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    Three days, and four heroes remain.

    Who will fall first? Place your bets.



    DAY 8 - RAISON D'ETRE


    Spoiler:

    I'm in the comfiest bed ever. It's probably a continuation of that dream, as there is no way I could be sleeping in one after yesterday... but what about yesterday? A sunray hits my closed eyes and makes them squint, though I can't open them. There is one more second of tranquility before the pain awakens.

    "Urgh!"

    My chest is hurting from multiple spots, and my left arm is burning. This is nothing like the times when we fought Berserker and Caster's shadow. Make it stop. Make it stop. Make it stop!

    There is a soft touch on my heart, followed by a panicked, tired voice. "Ben! Please calm down!"

    It's her. I must see her, now. I force my eyes to open. I am indeed lying in a bed in a ridiculous room, and Saber is sitting on a chair next to it.

    "Sa... Saber..."

    I try to find a better position in vain. She grits her teeth and channels some energy through her hand, which feels like a sudden shot of morphine.

    "Take your time, Ben. We are safe, but our situation is really precarious."

    Her voice is unusually weak, and my eyes eventually focuses on her. She looks completely drained. Her eyes are reddened, her breath is ragged and her whole presence seems weaker than ever.

    "Are you... okay?"

    "I cannot really use that word, but I am alive, like you."

    She is real. Saber is real, and she is here. I raise my right hand and take the one that is on my heart, slowly.

    "You are here... You are not a dream, aren't you? Are you with me?"

    My fever doesn't help me being coherent, it seems. She answers in a small voice, red as a tomato.

    "Ben, if you hold my hand like that..."

    "Answer me."

    She takes a deep breath. "Yes, I am here and real. I watched over you while you started healing up and I feared that I would lose you before sunrise. You are in a very bad state."

    "I... can feel that. What happened?"

    She clenches her grip on me and looks away. "Archer shot you."

    Those three words bring back everything. We killed Berserker, then the walkie echoed with Rin's voice... I remember something piercing me, but the rest is blurry. I think I saw her fighting desperately while crawling. My priority was to save her, but I couldn't abandon Ilya either, so I loosened my seal and...

    I let go of her hand to look at mine. One of the symbols doesn't radiate anymore. I sigh. "I remember everything, now... I gave you a completely crazy command."

    She shakes her head vehemently. "Not at all! I was able to carry your order, although it cost us both a lot of energy. Ilyasviel was saved and guided me to her castle."

    "Then I'm glad. You are both alive, and I managed to survive, somehow..."

    I finally look down to my torso. Her hand is there and... "Wow, where's my shirt?"

    I am slow today. She retreats her hand and we both blush heavily.

    "I am sorry! I needed to check on your wounds, so I had to take it off."

    "My wounds..."

    There are three visible marks: one in the middle of my chest, one in the stomach area, and one above my heart. Saber looks completely depressed.

    "Without Avalon, you would have died in a matter of minutes."

    My ignited left arm calls for me, and I look at the seal. I grabbed the knot in a hurry and loosened it halfway through.

    "Damn..."

    Saber looks at it uncomfortably. "About this, Ben-"

    "Good morning, Benben!"

    Ilya bursts into the room with energy, contrasting greatly with our two exhausted figures.

    "Uh, hi, Ilya."

    She glares at me. "What's with that greeting? Aren't you glad to sleep in a very comfy bed like this one? I gave you the second best room!"

    I manage to smile weakly. "Ah, yes, I am. Sorry, just being half dead at the moment, you know?"

    She makes a little "hmph" before turning to Saber. "You are surely persistent. I was certain that you wouldn't pass the night."

    Wait, what did she just say? My Servant looks at her defiantly. "I have more than enough energy left. Sorry to disappoint you, Ilyasviel."

    Ilya seems to doubt that. Is there something Saber is hiding from me? I'm pretty sure she was about to tell me some crucial information before we got interrupted.

    "It's fine. I planned on making Benben my Servant, but I can wait a bit more."

    She looks at my wounds. "Ah, you were right, they are healing up. I was convinced that you wouldn't survive."

    That makes her giggle. Can she just stop with that nickname...? I'll put that aside for now.

    "Did anyone run after us?"

    Saber answers in her usual serious tone. "Surprisingly, that is not the case. Ilyasviel can feel anyone that enters or leaves the forest boundaries. We teleported to our past base, and I ran to the woods while carrying you both."

    "Wow... That's impressive."

    She smiles awkwardly in response to my praise. "It is the least that a Servant can do. However, it took me some time to reach the forest. Something must have gotten in their way, or they believe we died. Let us hope for the latter, as it will give us some time to rest."

    Ilya nods with enthusiasm. "Oh, this is the best place you can rest in. I'll tolerate Saber since Benben was nice to me!"

    Saber's piercing eyes answer my silent questioning: Ilya told her about last week. I'm in big trouble. Pain assaults my body again. The wounds may have healed up on the surface, but my stomach and chest were still pierced, not to mention my arm. Saber extends her hand again but Ilya stops her.

    "What are you doing?"

    Her tone is serious this time. The knight looks flabbergasted. "I am helping the healing process, obviously!"

    "Stop. You may be fooling him, but not me. I know Servants more than anyone."

    "It is my duty! Do not stand in my way, Ilyasviel!"

    The small girl is unfazed by the intimidating tone. "You should ask him. Oh, I'll do it!"

    She turns to me with a smug smile. "Benben, do you want Saber to disappear?"

    It's my turn to raise my voice, which pains me even more. "No way!"

    She raises a finger, as if she's just proven her point. "See? He wants you to stay."

    To my surprise, the Servant looks away.

    "Saber? What is it?"

    "I... It isn't much, Ben. I consumed a lot energy last night, and I could not really replenish it since then."

    Ilya looks at me happily, and I feel a wave of gratitude that almost makes me forget that she tried to kill us all. That's why she stopped her...

    "Thank you, Ilya. Do you think you could let us talk for a bit?"

    She frowns. "Hmm, I guess. I was planning on bringing you food, so expect me to be back soon!"

    She leaves us with that.

    "Can you help me getting to a more seated position, Saber?"

    It takes us some time but we eventually raise my body slightly. Ah, much better.

    "Is there anything else you need?"

    The green eyes avoid mine.

    "I need to know your current state."

    She looks downcast. "I... I am at my limit. I can stay in this world, but I would need a full day of rest to be able to fight properly again. If an enemy finds us now, we will have to escape or fall."

    I understand why she called our situation precarious.

    "I see... then, we'll cross fingers. If we can rest, you'll be fine, right?"

    I can't contain a loud groan as my seal burns me more.

    "I could... but you need to heal up too."

    She pauses and gulps.

    "Saber?"

    Her next words are said in a broken voice. "I am sorry, Master. I have failed you. You were hurt again, and this time it was not from your recklessness. You had to almost kill yourself in order to save us all, and now... My energy is only depleted, but you are in a much worse state."

    She stares at my seal. "I promised that I would not make you touch that thing again, but you had to do it..."

    My heart sinks, and I can't answer for a moment. I never thought of her action as a failure. The rush of emotions is too much for my weakened body, and I feel nauseous.

    "Ben? Are you okay?"

    I see her hand approaching. "Don't."

    "It is my duty!"

    "Go rest. There's no point in helping my pain if the result is your disappearance. Find a bed and sleep for a few hours."

    That is an obvious shock for her. "I cannot do so when you are in that state!"

    As much as I appreciate her concern, I can't stand seeing her in that state. My voice is colder than intended due to the pain and fatigue.

    "It's an order. I will manage for now, so go make sure that you don't vanish."

    She grits her teeth and stands up. "... I will obey you, for now."

    The door is slammed with energy and a pang of guilt hits me. However, it's the only way for her to recover. If Rin chases us down immediately, we will need as much energy as we can gather.

    Rin... Thinking about her only seems to make things worse.


    ---


    Ilya came back with a bowl full of rice. She sat on the side on the bed, asked where Saber was and seemed satisfied with my answer. Now she has decided to feed me with a spoon. She reminds me of a child that has found a new toy.

    "Open wide!"

    "Ilya, is this reallhmphf?"

    The spoon invades my opened mouth and I swallow the hot rice with difficulty.

    "Did you cook for me?"

    She pouts. "I had Sella and Leysritt do it. Sella is against the idea of you two staying here, but Leysritt the failure was fine with preparing this. She said that sick people needed rice!"

    I'm pretty sure that applies to people with diarrhea, but who am I to complain?

    "Who are they?"

    "Familiars. They were sent here with me as servants, so they can't argue against my orders, even if they disagree!"

    "Ah, I see. You have my deepest gratitude in any case. If you hadn't brought Saber here, we would have died."

    She shrugs. "Rin would have captured me if I hadn't shown Saber the way. Or even worse, that blond unknown heroic spirit!"

    Her red eyes flash with anger. She is way too cute.

    "Ah, fair enough. Guess we are even, then?"

    "Hmm... You did kill Berserker, so I can't like Saber for now. Come on, open wide!"

    She feeds me another spoon. The pain is still strong, but for some reason, having her next to me eases things up a bit.

    "I'm sure you two will get along. You are both nice people, after all."

    She gauges my seriousness before making a wistful face. "You say that, but you saved me because I am the Holy Grail vessel, didn't you?"

    Ah, that's a tricky one. I pick my words carefully before answering. "Honestly, Ilya, I would be lying if I said I didn't care about that. However, I wouldn't have left you alone in any case. I had fun in the café last week."

    She gives me a sharp stare. "That is... half convincing. I'll let you live for now, Benben."

    She scoops some more rice and feeds me again. There is one thing that I want to ask her.

    "Why did you kill the Matous?"

    That seems to surprise her. "Isn't that obvious? I told Rin before. Only death awaits a Servant-less Master. As they had lost the fight, they were useless. Useless Masters have no place in my war."

    "Ah... I get it."

    She nods. "Good. The fact that they were from a rival family helped too."

    Those reasons are still absurd to me, but I don't feel like arguing with her. What's done is done, and I don't particularly care about those deaths anyway. The bowl empties in silence after that, and Ilya stands up.

    "Now sleep. I hope you don't die before dinner!"

    "You have such a way of putting it..."

    Her expression softens up and she gives me a neck hug that shoots more pain into my body.

    "Thanks for not leaving me behind."

    Then she waltzes away. I sigh and close my eyes.


    ---


    "I do not approve of their presence, my lady."

    "Ilya said they were honored guests, Sella."

    "That man looks like a corpse. How good of a guest is that?"

    "Shush, Sella! Have you prepared everything?"

    "Yes, my lady."

    I open one eye. There... Three homonculi are having an argument. At Ilya's sides stand two maids. One looks at me with a severe expression that makes me feel like she disapproves of my entire self. The other one holds a polite, deadpan face and seems calmer. Sella and Leysritt, I presume. The sunlight indicates to me that the day is already well-advanced. I managed to sleep a bit, but it was a messy trip. Without Saber's presence, the pain was unbearable at times, and I still feel terrible now.

    "Ilya? What's up?"

    I call out to her with a weak voice. She smiles mischievously. "It's bath time."

    ... I must have misheard that. "Say what?"

    Leysritt answers with a robotic voice. "Ilya is lending you her bathroom. It has a positive effect on wounds."

    As nice as it sounds, I'm a bit worried about Ilya's grin. I try to raise my head but only end up having a pain spasm.

    "Ugh... I appreciate the thought, but I can't move at the moment."

    Sella's voice is much more lively and angry than her colleague's. "Now he is being an impolite corpse. May I throw him out of the window? The fall surely will finish him off."

    Ilya shakes her head happily. "You can't do that, Sella. And Benben, I am not leaving you a choice. Get him ready."

    "Huh? Woah, hold on!"

    The two maids walk to me without a word.

    They ignored my protests and now Leysritt is carrying me on her back. My whole body is in pain, but Ilya seems to find that funny, as she leads the group with enthusiasm. The corridor is vast and filled with daylight. I catch a glimpse of a familiar figure ahead.

    "Saber... help..."

    She stares at me with a perfectly flat expression. "I must rest, Master."

    ... Okay then. She watches us pass in silence while I focus on not screaming. The Ben-napping goes on as the girls take me through several side corridors and finally reach a door. The white-haired instigator looks at me.

    "I'll leave you there. Have fun!"

    She dances away, and I am carried to a small room. The odd duo argues after laying me on a table

    "What do we do first?"

    "It is obvious, Leysritt. Remove the rest of his clothes while I pick up a towel. Be careful, he might try to bite you."

    "He cannot move."

    "No one is removing anything!"

    My protest is completely ignored as Sella walks away and her companion proceeds to strip me off without an ounce of embarrassment.

    "Ugh, stop it!"

    "Sella is rude, but you are not very cooperative either."

