatar's stinkers, like The Great Divide or that one episode where Aang is judged for Kiyoshi's crime, for example.
Basically:
- it has a really good first season with a very weak ending (the writers didn't know if they were going to get new seasons, so they wrapped everything up too neatly), and there's a plot twist which kind of defangs a lot of the season's overarching conflict.
- Season 2 starts out really badly, and never quite recovers from it, but the final episodes are awesomely crazy. It also has some lore revelations regarding bending which are somewhat difficult to reconcile with the original series, and what's worst is that the show itself never tries to do so.
- Season 3 is really, really good. This one is heads and shoulders above even the best Avatar episodes.
- Season 4 is alright. It's not bad, but after season 3, it just feels bland. It does have a strong finish.

Oh I've watched it

The first season's antagonist start out really interesting, especially after seeing a world at war with the fire nation
but then, they reveal that he's (fuck you previous series I want to have hax) basically a force user a la star wars. It's really, really dumb

Season 2 starts out dumb, stays dumb, has the Wan episodes which I'll admit aren't terrible (but don't make sense if you keep the previous show in mind) and the final battle is... sigh... fighting a dArK AvAtArrrrr, yeah.......

Season 3 I'll admit I enjoyed, mainly because the antagonists are actually good and the characters are doing stuff thats either cool, is fun or is just good character moments. It has its flaws, but its vastly superior over the previous seasons

Season 4's antagonist is dumb, Korra needed to be weakened for her to be relevant, and the laser mech nonsense is so far removed from what avatar starts out as that it actively hurts to watch. Toph is great tho, that and the ending is about it for whats good there

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Oh, and Zurvan, if you have Prime Video or similar, I've been rewatching Monk, and it's just as good now as it used to be.

I don't have that, but I can try and check up on that

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 09:00 AM
Aang, the previous avatar and an air prodigy, mastered air bending when he was twelve. Korra... controls all but air when she's first shown... as a 4 year old...

Justifiable, really. Aang also picked up new forms of bending really quickly (remember that episode where Katara feels jealous about how quickly he surpassed her in waterbending? The one with the pirates?) - actually, all the avatars did -, and Korra's bending is focused entirely on the physical side of things. Even in the series opener some of the White Lotus elders say she hasn't really mastered the elements, it's only because of Katara she can go to Republic City to continue her training.


Even the setting feels weird since its hardly used for anything regarding the story. The statue is weird, it feels like fan service, and Aang isn't really the type to let a statue be constructed.
You know who had giant statues made of himself, the Firelord, the original series antagonist

Wasn't the statue built after his death?

Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 09:10 AM
The previous show has both Aang and Roku shown that they were found to be the avatar through a system of picking toys (which is kinda adorable), and they're revealed to be the avatar around their teenage years, after which they traveled the world and studied the elements and the people living in those nations

Now a 4y old can bend 3 elements, on the south pole, with lots of earth around I guess...? But instead of previous rules, here's a 4y old who can bend 3 elements ez pz. "Deal with it" -Korra

Then there's the whole point about how she's incapable of air bending because her lack of spirituality, which is good, I like
so, how does she unlock it? After Amon blocked her other elements (thats another weird point but whatever) and her boyfriend is in danger... nothing spiritual happens

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Wasn't the statue built after his death?

i don't remember, but regardless it doesn't feel as something Aang would've wanted, so it just feels weird

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 09:10 AM
The first season's antagonist start out really interesting, especially after seeing a world at war with the fire nation
but then, they reveal that he's (fuck you previous series I want to have hax) basically a force user a la star wars. It's really, really dumb

Yeah, it kind of cheapens the season's conflict, since

instead of the protagonists being forced to consider whether the system is inherently broken, it's now either just a bender manipulating the populace's feelings of genuine unrest for his own power, or him genuinely sharing those feelings, but with the systemic issues being reduced to a personal crusade. It's like one of those feel-good movies where racism is over because a white guy learns to like jazz and fried chicken or something.


Season 2 starts out dumb, stays dumb, has the Wan episodes which I'll admit aren't terrible (but don't make sense if you keep the previous show in mind) and the final battle is... sigh... fighting a dArK AvAtArrrrr, yeah.......

Not a fan of the kaiju battles, I take it? :-P


Season 4's antagonist is dumb, Korra needed to be weakened for her to be relevant, and the laser mech nonsense is so far removed from what avatar starts out as that it actively hurts to watch. Toph is great tho, that and the ending is about it for whats good there

Eh, I was never that much a fan of Toph. But yeah, the season's villain worked better thematically than in actual execution. But is the mecha really that much of a stretch, considering we already had anachronistic technology in the original series and the setting undergoing some rapid technological changes from one series to the other?

Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 09:12 AM
White Lotus elders

From elder masters and good characters to beatable nobodies... how the mighty have fallen

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 09:17 AM
From elder masters and good characters to beatable nobodies... how the mighty have fallen

Yeah, they didn't really add anything to the new series. But hey, gotta serve the fans, right? They're much like Iroh (Zuko's grandson) in that regard.

Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 09:20 AM
But is the mecha really that much of a stretch, considering we already had anachronistic technology in the original series and the setting undergoing some rapid technological changes from one series to the other?

It shoots a spirit energy beam Spoony..., as opposed to the technological advancements of the fire nation, noted to have an era of peace and technological advancement prior to starting the war (this was part of why sozin started the war), noted to be a people of ambition and the people that have the power of fire in possession.

I'd be less bothered about the kaiju battle of season 2 if it wasnt "The Dark Avatar" (only possible because of the weirdness of raava and vaatu)

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But hey, gotta serve the fans, right?

This is unironically a lot of korra tbh

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Eh, I was never that much a fan of Toph.

Fair enough, i do like Toph, so its probably bias on my part. Tho the part I really liked about that is the "some friendships last beyond one lifetime". That part just gets to me

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 09:30 AM
It shoots a spirit energy beam Spoony..., [...]

Yeah, but the world was changed when the spirit portals were kept open, and we had been hearing about Varrick looking into harvesting spirit energy since season... 3? 2? Can't remember, but before the villain ever weaponised it. It doesn't feel like a stretch to me.


