Despite being taught to behave like an emotionless doll, she is… or rather
was full of life, compassion affection and love. If not for the tragedy to occur in her life she would have lived and died as the perfect wife. However having your lover and all your friends butchered before you then being kidnapped by their murderer while no one seemed to give a shit tends to mess things up.
She is only really capable of certain expressions; Sorrow, Grief, Regret and
Unyielding Rage. Deirdre is a very sombre and depressed individual, always believing that the worst possible outcome will occur and detests happiness in general as it only makes pain hurt that much more. As the lead of the most tragic love story in her land, her existence is 'One who cannot allowed to be happy'. Therefore no matter how good things get for her - they cannot last, her hope and happiness are destined to be destroyed. Which is why she is repressing all positive emotion. If Deirdre can't feel, then she can't be hurt, right? This has been exaggerated to a degree where she will push away those who seek to befriend her and comfort her as it would spare them a sticky end. If Deirdre were to feel as if she was to become friends or even fall in love with someone, she'd wait till they were asleep before sneaking into their room and snapping their neck to save her from hurting again. Such actions put her on a somewhat similar wavelength to a certain valkyrie.
She utterly detests self entitled brats and abusive men due to suffering from them in her life. If she were to come across such men in a grail war - even if they were civilians not connected to the war in the slightest then a string of particularly gruesome murders may happen to occur. Indeed if the so-called 'Great King' Conchobar mac Nessa and Éogan were to be summoned, they would be her first targets… and the last ones to actually die.
She would like to wish to be with her first love Naoise but considering her luck and the deeds she'd commit to do so… she has a more practical wish. A world without emotion. That’s what a hero does right, save others from pain?
Bond Lines:
Lvl.1: "Thank you for summoning me. I've no interest in you or your goals are but I need you alive so that I may take my vengeance upon those who have scorned me. I will let you know now that I shall not be engaging romance with you."
Lvl.2: "I am an Avenger, the only class I can be summoned in. I lacked the strength to take my vengeance in life but… Fufufu. I t seems there has been an upside to my legends fame after all. Now vengeance will be mine! HAHAHA! FEEL THE RETRIBUTION OF LOVE!"
Lvl.3: "…There were two men who took everything from me. They killed the only person who genuinely cared for me. They ruined my life so they could… show me off like a trophy. Because they 'Wanted a beautiful wife.' I will never be treated this way again. I would slaughter every man who would treat a woman this way… be reduced to a
'thing!'… Could you please stop gazing at me like that Master?"
Lvl.4: "Naoise was my lover. The only good man in my life. He loved me for who I
was, not what I was… A rosebud surrounded by weeds and worms. He'd still be the perfect man while I've become someone else entirely. I miss him. But look at me… You can
smell the
fucking blood on my hands. He wouldn't recognise me at all after what I've become… What I've done. If I were to bring him back, he'd probably kill himself out of disgust. I'm sorry but could you please go? I need to be alone. Didn't you hear me? I SAID GO!"
Lvl.5: "Y-You've been looking at me the same way
they did… I've no choice, keep this up and I'll have to kill you eventually. I'm sorry, your friendship was nice while it lasted but this is the only way to stop you turning into a beast. Forgive me, I won't… he won't."
Relationships:
Conchobar mac Nessa/Éogan: *Target located. Pursuing Target. Immediately starts stabbing* (All occurring within a second of glancing them)
Cú Chulainn: I heard you were unlucky with women, kind of like how I was unlucky with women. Now while I have Fragarach on you, tell me what happened with Aife?
Brynhildr: So I hear that everyone you love dies too. I'm so sorry, someone as kind and beautiful as yourself doesn't deserve that. I know your pain, no matter what happens they always end up dead in front of me… Could you tell me about Sigurd? He seems so wonderful~
Karna: That man. He's different. Not an ounce of cruelty in his blood… Regardless of all the suffering he went through, he's still practically a saint. He's a better man than most. He looks nothing like Naoise but they seem so similar… Gah! Y-you… You heard me?! Could you please forget that?! Really? Thank you. I mean it.
Naoise: "
My love... Master Guda(k)o, I am no longer worthy to be in his presence. That is the cost of my vengence. There is no way he could stand me if he were to see me for what I am now. So for the sake of my heart... and your head, please don't summon him.