    Her voice is completely void of any emotion. I want to protest, but pain assaults my arm again, and nothing else matters anymore. Sella comes back with a white towel and they wrap it around my lower half, reviving a little part of the dignity that was entirely lost in the last ten minutes. They carry me to another nearby room. There lies a... giant bathtub, or a small pool. The steam proves how hot it must be. The room itself is magnificent, with a big window covering one of the walls so that people bathing can look outside. I almost forget my embarrassment for a second, amazed.

    Leysritt lays me in the water. There is a step where you can sit, and my feet touch the bottom of the basin without trouble. It must be adapted to Ilya's size, but I manage to be entirely immersed up to my neck. The hot water makes me relax immediately. I'm still in a great pain (that trip down the corridors didn't make things better at all), but damn, I'm almost starting to think it was worth it.

    I remember that I'm not alone and turn my head back with difficulty. "Ah... Thanks."

    Both stare at me blankly before Sella answers in a sharp tone. "I cannot believe our lady allowed a Master in these walls. I do not know what sort of trick you used on her, but consider yourself blessed by luck."

    Leysritt bows her head, still as emotionless. "We live to obey Ilya. As long as she says you are a guest, you will be one."

    The other one seems to want to protest, but she ends up sighing. "Then I shall warn you, Saber's Master: if you even think about hurting Ilyasviel, we will kill you without hesitating."

    They both leave with that, and I sigh in relief. They are quite creepy, honestly. I stay still after finding the most comfortable position and gather my thoughts.

    Berserker fell. Now, only three Masters are fighting for the cup: Kirei, Rin, and me. Kirei has an obvious advantage: two Servants, knowledge about the Grail and a good base. He could kill any of us easily with a bit of strategy, but I doubt that Lancer and Gilgamesh will cooperate.

    Rin... She must be doing well. Neither her or Archer used a lot of energy yesterday, so she will probably chase down Lancer, Gilgamesh or us as soon as possible.

    As for us, things are looking bad. I doubt Saber will be able to fight, even tomorrow, and if someone attacks us this afternoon or during the night, we will all perish. Our only advantages are a perfect base, the fact that people might believe we died, and having the Holy Grail vessel. No... Kirei must know that we are still alive. I'll bet on the fact that he seems to like me for now. The ideal scenario would be for the two Archers to fight each other. Now that I think of it, Rin doesn't know that Caster fell. I intentionally hid that from her, and that could make her waste more time. I feel my arm burning and groan. The next twenty-four hours will decide if we live or die, it's as simple as that. I'm glad that the castle is hours away from Fuyuki.

    I close my eyes and let my mind wander in the steam.


    ---


    Some voices echo behind me.

    "... certain this is all right?"

    "... grab a towel and wrap yourself in it!"

    Wait, those belong to... My mind awakens out of panic, and I check that my towel is still covering what needs to be covered, even if it's underwater. I follow the light sound of footsteps and turn my head back to greet Ilyasviel and Saber. Given the face the latter is making, I doubt that she knew I was still in here.

    "B-Ben?!"

    Ilya giggles. "It's more fun if we all go in! We will just sit on the opposite side if it embarrasses you."

    I could understand why. They are both wearing simple towels, the same as mine, but placed from breasts to thighs for obvious reasons. Ilya seems as upbeat as ever. Saber undid her hair, and, well, I can't help but staring at her. She blushes before answering with as much dignity as she can gather.

    "It cannot embarrass me, Ilyasviel. I am a Servant, thus the sight of my body should not be of importance to anyone."

    She still walks to the opposite side and makes a special effort to not show me anything. Ilya makes a smug face before following her and going into the water with a sigh of pleasure. The pool is big enough for us three to sit meters away from each other, and I can't really see them clearly with all that steam. Saber submerges herself slowly and has trouble hiding her relief.

    "This is the best place ever... Can we stay in this room for the rest of the war?"

    Ilya answers me in a cheerful tone. "I doubt that, Ben. Your skin will get all wrinkled if you stay in too long!"

    My Servant sighs in disapproval. "Such carelessness... Shall I remind you both in what situation we are in?"

    I nod. "Right, Saber, but we do need rest, and this is a blessing."

    Ilya interrupts. "I am happy to share this. I always take my baths alone, so even Saber is good company!"

    I can clearly feel Saber's glare without seeing it. "Now, what does that mean?"

    "I don't like Servants other than Berserker, but you were nice to me, and you are pretty."

    "That's... That's not a thing to say out of the blue!"

    I swear, give these girls a few hours and they'll be like sisters. Saber speaks up again soon. "Now that I think of it, Ben, how is it that you met the enemy and never told me?"

    Her emerald stare pierces the steam and my brain. A brain that activates panic mode and completely abandons me in the process.

    "Uh, I..."

    "Benben and I had a secret encounter! We were both sneaking out from our servants, so it's fine!"

    That explanation doesn't really improve Saber's mood. "You lied to me again... Going to a café with an enemy Master when she had attacked us two days before was uncalled for, even from you."

    "I told him we wouldn't fight during daytime! I have some manners, unlike Rin or you."

    The cheerfulness fled from Ilya's voice at high speed. Saber doesn't lose her composure. "I would like to hear Ben's defense on this, Ilyasviel."

    Damn, I'm here to relax. "Come on, it's been a week. Are you really going to annoy me with that now? It's not like it matters anymore."

    "You are dodging the question, Ben."

    She can be as dense as a rock at times. I groan. "Well then, Ilya greeted me on the street at random. What should have I done? Attack her right there, knowing she was more dangerous than I would ever be? Calling you with a Command Spell, knowing that she could have had Berserker with her and all the time in the world to kill me?"

    She is apparently surprised by my rational arguments. "I did not say that, but-"

    "Then what? She wanted to talk, and I saw an opportunity to know another Master better. Honestly, she was really nice too, and that didn't alter my will to fight her, so I don't really see your problem, Saber. Running away or attacking her would've been very stupid moves."

    Ilya laughs. "You've lost this round, Saber. I win Benben as a trophy!"

    She swims towards me. I cannot escape, let alone move at all. Before I can react, she stands before me, beaming. She's managed to keep her towel on and her gleaming stare makes me feel dizzy for some reason.

    "Now, Ben, be my Servant, please? Forget Saber and we will have fun!"

    "Ilyasviel!"

    Saber joins her in a panic. "What do you think you are doing?"

    Ilya turns to her and huffs. "Maybe he would prefer to stay with me rather than an uptight Servant that lectures him all the time."

    "Saber..."

    I call out to her, but she answers Ilya. "That is nonsensical! You cannot make a human your Servant in the first place!"

    "Saber."

    "How naive of you to say that. Let me just ask him if you don't believe me. Ben?"

    Ilya stares at me expectantly and I smile. "Sorry, Ilya, but Saber is my partner."

    She pouts. "I knew you would say that..."

    There is a second when I fear for my life, but she ends up shrugging. "As long as you stay with me too, I can share. It's not like she is going to remain here forever..."

    I ignore her scary grin and focus on my Servant. "Saber, as I was trying to say... you dropped your towel."

    She looks at her naked body and gasps. I try not to stare, but it's becoming harder and harder. To not stare.

    "This is... No!"

    She swims back to her original spot and puts the towel back on, blushing. Ilya whispers something happily. "What happened to her body not meaning anything? Hmm, Ben?"

    I shrug. Fortunately, the heat of the water must be hiding my red face. "Be nice to her, Ilya."

    She gives me a sharp stare before swimming back to the other side.


    ---


    "Why did you trust Rin in the first place?"

    Ilya speaks again after a long, kind of awkward silence.

    "We became allies to defeat you, actually."

    I answer her honestly and her tone switches to the one I don't like. "You killed my Berserker, and then they betrayed you. Do you really think you gained anything from this?"

    Saber answers this time. "I get that you dislike us for what we did, but remember that you also tried to kill us."

    Ilya answers calmly. "I do not hate you. You risked your lives to save me and Benben is funny. If I really disliked your presences, Sella and Leysritt would have killed you right away."

    I feel a chill running down my spine. She can be scary when she talks like that.

    "And you didn't answer my question. You were both almost killed by your ally!"

    It is obviously a painful subject to Saber, given the contrite face she is making. "They betrayed us... I should have taken precautions before the fight."

    I need to address this immediately. "We should definitely have planned an escape route, and shown some suspicion to their will to stay that far away. However, they didn't betray us."

    Both girls stare at me in confusion. I sigh, picturing that damn red knight in my head.

    "They just took the terms of the pact very literally. 'As soon as Berserker falls, we will be enemies'. Rin and I said that exact thing the day before, and countless other times. You can bet that Archer was eager for that moment to happen, since he hated our team that much."

    Though given Rin's last words, I can bet Archer told her that I killed Shirou. Whether they'd have done it or not if they had not known will remain a mystery.

    "That... That is true, Master, but does this mean that you hold no grudge at all?"

    I snort. "Come on, I was pierced everywhere and I still can't move at all. My arm is on fire, even in a nice bath like this one. Of course I'm angry. I just don't feel betrayed. If anything, this will give me all the will to fight I needed against them. We will defeat them without mercy."

    Ilya cheers me up. "Well said, Benben! Remember, only I can kill you!"

    Saber glares at her. "Please refrain from saying such things, Ilyasviel. And Ben, I only wish you did not need to almost die in order to actually want to fight someone."

    I laugh, which is a very bad idea as it sends pain through my whole body and quickly turns into a yell of pain. Saber stands up (holding her towel tightly) and starts walking to me.

    "Are you all right? I am sorry, I was just..."

    "I'm okay, but you were so right that I couldn't resist laughing."

    She narrows her eyes. After all, she never was a big fan of jokes. I can't detach my stare from her beautiful figure standing in the steam. She sighs and sits next to me.

    "S-Saber?"

    "You should heal better if I am nearby."

    She keeps a straight face and measured voice while my brain starts melting.

    "Don't channel energy, Saber! I know that you want Benben cured, but right now you need to keep the link between you two balanced."

    Ilya says that with a lecturing tone that reminds me of Rin. To my surprise, Saber smiles sweetly. "Thank you, Ilyasviel."

    That takes the small girl off guard. "For... For what?"

    "For your care and advice. I shall protect you as well as I can when the time comes."

    "Hmph." She is blushing. "You better do so!"

    She swims near us and lays down to my right, her small body floating. She adds something ominous in a dreamy voice.

    "Let's relax while we still can... It's probably the last time."


    INTERLUDE


    "How brave of you to walk around like this."

    The young woman faces him in an empty street. Her voice shows no emotion, but the silent threat is easy to catch.

    "Tohsaka. I did not think I would meet you again."

    "Do not make a single move. My Servant is ready to kill you on the spot if you show any nasty intent. Understood?"

    He hears a small noise behind him and slowly looks in that direction. Her Servant is indeed standing there. The ready to be fired arrow will certainly pierce him if he tries anything.

    The man turns back to her, slowly. "Do you have any questions?"

    He sounds like a teacher asking that to his students, for good reason.

    "Only one, Kuzuki. Where is Caster?"

    That surprises him. "Brilliant as you are, I figured you would have known. Caster died three days ago, and I am no longer willing to fight."

    He had no interest for the war since the beginning. He was a late addition, as he became Caster's Master after she killed her official one. Trained as a killer from birth, he was an emotionless man. She didn't really change that, but these days with her were the only time in his life when he actually felt alive. Now that she is gone, he is back to being a rotting killer.

    "Really? How did she die? We know for sure that you both escaped Berserker."

    There is no point in lying, as he does not care about the situation anymore. "She decided to make the church her new workshop after putting me in a safe place."

    That makes the girl frown. "... The church? Go on."

    "She was killed right after. By whom I do not know, but she died soon after leaving me. Given the time of her death, I take that she was killed in the church itself."

    The information seems valuable to her. "That would make sense. I was wondering why there weren't incidents anymore, as she's certainly the kind of person to get back on track after a runaway."

    "Will this be all? I do not have anything more to tell you."

    She smirks. "Actually, no. You said you weren't interested by the war anymore, didn't you?"

    "I did say it."

    "Good. The thing is, we are in the last phase and the Servant that killed Caster is still alive. To put it bluntly, I would like you to give me your spare Command Spells."

    Is she trying to convince him using revenge? That sort of strategy cannot work on him. Besides...

    "I do not have any."

    She narrows her eyes. "How is that possible?"

    "I never had them. Caster killed her original Master and used me as an anchor."

    "Show me your arms."

    He does so diligently.

    "Damn. Well, thanks for your cooperation. Maybe we'll cross paths again after I win, although it might be better if we don't."

    He turns away from her disappointed face. "Goodbye."

    They part ways. He could feel relieved, unscathed after being threatened by a Master, but that is not the case. He never feels anything. He followed Caster because she asked him to and she gave a purpose to his existence for a small moment. The night falls as he silently walks back to his small house. He unlocks the door and walks through what looks like a place someone just moved to, although he's been living here for years. He does not need any kind of entertainment or luxury.

    Someone is sitting on the lone couch.

    "There you are... I swear, I'm really the chore boy of this war."