This is unironically a lot of korra tbh

Agreed. Like with Toph; it's not that I dislike her, but I never felt we really needed her there to meet Korra - the whole thing with Korra's poisoning was stretched out much further than it should have in the first place. (Although I agree, that was a very good line.) There are others examples, like the character who appears in the spirit world in season 2, but basically, I do wish the writers hadn't wanted (or felt the need) to rely so much on the original for fanservice.

Historia
April 8th, 2019, 01:49 PM
toph still being alive was too yoda for me in korra

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they should've setup one of the season villains as the overall antagonist from the start, like whatshisface steve blum guy, instead of having a new one each season. or do what they did in season 3-4 with kuvira but way earlier.

Historia
April 8th, 2019, 02:32 PM
not having korra go on a traditional avatar journey of mastering the 4 elements and instead setting her up as living a sheltered life having mastered 3 of 4 elements with only the one she couldn't connect to was a fine plot, it was different, i really liked it, it could've worked really well--if they that as the overarching plot in all 4 seasons. like, she only truly learns what is and what it means to become "the avatar" near the end of the final season until after she masters this 4th element, gradually, after being beaten time and again trying to rely on her use of the martial prowess with the other 3. show her getting confined to a wheelchair earlier, coupled with losing her bending powers, the severing of the spiritual connection she shared with her past lives, all of it, in seasons 1-3 and have her recovery that was all but completely skipped over between seasons 3-4 as the season 4.

a video i watched talked about a scene where one of the new airbenders is freaking out atop a bridge not letting anyone get close and korra simply flys up there, nonchalantly sits with him, and talks him down like they're just having a normal, everyday conversation and not something live or death--this scene or something akin to it should be the final culmination of korra's character, putting aside her more brash tenancies in solving her problems with something more diplomatic, something non-korra-like while still preserving the "spirit" of her character.

I guess you say her avatar journey should be a total reverse of aang's avatar journey in the original. that's the legend of korra i wanted to watch.

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Zurvan
April 8th, 2019, 02:35 PM
it might've been better at least

what we have now isn't bad, but it pales in comparison to what we've gotten

alas, that's not unusual for a sequel, just one of those things

SpoonyViking
April 8th, 2019, 02:47 PM
Personally, I maintain it's a better show than the original, just not as relatively groundbreaking.

Saiga
April 8th, 2019, 08:50 PM
I prefer Korra over Aang by an incredibly large margin. He is such an unlikeable dickcheese and a pretty good example of why child protagonists are usually awful.LoK was a very flawed show and it definitely have some underwhelming parts, but I think the third and fourth seasons were really good and quite gripping. Even the less popular seasons 1-2 were enjoyable to me, though I think season 2 bungled the theme it was going for.

Korra having 3 elements at age 4 is whatever to me - she's only using them at that stage. It takes her until 16 years old until she could be considered a master of those three, and even so she's lacking in the spiritual side. Aang may have taken longer to be exposed to the elements, but he was a master of air at 12, and picked up the other elements ridiculously quickly in comparison.

purple_teardrops
April 9th, 2019, 03:14 PM
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Watched some sad hentai today... It was sad because it was empty, bare... Rough were its textures, crude was its depiction of what two people together felt like...
I'd wish the one i wished i was flirting with could understand that...

I'm old... It seems that in my reincarnation i'll remember all of this as a child, likely androgynous for life like the prson i'm today... I'll just say that being empty feels like, perhaps, it might be true... Wonder if i'll one day share something, like my emptiness, with someone else...

The female version of mars, dominant today, for some reason seens to enjoy, say, too much the idea of turning males into beasts of war, crazy for action, crazy for aggression, crazy for fighting... But we're not repitles, no human survives alone... Martia (lol [would Marcia sound better?]) seems to instruct her followers to leave children crying alone in their cradles, as though to somehow get conditioned to turn into a beast...

But i'll take another route... As i wonder...
Would you lie down on the grass with me, not with any intention or function or palace in execution, but simply... Being?

Oh, i so wish our meeting could become true...

Deathhappens
April 9th, 2019, 03:41 PM
Mood: Tired, moderately hurt, victorious

I wish the events of Ben-To were real; not because I want to engage in no-holds barred fisticuffs but because delicious food available at bargain prices at a convenient supermarket would be a dream come true.

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Watched some sad hentai today... It was sad because it was empty, bare... Rough were its textures, crude was its depiction of what two people together felt like...
I'd wish the one i wished i was flirting with could understand that...

I'm old... It seems that in my reincarnation i'll remember all of this as a child, likely androgynous for life like the prson i'm today... I'll just say that being empty feels like, perhaps, it might be true... Wonder if i'll one day share something, like my emptiness, with someone else...

The female version of mars, dominant today, for some reason seens to enjoy, say, too much the idea of turning males into beasts of war, crazy for action, crazy for aggression, crazy for fighting... But we're not repitles, no human survives alone... Martia (lol [would Marcia sound better?]) seems to instruct her followers to leave children crying alone in their cradles, as though to somehow get conditioned to turn into a beast...

But i'll take another route... As i wonder...
Would you lie down on the grass with me, not with any intention or function or palace in execution, but simply... Being?

Oh, i so wish our meeting could become true...

Depending on the tale, Venus could be a very unkind goddess. Turning men (and women) into beasts was very much up her alley, so to speak.

Nikiri
April 9th, 2019, 03:42 PM
kakero puraidoooo shinu made oooookami
make inu ni naru tsumori ha naiiiii

ben-to was fun

Deathhappens
April 9th, 2019, 03:48 PM
Asu wa supaisu
kizuato kagayaku

Yup,so it was. Wish we got a season 2, but I just know it wouldn't be as good.

Nikiri
April 9th, 2019, 03:55 PM
there is 15 volumes total, and the anime covered just first 3

it still would be good

Historia
April 9th, 2019, 08:22 PM
more 40k mechanicus, 'cause its great,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2irTbS_uinw

purple_teardrops
April 10th, 2019, 03:30 AM
It's late. I tried that futuresight, presentience trick... I think i saw myself as an upcoming reincarnation. Could have been a mere imagination, but maybe not. The thing that mostly impressed me is that my parents seemd aware of just how ripped apart i was... They seemed willing to love me, which is completely opposite from what's happening today. Truth be told, i think i can't live anymore, because i've never been loved by anyone, nor i've had a reason to live aside from searching for a reason to live. I think that given all the horrible things i've seen, the chances of putting an end to it all increase daily, because there are no more reasons to live in this jungle, and nobody is truly interested in watching my back and saving me.

