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Chapter 20
She stood within the great hall, amidst the jungle of chains that held the woman in white. There was no sound, no movement. Only stillness. In the hallway beyond, from where she had come, there was only the faintest glow from the lamps. Even that did not seem to illuminate anything here, terminating abruptly at the door. In point of fact, she could see no light source anywhere, though she could see.
No light. No sound. No sensation. Only stillness. A world contained within itself, with nothing to intrude upon its existence, or to even hint at an outside presence. A single moment, frozen in time, never to be disturbed.
A tomb, she thought. A prison from which there was no escape, ever. But why?
The woman in white was unchanged. Her complexion was no ruddier, her chest still unmoving. The wounds caused by the spiked chains piercing her skin were long healed over, without even the rusty markings of long-dried blood. She was undeniably dead.
But why?
Once again, she approached the woman, driven by a mixture of curiosity and pity. Why was she imprisoned here, in this empty place? How could she be so dangerous that she required chains of such massive size and numbers to be driven through her own body to restrain her? Who was this person, to be so abandoned?
She drew closer and tried to peer beneath the thick, shining tresses, so pale in the light they looked nearly as white as the rest of her, but the woman’s face still eluded her. Even so close, she could only see the faint outline of a smooth, classical jaw, all but concealed in web of glittering golden hair and crystalline - tears?
The soft voice of a young girl whispered behind her, “Soon.”
Shiki was tired. Not physically - whatever Takara had done to him, it had acted on his body like mainlining a quart of espresso. Sleep, however badly he desired it, was not likely to come for some time. No, he was tired to the soul of battle and betrayals. He had been through more than enough of both in his youth, and hoped to leave such things behind with it. The events of the last forty-eight hours, however, seemed to prove that his hopes were in vain.
His illness stemmed back to Akiha’s death, which had perhaps been hastened by his leaving the Tohno family, and it had caused Takara to enter an ancient war of sorcerers. From there, things had spiralled wildly, drawing in people he had not met, but who were connected to the war by long-ago events, as well as people had never dreamed of seeing again. Some of them, he never would see again - and that number might now include his wife.
Maybe there’s something to the idea of fate, after all? Shiki asked himself. Can everything that happened be blamed on the choices of free will, or the whims of random chance? Are human desire and blind luck truly powerful enough to bring about such a situation?
Or perhaps, if God had a plan, as Ciel’s former employers suggested, He was less creative than most people would have liked to believe, and preferred using the same tools again and again, for lack of greater inspiration.
Shiki gazed wordlessly at the woman unconscious in the chair. He would much rather be looking in on his daughter, who still slept, exhausted by the inhuman efforts she’d made that night. Or, for that matter, Tohsaka-san, whom Saber-san had found unconscious in the woods. Failing that, he could have gone outside to keep watch on the Servant - who, looking very different now claimed to be called Avenger - who had volunteered to “bat cleanup.” Maybe that would have been a better idea, given the number of secrets the entity seemed to hold - and the unnerving knowledge that showed in his eyes.
Frankly, he’d ultimately prefer to be in his own bed, with Ciel, as he should be at this hour. Instead, he was here, watching life return to a feminine face, and lids flutter open to reveal a pair of golden-brown eyes.
“Hello, Kohaku-san,” he said softly.
A confused expression filled the eyes for an instant, a sheer inability to understand the situation leaving them blank, expressionless. Then light sparked, bringing recognition, and warmth, as her usual smile fitted itself into place. However, watching more closely than ever before, Shiki saw it and knew it for what it was: blandly pleasant, but undeniably a mask.
“Shiki-san,” the maid said brightly. “It’s been a very long time, hasn’t it?”
“Why, Kohaku-san?” Shiki demanded. “I left the family, but I never offered harm to her, however badly I threatened to. Why would Akiha try to kill me?”
Coyly, she replied, “Why Shiki-san, didn’t Hisui-chan tell you? Akiha-sama has been dead for some time.”