    The slender man stands up and dusts himself off before glaring at Kuzuki, his red eyes flashing.

    "Lancer."

    He knows that Servant, as he fought him once. He felt like the knight was only scouting, but he doubts that he is here for the same purpose tonight.

    "Yup. Long story short, I'm here to clean up the last remains of the losing team. Curse your weakness in the afterlife."

    He summons his lance as the teacher takes a fighting stance, perfectly aware of the fact that he cannot match a Servant without Caster's buffs.

    Lancer keeps on complaining. "You were a good match last time, but I bet this won't happen either, eh? Man, where is my fun in all this?"

    He thrusts his spear onwards. Kuzuki mastered a martial art specialized in fighting armed opponents, but lances are harder to deal with, as they are literally a moving single point, unlike swords. Still, he manages to step aside and grab the baton, surprising his opponent. He takes advantage of the momentum gain and reaches for the head with his free hand. His speed wasn't being buffed when he fought with Caster. Lancer thought the opposite and underestimated him, but it stops there. After a quick punch to the temple that would have killed any normal person, the Servant groans and kicks him away, sending him flying to the wall. Before he can react, the lance pierces his heart mercilessly.

    "Damn, you really were a troublesome man. Giving info to the enemy too... Ha! What's done is done. That was a nice last move, you can draw your last breath with honor."

    He smiles at the agonizing man, who does not react. He has lost and will die in a matter of seconds, feeling as empty as ever. His last thoughts are Caster's worried face. If he had ever had one wish, it would have been to see her win.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    We eventually got out of the bath. The girls left first and let Sella and Leysritt carry me around again. They dried my body up with diligence and even left me some space to vomit with all my might. I guess eating with a messed up stomach was a bad call. I was given new pants, but kept topless so that my wounds could breathe. Now I am back in the bed. The bath had a positive effect, although having it with Saber and Ilya was... a bit too much. Damn, Ben, this is not the time. The afternoon is getting to an end, and I still can't stand on my own. I've thought about tightening my seal, but I quickly realized why Saber hadn't done it as soon as she could: without the additional energy, we are doomed for now. Thus I have to endure regular prana bursts that send waves of pain through my whole body.

    There is a soft knock at my door. Only one person would bother doing that.

    "Saber? Come in."

    My Servant enters the room. She is back to her usual clothes and did her hair too. She seems less weakened than this morning and I hope it isn't just a facade. Seeing her warms my heart but also makes that towel incident harder to push aside.

    "Ben, can we have a talk? There are some topics we need to discuss."

    That reminds me of the first time we sat down and talked, back in the dojo. That was forever ago, though. I smile at her from the bottom of my heart.

    "Ah, yes. There is actually something I want to talk about. Sit down with me."

    I tap the side of the bed. She blushes slightly but obeys, sitting next to my legs.

    "Then I shall listen to you first. What is on your mind?"

    I've been thinking, and now seems like the perfect time to get back to a particular topic.

    "Saber... Arturia, this is probably the last calm moment we will spend together. No matter what happens next, I want to appreciate it while I can."

    She looks away. "Do not speak like that... This war is far from over."

    I doubt that, but I don't want to argue at the moment. "All this to say... I have a request."

    "I shall do what I can to fulfill it."

    I ponder about how I could formulate it, but decide to go straight to the point. "I want to know your story."

    Her eyes open widely. "My...? I believe you said you knew my legend well!"

    "I know King Arthur's legend. I want your own story. Please, Saber. We've been fighting together for more than a week, and I'd really like to know you more. I know that it is a selfish request."

    She lowers her head and hesitates. "It is selfish... However, I have no reason to hide things from you. Very well, Ben, I shall tell you what led me here."

    I wish I could do the same...

    The girl that became a king starts narrating her past life in a calm voice.

    Arturia Pendagron was born during the Dark Ages, as the heir of Uther Pendragon. Britain had been abandoned by the Roman empire and was fragmented into smaller countries. As the legitimate heir couldn't be a girl, she was placed under Merlin's protection. Believing in the prophecy about the child that would save the country, he swore to take care of her until the promised day would come. She was raised by a wise knight named Sir Ector. He didn't share Merlin's opinion on the prophecy, but he felt the regal aura she carried and decided to train her as a knight. He did not need to put any effort into that, since the child trained harder and harder every day by herself to be stronger than anyone. She firmly believed that a strong king would save a country in ruins without needing anyone to tell her so.

    "Then, the day of the king's selection arrived."

    I interrupt her for the first time. "I love that part. It was Caliburn, right?"

    Her expression softens as she nods, but it quickly comes back to serious. "Knights from all around the country gathered to the trial location. They all were expecting a traditional joust, but what awaited them was the sword of the rock."

    She says the next words in a solemn tone. "'Whosoe'er pulleth out this sword of this stone is rightwise king born of England'. They all tried, but the blade would not budge. After that, they opted for jousting, but as an apprentice, I could not take part in it."

    She looks at the window. "As such, I walked to the sword. I could feel it, Ben... I could feel it was calling me. As I laid my hand on the handle, Merlin gave me a warning."

    He told her that as soon as she would pull out Caliburn, she would no longer be a human. She knew that already. The king killed people to protect people. The king needed to stand above emotions and concerns. She had understood all that, and she knew that it was her role. I can picture her, standing in front of the lone rock, right before becoming a legend. I naively thought that she was a normal girl before being crowned, but I realize that... Saber was always Saber, at least a part of her.

    The sword was pulled out as if it were only natural to do so, and the area was filled with light. She became something not human in that instant.

    The king's gender doesn't matter, and no one will care about the king's appearance or even notice it as long as the king acts like one. She took Camelot as a home, and surrounded herself with knights that would become almost as famous as her. Her body stopped aging, and some found it ominous. Most people saw it as a good sign, though. The king was blessed by the fairies and immortal. Only a very few people knew the truth about her gender, including her wife Guinevere.

    I grin. "Your wife, eh?"

    Saber gives me her trademark glare. "This was out of obligation, Ben."

    The king would cover herself in steel all the time, hiding the truth from her knights. Some had suspicions, but dismissed them as they saw how she led her armies. Ten years of reign, twelve victories. Arturia became a god of war, always fighting on the front line and leading her troops with mastery. Many innocents would die under her reign because of the chaotic era the country was thrown into. People needed a strong king, so that's what she became, completely annihilating what was left of humanity in her.

    For each step she took on the path to being an ideal ruler, she distanced herself from humanity. She was beyond people's feelings, and one knight uttered that she could not understand her people. She had been balancing the country affairs perfectly, punishing those who needed to be so without a mistake and killed more people than anyone. All this without a regret.

    I sigh. "They wanted you to be perfect, but then complained?"

    She looks downcast. "I suppressed my emotions and failed to notice the crack opening up. Treason came from the inside, as you probably know. Lancelot and Guinevere loved each other, and I had to execute her in the end. I had forgiven them both, but I still had to punish the crime, as a ruler."

    I try to lighten the mood a bit. "Damn, and I lied to you... I feel very brave, suddenly."

    She pouts. "This is no laughing matter, Ben! Why am I even telling you all this?"

    "Sorry. Go on."

    When she was away to lead another battle, Avalon was stolen, and she came back to find her country torn by civil unrest. She had to fight her own army in the last battle of Camlann, and was mortally wounded by the knight Mordred.

    "The crack has opened up. As I was dying, Sir Bedivere escorted me to a holy island, and I ordered him to throw Excalibur back to the Lady of the Lake. Then, I made a pact to become a heroic spirit, as I already explained to you."

    There is a long pause. I knew all that, but hearing it from her is entirely different. I am currently at a loss of words. The pain pulsating through my brain doesn't help either.

    "I... I fought Lancelot during the past war."

    Her expression makes my heart sink. I reach out for her hand with my right one and she lets me hold it without a protest.

    "What happened, Saber?"

    "I thought that he hated me, for valid reasons. However, his last words still haunt me to this day. 'I just wanted to be judged by you'. If I had shown him anger, or any emotion, rather than remaining steeped in self-righteousness... he would not have fallen into madness."

    She looks at me with teary eyes, which is a shock. I've never seen her losing her composure so much. "Do you understand, Ben? I could not save my people, nor my country. I looked too far ahead and forgot who was standing behind me. Britain was back to chaos when I fell, and I accomplished nothing but destruction."

    She grits her teeth. "I have sinned more than anyone. My wish is to never have picked Caliburn, as a better suited king might have actually saved Britain."

    "Saber... but what would everyone that fought at your side become? Do you really want to erase all these accomplishments, only to bet on an unknown alternate future?"

    "They would have a chance to know a better fate. My decision is taken, Ben."

    "Okay, but what would you become if that happens? Accomplishing your wish, vanishing from history, and becoming a Servant forever? Is that really what you want? Urgh...!"

    I hold on to my seal, as a particularly nasty bolt of pain assaults me. Saber flinches. I guess she must feel it through our connection.

    "Ben... To answer your question, I have no importance. King Arthur failed and will vanish. No one will miss him as a better ruler will take his place."

    "I will."

    That stops her. "You..."

    "I will miss you! I just... I just can't imagine you disappearing and ending up all alone like this! You are important to me."

    She looks at me with intensity for a moment. For once, I hold her stare. Then, she stands up and walks in front of the bed, staring at me with a gentle expression.

    "Saber...?"

    "I thank you for your care, Ben. You are a person that I definitely enjoyed serving."

    Wait... why is she using the past tense? I wish I could stand up and walk to her, but the pain is almost unbearable right now.

    "However, it does not change my oath. I will obtain the Holy Grail, one day, and become a full Servant. I could not save anyone, but I can still save you."

    She's genuinely scaring me now. "What?! What do you mean? Ugh..."

    Goddamnit, body, stop!

    Her green eyes shine with determination. "I have taken a decision. You are likely to die if you remain in that state, thus the only solution is to tighten your seal."

    She starts walking to me as my mind crashes. No way...

    "This will slow down the healing of the wounds due to Archer and you won't emit enough energy to keep me in this world. However, I can use the rest of my own to heal you fully, extract Avalon, and leave. You will have enough energy to escape this dangerous city along with Ilyasviel."

    My heart shatters. She's coming closer!

    "There's no way I will allow that! Where the hell does that idea come from?"

    She narrows her eyes. "I have infinite tries, but you only have one life. If I can save you, it is my duty to not hesitate. Now, Ben, hold still. I shall do my best."

    She extends her hand towards me...

    "Don't touch it!"

    My shout must have echoed in the whole castle. There is an intense red light flashing, and my Servant is pushed back violently against the wall. She looks at me in confusion.

    "Saber? I..."

    She does not give me any chance to continue, as she leaves the room with an expression I'd rather not have seen. I raise my right hand and look at its back. One less Command Spell. I don't regret using it at all, though. I will end this war at her side. Before I can start thinking about the situation, my body punishes me for using magic.


    "Agh!"

    I flinch. Tears roll, but they aren't all due to the physical pain.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    The knight aimlessly wanders in the castle corridors, greatly shaken by what just happened.

    "How could he...?"

    A voice echoes behind her, answering her muttering. "Why are you walking around like this, Saber?"

    She turns back to face Ilyasviel, ready to hide her mental state. "I just needed some time to think. What are you doing?"

    The small girl pouts. "This is my home... Also, I heard Ben shouting, so I was worried."

    "There is nothing to worry about, Ilyasviel."

    Her voice does not sound convinced at all, and she is surprised by how weak it is. She has been replenishing some energy through the day, but she feels empty, somehow.

    Ilyasviel gives her a comprehensive smile. "Come with me. I know somewhere that's good for when you are sad."

    Her mature expression takes Saber off guard, and she silently follows her. They soon reach a big balcony that allows them to see a large portion of the forest. The sun is setting.

    "I already came here with your mother and Kiritsugu."

    Bitter memories come back to her mind. She fought in this forest, and her Master kept disrespecting her.

    "Kiritsugu, the traitor... We were both stabbed in the back by his actions from ten years ago. Are you making this face because of the past, Saber?"

    Is there a point in hiding the truth? As a knight, lying to an ally would be unacceptable, but it is the fact that the girl seems to genuinely care that pushes Saber to answer honestly.

    "I am not. It is because of my Master."

    "I heard what he screamed. What didn't he want you to touch?"

    She smiles at that but Saber does not understand why. "His seal."

    Her eyes widen. "You wanted to loosen it more?"

    "O-Of course not! I wanted to tighten it. He is going to die if I do not take any measure."

    "Really? His wounds are healing up just fine. His prana overflow is the biggest problem, but tightening the seal would certainly be bad for your Servant-Master link, wouldn't it?"

    "You are sharp... However, Benjamin only has one life, while I have as many tries as I want. I planned on tightening the seal and healing him with the rest of my energy."

    "That is depressing... Was that scream due to your plan?"

    The Servant looks at the sunset. "Yes. He used a Command Spell with such determination that I doubt I will be able to ever touch that thing again. I do not understand him."