Futures change, indeed, but i'm tired of living in wait for salvation. Every day of wait feels more like another degree of 'confirmed stupidity' gets assigned to me. Sure, the world of ares wants to say that only thru fighting one may achieve one's goals, but if fighting is as horrible as it looks, i don't think there's any possible happiness for me.

I'd better just quit this. Even Jesus' crucification sounds better than what seems to be a future of never-ending imprisoment, at least the guy died and got spared deliverance... Why is deliverance bad, you ask? Simple, deliverance is a joke... Prometheus, after getting imprisoned in the mountain to have his liver constantly eaten was getting De-Liver-ed, i guess...

...i'm tired of getting delivered...

Historia
April 10th, 2019, 03:52 AM
the cover art is done,

https://i.imgur.com/V5OPM9L.jpg?1

SpoonyViking
April 10th, 2019, 04:50 AM
Holy crap, that's awesome.

Historia
April 10th, 2019, 08:41 AM
also this song is as they say, an absolute "banger",


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVuydzqDAxU

Mattias
April 10th, 2019, 10:56 AM
So not to put a damper on that metal as fuck coverart, but why does Lion King have Excalibur?

Deathhappens
April 10th, 2019, 01:30 PM
This is Fate, so "why not"?

Zurvan
April 10th, 2019, 02:44 PM
its a fanfic, who cares

purple_teardrops
April 10th, 2019, 02:49 PM
'You're not the one I was waiting', 'Waiting for this to happen','seems to have been beaten up here'

I want you to be my servant... Presuming I can be your servant as well.
I want to be your master... Presuming you can be my master as well.

I can't take unequal relationships. Relationships based on the differences of status are too illogical. Think that servant Bhakunin or Malatesta, or Shulgin, would be interesting, though.

Nikiri
April 10th, 2019, 02:54 PM
Ban late lectures

Historia
April 10th, 2019, 08:41 PM
So not to put a damper on that metal as fuck coverart, but why does Lion King have Excalibur?

The story is set immediately after the Camelot singularity ends. The Lion King is pierced by Bedivere's arm, which is Excalibur, and it turns into the actual sword upon regaining her memories.


There is no reason to let those who have defied the king to go free.I have the holy sword in my hand.
You can hardly say that you have defeated me when I have yet to swing this even once.

The story from there is her attempting to "reclaim her good name that was taken" and she ends up using her power to travel back in time to her time as King Arthur having come to the same conclusion that she shouldn't have been king like her original self and seeks to change her fate, as it were. Only, things are different, she's not King Arthur, she's someone else, someone who never existed in her timeline, Merlin is a woman, there are events like Yuenu as a wandering white lion, a lost singularity-slipping Musashi, a friendly beastie hunt between Scathach and Arawn, the two Guineveres, etc. The overarching plot is the Lion King facing her three "greatest threats" to changing her and Camelot's fate--these being Vortigern, Morgana, and herself--in that order to where she then becomes the one to face King Arthur at Camlann instead of Mordred.

Also, because,


This is Fate, so "why not"?


its a fanfic, who cares

Though, I do like putting lots of care into what I write.

Zurvan
April 10th, 2019, 08:46 PM
It's fine to put care in your work, if anything it's what you should strive to do

but if I were you, I wouldn't worry about 'canon'

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it sounds like an enjoyable read tho

Historia
April 10th, 2019, 09:08 PM
It's fine to put care in your work, if anything it's what you should strive to do

but if I were you, I wouldn't worry about 'canon'

Talking to the wrong person about that.

Zurvan
April 10th, 2019, 09:46 PM
I know

purple_teardrops
April 11th, 2019, 04:38 PM
So much buried, much like in that movie... Why do the children die as the world that was promised to them crumbles to dust? Will something be left of me?
The promise of that winterland blonde boy, living his bitter childhood as he looks back at me as i look at him... I wonder...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Q14R0oSTNI

Historia
April 11th, 2019, 06:27 PM
oh hey look, another movie added to the backlog,

and,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ce6WcfdvTc4

Zurvan
April 11th, 2019, 06:38 PM
I want a new avatar

Historia
April 11th, 2019, 06:47 PM
I want a new avatar

sparky sparky boom man

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also


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuC1XHaMA2g

Historia
April 14th, 2019, 04:00 AM
Decided to have some of the Servants sheets I did commissioned. I'm definitely doing Celtchar and Yuenu. Other than a few more illustrations for the AoT stuff, I'll be done with commissions for a good while.

Deathhappens
April 14th, 2019, 03:57 PM
Mindless Self-Indulgence


https://youtu.be/UR0UkTiKxmc

purple_teardrops
April 14th, 2019, 04:27 PM
In case a given bird reads this, you have e-mail.

Favorite song, i guess...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlfXrR2kfYw

A few minutes ago, i looked a picture of a person i once loved... Kirakishou seems to hate me and know me from those days, who would have said... Funny, now that i think about that, i used to follow the gut feeling a certain ghost of sorts handed me... Dunno why it hates me so much right now... I remember the nephandi tale of the opening of Mage the Ascension... Maybe i somehow had a similar fate... I never saw my own avatar...

I keep waiting for a solution of my situation, and i keep somehow turning into something different... But i guess i'm not in the mood to talk too much right now. Probably due to excess coffee. I keep waiting for princi to show up, and i think this life is about to be cut out into an ending, no matter what that ending becomes...

I hope for a good ending, but honestly, any ending will do. Whether it'll end or i'll put an end to it by putting an end to myself, well, that remains to be seen...

mAc Chaos
April 14th, 2019, 05:29 PM
ora ora

Deathhappens
April 14th, 2019, 11:01 PM
In case a given bird reads this, you have e-mail.