“I know - but why raise her son as my assassin? Did she hate me that much?”
Her amber eyes crinkled with what Shiki recognised as amusement, sparkling with some private joke. “Hate you? Oh no, Shiki-san - Akiha-sama could never hate you, even when she tried to. You were the only man she ever truly loved, after all.”
Shiki was bewildered by her response - and more than a little hurt. Even after everything, Akiha had still loved him? “Then . . . Then who sent him to kill me, and why now? Why after all this time, when I was dying anyway?”
Improbably, Kohaku giggled. “I can’t tell you that, Shiki-san. That’s a secret. We both know how important secrets are to the Tohno clan, don’t we? All sorts of secrets . . .”
He stared at her, and realised suddenly that Kohaku was insane. Honestly, truly insane. Whether it was a recent development, or something that had been there all along, madness had consumed her mind - and she saw no reason to even try to hold it back any longer.
“There’s no point to this, is there?” he asked rhetorically. “Even if I threaten you, I won’t get the answers I want - not in any way that makes sense. It’s not a matter of you not telling me what I want to know - you just can’t. There’s not enough of you left to talk to.”
She pouted. “Shiki-san has grown into a bitter old man. Hisui-chan must be so disappointed, after all the trouble she went to in order to come to Shiki-san in secret.”
“Not that it mattered,” Shiki countered. “Once she told you where she was going, you told the boy, didn’t you?”
“Not right away,” Kohaku protested gently. “I had to give her time to find you, first. It wouldn’t have been any good if you’d died before we arrived.”
Shiki shivered It was eerie hearing such a cold-blooded statement in Kohaku’s usual pleasant tone. It also made him more than a little angry, hearing such a matter-of-fact dismissal of his existence except where it concerned the Tohnos’ desires.
“Yeah, that would have been terrible,” he snapped. “It would’ve robbed you of your revenge . . .” A sudden burst of insight flashed into his mind. “And it is your revenge we’re talking about, isn’t it, Kohaku[i]-san?[/]i You’re the one who put the idea in his head. You didn’t bring the boy here to kill me - you brought him to be killed!”
Kohaku smiled even more widely. “Shiki-san has lost some of his denseness,” she commented.
Bile rose in Shiki’s throat. “Why, Kohaku? For the love of God, why?”
For the first time in the conversation, Kohaku’s face turned sombre. Her smile vanished, and her eyes hollowed, until they seemed dull and glassy, like a doll’s. Her voice, however, was as bright as ever, though more serious.
“Do you really want to know, Shiki-san?” she asked. It was asked in almost a stage whisper, a conspiratorial tone.
“I think I have to,” Shiki answered. “I can’t understand it, otherwise.”
“Then because it’s Shiki-san, I will tell,” the maid answered. “But it’s a very big secret - you have promise to do something for me in return.”
“What?” Shiki asked warily.
Her voice was very small as she answered, as though the words did not emerge of her own volition - or perhaps from an individual will that was weak from disuse.
“Kill me.”
“When the last eagle flies, over the last crumbling mountain,
When the last lion roars, at the last dusty fountain,
In the shadow of the forest, though she may be old and worn,
They will stare, unbelieving, at the last unicorn.”
The ballad was an old one to him, and faintly sad. But it was one he knew, and could sing without hesitation, and so he did. Softly, for it was that kind of song.
“When the first breath of winter, through the flowers is icing,
And you look to the North, and a pale moon is rising,
And it seems like all is dying, and would leave the world to mourn,
In the distance, hear her laughter - it’s the last unicorn.
‘I’m alive . . . I’m alive . . .’”
He remembered what it was like, to hear the song for the first time. To believe that wonder and miracles endured, no matter how long ago or far away they seemed. To believe in magic - in hope.