    That is answered in matter-of-fact tone. "Yet you are happy with that outcome, aren't you?"

    She looks back at the narrowed red eyes, confused. "How did you even come to that conclusion?"

    Ilyasviel smiles happily. "I haven't known Benben for long, but he seems pretty stubborn. You knew that he would be against it. Since he was unable to move, you could have done what you were planning without announcing it first. If you were sure of your own feelings, that is."

    "That's..."

    She is speechless. She hadn't thought about this at all, but her companion makes a valid point there.

    "I... was unsure?"

    Ilyasviel walks to her side. "It's just my opinion, Saber. It is pretty clear from an external point of view. What saddens you in the end?"

    That is easier to answer. "He is putting his own life after mine, although I am his Servant."

    For some reason, it makes the small girl giggle.

    "Ilyasviel?"

    "People do absurd things for the ones they love."

    That makes her brain stop for a second, as if all the blood keeping it active went to her cheeks instead.

    "Do not say such irrelevant things, please."

    She dances around her with a childish cheerfulness. "Benben is unlucky to like a person so slow! Even I noticed how he looked at you."

    "There is nothing of the..."

    She interrupts herself and gives it more thought. He has always acted weird towards her and rarely treated her as a Servant.

    "If you fall, I fall too."

    That sentence he said still makes no sense to her. Ilya's smug face is starting to be unsettling. "Don't you like him? You were planning on sacrificing yourself in order for him to live, after all."

    "That is only my role as a Servant!"

    "Hmm..."

    She hums happily for a while, as Saber tries to regain her composure.

    "Say, Saber, I have an idea..."

    "What is it?"

    The small girl hugs her right arm in an affectionate manner.

    "I-Ilyasviel?"

    "I like you now! For a Servant, you are a lovely being. You know what plan could work out?"

    The praise embarrasses her, but curiosity takes over. "Please enlighten me."

    "Have Ben give up on his rights as a Master, make a pact with me and we will have all the energy we need to heal him up for good and tighten his seal!"

    She takes Saber's hand and faces her. "My wish was to avenge my family, but since the Emiyas died, I can win the Holy Grail for you two!"

    The more Saber thinks about it, the more appealing this plan sounds on the logical side. She would gain access to a huge prana pool, her Master would be safe and they could win the Holy Grail War more easily. However...

    Ilyasviel voices it before her with a bitter smile. "He would never accept, would he?"

    Saber shakes her head. "He would not. Stubborn as he is, I bet that he would rather fight to his own death than give up on his rights as a Master. Also..."

    She blushes again. "Sorry, Ilyasviel, but I do not wish for another Magus to be my Master for this war."

    Instead of taking offense, the girl smiles as if she has just won a prize. "See? I was right. You two cannot be separated."

    The knight gasps. "Was the only purpose of that suggestion to gauge my emotions?"

    "Hmhm. I'm glad you admitted it. Plus, I couldn't be your Master. As the end of the war approaches, I take in more and more Servant souls."

    Her face turns back to serious. "I took a bath with you, but I could not feel the heat of it. I don't feel the taste of the food either. Soon, I won't even be able to walk on my own. That is my fate as a vessel."

    Saber knows that too well. Irisviel's body deteriorated badly after Servants started dying in the last war.

    "I am... sorry, Ilyasviel. I am bothering you when you have to deal with such a burden."

    The girl shakes her head. "Don't apologize. Helping you two makes me feel a bit better. I will fulfill my role without a regret."

    "Understood."

    Both look back to the fading sunset, and Saber is still lost. Ben is being unreasonable, but is she really as objective as she believes to be?

    Ilyasviel looks at her. "Do you know what you will do now?"

    "I will... stay with him until the end. We will face any threat, no matter what our condition is. If no one attacks us during the night, I should be able to fight properly tomorrow."

    Using her Noble Phantasm will be out of the question, however. She is perfectly aware of that, and all the remaining Servants are almost impossible to kill without using it. Still, as long as she stands, she can fight.

    She gives a small hug to Ilyasviel. "Thank you for your help. My mind is clearer now."

    The small girl hugs her back and speaks in a dreamy voice. "You think too much, Saber... Be yourself."

    They separate soon and the Servant walks back to the stairs, thinking about that last advice.

    "Saber?"

    She turns back to the balcony. "What is it?"

    The white hair flutters around as she fidgets. "You know about other ways of replenishing energy, don't you?"

    Her mouth hangs open in shock. "You..."

    "Ah, of course you do, sorry. Good night!"

    After a pause, she heads back to her Master's room. Of course there is a way of strengthening the bond between a Master and a Servant without consuming magical energy, but it is... She does not know if it would be appropriate. For now, she shall focus on taking care of him in non-embarrassing ways.

    She pushes the door open, and finds him lying on his back, exactly like when she left. He seems to be asleep and she can see traces of tears on his cheeks. His left arm is full of dark marks made by his destroyed nerves. Even if they tightened the seal, it would never go back to normal again. It is her fault if he loosened it that much. She curses her own failure and sits on the side of the bed before putting her hand on his chest.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    I fall into a semi-sleep, filled with bad dreams and pain. Most of them involve Saber disappearing. She tried to leave me... Did I fail that much? As I wake up, I realize that the pain has slightly gone away. My partner is sitting next to me. The night has fallen and I can't decipher her expression clearly.

    "Saber..."

    My eyes are still wet from crying earlier, and I feel a bit ashamed.

    "Rest, Ben. I will watch over you and make sure you get better."

    I shake my head. "I need to talk to you."

    She stays silent, telling me without a word that she will listen with attention.

    "You said you had failed your mission as a Servant yesterday, but that's wrong. You saved me. You also saved me when Berserker attacked us on the first night, when Rider attacked me, when Caster tried to burn me down..."

    She hesitates before answering. "Your Command Spell saved us the last time."

    "No. Don't you get it? Avalon has saved my life countless times already. As you said, I would have died immediately after Archer's attack without it."

    I take a breath, fighting against the latent pain. "The lost sheath is yours, and your energy runs through me to keep me alive. It isn't a feeling that I want to lose. You could have kept it for yourself and become an invincible Servant, but you shared your power with me."

    "You are putting too much value on that act..."

    "You wanted to sacrifice your wish for me earlier, Saber. I won't allow that. We will fight together until the end, even if I have to crawl. I know that I'm a mess right now, but it's already better than this morning. Tomorrow, I should be able to walk and only have to deal with the prana bursts. I'm sorry about that, they must be painful for you too."

    "No! It is nothing compared to what you are enduring. And your arm..."

    She looks at it with concern. I smile. "Yeah, pretty ugly eh? Rin would be mad if she..."

    I can't finish my sentence. As strong as I may act, I liked being Rin's friend. I must manage to suppress that feeling.

    Saber makes an unusually heavy sigh. "You are as stubborn as ever, Master. Lending you Avalon was definitely a good move, since we would have lost early because of your recklessness."

    "Heh, that's true. Still... you saved me."

    I look straight into her green eyes. "My will hasn't faltered. I want to fight this war with you to the end."

    She blushes and looks away. "That makes little sense. Have you ever seen me as a Servant?"

    "... Not really. I'm not fond of the system. You are my companion, partner, however you want to call it. I wanted to be a proper Master but... I couldn't do it after meeting you. I see you as a proud king and a strong woman, not as a tool. Is that bad?"

    "That's..."

    The door opens. Saber interrupts herself and looks at the intruder.

    "Ilyasviel?"

    The small girl walks to us slowly with a blank expression that really worries me. Did someone break into the forest?

    "Ilya, what's happening?"

    Her eyes meet mine and her voice shakes. "I'm... not feeling too well..."

    As Saber stands up to check on her, the vessel passes out and falls on the ground.


    ---


    Sella and Leysritt came to Ilya's rescue and carried her to her room. I don't know what state we will find her in the morning, and that thought depresses me.

    Saber is standing at the window, looking outside. "Let us hope that no enemy attacks the castle during the night."

    I nod. "The maids said they would be on watch. The castle is also pretty hard to find, so there's a good chance that we won't be disturbed, I think."

    "That is a good point, Ben. We still need to be careful."

    She walks to my side and draws a chair near the side of the bed. I raise an eyebrow. "What are you doing now?"

    She tilts her head. "The same as always... What is wrong?"

    "You need as much rest as possible. Get some sleep."

    That makes her frown. "I refuse to go to a separate room when we could be attacked."

    "I know that, silly. This bed is large enough for us to fit in. It's not like we haven't slept in the same one before."

    I can see her blushing under the moonlight. "That's..."

    "Please. I'm convinced that this is our last peaceful night. Let's just rest as well as we can."

    "Understood."

    I get to the left side of the bed while she undoes her hair. She lifts the blankets and gets into it before lying on her back. For once I am not embarrassed, rather happy to have her nearby. I must enjoy these moments while I still can, even in such a state.

    "How are your wounds?"

    I turn my head to the right and our stares cross. "They've healed up well, thanks to the prana flow. My biggest concern now is the seal's instability. Is it painful for you?"

    "It is not, however the random bursts could be a burden in a fight. Now that I cannot tighten it anymore, I will just have to stand them."

    She pouts in a cute manner.

    "Ah, sorry about that, Saber. I just couldn't stand the idea of you disappearing before our victory."

    "You care too much about me, and not enough about yourself."

    A shadow crosses her face. "At first I thought you gave the same value to both of our lives, but the more we advance, the more I feel that it is even worse than that."

    How can I answer that? Would I value my life more if my death was real? Perhaps it wouldn't change anything. I think I would have led the same war if I had belonged to this world, because of her.

    "I cannot devaluate a life. Of course I value yours as much as mine."

    "I knew it... You are aware that I do not actually die if I vanish, aren't you?"

    I reach out to her, slowly, and touch her shoulder. "What are you talking about? You exist here. If you vanish, you are dead for me. I will not see you again, and I won't be able to spend such moments with you. It isn't much different from death."

    She is speechless for a moment. Her expression becomes emotional. "Still, I will be gone when the war ends. You have definitely put too much value in my existence."

    I remove my hand and shrug. "I'm compensating for you not caring about it, in some way."

    A sigh. "You really are impossible... I talked with Ilyasviel after our argument."

    That's what she was doing... "What did she say?"

    "She gave me some advice. I had always pictured her as an enemy, but she is a sweet person. She made me understand why you took such strange decisions."

    She gives me a serious look. "Following your heart is not necessarily bad, though please do not give it to the wrong person."

    Said heart skips a beat without my permission.

    "Saber..."

    "It makes more sense if I look at your behavior that way."

    I gulp. "Ilya is sharp, isn't she? I... Well, it's not exactly wrong."

    She comes back to a seated position and stares at me with a disturbing intensity.

    "Speak clearly, Ben."

    "I... might have fallen for you on the way."

    There, I said it. Her eyes widen. "I told you my past, and my oath... This is unfair. You know what awaits me, yet you are telling me something like this?"

    I nod. "I am. It's not something I can control."

    There is a long silence before she lies down again, rolls to the left and puts a hand on my heart, exactly like two days ago.

    "Saber?"

    "Shhh."

    She relaxes while cuddling with me and speaks up after a moment. "I cannot answer such feelings, as I am your Servant. I am here to win this war at your side, and nothing else. I cannot betray my oath."

    I refrain from yelling at her that her wish is stupid with difficulty. Her next words come out in a broken voice.

    "I am sorry. Really..."

    The hand on my chest tightens its grip, and I feel something wet against my arm. Tears... I move it behind her back in order to pull her closer, and she lets me do so without a protest.

    "I... I understand."

    I can feel her mouth curling up. "I told you to stop lying..."

    It is kind of hard to hear such words when she's that close to me. A long moment passes and I'm starting to think she's fallen asleep, but she speaks up hesitantly.

    "Ben?"

    "Hmm?"

    "Ilyasviel mentioned... something else."

    "What was it?"

    She hesitates before pulling back from the embrace.

    "Uh, Saber?"

    "There is another way... I just had trouble accepting it until now."

    The only way I know of is using physical energy rather than magical. Which means... She stands up and locks the door before facing the bed. Her cheeks are red, and her green eyes are looking everywhere except me. She starts undoing the buttons of her outfit, slowly. I can't take my eyes off her.

    "Do not stare that much, please..."

    That request is completely ignored as her clothes fall on the ground, revealing her slender, pale body. It isn't like this afternoon... The atmosphere is completely different. She walks to the side of the bed and gets back under the blankets.

    "We can strengthen our bond and get some energy back via this method... We should do everything we can to win."

    I turn to my right side with difficulty and look at her. Her shoulders are trembling.

    "Saber..."

    I motion her to approach, keeping my painful left arm raised. She gives me a small nod and comes near me. I embrace her as softly as I can. Feeling her skin against mine drives my mind insane. Her voice echoes against my chest.