Favorite song, i guess...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlfXrR2kfYw

A few minutes ago, i looked a picture of a person i once loved... Kirakishou seems to hate me and know me from those days, who would have said... Funny, now that i think about that, i used to follow the gut feeling a certain ghost of sorts handed me... Dunno why it hates me so much right now... I remember the nephandi tale of the opening of Mage the Ascension... Maybe i somehow had a similar fate... I never saw my own avatar...

I keep waiting for a solution of my situation, and i keep somehow turning into something different... But i guess i'm not in the mood to talk too much right now. Probably due to excess coffee. I keep waiting for princi to show up, and i think this life is about to be cut out into an ending, no matter what that ending becomes...

I hope for a good ending, but honestly, any ending will do. Whether it'll end or i'll put an end to it by putting an end to myself, well, that remains to be seen...

No matter the question, suicide is never the right answer. Never. ​Don't even consider it an option.

purple_teardrops
April 15th, 2019, 02:41 AM
No matter the question, suicide is never the right answer.

To tell you the truth, i feel like debating your statement, but i'm not sure the forum's rules allow it. A given moderator's current avatar with a tambourine do feel like a subtle hint. I guess it should be confirmed whether it'll result in a ban before the debate takes place, or at least such debate should take place in some neutral ground where the rules don't forbit such talks.

By the way, considering your nickname, this conversation theme does feel funny.

Historia
April 15th, 2019, 03:28 AM
drool

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-ZHA9NiHnI

purple_teardrops
April 15th, 2019, 05:04 AM
Perhaps... But then again, how far are we both willing to go?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2BFILIwp0Q

Deathhappens
April 15th, 2019, 06:32 PM
To tell you the truth, i feel like debating your statement, but i'm not sure the forum's rules allow it. A given moderator's current avatar with a tambourine do feel like a subtle hint. I guess it should be confirmed whether it'll result in a ban before the debate takes place, or at least such debate should take place in some neutral ground where the rules don't forbit such talks.

By the way, considering your nickname, this conversation theme does feel funny.

While never the one to turn down a chance for a debate, I am quite irrationally immovable on the subject; Suicide might solve someone else's problems, but not for the suicide themselves. Not an escape, but a denial of there ever being an escape. We may not know what Comes After, but what we do know is that nobody has ever come back to tell us. Best, then, to treat this as your only shot rather than hope for a do-over.

As for the name, well, you could interpret it as a lackadaisically philosophical observation of the transience of life... or just something a teenager came up with that somehow stuck.

Zurvan
April 15th, 2019, 06:53 PM
yo you better talk about this

its rt no one cares

also this is a n unironic interesting topic

I'm not kidding, discuss

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mac ora'd my VM wall hours ago, him ora'ing doesn't mean you'll get into trouble

this is a special zurv guarantee, you'll be safe from harm, from me that is

purple_teardrops
April 15th, 2019, 07:27 PM
While never the one to turn down a chance for a debate, I am quite irrationally immovable on the subject; Suicide might solve someone else's problems, but not for the suicide themselves. Not an escape, but a denial of there ever being an escape. We may not know what Comes After, but what we do know is that nobody has ever come back to tell us. Best, then, to treat this as your only shot rather than hope for a do-over.

As for the name, well, you could interpret it as a lackadaisically philosophical observation of the transience of life... or just something a teenager came up with that somehow stuck.

The thing is that all that's happening points to a situation with no resolutions in sight: although i have made some progress in trying to get in contact with people willing to try to get me out of the brainwash facility i'm currently locked in, i'm still locked in here, and in case those people fail to get me out, i don't think anybody intends to get me out. This essentially means an unknown length of time in this private-owned jail, with no lawyers, in case the people i know fail to somehow set me free.

I've been trying to keep myself isolated and alone, mostly because most people are abusive, here. The kindest person is a rather sad narcissist, who seems to try to 'pleasantly' manipulate me to one's own goals, ironically because, i presume, one feels how sweet i am. Still, the only reasons i have for living resumes itself to my wait for freedom... The fact is, though, that i doubt that i'll be set free in less than one year, not to mention that the local staff will probably try to get me legally branded as insane, in order for somebody to get one's hands on my cash.

This isn't life.

I've decided to simply end it all, should my hopes implode. I've been suffering a lot as of late, and the only reason i'm still able to wake up is that a few people decided to help me... Wasn't it so, i would have killed myself a long time ago.

Life's lost its meaning. And besides, given that i do remember some of my past lives, i'm not truly concerned that my existence will end. I just want to stop suffering, and perhaps be able to lie down on a gentle person's lap, with a huge pot cigarette in hand. I have one chance of being saved...
Should it fail, well... Death is always an alternative. Better to die than to rot is this disgusting private-owned jail and brainwash facility...

Should we approach my current favorite subject of archetypes, i remember when i used to melt away when thinking about actually finally crumbling down under the care of someone else... I simply don't dream about that anymore, although i know that's what a i want behind the scar tissue... Funny, i can't even believe in love, anymore, in a way....

Guess my dreams were shattered. No reason to continue dreaming this world..

Deathhappens
April 16th, 2019, 12:39 AM
The thing is that all that's happening points to a situation with no resolutions in sight: although i have made some progress in trying to get in contact with people willing to try to get me out of the brainwash facility i'm currently locked in, i'm still locked in here, and in case those people fail to get me out, i don't think anybody intends to get me out. This essentially means an unknown length of time in this private-owned jail, with no lawyers, in case the people i know fail to somehow set me free.

I've been trying to keep myself isolated and alone, mostly because most people are abusive, here. The kindest person is a rather sad narcissist, who seems to try to 'pleasantly' manipulate me to one's own goals, ironically because, i presume, one feels how sweet i am. Still, the only reasons i have for living resumes itself to my wait for freedom... The fact is, though, that i doubt that i'll be set free in less than one year, not to mention that the local staff will probably try to get me legally branded as insane, in order for somebody to get one's hands on my cash.

This isn't life.

I've decided to simply end it all, should my hopes implode. I've been suffering a lot as of late, and the only reason i'm still able to wake up is that a few people decided to help me... Wasn't it so, i would have killed myself a long time ago.