“When the last moon is cast, over the last star of morning,
And the future is past, without even a last, desperate warning,
Look into the skies where through the clouds a path is formed,
Look and see her, how she shimmers - it’s the last unicorn.
‘I’m alive . . . I’m alive . . . I’m alive."
As he passed across the grounds, glass fragments lifted off the ground and spun around, sparkling as they re-assembled themselves into windows and door panes. Torn earth melted together, grass sprouting anew. Splintered wood danced in the air, condensing and growing into its proper form and place. Though dawn was not far away, it was still the night’s time, the rightful domain of moonlight, mysteries, and magic. The place of dreams.
And so Avenger dreamed of a world made whole, and remembered that dark, cynical, and murderous he might often be, he was also capable of feeling wonder. The memories of it were never gone, only forgotten.
A twig snapped behind him.
The Servant froze, sighing almost silently. Congratulations, nimrod - you’re dead.
“I’m sorry to interrupt,” apologised a female voice, “but we’d like to claim sanctuary, if we may, please.”
It took Avenger a moment to adjust to the idea that no knife in the back was forthcoming. Slowly, he turned.
The first woman he saw finally made the description “elfin features” make sense to him, for if anybody had them, it was she - right down to the slight points on her ears. Along with a pair of periwinkle eyes that shone in the moonlight, as did the blue of her long hair. A cloak concealed the rest, but the lady triggered three of his fetishes just by being - and that wasn’t counting the fact that she was gorgeous! Kieran Holt would’ve been more in control of himself, but as a desperately single guy, Avenger had his hands full just trying not to drool.
If the first one had an iron grip on his hormones, however, his mind was totally taken by her companion, because only one person he knew of in this universe wore long, lavender hair in a braid along with that outfit.
“Sion,” he whispered.
I suspect things just got a lot more complicated, he remarked to himself.
“We do not wish to do battle,” Sion informed him, “but it is imperative that I speak to the people in that house. The fate of the world may depend upon it.”
Avenger sighed mentally. Why am I never wrong when I want to be?
Takara bolted awake, absolutely certain that the voice was coming from right behind her. When she registered that she was no longer surrounded by stone walls and heavy chains, but the familiar accoutrements of her own room, she halted, confused by the sound of her own panicked breathing and the feel of her pounding heart in such a soothing, comfortable place.
What . . .? she asked herself.
The answer came in a rush of memories: battles fought in a strange mode of thought, like glacial ice. Killing had seemed of no consequence at all, and she had tried to do so without hesitation - had done so. Then there was a burning power inside her that had sought to eat her alive, and then . . . Lancer? It had seemed like him, at first, as though his spirit had come to her call. But the face had rippled, changed, and melted away, revealing . . . Something other. Who he was, or what, she couldn’t say, but he hadn’t been Lancer. But he’d looked at her, so sadly, and then . . . And then the world went dark, and she was here.
Why had she reacted as she had, so . . . naturally? What had been going on? Had more Masters attacked the house? Why had Hisui attacked her? What had she wanted with her - her father!
Takara didn’t remember going from a half-sitting, half-lying position on her bed to standing upright, but suddenly she hit the ground running. Flinging the door open, she charged into the hallway - and collided solidly with a warm, feminine body.
As her backside met the floor, Takara could hear her mother’s voice remarking that this was getting to be a habit that she had to break, before she broke something more vital - like her neck.
Automatically, she murmured, “I’m sorry - Hisui!” Instinctively, she rolled back and away before springing to her feet, crouching in a low stance. Her hand-to-hand abilities weren’t nearly as good as her armed combat training - but she’d be damned before she let the psychotic maid take her out without a fight.
For her part, the maid bowed deeply, and a little stiffly, wincing as certain muscles protested being used so soon after such a painful impact.
“It is of no lasting consequence, Takara-san,” she said. “Are you well?”
Takara resisted the urge to snap out of her defensive posture just long enough to hit the older woman. “You try to carve me up with a knife, and [i]now[/i[*you ask if I’m ‘well?’ Are you completely out of your mind?”