    "I know that I am not a pretty woman like Rin. The sight of a warrior's body is unrefined, and I have too much muscle. I..."

    I force her to raise her head and look at me. "Stop. You are a beautiful person, no matter what you believe."

    "Ben... but even so... I just told you harsh things, and now we are like this... I feel like I am playing with you, and I do not like it."

    The situation is certainly weird, but I can't really complain. My reason is drifting away, but I try to keep it afloat a bit more.

    "This night is probably the last quiet one we'll have. If we can make it unforgettable, let's do so. I will let you go at the end of the war, but right now, you are mine."

    She gasps as I hug her more tightly. "Ben... That's..."

    "Are you having second thoughts? We can stop immediately if you want to."

    She looks at me, pouting. "I am not. You should know that I abide by my own decisions."

    That makes me laugh quietly. "I know that for sure. I just don't want us to do it out of obligation. Do you mind doing such a thing with me?"

    There's a pause as she avoids my gaze. "... No, Ben, I do not mind."


    INTERLUDE - RIN


    "Wasn't the church a better track to follow, given what that Master said?"

    "Are you still going on about that, Archer? I want to check out this place, and... the air is really heavy here. Can't you feel it?"

    The Servant crosses his arms. She made him materialize so that they could draw attention. Tonight is hunting night.

    "You are right, Rin. It is probably linked to the war getting to an end, but this temple won't certainly remain quiet for too long."

    "We agree then. Besides, we should avoid the church for now. We're lacking knowledge about what Servant might live there, and if Kirei really is a Master, we shouldn't approach him without a plan."

    Archer snickers. "Such caution."

    "We will talk about this later. This is not a place to hold a strategy meeting. Do you feel anything?"

    "I am not hiding my presence, as you requested. For now, the boundary field is troubling my senses."

    The night has just started, and the sky is ominous. Now that she has all her Command Spells and a Servant at full power, she has no reason to remain inactive. If an enemy answers their call, they will strike them down without hesitating. It doesn't take too long for their plan to work out, as someone appears at the gate. Rin narrows her eyes... This is...

    Archer steps forward. "Gilgamesh."

    The enemy carries an aura as frightening as last time, and Rin backs away with caution.

    "I do not believe I ever introduced myself to you, faker. Could it be that... Ah, it must be that Magus' doing."

    Is he talking about... The dots start connecting in her head, but now is definitely not the time. Archer remains silent and focused as Gilgamesh advances.

    "It is fortunate that you showed yourself like this. I shall not be summoned in such a crude manner unless the offender needs punishment."

    He emits a murderous intent that sends shivers down her spine and glares at Archer. "You mocked the king's treasure and claimed my possession, Saber, when you took down the one that thought he owned her. You stepped in my territory."


    Archer answers in his usual mocking tone. "I told you before, I have no king. Man, such ego will only consume you."

    There is no Master standing next to the king of heroes, but Rin was expecting it. The Archer class' speciality is independent action, and she's still uncertain that he is actually a pure Servant.

    "Enough. I sentence you to death, sham."

    Numerous weapons appear above him. They are all Noble Phantasms, and Rin can't think of a way to counter them. However, Archer revealed himself to be specialized in projection magic. She recalls a conversation they had earlier that day about this particular opponent, and now she knows how it must go.

    If the plan works, they have no reason to lose.


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - ARCHER


    The red knight's mocking expression turns to pure focus.

    "I am the bone of my sword."


    He starts his chant and analyzes all the visible weapons in an instant. As Gilgamesh fires them, he fires the exact same amount back at him, like that night. The attacks cancel each other, but it was just a warmup. The golden Servant laughs.

    "Ha! You can certainly reproduce what you see, though I doubt you can hold that rhythm for too long. Let us see..."

    "Steel is my body and fire is my blood."


    Twice as many weapons appear. None of them are particularly powerful, as Gilgamesh seems to be only counting on numbers. Archer uses the same counter but draws his bow right after, firing a barrage of arrows at the king. A shield immediately appears in front of him and blocks them all.

    "I do not know what spell you are preparing, lowlife, but do not think I will allow it."

    Gilgamesh could aim at Rin to take the advantage, but he seems to have made a personal affair of dealing with Archer, which is perfect for them. As he smiles arrogantly, two big halberds appear above his head. Archer copies their basic structure in an instant and they are shot almost simultaneously. However...

    "This shall make a quite ironic end for you."

    Using the clash of the big weapons as a diversion, Gilgamesh shoots a single sword at Archer's feet. His keen eye saves him and allows him to jump high above the landing impact, as the twisted sword he knows too well explodes. The shockwave still reaches him, but the wound is minor.

    "Kaladbolg? Damn, he really is no pushover."

    He summons a wave of swords and throws them at Gilgamesh to cover his landing. They are countered easily, and the Servant looks at him with confidence.

    "That is what I thought. Your limits are really easy to reach, faker."

    "I have created over a thousand blades."


    He ignores the remark and continues the chant. He needs to finish it before the opponent starts to take him seriously. His energy rises and the king's smile drops.

    "Let me show you the difference in our ranks, mongrel."

    He snaps a finger and his attack method changes. The swords are now shot continuously as if the enemy were using the deadliest automatic weapon, and Archer certainly cannot keep up with that rhythm. He extends a hand.

    "Rho Aias!"

    The flower-shaped shield appears. It will take on any regular weapon without a scratch. The torrent of steel crashes on it, sending pain through his arm. He must hurry.

    "Unknown to Death
    Nor known to Life."

    He hears an exclamation of surprise from the enemy before calling his Master via telepathy.

    "Rin, make sure you're within its range as well."

    "Yes, Archer."

    Their plan involves her being caught in the Reality Marble, as risky as it may be. He feels her approaching from behind.

    "Have withstood pain to create many weapons"

    The barrage stops, and Gilgamesh raises a hand. "To think I would use my mightiest treasures against a sham..."

    A single sword flies at Rho Aias. Archer knows it too well. It is Gram, the sword from which Excalibur and Caliburn originated. There is no way he could project that, so he has to endure it. It hits the shield violently, releasing a wave of energy.


    "Ugh-"

    Petals are destroyed one after one, and blood starts dripping from his arm. His body is linked to the shield, and he should survive the hit if it resists.

    "Yet... those hands will never hold anything..."


    Four petals are destroyed before the sword disappears. Archer casts off the shield as Gilgamesh glares at him. There is a heavy silence during which they gauge each other, then the golden hero raise a hand.


    "Now die."

    "So as I pray, Unlimited Blade Works."

    "What?"


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - RIN


    A ring of fire engulfs them all as the spell is completed. The scenery changes to a wasteland filled with swords, and huge gears can be seen in the sky. Rin stares at it in awe and finds it extremely sad. It is the land of someone that fought alone to the end.

    Gilgamesh doesn't show as much interest. "A Reality Marble? Is that what you were hiding? I do not see how this changes anything."

    Floating weapons are summoned above him again, but before they can even appear entirely, as many fly from the ground and destroy them.

    "... Bastard, what have you done?"

    The king is beyond angry now. Rin gulps. If he wasn't being serious until now, he will definitely go all out. Archer stares at him with a cold expression.

    "It is simple, king of heroes. As you are an owner, I am a maker. Those concepts seem different, but they are closely linked in a battle like this."

    His presence completely changed, and Rin can't help being amazed. Maybe he wasn't bluffing when saying he could beat anyone. That trick is certainly using a lot of her prana, but it's worth it.

    "Do not compare your pale imitations to my treasures!"

    "Imitations? Ah, surely they are not as mighty as your legendary items. Do you really think that it will matter in this place?"

    He closes his eyes and smiles. "I have nothing more to say to you. Drown in your gigantic ego and regret crossing the path of the perfect counter to your powers incarnated."

    Gilgamesh's arrogant facade breaks. "Do not think too highly of yourself, peasant!"

    The amount of summoned swords is incomparable to the previous waves, but they are all countered again. Archer doesn't leave him the time to breathe and calls forth two giant blades that fly at him. The king steps back for the first time to dodge, but the red knight dashes after him, grabbing a longsword on the way. Gilgamesh summons a black sword in his hand and repels the direct attack with a powerful blow. Archer stares at the blade.

    "Dainslief? I see, you compensate your poor swordsmanship with the most powerful weapons you can find."

    "Bastard..."

    A barrage of swords fly at him, but they are repelled again. Archer calls for his own to surround Gilgamesh, and they fly to him from every direction. He summons a shield in time, but some of them manage to harm him, which finishes off his patience.

    "Take this!"

    A sphere made of small gates appears around Archer. Using his quick reflexes and accurate vision, he manages to counter them again. It seems to cost him a lot of prana, though, and Rin knows that this fight must not go on for too long. Her Command Spell throbs. They must finish Gilgamesh off as soon as possible.

    "You are stronger than me here..."

    The golden knight admits the truth before throwing Dainslief along with other swords to Archer. They are countered again, but it is just a diversion. Rin sees it and calls her Servant mentally.

    "Archer! He is pulling out something odd!"

    "I saw. Now is the time, Rin."

    That spinning sword is ominous. Deeply, Rin knows that if it's used, they will both perish in a single strike. It is probably Gilgamesh's ultimate weapon.

    "Face the mightiest weapon in existence, lowlife!"

    "Anfang!"

    Rin puts some energy into her legs, recalling a conversation she had with Archer earlier that day.

    "So, your Reality Marble can lock him up?"

    "Yes, Rin, in theory. From what I've seen, I will be able to act faster than him, since he has to summon his weapons, and mine will be ready to strike."

    She clapped her hands happily. "That means we can totally beat him!"

    He was quick to temper her enthusiasm. "I doubt it will be that easy. Such hero has obviously more trump cards than that chain. He probably owns a few weapons that I can't counter. We need to come up with a plan."

    They thought about it for a while, until Rin recalled something Ben had said days ago.

    "There is... something we can do."

    Now, the situation that they feared is happening, but the plan can unfold. She had ten B-rank jewels at the beginning of the war. She used six in the two fights against Berserker, and one against Saber. She takes two wind ones in her hand and dashes at high speed towards the enemy. He spots her too late, focused as he is on Archer.

    "What are you-"

    She throws them directly at him. He shouldn't have a high resistance to magic, given his class.

    "Zwei, drei!"

    The two jewels explode against a hastily summoned shield, but their goal wasn't to hurt him. The flash blinds him for the second that they need.

    "By my Command Spell, I order you, Archer... teleport behind him."

    It happens in an instant. Before the king can recover, the twin blades pierces his chest from behind. Blood comes out of his mouth.

    "Command... Spell?"

    Archer enlarges the hole without mercy and calls other blades to pierce Gilgamesh's body from every spot. The golden Servant falls on the ground.

    "Im... possible... Me, killed by an unknown man and his owner?"

    The red knight raises Kanshou. "Killed by your ego. If you had pulled out your sword from the beginning, you would have defeated us easily."

    "Curse you... Archer. I hope you drown in the filthy contents of the cup."

    The short sword cuts off his head, and his body disappears. After casting off Unlimited Blade Works, the winner sighs.

    "That was close... I didn't expect that plan to work out. I guess Saber's Master was useful to us in a way."

    She glares at him. "Stop with that. Let's get home before another enemy catches us."

    He carries her to make sure they leave as fast as possible.

    "By the way, Archer... Good job."

    "I told you you would regret praising Saber eventually."


    INTERLUDE OUT


    "That was... Did you feel it?"

    "Yeah... I guess it worked."

    She smiles and kisses my cheek tenderly before falling asleep. I follow her soon, exhausted.






    To be continued in Day 9 - The Bitter Reunion
    "I want to tell you what I am. Who I am."
    "It is time to end the play."
    "I, Arturia Pendragon, King of Britain, will face and defeat you now."
    "Lay... seh... moah... entray..."
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    This is the big day. And... it's split into parts. Of course there will be cliffhangers. Of course you will hate them. Am I evil yet?



    DAY 9 - THE BITTER REUNION

    FIRST MOVEMENT - APPREHENSION


    Spoiler:


    I wake up, alone in my bed. The sun seems to have risen a while ago. I'm not surprised, given how tiring yesterday was.

    "I hate mornings..."

    I yawn loudly and enjoy the blankets' warmth for a bit longer before getting on my feet. It would almost seem like a usual morning if the war wasn't raging. My foggy vision scans the room without purpose and ends up landing on a particular item. I take it in my hands and glare at it.

    "Geez, don't look at me like that. I had to do it."

    The stuffed cat keeps his crafty stare up. I wonder what I was expecting...

    "We had agreed on the terms of our pact, and you lied to me. You jerk."

    My brain boils up in anger and I throw the plush across the room with energy. I think the lion must be somewhere in the guest room, but I don't really want to see it now.

    To be honest, I can't stop thinking about Ben. Archer has been lecturing me about that since I made the mistake of telling him that I felt bitter. He obviously enjoyed shooting those arrows a bit too much. I grab the plush again. It is completely oblivious to my rage, which only increases it.