Life's lost its meaning. And besides, given that i do remember some of my past lives, i'm not truly concerned that my existence will end. I just want to stop suffering, and perhaps be able to lie down on a gentle person's lap, with a huge pot cigarette in hand. I have one chance of being saved...
Should it fail, well... Death is always an alternative. Better to die than to rot is this disgusting private-owned jail and brainwash facility...

Should we approach my current favorite subject of archetypes, i remember when i used to melt away when thinking about actually finally crumbling down under the care of someone else... I simply don't dream about that anymore, although i know that's what a i want behind the scar tissue... Funny, i can't even believe in love, anymore, in a way....

Guess my dreams were shattered. No reason to continue dreaming this world..

I'm going to quote Dumas here in a line that, ironically, has come to prominence (aka, as Dullahan would put it, #trending on #twitter) of late via none other than Fate: Wait, and Hope. Fac et Spera, written in Latin as the closing line. Even as the Count of Monte Cristo endured hell in L'Isle d'If, everyone goes through their own trials in life. I'm not going to sugar it; life largely sucks, there's always bills to pay, people are annoying and noisy, you can never quite find that thing you wanted and if you do it turns out it's not quite as good as you envisioned it...

Happiness exists in the gaps. The joke that coworker said that was dumb but dang, it got a laugh out of you, somehow. Cold water on a hot summer day. A teensy tiny surge of personal success when you finally manage some annoying task that gave you trouble perfectly. Don't wait for that prince on the white horse or the mysterious millionaire to come along and sweep your problems away: the horse was stopped at Customs, and the IRS took a sudden interest in the millionaire's tax reports. Carve out your own little bit of happiness, day in and day out.

(Yeah, another reason I don't want to debate it is that I inevitably end up sounding like a cross between a therapist and a toothpaste ad).

Historia
April 16th, 2019, 05:16 AM
da fuck?

purple_teardrops
April 16th, 2019, 05:50 AM
Happiness exists in the gaps. The joke that coworker said that was dumb but dang, it got a laugh out of you, somehow. Cold water on a hot summer day. A teensy tiny surge of personal success when you finally manage some annoying task that gave you trouble perfectly. Don't wait for that prince on the white horse or the mysterious millionaire to come along and sweep your problems away: the horse was stopped at Customs, and the IRS took a sudden interest in the millionaire's tax reports. Carve out your own little bit of happiness, day in and day out.

Well, then, consider that reality might adapt somewhat to what the majority of people are willing to do, perhaps because the majority of people might as well be doing something like "casting the spell named reality"... Let's presume this has to do with the Grail proposed in Persona 5 Animation (and game, though i haven't played it)... Considering that our lives are mostly ruled by ebbs ands flows that seem related to economy, wouldn't life just suck because most people are actually willing to throw their lives and happiness away for mere crumbs of bread?

Unless the economical tides and waves of life change through less people accepting the abuse, i guess the abuse won't stop coming. Most people here are willing to accept the abuse of being locked down. I accepted the abuse last time it was done (spent 14 months in a private prison disguised as a rehab facility), kept thinking about killing myself every day... And here i am, once more incarcerated again, though under slightly better conditions; whomever locked me here likely knew that i was considering suicide before.

I remember realizing that a given legal dissociative drug could somehow deprive me of the feeling of asphyxiation... Disappearing under a river like Virgina Woolf might have been a good idea...

In the end, either someone saves me or i'm putting an end to this. Besides, death shall be my own way of protesting, and should a dead body get found in here, i think i can shut down the entire facility. Can't say i'm happy about sacrificing myself, but at least i'll have left this body behind... Wonder if a given rose wouldn't mind shaving off her spikes to allow me to lie down on the lap of her stem, so that i could cry all the sorrows of my life...

Zurvan
April 16th, 2019, 12:47 PM
One more corpse won't change a thing, there's no sacrifice here

You only can hope to save yourself, the world will not

And here I hoped this at least had potential to open eyes
Alas

Deathhappens
April 16th, 2019, 01:28 PM
Well, then, consider that reality might adapt somewhat to what the majority of people are willing to do, perhaps because the majority of people might as well be doing something like "casting the spell named reality"... Let's presume this has to do with the Grail proposed in Persona 5 Animation (and game, though i haven't played it)... Considering that our lives are mostly ruled by ebbs ands flows that seem related to economy, wouldn't life just suck because most people are actually willing to throw their lives and happiness away for mere crumbs of bread?

Unless the economical tides and waves of life change through less people accepting the abuse, i guess the abuse won't stop coming. Most people here are willing to accept the abuse of being locked down. I accepted the abuse last time it was done (spent 14 months in a private prison disguised as a rehab facility), kept thinking about killing myself every day... And here i am, once more incarcerated again, though under slightly better conditions; whomever locked me here likely knew that i was considering suicide before.

I remember realizing that a given legal dissociative drug could somehow deprive me of the feeling of asphyxiation... Disappearing under a river like Virgina Woolf might have been a good idea...

In the end, either someone saves me or i'm putting an end to this. Besides, death shall be my own way of protesting, and should a dead body get found in here, i think i can shut down the entire facility. Can't say i'm happy about sacrificing myself, but at least i'll have left this body behind... Wonder if a given rose wouldn't mind shaving off her spikes to allow me to lie down on the lap of her stem, so that i could cry all the sorrows of my life...

Again, to be blunt: That's just being a brat. "Either life goes my way or I quit". You know you don't really want to die, or you wouldn't be discussing so earnestly with strangers, looking for an excuse not to go through with it. To quote Chris Avellone this time: "Endure. In enduring, grow strong". If life gives you lemons, don't just take them, demand to see life's manager! BURN LIFE'S HOUSE DOWN! WITH THE LEMONS!





oddly appropriate song I was just listening to

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoass6XxJwk

Toa of Gallifrey
April 16th, 2019, 02:31 PM
Torment and Portal 2 quoted in the same post. A man after my own heart.

purple_teardrops
April 16th, 2019, 03:51 PM
...

