I’m looking for an answer.
How long have I searched? There’s no meaning to it; not to the eternal. There’s no difference here, from a second to an aeon. A game on repeat. It’s why I played; then, and now.
Is there ever a price too great to pay to survive?
Alex Kisaragi
Hanazono Shrine
You wake up in a shrine.
It’s not the most comfortable awakening. You weren’t even lying down. You found yourself leaning against a pillar of a torii gate, by one of the tiny, auxiliary shrines; “Hokora”, you remember it being called. It’s nestled in the side of the complex, hidden by shade under the trees. It’s for lesser gods, and people pass it by, the main shrine apparently more interesting to them. No one spares it a glance. Not at it, nor at you.
You blink. The sun stings your eyes, and you shield your eyes from the light, and blink again.
Your skin is pure white.
From where the sun is in the sky, you suppose it’s late morning. As your eyes adjust to the light, you recognize this place. Hanazono Shrine, they called it. Dad would come here to pray, sometimes, dragging you along with him. It was a popular place for businessmen.
No one looks at you. Apparently some foreigner lying on the ground isn’t enough to catch their interests. No, wait.
Off in the distance, you see a boy about your age, looking lost. For the briefest of moments, your eyes meet.
Shrugging it off, he walks out into the street.
“Sho”
Golden Gai
You wake up in an alleyway.
This brings back memories— you think, at first, but it strikes you as odd. You can’t quite remember. Golden Gai, that’s what it was called; a small maze of alleyways littered with pubs and clubs and bars. You’ve come here before to— what? Fight? Drink? You shake your head.
The alleyway is cramped. Your legs hurt, like someone smashed them with a bat, or stomped on them with their boots. No, come to think of it, your entire body hurts, but your legs hurt the most. You help yourself up.
You make your way out of the cramped alleyway into a slightly less cramped alleyway. No one looks at you, as they go about their business. Typical— right? Right? No, that’s not right, not right at all.
You find yourself at a street, one that opened east and west. Whatever happened to you, you recognize this place. To the east leads to the shrine, which leads to Gyoen Park if you head south. To the west, Kabuki-cho. Red light district, if you recall. No kabuki theatres anywhere.
Absently, you reach your hand into your pocket, and feel blood on your finger. You flinch. From you pocket, you draw out a shard of broken glass.
Yuki Ren
Cinecity Square Park
You wake up on the ground.
You find yourself looking at the sky, and it comes to you just now that you’re sprawled on the ground. No one seems to mind, they simply step over or around or ignore you completely. You help yourself up, and spot the buildings around you. You know this place well.
In front of you is the TOHO Cinema; you’ve come here with the club, before. To your left, the Shinjuku FACE concert hall; you’ve dreamt of performing here, before. To your right, the Ironman Karaoke bar; they wanted to meet you here, before. It’s busy here, the people of the city moving to and fro, their chatter and conversation filling, stifling the air.
It’s noisy, and it all hurts your head.
No one spares you a second glance, and you wander about the square. You bump into a man, but he ignores you completely. You run, but no one sees. You shout, but no one hears your voice.
No— that’s not right.
In the streets to Kabuki-cho, a girl turns back as you yell. She looks perplexed. She waits, and hears nothing more, and disappears into the crowd.