    "You earned it! You should have at least shown some suspicion instead of trusting me blindly!"

    He never doubted me to the end. He saved my life a few times and he could have killed me easily on that night in the courtyard. So... why? Why did he have to be such a person?

    "I like you."

    "Come on, it's not like we haven't gotten along."


    "It'll be hard to fight you."


    He even showed me his weak spot as if it was nothing, and I killed him in response. I do not regret it, mind you, but I still feel guilty, somehow. Having such concerns in the middle of a war... I guess I really am too good-natured.

    What drove me to do it was a revelation Archer made to me while we were patrolling the town on the same day. I am sure that the smartass waited for the last moment to get a stronger effect, as he had known it for a while.

    "Rin, there is something I need to tell you."

    "What is it, Archer?"

    "On the night you both went to the church, I met Lancer."

    That pissed me off. "... And you're telling me that just now!?"

    "He wanted to tell me something, and I felt that repeating it to you before today would cause problems."

    I was tempted to kick his butt, but curiosity took over. "So... what did he want?"

    "His Master wanted us to know what had happened on that night, probably in order to disturb our alliance."

    I instantly caught the reference, as we had been talking about "that" night very often. "Don't tell me..."

    "I think you already know. When Lancer chased after the boy to finish him off, he stumbled upon Saber and her Master. It is as we suspected."

    That was a hard hit. I had always had suspicions, but they had started to fade away since Ben seemed like a good person at heart.

    "Can we trust Lancer on this?"

    The Servant answered with an irritated voice. "Who knows? However, in this case, there's no strategic value in lying to us about something that's already happened. Weren't you the one putting too much trust in our enemies, for starters?"

    "Hey now..."

    "Rin, I give you a warning. As soon as Berserker dies, I will shoot down that boy without mercy. I withheld this information so that you wouldn't mess up before the big fight, but since it is getting near..."

    "What the hell does that mean!? Do you trust me at all, Archer?"

    "I do, but I also know that you can make bad decisions, like the one that made you lose a Command Spell."

    I couldn't really argue against that. I believe that I am a pretty smart person, but I have a tendency to mess up at the most important moments. Kind of a curse, really.

    "Then... I will follow your decision. I would have disapproved of such an act, but since he is a murderer..."

    "Really? I thought you liked him."

    I remember blushing at that. "He was a good ally, for a while! We are in a war, and if he can't react to a surprise attack, he cannot win!"

    "I'm glad. I thought that I had completely lost the fierce woman I met nine days ago."

    Then, everything happened. We separated from him to get a good view, helped him as promised and then... shot him down like an animal.

    "Archer, you are atrocious!"


    Her face pops up in my mind, as if I needed that right now... I really liked Saber, and she must have cursed us to the end after that. I wonder if she knew that her Master was a murderer... Probably not. It's not something she would stand for.

    I, Tohsaka Rin, fight this war to win. It could have ended better with them, but the result is here: only Lancer and Archer should remain now. I straighten my pajamas in case I meet the red dork in the hallway and head to the bedroom door.

    I shouldn't worry about the dead... if they really are, that is.


    ---


    "Finally awake... Did yesterday tire you that much?"

    I am greeted like this after my trip to the bathroom. A real gentleman he is. "Shush. I'd rather have a cup of tea than one of sarcasm, thank you."

    He leaves for the kitchen while I crash on the couch with a heavy sigh. I decided to assign him the task of making tea since he's really good at it, for some odd reason. He is back soon with a steaming cup, and I nod in thanks. He lets me take a few sips before speaking, which is considerate coming from such a hard head.

    "Now, Master, what are your plans for today?"

    I have thought about that for half of the night, which partly explains my tiredness. "First, are you really sure that Ben died?"

    "A human would do so from such wounds in a matter of minutes. Even if Saber used her energy to heal him up or he used his own spells, the combination of using such a violent Command Spell and her releasing her Noble Phantasm means that they must have died."

    "That's still a 'must have'. Also, they disappeared with Ilyasviel."

    That was the worst part. If she hadn't been the vessel, we could have just shot that exploding arrow and killed them all! I hate unfinished jobs.

    "I know, Rin. There is a slight possibility that they made it, but I highly doubt it. Plus, they would be very weakened if they did, even after a day of recovery."

    I take another sip while thinking about what he said. "In any case, Archer, do you think you can fight today? I have replenished around half of my energy, but you really went overboard yesterday. Not that I mind, since we killed the strongest Servant ever."

    I still have trouble realizing that. Well, Archer's powers were a perfect counter to Goldie, even if they were incomparable in terms of pure strength.

    He seems pleased by that memory. "We did. Your plan was brilliant, Rin. I am certain that we should have fought that war on our own from the beginning."

    "You may be right..."

    We still would have gotten crushed by Berserker on the night we met Saber if we hadn't cooperated, but that obsolete debate will lead us nowhere.

    "To answer your question, I can fight normally, but casting my Reality Marble again would be irresponsible."

    "Tell me honestly, Archer: can you match Lancer right now?"

    He narrows his eyes before giving me a sheepish look. He is quite immature whenever I question his strength, which is kind of cute in a twisted way.

    "I doubt it. He revealed some of his real strength on that building, and he would destroy me in close combat. My only chance to kill him is to use high level projections, and even so, his speed and Noble Phantasm are unmatched when it comes to duelling."

    I sigh. "Damn, we focused on Berserker and Gilgamesh, but he is really a bother too."

    "Indeed. I am sure I can be a match for him at full strength, though. We still don't know where he is anyway."

    I ponder. "The church is a track, given what Kuzuki said... There is certainly something there."

    He frowns. "That event with Saber and her Master doesn't help either."

    That last lie about what Ben did in the church helped me to follow Archer's plan too. There is no way that nothing happened that night if Saber rushed into the place, yet he completely dropped the topic.

    "I've thought about it, and it's a big stretch, but... I think Gilgamesh must have been related to the church."

    That makes him raise an eyebrow. "How so?"

    "A few things: Kirei is a Master from the last war, so if there is a person that could have him in this world, he is the only suspect we have in Fuyuki."

    I had that epiphany soon after Kuzuki's words. I was mad at myself for not realizing it earlier. "Goldie also mentioned a Magus yesterday night and that could be Ben himself... Also, Caster apparently died quickly. Could Lancer kill her easily?"

    Archer crosses his arms. "That witch was tricky. He could have taken her by surprise, but an overpowered opponent suits that description more. Besides, his Master seems too passive to do such a thing. I see now... Your guess is believable."

    "It also means we still don't know where Lancer is."

    "Unless you are wrong, that is. Do you want to investigate the church?"

    I shake my head. "No. The only opponent we could find there is the blue knight, and we just established that we couldn't win. Plus, there is another priority."

    "Oh?"

    I glare at him. "Come on, Archer, we need the vessel! If Ilyasviel is still alive, we must find and capture her. At worst she will be with weakened companions, and at best alone. It is really a win-win situation. If there really are two remaining Servants, the Grail could appear at any moment."

    He smiles. "If you put it like that, it sounds obvious. Capturing her would give us a decisive advantage."

    "Besides, it's obvious that Lancer's Master must have thought about that too."

    Honestly, that Master, whoever they are, pisses me off. Without their Servant's interruption, we could have ran after Saber, but he made us lose too much time.

    "Why did he even spare us? His Master is impossible to understand."

    Archer shrugs. "No idea. I guess they had a good reason to not kill us."

    That really doesn't help. Such a twisted behavior would only fit one person I know, but I've already linked him to Gilgamesh. My Servant interrupts my pondering.

    "Then, are we headed to the forest?"

    "Yes, as soon as possible. It's a long trip, and she'll know that we are here if Saber was right about the Einzberns' powers, but we are stronger. There is nothing for us to fear... except an attack from Lancer."

    "Do not doubt our team, Rin. I will stand against any opponent, and you still have a usable Command Spell. Are we going now?"

    I yawn. "Soon. Let me wake up first."


    ---


    "Schließung. Verfahren Drei."

    I cast the protection spell on my door before heading to the street. Since we aren't at full strength, I decide to take the bus to the area near the forest. We must be stealthy until we reach it, even if that means going slowly. Archer is with me in spirit form. I look through the window of the half empty bus, lost in thought, until I catch a bit of conversation.

    "Another murder, did you hear?"

    "A teacher from that school!"

    "Stabbed..."

    Damn. I call my Servant via telepathy. "Hear that, Archer?"

    "It seems we were spied on. That is worrisome."

    It can only be Lancer... I don't feel any sympathy for Kuzuki, but I surely hope we aren't being followed right now. I get back to daydreaming and think about the unknown knight I drew for this war.

    An appropriate summary would be reliable jerk. He has been arrogant and way too confident since our very first meeting, even after he destroyed my living room. Since then, he's surely proven himself to be strong and versatile, but I still have zero idea about who he is. His amnesia excuse doesn't make sense anymore, as he unleashed all his powers and apparently had some personal conversations with Saber while we were cooperating.

    I get that he likes to keep secrets. He only told me about Unlimited Blade Works so that we could defeat Gilgamesh. We had a guess that Goldie was angry at him after the courtyard fight, and that's why I brought him to the temple yesterday. I didn't think it would work that well. No matter how hard I try to know who he is, I still don't have a clue. An Archer that projects whatever is on his mind? If such a hero had existed, you bet he would be famous...

    I am about to ask him just to pass time when his voice echoes in my head. "I just thought of something that could be a problem."

    "What is it?"

    "The boy is almost certainly dead, and Saber would not be able to stay in this world for more than a couple of hours if that happened."

    "I know that."

    "Rin, think! They fled with a Servant-less Master."

    My heartbeat accelerates. I hadn't thought about that! "You mean... Out of emergency and to take revenge, Ilyasviel could have made a pact with Saber?"

    "There can be many reasons, but it's definitely a possibility."

    His voice is rarely as serious. "If that happened, Saber has gained access to a prana pool that could control Hercules, and we are running at their base."

    For a moment, I can't answer. It throws away everything that I had considered, and I don't like it. If we face a full-power Saber right now, we will certainly lose.

    "... Rin?"

    "It's just a theory, Archer. I am not backtracking from this. Church, forest, both places are dangerous, and I will get through them without looking back. I hope you are ready too."

    "I knew you would say that. We were meant to be partners, Master."

    His voice is full of pride. Who does he think he is, talking to me like that!? I must look so dumb, blushing alone on the back of a bus!

    "You are terrible..."


    ---


    We get out of the bus in a lost suburb, near the forest. I already am tensed up. The fact that I'm giving more and more credit to the Ilya-Saber theory does not help either.

    "Do you sense or see anything, Archer?"

    The air next to me answers. "Not at all. Let's move."

    I walk at a brisk pace towards the border of the forest, shivering under the cold wind.

    "How many jewels do you have left? The strong ones, that is."

    "Only one... I have a few others that can reinforce me, but they are far below the ten B-rank spells I originally had."

    Ten years worth of savings almost entirely lost. I'd better win this war now, or I will be very angry.

    "I see. It will be useless if we face Saber, so save it for Lancer or a Master."

    "I know that, geez..."

    It's around noon when we reach the trees. I stop at a safe distance and evaluate the perimeter. It is ominous. Something tells me we won't get out of here without a serious fight.

    "Honestly, Archer, I have a bad feeling about this."

    "... I agree. Though we aren't backtracking, are we?"

    "Nope, we aren't!"

    "Do you have any idea about where the castle is, by the way?"

    "Eh, no. We will just have to walk straight ahead and hope to stumble on it. Maybe they will send their hypothetic forces to us before we even reach it."

    I take a deep breath. Come on, Rin, you can do this. We enter the forest, and I can definitely feel the moment we are spotted magically. It isn't one of those nice, green ones that you can see on postcards. That place only smells of death and danger. I don't hear a single bird, nor see any wild animal. I don't feel anything stranger than that, but I ask Archer to materialize. It is partly because I'm feeling kind of lonely, but I won't admit that to him. He walks next to me silently, and his presence really is reassuring.

    He stops after half an hour, though. I turn back to him. "What is it? Did you feel something?"

    "No, Rin. However, there was one thing I wanted to talk about."

    That looks serious. I tilt my head and walk to him. "You really chose the location well for some chitchatting."

    He snickers. "I wished it were only for that. Recent events convinced me of something."

    "What is it? Don't beat around the bush."

    He makes a face that I've never seen before. Bye bye the arrogant smile, now he is looking at me with a pure sincerity which takes me completely off guard.

    "Rin... I want to tell you what I am. Who I am."

    My heart skips a beat, but I can't stop my self-defense protocol. I cross my arms and glare at him. "It's about time. The amnesia excuse doesn't really work anymore, does it?"

    "It was never true. My memories were foggy when you summoned me, but they all came back during the night we fought Lancer, Saber and Berserker."

    "So you are related to Saber? You two seemed to have a weird connection."