>Again, to be blunt: That's just being a brat.
I appreciate the compliment, although i'm sure that's not what you intended with what you wrote.
What i mean is that especially given that 'brat' can mean both spoiled and child, i'll take the latter, especially considering that even according to my scientific research, being an adult currently seems to stand for somebody who is completely psychologically mutilated and unable to truly synchronize with one's own inner self; adults reject their own selves, adults reject the ability to feel pain (or to feel at all), and in doing so, end up existing as incomplete and mutilated beings. As an example of this, adults will rarely cry, especially so when with no intent or purpose other than displaying what they feel. Adults, well... Rarely display what they feel, even to themselves. Given this context, i'd rather remain a brat... I don't wanna be an emotionless meatbot.

What you've written sorta makes me wonder whether your inner child (you know, the person who you were [and still are, although you likely heavily repress that facet] before you built a psychological palace/labyrinth to keep that child/true self from showing up) isn't crying an ocean and drowing within their own tears, suffering a lot since they* dies but continues to exist in the pain of death, and basically can't come out, and be what they truly is, nor do as they truly wishes to.
*they = agendered reference, he/she in a single syllable

I'm not looking for an excuse not to kill myself, i might add. I'm just expressing what i truly feel... With no intents or purposes. I'm just being. I do admit that i'd be interesting to find someone willing to try to rescue me from the dungeon i'm trapped in, but uh, the only thing that's being fought against is my own desire to put an end to this. I'm not sure what to think on this, but i think this is somewhat relevant. Besides, talking about one's sorrows is important, all in all.

Other than this, i'm sorry, but i think this whole "endure" thing isn't healthy at all. It feels more like what you're saying might be described as an attempt to convince someone that suffering in silence is a good thing, although it might be pure masochism. The "grow strong" part sounds more like trying to link the idea of strength with what might be described as a type of self-censorship, so that someone takes remaining in silence while in pain as something good, due to a type of self-rewarding, self-deceiving mental routine. This doesn't feel like getting strong, this feels more like being too weak to raise one's voice to say what one truly feels, and convincing one's own self that such weakness is strength.

All in all, this reminds me of the movie Camp X-Ray, where in order to reinforce the idea that someone's life doesn't belong to one's own self, the female protagonist went as far as asking the prisoner not to commit suicide, when all the life prospect the guy had was remaining locked up for decades in jail. You know, the whole thing about closing the piece with the morals of the day, immoral as they might be.

I have to say that while the effort might (emphasis on the might part) be well intentioned, uh, wouldn't it be somewhat better to try to look for a solution to my problem rather than try to gag me?


...
Killing myself means saving myself in case no other option is available. I'm somewhat astonished as to how most people fail to realize that being kept in a funny farm with a computer and internet access isn't enough for a living... Well, it's sorta tolerable, although mostly i think that it's being tolerable because suicide ( in this case, more like self-applied euthanasia, really) is available and a metaphorical white knight might have shown up in another media, with lawyers along with them, so i guess i'm waiting with a bit of hope. It's different from being stuck, though.

Deathhappens
April 16th, 2019, 04:13 PM
>Again, to be blunt: That's just being a brat.
I appreciate the compliment, although i'm sure that's not what you intended with what you wrote.
What i mean is that especially given that 'brat' can mean both spoiled and child, i'll take the latter, especially considering that even according to my scientific research, being an adult currently seems to stand for somebody who is completely psychologically mutilated and unable to truly synchronize with one's own inner self; adults reject their own selves, adults reject the ability to feel pain (or to feel at all), and in doing so, end up existing as incomplete and mutilated beings. As an example of this, adults will rarely cry, especially so when with no intent or purpose other than displaying what they feel. Adults, well... Rarely display what they feel, even to themselves. Given this context, i'd rather remain a brat... I don't wanna be an emotionless meatbot.

What you've written sorta makes me wonder whether your inner child (you know, the person who you were [and still are, although you likely heavily repress that facet] before you built a psychological palace/labyrinth to keep that child/true self from showing up) isn't crying an ocean and drowing within their own tears, suffering a lot since they* dies but continues to exist in the pain of death, and basically can't come out, and be what they truly is, nor do as they truly wishes to.
*they = agendered reference, he/she in a single syllable

I'm not looking for an excuse not to kill myself, i might add. I'm just expressing what i truly feel... With no intents or purposes. I'm just being. I do admit that i'd be interesting to find someone willing to try to rescue me from the dungeon i'm trapped in, but uh, the only thing that's being fought against is my own desire to put an end to this. I'm not sure what to think on this, but i think this is somewhat relevant. Besides, talking about one's sorrows is important, all in all.

Other than this, i'm sorry, but i think this whole "endure" thing isn't healthy at all. It feels more like what you're saying might be described as an attempt to convince someone that suffering in silence is a good thing, although it might be pure masochism. The "grow strong" part sounds more like trying to link the idea of strength with what might be described as a type of self-censorship, so that someone takes remaining in silence while in pain as something good, due to a type of self-rewarding, self-deceiving mental routine. This doesn't feel like getting strong, this feels more like being too weak to raise one's voice to say what one truly feels, and convincing one's own self that such weakness is strength.

All in all, this reminds me of the movie Camp X-Ray, where in order to reinforce the idea that someone's life doesn't belong to one's own self, the female protagonist went as far as asking the prisoner not to commit suicide, when all the life prospect the guy had was remaining locked up for decades in jail. You know, the whole thing about closing the piece with the morals of the day, immoral as they might be.

I have to say that while the effort might (emphasis on the might part) be well intentioned, uh, wouldn't it be somewhat better to try to look for a solution to my problem rather than try to gag me?


Killing myself means saving myself in case no other option is available. I'm somewhat astonished as to how most people fail to realize that being kept in a funny farm with a computer and internet access isn't enough for a living... Well, it's sorta tolerable, although mostly i think that it's being tolerable because suicide ( in this case, more like self-applied euthanasia, really) is available and a metaphorical white knight might have shown up in another media, with lawyers along with them, so i guess i'm waiting with a bit of hope. It's different from being stuck, though.


Well, if you're this invested in rejecting what is in favor of what (in your view) should be, the only other advice I can give is: become an artist of some stripe. You already have a vivid imagination and a penchant for purple prose, pardon the pun, figure out a way to sell them to others as "eccentricity" rather than "futile escapism" and make some money on the side. The great wheels of Society will turn with you on board the train as well as under it; the only one affected will be you. You will not be who you want to be, do what you want to do, feel what you want to feel; from prince to pauper, that priviledge belongs to no-one. But you DO have the freedom, and the power, to make your own "good enough".

purple_teardrops
April 16th, 2019, 04:33 PM
(...) But you DO have the freedom, and the power, to make your own "good enough".

