Sunny, I agree with all of that. This whole experience has been frightening and overwhelming though. I feel a bit like I was in a really loud room and needed to keep track of all the conversations. That probably makes no sense. I'm also on a buggy phone and having difficulty keeping track of everything.
KT, I never meant to offend you. I know we don't always get along, but this was a mistake on my part and I do appreciate the constructive criticism.
I had only meant to shift any blame that might have been perceived as directed at Zikari, or anyone else here, back onto myself because, well, as long as my problems are a result of my own broken mentality, that's where it rests. My thoughts are my thoughts, and my poisonous assumptions are just a product of me feeling like I'm not hated enough. Which is incidentally not something I consciously want. I actually can blame someone for that, and he would sooner kill a puppy than even look at this website. I'm actually watering that down.
And I'm only just now realizing that I've shittalked canaki. I don't even know where that would be, but I'm sure it's a result of my clumsiness. I've never meant to say anything untoward about them either.
I tried to say that every time I lost my temper like an idiot, the only person doing anything wrong was me. Doubly so, because aside from spazzing out, to begin with, I know that there was no intention to exclude me. Anything that I perceived to be done to me, was 100% a product of my own mind, and my self-hatred and insecurities getting the best of me to the point that I allowed myself to project them onto other people, which is ridiculously immature.
I will swear by my four favorites, but I know I was clearly doing something wrong with my sheets, and obviously need to make a change to my process if I actually want to be accepted to anything.
I appreciate the constructive feedback.
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I also appreciate your encouragement Left.
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in the end we will make thoughtcrime impossible, for there shall be no words to express it
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[01:05.15] <@Spinach> I can flash gang signs faster than Sasuke can perform ninjutsu and I rap like Medea's High Speed Divine Words.
Rosary is over two years old, dumbass.
this only makes me realize how fucking old titan is
i miss titan
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[01:05.15] <@Spinach> I can flash gang signs faster than Sasuke can perform ninjutsu and I rap like Medea's High Speed Divine Words.
I feel like Titan is sort of like Onigokko: it's a lumbering beast, but a resilient one. Didn't it stop for a while last year too?
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All of RP is actually just zombies.
We keep watching it stumble slowly from one street to the next because we don't know when it will finally keel over, its body eroded by the elements.
<Airen> I play hetero every once in awhileSpoiler:
Spoiler:
Never surrender.
Exodus (Complete)
Mugen No Sekai
Raaaaace
When it finally does die, I'll just ring up Kel-Thuzad. He owes me a favor.
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Yes it is Lycodrake. And if I can just get myself motivated again, I'm almost completely finished an RP where you specifically can actually play as your current avatar.
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yesI can give you the example of a person that started out with a thread that devolved into alternating bitching and a pity fest that one would think would stigmatise him for other BL members - but he didn't quit, he took what people told him to heart, and quickly became a part of the community and friends with the same people that called him out on his behaviour.
i started out in a similar way
But in an RP context, I started with some really shit stuff, and was, much like you, overly concerned with people getting angry or irritated or blah blah blah. But I hung around, looked at what other people were doing, gritted my teeth when a new sheet that I'd worked on didn't get in (or sometimes was just like 'well, that's fair'), and kept going. I can't really give you a good estimate on when I started getting into things, I think I was a second round pick in Ga Rei the first time I played stuff, which, wow, filled me with confidence.
But you know what? That didn't really bother me, because I was able to play my character, and that gave me some more confidence, and pretty soon I felt like I had a decent chance whenever I applied. All I can really say to that though is that, while I like making the bones of my characters in the RP itself, I try to make them like KT's characters. People (or things, once) with some kind of conflict in their sheet. Something that lets them have bases of conflict to build off that aren't inherent to the GM's world but inherent to themselves. I think playing a purely evil character or good character would get kind of boring after a while.
But that's just my experience. The better I got at sheet-making the faster I could pull it off, but at the start it was rough, not only because I was young, way younger than you now, I think, but because I'd not had any experience with quality. And while Spinach is a dabbing clown, his sheets are pretty quality. Same goes for KT, Left, Kirby, Morm, Airen, Hero, etc.
So hanging around and seeing what they did and practicing on my own by making extra sheets was pretty useful, nearly as useful as listening to their advice, and taking it to heart. But the best part was getting on friendly terms with a group of people that I had assumed I'd alienated with my childish behavior before I realized it's the internet and no one really cares.
\o/
(so you can do it too, you just need to keep an eye on improving yourself; if you don't take any steps to change, change doesn't happen)
[12:37] <I3uster> if playing overwatch would save my mother from the deathbed
[12:37] <I3uster> id probably flip a coin
[12:38] <I3uster> to see if i play or not
[18:23] <frantic> spinach is like a caffeine zombie
[18:23] <frantic> in AX he would like
[18:23] <frantic> drink 8 shots of espresso
[18:23] <frantic> then he'd turn to me an hour later
[18:23] <frantic> 'frantic', he'd say, his eyes wild and his lips smug
[18:23] <frantic> 'i need coffee'
So...Jojo RP.
Have there been any attempts here in the past, because I have a few ideas on how to organize one but experience would be nice.
There haven't been any on here as far as I know but closest I can think of are the Persona RP's Verg ran back before my time. Other than that maybe Airen's XBlaze me and a few others are a part of at a shove which Airen set up as a spiritual successor from what I've heard. But chances are I might be wrong, I joined post Verg vanishment after all.
I suppose that the easiest to run (for the first few 'arcs') would be a Diamond is Unbreakable type of thing with a semi-modern day setting, hijinks bringing users together before unleashing a few set up villains and the main villain appearing at the end?
That said if there was one, I'd enter with my favourite creation Smash Mouth... Ok thing is I probably would.
Quest of Fate
Apocrypha Universe Fate Quest Project
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Beast's Lair Discord Server For Fate Quests
Hermes Servant Collection Master Post
That's about the size of the scope I was looking at, basically. I've been thinking about how to run something like this with my mates off site but seeing RicePirate on YT's upcoming Jojo fan thing got the idea back into my head.
I guess my main question is outside of an RP like /Reclamation where there are groups of people interacting PvP, it'd most likely be PvE. Giving everyone something to do is the main challenge, but I guess I'll just lurk some more RPs and see what I can glean.
I'd be disappointed if the entire roster wasn't composed of memes tbh