The maid’s face and voice were very tight as she answered, “No . . . Although I am very much afraid that my elder sister is.”
Despite herself, Takara repeated, “Sister?”
“My identical twin, Kohaku,” Hisui supplied. “She assaulted me, as well, and took my uniform - to infiltrate the house, it seems.” Her voice became very subdued. “I will not blame you if you do not believe me.”
Takara considered. On the face of it, it was a ridiculous story - an overused plot device straight out of a poorly-written soap opera. It was a lie only an irredeemable fool would be unable to see past. On the other hand, given everything she’d gone through lately, it was just crazy enough to be true.
Hisui seemed to take her silence as disbelief. “Shall I fetch someone who can confirm my words? Your father, or perhaps your Servant?”
Takara came out of her thoughts abruptly. “My Servant?”
“The young man who carried you to bed,” Hisui clarified. “He is patrolling the grounds now. Do you wish him?”
Takara’s mind whirled. Lancer, alive? She recalled the destroyed school, his final scream - and what had been left of his body. It seemed impossible, but could it be? Then she remembered her last thoughts - seeing Lancer dissolve into someone else. Could it be an impostor, then? Someone trying - as Hisui claimed her supposed sister had - to infiltrate her home, and perhaps kill them?
She couldn’t be sure - and she couldn’t afford not to know.
“Yes,” she said slowly. “Bring him here.”
Hisui bowed slightly. “Very good, Takara-san.” She left without making another sound.
As she stood numbly in her bedroom, it was several minutes before Takara realised that the maid had never mentioned her mother.
Shiki listened as Kohaku told her tale. Of being brought, along with her sister, to the Tohno house solely for her nature as a Synchroniser, for her ability to grant strength - strength which the Tohno family could use in combatting the darker impulses of their demonic heritage. Of the first time she had been used in that manner, and by whom, and how she had accepted it, so that her sister would not have to. Decades of use and abuse, by those who claimed to be her masters, who claimed her services, her body - everything she was, all so that they could maintain their facade of respectability, rather than reveal the monsters that they were to the public eye.
Shiki listened in silence, but not without sympathy - and sickness. Perhaps, in their way, the Tohnos had good intentions - he remembered battling Roa, and knew that not all the power had come from the vampire’s spirit. Perhaps it was better to torment a single individual, than risk slaughtering innocents without cause or care. But still . . .
Akiha had known of this, had done it to Kohaku herself. She may have been gentler about it, more guilty over it, but Kohaku was no less a tool to be used by Akiha’s hunger. He found it hard to reconcile his image of the smiling child she’d been - or even the hardened maiden she’d later become - with such acts. But there was no deceit in Kohaku’s eyes now, not even inflection in her voice. She spoke mechanically, as though simply relating a story that had happened to another person, dead eyes showing no reaction at all. This was what Kohaku was, what she had always been. A corpse whose heart still beat, whose lungs still breathed, whose mind still thought - but no less dead for all that. This was what the Tohnos - intentionally or not, willingly or not - had made of her.
Try as he might, Shiki could not condone her actions - but neither could he wholly condemn them. She had taken lives, but they had taken her soul.
And is that any different from what you do with Hisui, now? he asked himself. Oh, Ciel might beg for you to do it, and Hisui herself might have come to you, rather than the other way around, but is it any less a sin to take advantage of that?
Aren’t you as much a vampire as Roa or any of them, feeding on Hisui as you do, solely to keep yourself alive?
“It bothers you, doesn’t it?” Kohaku asked, once again the bright and cheerful maid. The contrast was not simply startling, it was downright disturbing. The mask was more human than the woman beneath it - but was it completely a mask? Could someone so dead inside feign emotions so believably?