I think i should mention that my family has illegaly placed me within a literal funny farm. I'm currently imprisoned within a drug rehab facility for smoking pot. Even though they're allowing me to use a computer and granting me internet access, i truly can't leave this hellhole. To make matters worse, i think they're trying to somehow label me as a crazy person who can't take care of myself, in order to effectively turn me into their puppet.

So uh, no freedom in this situation. Quite the contrary... I think all the freedom i got is the freedom to cry out for help here in cyberspace.

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Cheesus Thrist... I love f/ELE's Alice with all my heart, but considering that the f/Es' moon cell is something of an electronic simulation of reality, i think i just realized how much my appreciation for the character feels like a giant irony.

Tobias
April 16th, 2019, 09:22 PM
Man.

even when I’m off work I still hear people blatantly misuse the word illegally to refer to an involuntary stay at the psych ward.

just be glad you aren’t at my hospital kiddo. You would be one to one with someone literally watching you pee.

Laserman
April 16th, 2019, 09:41 PM
1118141455061671939

Zurvan
April 17th, 2019, 03:44 AM
I want a new avatar

Smug is love

Historia
April 17th, 2019, 07:10 AM
whats new in grand order anyway

Deathhappens
April 17th, 2019, 09:14 AM
Smug is love

Nice, but Kirei was more Zurvan.

...It be stormin' outside.

Zurvan
April 17th, 2019, 09:32 AM
If I had a similar smug face template of kirei, he'd be it
But I didnt see one

Plus Scathy has been a go-to avatar since I started here

Historia
April 17th, 2019, 02:52 PM
i don't have a go-to avatar


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aENGS-kjKhk

purple_teardrops
April 17th, 2019, 04:09 PM
Man.

even when I’m off work I still hear people blatantly misuse the word illegally to refer to an involuntary stay at the psych ward.

just be glad you aren’t at my hospital kiddo. You would be one to one with someone literally watching you pee.

I think this is the point where this conversation ends, due to reasons i'd rather not comment on. Other than this, i presume this is pointless, but please, i ask you to take into consideration the way this type of 'treatment' is making me feel when dealing with those locked within the prison you work on.

Tobias
April 17th, 2019, 07:41 PM
Make less poor decisions, have more abilities to make your own choices.

the psych ward ain’t hard.

Walnut Sparks
April 17th, 2019, 09:39 PM
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I don't think that's quite it...

Laserman
April 18th, 2019, 01:04 AM
Compared to the original group, Korra and her friends are far less fun to watch, and honestly Korra isn't a good person, nor does she really change throughout the story.
The villains either start interesting, and then end up being terrible, or are terrible from start to finish.
It handles its characters and the previous show and its characters rather strangely, Tenzin (Aang's son) is wasted for most of the show, only really having some significance when the airbenders return because, well, spirit magic xd.
Aang, the previous avatar and an air prodigy, mastered air bending when he was twelve. Korra... controls all but air when she's first shown... as a 4 year old...
Even the setting feels weird since its hardly used for anything regarding the story. The statue is weird, it feels like fan service, and Aang isn't really the type to let a statue be constructed.
You know who had giant statues made of himself, the Firelord, the original series antagonist

I could go on about this for far longer than I'd like, but I won't, the second series feels very inferior, and the original series is better if you don't watch it, imo
She mastered 3 elements at 4? What the heck? I can see where you're coming from with the statue though. I just really loved the show, and him and the rest of the group.

SpoonyViking
April 18th, 2019, 01:16 AM
She mastered 3 elements at 4? What the heck?

"Mastered". Like her tutors say, she's good at the physical side of bending, but is very lacking when it comes to the spiritual one.

Zurvan
April 18th, 2019, 01:52 AM
I still think its dumb compared to your normal 4y olds motor skills

Historia
April 18th, 2019, 03:25 AM
back when i finished korra i had sequel in mind that picked up 20-30 yrs later

this was part of the prologue before i got bored and stopped


Kuvira paced from one corner of her platinum prison to the next, listening to the gentle patter of her feet on the cold metal. Unbendable in any way, shape, or form, she was boxed in on all sides, unable to escape.

Since her removal from Ba Sing Se and her more loftier accommodations at Republic City, they had made the tough decision of placing her far out in Southern Waters away from any notable signs of civilization.

For fear of attempts on her life, of which a few had been thwarted, and to distill anyone of the notation that one day she would spark an uprising.
She still remembered leaving the docks, those once close to her watching her board the ship and sail away, chained in iron. The last she ever saw of them. For how long, she could not say, having lost track the numbers of days, the weeks, the months—years—since her captivity. All she knew, was that gray-white had been her world for quite some time, and would continue to be so, until she grew gray and white herself.

By then, what she had done, who she had been, whether she were remembered as the loyal follower or power craving usurper, all she was would fade into obscurity. Into the dark history of the world that parents would tell their children never to reiterate, but learn from and do better because of. What a leader would strive to set an example of, and what his people would judge him against, lest he fail and fall down a similar path. She was a mistake of the past, locked away. Tucked in some corner at the back of people's minds. Nothing more than a forgotten news article, buried beneath the pile.

Outside her prison, the guard shift changed, signifying that day had become night. There was a rap, a series of two quick knocks, and a slit opened, heated food pushed through on a tray. Sitting cross-legged, she placed the tray on her lap and ate. The guard on the other side sneezed, and she felt a draft coming in.

“Can you close that?” she asked after wiping her mouth with a provided cloth.

“Ah, sorry!” The slit slammed shut.

Finished with her food, she thought of him shivering in place, teeth chattering. “Can you open it again please?” When it was, she pushed the tray back out and waited for him to ask why she hadn't touched her cup. “Heat it up for yourself. You need something warm.”

To think this young guard was tasked with watching over her in the middle of Southern Waters, surrounded by glaciers, with nothing else to keep his attention but the stillness of the waves—she closed her eyes and leaned against the back wall of her prison. There was a burst of heat and she opened them again. The slit was open, the cup sitting there.