    He looks away. "It is... not as simple."

    I wait for him to continue. If I was on a chair, I would be on the edge of it right now. After staring at me intensely for a couple of seconds, he drops the bomb.

    "I will start with the basic introduction. My real name is Emiya. Emiya Shirou."

    "... What?"

    It's impossible. Impossible! He is dead, he was just a random weak Magus and... I stare back at him. He was apparently expecting my reaction.

    "This is not a joke, Rin. Servants are out of the time line."

    My mind restarts as I ponder. "Ah... You mean that one can be summoned from the future?"

    He nods. "Yes. As for the probability of one being summoned during his own lifetime, I didn't think it even existed in the first place. That all changed when I saw you and Saber."

    "But... you died before doing anything."

    His expression darkens. "I come from an alternate reality where you actually saved my life, and I kept your pendant until the end. The one I gave you back was my own, and it also acted as the catalyst for my summoning."

    That's a bit too much to take in all at once!

    "Woah, wait, there are two pendants then?"

    "The second one must have burned with the boy. As for Saber..."

    He looks away. "I was her Master."

    I gasp. "That's...! Are you serious?"

    "Entirely. I fought at her side and lived a long life. I befriended you and trained to be a savior."

    "A savior?"

    He smiles bitterly. "Ah, yes. Believe it or not, that boy's dream was to become a superhero. Saving everyone without killing anyone. A worthless ideal that he died for. In his foolishness, he even made a pact with the World to become a... sort of heroic spirit."

    I have billions of questions for him, but that last line makes me wonder. "What do you mean, a sort of?"

    He crosses his arms. "I am a Counter Guardian, not a heroic spirit as you define it. As I prayed to the World to save people in front of me, I obtained a higher power and was able to end a war... only to be betrayed for it. I was executed by my own allies, and became a tool to be called when humanity was nearing self-destruction. I would balance the forces and bring salvation to people, which is what I wanted."

    He pauses, already bored by his own story. "However, saving those people meant killing off others, sometimes as many. That ideal Emiya Shirou had held for his whole life was just a utopia, and the Guardian he became could only be deceived by it. I have killed countless people. What kind of superhero does that?"

    "And... you ended up alone... in that wasteland filled with swords..."

    I understand now.

    "Rin?"

    My vision blurs. "I saw it in my dreams, but I hadn't gotten the whole meaning of it... You followed an impossible dream and were only deceived."

    He snorts. "Well, at least that makes it easier to explain. Now I am just a wandering weapon of destruction, only summoned for this particular Holy Grail War because of your pendant. I have no wish to grant."

    "You really are... stupid."

    That makes him shoot a short laugh. "I will grant you that. Emiya Shirou's whole existence was a joke in the reality I come from."

    There is a long silence as I process all this. I think it'll take me a while to recover from the shock. That guy is Emiya...

    "So, where is Ben in your alternate world? Did he become the Master of another Servant?"

    He frowns. "That man does not exist in my world. Emiya Shirou never crossed his path, and never was killed by him. That is why I couldn't approve of our cooperation from the bottom of my heart. Saber's Master does not belong in this war."

    That's a surprise to me. "But, where is he from if that's the case!? That makes no sense!"

    "I have no idea about it. If he somehow survived, we should be careful when dealing with him."

    "So... you are still here because he killed the one from a different reality than yours. I understand why you hate him so much now. I would certainly dislike someone that killed my past self."

    He shakes his head. "You got that wrong, Rin. The boy being dead is a good thing. If I had seen him alive, I would have probably killed him myself."

    He keeps on shocking me. "Why?"

    "I told you already. Pursuing his dream would only have led him to a cursed existence, so preventing that would have been merciful."

    He smiles. "Funnily, that is a thing I could thank Saber's Master for. However, I still cannot approve of his existence, rather than his acts. Do you understand?"

    "I... guess... Damn, you are TWISTED!"

    I jab his chest once before turning away. His story makes me very upset because of its absurdity.

    "Also, may I ask why you didn't tell me all this from the beginning?"

    I glare back at him. He answers with a sheepish look. "What would that have accomplished, exactly? You would have been tormented by irrelevant matters at the beginning of a bloody war. I decided that it would be safer to keep it a secret so that we could focus on fighting. Given the result, I believe I made the right choice."

    I wonder how I would have reacted if he had straight up told me that... Damn, he's giving me a migraine.

    "I swear you are the worst. I will pardon you for this offense, but why are you telling me all this now, then?"

    To my surprise, he is embarrassed. He looks away, his cheeks darker than usual. "I don't know what lies ahead, but if our war ends soon, I wanted one person to know it. Emiya Shirou won't leave any trace in this reality if I don't do that."

    That makes me smirk. "I knew it. You are actually a good person at heart, under all that sarcasm."

    He glares at me. "Unlike you. You are definitely hopeless."

    I chuckle before resuming our walk. One thing comes to my mind after a bit. "With all this, I must ask you, Archer. Can you fight Saber with all your might?"

    There is no hesitation in his answer. "Yes. If she is still alive, I shall face and defeat her."

    He is quick to get back to me. "How about you, Rin? What will you do if the murderer is still alive?"

    "There is no need to ask. I will end his war for good."


    ---


    We've been walking for what seems like hours. The atmosphere hasn't changed, and we didn't talk at all as the revelations from earlier were still driving my brain crazy.

    I should focus on the fights to come, not the past.

    "Rin."

    "Yes?"

    "There is a Servant ahead."

    "Really!?"

    Now that he's mentioning it, I can feel something far ahead. It is an aura emitted with the intention of being spotted, like what we did yesterday in the temple. I frown.

    "They are provoking us..."

    "What is your order?"

    "Let's head there, cautiously."

    No one ambushes us on the way, and I can recognize the aura easily as we get closer, way before seeing its owner in person. There, in a clearing bathed in sunlight...

    "Saber..."

    I can't help saying her name out loud, and I don't like the sound of my own voice. Where did all that fierce will go? She's still alive... However, I cannot feel a Magus nearby. I guess she was sent as a sentinel to stop our progression. Maybe her unknown Master will strike us in the back while we are focused on the fight.

    Archer walks in front of me and the blonde knight doesn't waver. She is staring at us without an ounce of emotion. Her eyes are the exact same ones as when she was about to kill me on our first encounter. She is a Servant, and we are the enemy. Our friendship, her support... everything is gone. Archer and I destroyed it, and we have completely earned the treatment she is giving us. Honestly, I would have felt better if she had yelled with rage. As for her power level, I can feel that she is definitely weakened. She's not the type to hide her energy very well, and she must have recovered just enough to fight. In that state, Archer should be more than a match for her, even if he is tired too. That must mean our guess about Ilyasviel was wrong.

    "Tohsaka Rin."

    Her ice-cold voice breaks the heavy silence. I get on guard instinctively and hold her intense stare.

    "My Master is waiting for you in the castle ahead."

    She points a finger at a direction to her right. Her Master, eh?

    "I shall not attack you if you step towards that direction. However, I cannot allow your Servant to pass. My Master wishes for a duel with you. If you refuse, I will kill you both immediately."

    A chill runs down my spine. I can see why she was a legendary king now. I feel like a criminal being sentenced to death, even if we're supposed to have the advantage. That doesn't stop me from stepping forward nonetheless.

    "Then I will face him. That's the least I can do."

    Archer's voice echoes in my head. "Are you sure about this?"

    "Yes. Did you see her state? It's obvious that Ben is still her Master, so they must be weakened. I will take him down while you fight her, and we will leave this terrible place with Ilyasviel."

    "I will obey you, Rin. Please be cautious."

    I start walking towards the direction she pointed at. She doesn't attack me on the way, but I already knew she wouldn't. Her conditions were clear, and she's the last person I would expect to lie. I turn back to Archer one last time. Millions of things that I want to tell him clash in my brain, but I can only utter two words.

    "Defeat her."

    I run without looking back, hoping that the nasty feeling in my heart is only due to the pang of guilt that Saber made me feel. I hear the sounds of steel clashing behind me soon after leaving the clearing.


    ---


    After twenty minutes of running, I reach a ridiculous place. I stop for a second, amazed. This is certainly a perfect base. Hidden in a deep forest with a presence detector... I'm almost jealous. It is definitely a symbol of the Einzberns' might, even if I can't really imagine Berserker patrolling the hallways. I reach the front gate without trouble. Not a noise can be heard. As I extend my hand, it is pushed back by a pink barrier.


    "Is he serious!?"

    At least that confirms my hypothesis. I glare at the door before focusing on what I must say.

    "Lay... seh... moah... entray..."

    The barrier vanishes and I contain the urge to kick the door wide open. I enter the enemy's base without hesitating.


    INTERLUDE - LANCER


    Down in the church chamber, the spearman and his Master argue.

    "I could have killed Archer four times since yesterday, and your trump card was defeated, Kotomine. What is the point of all this?"

    The priest answers in an annoyed voice. "I did not expect Gilgamesh to move on his own, but the scenario still stands. It is even better that way, Lancer."

    "Gilgamesh... That's where his confidence came from."

    He can't begin to comprehend how Archer could beat him. The bowman is surely versatile, but the blond bastard was on another level.

    "His endless arrogance brought his demise. I believe I told you that the end of the war would play between one of you two and one of them. Aren't you happy to be chosen, Cu Chulainn?"

    He answers the smile with a sharp stare. "I survived because I did not have a single serious fight. That guy was a dick, but he was still your Servant. I have seen Masters treating us as tools but you are beyond that."

    Kirei shakes his head. "You cannot see the bigger picture yet. What is your wish, Lancer? I never asked you this. It may be time for me to act as a Master, after all."

    His wish? He holds no real wish, as a pure warrior. "I wish for a true fight, Master. Will you allow me to grant that?"

    The priest laughs. "Really, I will never understand heroes. However, if that is what drives your heart, the Holy Grail will certainly make it possible."

    Lancer crosses his arms. "So, what now? I spied as you asked, and they are headed to the forest."

    "Ah, this shall certainly be interesting. A duel between former allies and weakened Servants. They shall transcend themselves in the face of death, and only one team will remain. Isn't it an entertaining sight? The battlefield will be tainted with despair and remorse."

    "Damn, you are twisted. What is my role, then?"

    The priest smiles calmly. "You are right. I only see you as a chess piece, but that last move will content us both. In the end, the worthiest Master will reach the Holy Grail, and you will have your duel."

    He turns his back to his Servant and speaks for himself. "It is time to end the play."

    Lancer sighs and leaves the church. If it's what it takes to finally have a real fight, he will carry his Master's plan.


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - ARCHER


    The two knights confront each other in the silent clearing. Archer could shoot one of his usual sarcasms, but the cold murdering intent Saber is emitting would cut his words in half as soon as they'd escape his mouth.

    "I, Arturia Pendragon, King of Britain, will face and defeat you now."

    She takes out her invisible sword and glares at him. Surely she doesn't expect him to respect fight etiquette.

    "Trace, on."

    The twin swords, Kanshou and Bakuya, are cast. "I am no one but I will defeat you regardless, Saber."

    "Disrespectful to the end. I did not expect any more from you."

    She readies herself. Archer is supposed to have an advantage given her state, but he is starting to question that. Her fierce stare is more alive than ever and underestimating her will get him killed for sure. She's on him in an instant and their weapons collide. He can't possibly overpower her, but his defense is of the highest level with these particular weapons. He parries a barrage of blows like a salmon going against the stream of a river and goes for her head with Kanshou.

    "Ha!"

    She delivers a terrifying vertical strike with twice as much power, forcing him to step back. The spot where he was standing shows a small crater, leaving no doubt about his fate if he had been slower.

    "Guh-!"

    And she is supposed to be weakened? He regains his stance and waits for her, thinking of what he could do. A direct confrontation will only lead to his imminent death. He has to rely on trickier tactics.

    "Run away as you wish, I will hunt you down, Archer."

    She raises her sword, reminding him of a cannonball ready to be fired. Her energy bursts are a real problem. He focuses. His next strategy should be able to override her amazing instinct, but he has to be careful.

    Putting a great amount of energy in both of his swords, he throws them at the opponent's neck from two opposite directions. No hero could get out alive of such a trap of steel, but of course her instinct is beyond anything he has ever witnessed. With a precise swing of her sword, both projectiles are parried and sent away behind her. She takes the opportunity to dash at him, as he is unarmed.

    "Freeze, out."

    Another pair is summoned in his hands instantly.

    "The same weapon...?"

    Attacking her with Kanshou, he unleashes his secret, undodgeable move. She parries it but...

    "Strength moves mountains."

    The two pairs attract each other. As she is parrying his direct hit, one other comes from behind. The execution is perfect! She repels it too, but it leaves her defenseless. The other pair will finish the job.

    "Blade cuts through-"

    "Such a trick won't work!"

    A massive gust of wind emanates from her. Archer jumps away before being sucked in, and the third sword is repelled like an annoying fly.