For her part, the maid seemed to read the answer in his face, for she nodded decisively. “Yes, it does - and not just for my sake.” She smiled lightly. “Hisui-chan cried when you left. She tried to do it only where she was alone, when she thought no one would hear, but she did. I hated Shiki-san very much, for that.”
“I’m sorry,” he replied. It was a totally inadequate response, but what wouldn’t be?
She nodded again. “Properly so. And Akiha-sama despaired of ever teaching you proper manners.” She giggled again, before becoming serious once more.
“Hisui-chan chose to do what she is doing willingly, Shiki-san. Nothing forces her to sustain you, except herself. That makes all the difference in the world. It might cause you all some pains of conscience, but she is better here than she was in the mansion, because she decided long ago that where you were was where she wished to be.” Kohaku looked directly into his eyes. “Promise me you’ll take care of Hisui-chan, Shiki-san. She’ll be safe, and happiest with you. Promise me, and then fulfill both your promises.”
“Kohaku-san, you . . .” Shiki hesitated.
Kohaku’s eyes darkened. “Oh, yes I do. Do you truly mean to say you can let me escape unpunished, after all I have done to those you care for? Can you say that my crimes are for a court to decide? Do you believe I’d ever survive to see a trial? The Tohno clan may be without a head now, but its reach is still long. And even assuming I somehow escaped them, could you, or Hisui-chan, ever truly trust me, knowing what I’ve done?”
Shiki was silent.
“For almost my entire life, I have wanted only three things,” Kohaku said quietly. “To see the Tohno family destroyed for what it did to me, to have Hisui-chan safe and free - and to die.” She gazed at him steadily. “Kill me now, and all three will be done.”
Silently, slowly, Shiki picked up a letter opener from the low table - not hardly of Nanatsuya’s quality, but enough to kill, if used correctly. He held it firmly, raised it slightly, then hesitated.
“Tell me why, Kohaku-san,” he asked. “Why, even after all that, is it better to die than live? Why throw your life away, when you might still lead a good one?”
Kohaku was silent a long time, before answering, “I have been used by three generations of Tohnos.” Her voice dropped to nearly a whisper. “I refuse to be the source of another.”
Weariness made Shiki’s mind slow to understand what she’d said, and equally slow to react to what she did. She must have worked free of her bonds while he was distracted, because she seized the letter opener from his frozen hand, and used it to tear into her own throat. Shiki lunged forward, too late, and a vermillion spray clouded his glasses, blinding him. He removed them in time to see her slump, blood running like a waterfall down the front of her kimono. She had to have severed at least one major artery, to do so much damage so quickly.
As he watched, the lines on her body shifted minimally, losing a slight amount of vibrancy. It was several seconds later that he realised the meaning of the change.
Not knowing what else to do, he clapped slowly, and bowed his head in prayer.
“Good night, Kohaku-san. May you find more peace than you had.”
Hisui paused in the hall, a terrible dread seizing her body, a certainty she dared not voice, but could not possibly deny.
Kohaku had always been bright and cheerful, attentive and caring - the courageous elder sister Hisui had admired. She’d always tried to let Hisui see no more of her than that. But as soon as she was old enough to understand the nature of her employers, and their shared abilities, Hisui had guessed at what Kohaku did, far from the prying eyes of the world - her little sister included. She had not said anything to any of them - it had not been her place to do so. However, she had not guessed at what that duty did to her sister’s mind, until tonight. How long had she carried that madness? How hard had she worked, to hide it from her? What had it cost her, to keep Hisui as sheltered as she’d been?
Tonight, whatever her suffering, whatever her sins, the final price had been paid.
Hisui started to bow her head as the tears came, then raised it. She would be strong, even as Kohaku had been. Her twin deserved nothing less than to be proud of Hisui - but she was still Hisui, and would cry for her sister’s loss, weak though such an act might be.
“Goodbye, Onee-chan,” she whispered. “I love you.”
There was no answer, but as she continued across the floor, the air seemed a little warmer.