“You need it more than me,” he said, voice slipping through the slit.

She smirked. Such kindness. Taking the cup in her hands and drinking, its warmth traveled down to the deepest reaches of her heart. Placing it down, she waited for his hand to reach through and brushed his wrist, causing him to hastily snatch the cup and close the slit yet again. His hands were scarred.

“What's your name?” A silly question, as she already knew from listening to the back and forth between him and another guard. The smirk widened a fraction at his answer. Atsuko. Imagining his parents brainstorming ideas for a girl instead of what they'd actually gotten she chuckled—if only a little. They must have decided it not a deal breaker, and went with the chosen name anyway.

From the lack of response to her amusement, he must not have heard her, and she took the chance to ask more of him. His past. How his name first came about in the minds of his parents. Then, she realized, she was assuming that his parents were the ones who named him, and let her words fall short. Instead, she rephrased the question, “How did you get your name?”

There was a pause. “My... grandfather... gave it to me.” Grandparents. She didn't even have those. As for her own parents...

What might they have looked like? All she saw were artificial images, fabricated from bits and pieces of stories, shrouded by the neglect and the want. The washed out hope that, one day, she would have a chance to meet them. To meet them and ask why. One day. How many years had it been since her imprisonment? Atsuko would know.

“Four.”

Four. Four. It felt more like one or two. Mulling over this information, she thought to ask what the world was like now, how the Avatar and her friends were keeping the world together, how the Earth Kingdom was faring with her out of the picture, then reminded herself that whatever the world was now, it was surely better than caged in iron.

Lifting her eyes, she wanted to know.

And, Atsuko answered, “I don't know the details, but for the most part, it's peaceful. A couple of uprisings were started after yours, but none of them got that much off the ground.” When asked about the Earth Kingdom, he shrugged, saying he had no idea as he'd been in service to the Fire Lord and never cared for the affairs of other nations, until recently and, since his transfer, his only care was watching her. “Though, I have heard... rumors... of someone... creating a new weapon...” Varric was that came to her mind, “... and it can allow non-benders to use firebending with just their hands.”

“And does this new weapon have a name...? ”

“Fire-spitter."

"Is that official or did you just give it that?"

"M..."

"Hm? I can't hear you."

"It was mine..." She heard him shuffle his feet.

"Go on."

"It doesn't have an actual name yet, I don't think. I mean, I haven't heard anything about a name... So... what do you think?"

The smirk gentled out, into a genuine smile. "It's..." She liked his positivism.

"... cool?"

"Stupid."

Though, she could imagine a few who might still be following her story, digging through the heap to find the snippets. At least one of whom, would be, no matter what. Even through the hurt and the pain and regret of what role they could have played in part to how she turned out. Asking the important questions of what could they have done differently, how they could have averted it, and when they should have acted in doing so.

AsGryffynn
April 18th, 2019, 07:10 AM
Bloody hell, my weeks keep getting worse.

Historia
April 18th, 2019, 07:22 AM
noice,


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwdg6uUJmK8

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was either this or yeah yeah yeahs, but more ppl here have probably heard them before, so

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daydream by lil leise is also pretty good: https://soundcloud.com/lilleisebutgold/daydream-prod-lil-leise-but-gold

Snow
April 18th, 2019, 09:09 AM
The thing is that all that's happening points to a situation with no resolutions in sight: although i have made some progress in trying to get in contact with people willing to try to get me out of the brainwash facility i'm currently locked in, i'm still locked in here, and in case those people fail to get me out, i don't think anybody intends to get me out. This essentially means an unknown length of time in this private-owned jail, with no lawyers, in case the people i know fail to somehow set me free.

I've been trying to keep myself isolated and alone, mostly because most people are abusive, here. The kindest person is a rather sad narcissist, who seems to try to 'pleasantly' manipulate me to one's own goals, ironically because, i presume, one feels how sweet i am. Still, the only reasons i have for living resumes itself to my wait for freedom... The fact is, though, that i doubt that i'll be set free in less than one year, not to mention that the local staff will probably try to get me legally branded as insane, in order for somebody to get one's hands on my cash.

This isn't life.

I've decided to simply end it all, should my hopes implode. I've been suffering a lot as of late, and the only reason i'm still able to wake up is that a few people decided to help me... Wasn't it so, i would have killed myself a long time ago.

Life's lost its meaning. And besides, given that i do remember some of my past lives, i'm not truly concerned that my existence will end. I just want to stop suffering, and perhaps be able to lie down on a gentle person's lap, with a huge pot cigarette in hand. I have one chance of being saved...
Should it fail, well... Death is always an alternative. Better to die than to rot is this disgusting private-owned jail and brainwash facility...

Should we approach my current favorite subject of archetypes, i remember when i used to melt away when thinking about actually finally crumbling down under the care of someone else... I simply don't dream about that anymore, although i know that's what a i want behind the scar tissue... Funny, i can't even believe in love, anymore, in a way....

Guess my dreams were shattered. No reason to continue dreaming this world..

Getting off 8chan would be a good first step, my dimension jumping ARG compadre.

mAc Chaos
April 18th, 2019, 10:44 AM
Level to 8, gain proficiency in shitposting.

purple_teardrops
April 18th, 2019, 12:19 PM
>Snow's said:
>Getting off 8chan would be a good first step, my dimension jumping ARG compadre.

I just use my own board there. While i know there are plenty of boards for all kinds of tastes, i'm just using the place as a blog host. Icould try finding a host somehwere else, but it'd have to be a free one, and i have no idea where i could go.

Besides, in spite of the way that post and thread structure has come to be regarded, that is, unruly babies slinging feces at each other with little to no actual conversation taking place, i must say i like the structure and especially the way logins are performed.

>mAc Chaos's said
>Level to 8, gain proficiency in shitposting.

I'm a born loser at that field. I might try playing around with formatting, though, lol.

Deathhappens
April 18th, 2019, 04:05 PM
Twicechan has logins? Wow, no wonder it's a shithole.

mAc Chaos
April 18th, 2019, 04:09 PM
isnt login better