    She released her wind barrier to counter his attack... A brilliant strategy. He sighs. "Ah... I get it. You remembered that move from the fight against Rider."

    He has made a careless mistake. The only advantage is that it seems to have cost her a lot of energy. She is trying to hide it, but he can hear her heavier breath.

    "I expected you to be half dead and was greeted by a warrior driven by rage. I see you took my advice of fighting according to your emotions to heart."

    A long sword appears in his hand as she answers with the same emotionless tone she's been using during the whole encounter.

    "I do not resent you or your Master, Archer."

    That is certainly a surprise. "How so?"

    "My Master believes that you did not betray us, and he is right. Our cooperation ended on terms we had agreed on, and now I can face you as an enemy."

    He snickers. "Man, and I thought you would yell at me. How disappointing."

    Her next stare shuts him up. "That is the 'official' version, so-called knight. I will face you not as an enemy, but the enemy."

    If only she knew what her Master did... He is almost tempted to tell her just to use the confusion that it will cause.

    "Now, prepare yourself."


    She takes a stance, her sword now completely visible. Archer knows that the warmup is definitely behind them now.

    "I am the bone of my sword."



    INTERLUDE OUT


    "... What have you done?"

    The entrance hall is as magnificent as huge, with a big staircase in the middle leading to the upper floor. He is standing up there. I can't help asking that first, as I cannot recognize the person I left two days ago. He always was a gifted Magus but now he is emitting far more energy than he ever has. What strikes me more than that is his physical state.

    Both of his bare arms are visible thanks to his sleeve-less shirt, and I can see terrible marks on the one with the seal. The crimson cloth is loosened beyond reason. I know he used it along with his runaway via Command Spell, but I thought he would try to tighten it... Ah, maybe he needed the additional energy. Still, the marks that look like about to pop veins extend to his neck and apparently down his chest. I cannot imagine how much pain he must be in.

    "Ah, Rin. I was expecting you earlier."

    He gives me a smile as cold as Saber's eyes from earlier, not moving a muscle. "I am glad you respected my wish to face you alone. As for your question, I did what it took to stay alive. I am sorry to disturb your plans."

    I raise an eyebrow. "My plans?"

    "Don't take me for a fool. You are here for Ilya."

    His smile drops. "You can't have her. Not you, nor Kirei. No one."

    Kirei? That confirms what I thought. "Really? I thought you got along with him, since Saber and you enjoyed some time at his place."

    "Ah, you were spying on us? I didn't expect that. It was during that weird period when I thought we were a solid team, you see."

    He raises a hand to emphasize his point. "I only confirmed a few things about that man. I was planning to tell you about them but you didn't really leave me the time to do so."

    Is he really trying to guilt trip me now?

    "I have no sympathy for murderers, Ben."

    He starts laughing but interrupts himself to grab his painful arm. It's a pitiful sight. "I knew you'd figure it out eventually, but come on, Rin! Yes, I killed Emiya Shirou and took his rights as a Master. What of it?"

    I can't contain my rage any longer and spit my words out. "What of it? You murdered someone in cold blood to take his place, then you thought that we would be allies for kicks? What kind of twisted person are you?"

    "He would have died either way. Lancer was after him, remember? You shouldn't even have saved him. I am certain that Archer agrees with me on this."

    I can't deny that part, but... Hold on.

    "... How do you know that I saved him in the first place?"

    He seems mad at himself for a second, and his eyes flash. "That is... irrelevant. If you care about a dead Master, you are as unworthy of being one as I am. Are you saying you wouldn't have fought him if he had miraculously survived?"

    "That's not the point and you know it!"

    I didn't walk hours to have a useless debate. My left arm glows as I extend it towards him before speaking up again.

    "Maybe I should have taken you down immediately..."

    He smirks. "Damn, Rin, that's harsh. Believe it or not, I didn't want the situation to come to this, but you brought it on yourself."

    His stare sharpens. "You tried to take Saber away from me. I can't forgive that."

    He can try to intimidate me all day. There's no way I would lose against a support Magus, especially when he looks on the brink of death. My only concern is that I can't figure out how he survived Archer's attack. He must be hiding something else that I don't know, so I must remain careful. Would he really summon me like that if he thought he had no chances of winning?

    Perhaps he would. That man has been lying to me since we met, but he has a strong will. It's a trait that I respected when I thought we were friends.

    "I never asked to be forgiven. We both do what it takes to win, don't we?"

    His smile is bitter. "I guess we do. Then, let's begin, heir of the Tohsakas. A Magi duel as we promised."

    That reminiscence of better days grinds my gears and I shoot a powerful barrage of gandr orbs. Benjamin crosses his arms as they are repelled by a boundary field I hadn't seen, covering the top of the stairs. He shakes his head.

    "Now, don't you realize that I had all the time I wanted to prepare the field?"

    The big door slams shut behind me.

    "Archer?"

    I try to call my Servant via telepathy, but the spell is blocked. I glare at my opponent.

    "Bastard..."

    He will need more than barriers to stop me. I shall defeat that dangerous man without mercy. It is my duty as a Tohsaka, after all.






    To be continued in Second Movement - Revelation

    "Do you need some training, Benben?"
    "What is this nonsense about self-destructing? I will not tolerate any decision of the sort!"
    "To quote you... Such tricks won't work!"
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    DAY 9 - THE BITTER REUNION

    SECOND MOVEMENT - REVELATION


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    I wake up, alone in my bed. The sun seems to have risen a while ago.

    "Ugh..."

    My whole body is stiff, and it takes me a while to realize that I'm... completely naked. Someone is sitting on a chair near the window, looking outside. Her perfectly done hair flutters when she turns to me.

    "Good morning, Ben."

    Her smile is the sweetest I have ever seen. Saber is still here with me, and we... Last night's events flash in my mind, and I feel blood rushing to my cheeks.

    "Ah... Hi, Saber."

    I raise myself and reach for my clothes. While she looks away, I manage to grab my pants and underwear and put them on before standing up with a yawn. She soon turns back to me, holding that happy expression up.

    "I am glad to see that you can stand now."

    "Uh?"

    Damn, I can! I'm really slow this morning, it seems. "I didn't even notice... That's awesome!"

    I tiptoe happily until my left arm punishes me. Her face fills with concern. "How are you feeling, exactly?"

    "My body is fine, but the arm still hurts like a bitch. I can endure it, though. I won't rest for another day."

    She nods slowly. "I doubt the remaining enemies will let you do that."

    I walk to her and look at the window. As sinister as the forest looks now that I can see it clearly, being at her side warms my heart. I stare at my wounds. Only dark marks remain and they surely look better than yesterday.

    "Avalon really is amazing..."

    My arm doesn't look as good, though, as more and more veins seem to have inflated.

    "How are you feeling, Saber?"

    She faces me after standing up. "Definitely better than yesterday. Last night helped me replenishing some of my energy."

    My brain crashes. "Last night..."

    And her facade breaks. "Ah. Erm..."

    I smile awkwardly, probably looking very stupid. "Yeah..."

    "Ben, you... understand what I told you, right?"

    "Yes. You will follow your oath, and I am not here to stop you. I... understand, even if it hurts."

    She speaks in an unsure voice that doesn't fit her. "I am sorry... we did such a thing after I told you that I could not answer your feelings..."

    She's not making this easier. I interrupt her before getting too emotional. "It's okay. My mind is clearer now, and I know what I want."

    "What is it, Ben?"

    "To win this war at your side, and let you decide of your fate. I won't bid you goodbye with a sad face."

    "Ah..."

    Her blushing intensifies as she pouts. "You really haven't changed a bit."

    "Heh, of course not."

    The next words I say are hard to deliver, but I have to be as strong as her. "Let's go back to being Servant and Master after we leave this bedroom. It will be... easier."

    My smile is definitely forced. She gauges me for a second before nodding with a serious expression. "Understood."

    I turn back to the window. I might crack if I look at those green eyes for one more second. Two small arms surround me from behind as she hugs my chest and presses herself against my back.

    "S-Saber?"

    "We have not left the bedroom yet."

    Her small voice is painful to hear, but that gesture helps my heart greatly, actually calming me down. We stay like this for a while before she retreats and walks to the door. She turns back at me one last time while unlocking it.

    "One more thing, Benjamin. In order to accomplish your wish, you need to stay alive. Think about your life before anything else."

    I stare at her without a word. Once she understands that it's hopeless, she exits the room and I look back to the forest.

    Who shall we face today? Rin? Gilgamesh? Kirei? In any case, we probably won't make it, right? We have gotten some energy back, but using anything too powerful is risky and only mighty enemies remain. Haven't I reached what I wanted, in a way? I met her and was able to fight at her side. What awaits us now is only pain and death. I grit my teeth.

    "Ne me quitt- Shit!"

    I punch the nearest wall with my right hand. What the hell am I thinking? I've started this and I will end it. I walk to the door, angry at my weakness but resolved. Only Saber and Ilya matter now. I will crush all the others without mercy.


    ---


    We meet Ilya in her room. Her two maids are with her, apparently worried... or not. It's hard to read any emotion on their faces.

    "Hey, Benben, Saber. Sorry for yesterday."

    I smile at the girl reassuringly. She is lying in her bed and her voice lacks its usual cheerfulness.

    "You don't have to apologize, Ilya. How are you feeling?"

    Her face turns wistful. "I have taken four Servants' souls so far. My body isn't responding very well...."

    Saber speaks to her in a soft voice. I guess they get along now. "Is there something we can do?"

    "Sella and Leysritt are here for that, don't worry."

    It's hard for me to voice my next question. "What will happen when one more hero falls?"

    "It will start. Slowly if I am far away from a leyline, but the end will come soon if only two Servants remain."

    There is a heavy silence after that. Rest time is definitely over, we must get back on track immediatly.

    I stretch. "Then,we will let you rest while we prepare our strategy, Ilya. Tell us if someone enters the forest, okay?"

    She simply nods. "Yes. Are you two feeling better?"

    "A bit. We will do our best."

    Her stare alternates between us two, then she snickers. "I see... Good job."

    Saber panicks. "W-What do you mean!?"

    "Let's uh... go, Saber. Come on."

    I grab her by the arm and we leave the room before this gets even more awkward. I should probably have cast a silent field yesterday...

    "Damn, she is terrible."

    Once back in the corridor, we eventually calm down, and Saber stares at me seriously. "Distasteful humor aside, have you decided on our next course of action?"

    I rub my shoulder while clearing my thoughts. "We will stay here for at least one more day. As this place holds the vessel, we should be attacked soon, and being able to detect intruders isn't an ability we can pass on given our current situation. What is your precise condition at the moment?"

    She puts her hand on her chest. "I can arm myself and fight, but I should avoid using my Noble Phantasm, as I would undoubtedly disappear."

    "Ah... We don't want that. Can you face Lancer, Archer or Gilgamesh without it, though?"

    She narrows her eyes. "I can face and defeat anyone, Ben."

    Such confidence. I've missed that trait, and I can't refrain from smiling. She bows her head. "However, Archer's abilities seem really dangerous, and Lancer has his cursed lance. I was able to dodge it once and can anticipate it, but he is still an enormous threat. As for Gilgamesh... I would rather not cross his path today."

    The king of heroes is indeed my biggest concern.

    "Maybe people think we are dead. You said I wouldn't have survived without Avalon, and no one knows about it."

    "That is rather optimistic, though I agree with your plan. Let us wait for the enemy to come and prepare ourselves. Have you got anything in mind?"

    "Obviously it's time for me to get used to casting magic again. It will hurt, but my prana flow is also faster than before."

    That doesn't please her. "You run the risk of consuming yourself! Be very cautious, please. I know you cannot tighten your seal at the moment, but it is not a reason to go overboard."

    My answer comes out sharply. "We won't win without taking risks. Our situation is already pretty bad, so I won't restrain myself."

    We walk to the entrance hall as she makes an unhappy groan. "You really are impossible at times."

    I ignore that and try to channel prana for the first time in two days, save for that Command Spell incident. I raise my arm.

    "Protège et repousse- ugh!"

    My energy bursts as a pink wall materializes in front of me. It shatters after a couple of seconds and Saber looks at me with concern.

    "This does not look good."

    "I knew that the first time wouldn't work. My energy is chaotic, but I feel like there's more potential too. I'm going to work on that."

    I need to be able to fight normally, or even better than in the past days. It's too bad I lost Rin's potion though, because the pain will worsen and I want Saber to save as much energy as she can. I go down the stairs and start practicing my usual fields in the middle of the hall. They eventually hold and I can speed the casting up thanks to my loosened seal. My left arm screams in protest and Saber can't stand the sight for too long, as she leaves the mansion via the front door.

    "Dome, révélé!"

    The pink dome materializes around me. It took me way less time than usual! The results are really showing after an hour. I take a big breath and head out to get some fresh air. Saber armed herself, and she is fighting the wind with her visible sword. The fluidity of her motions is incredible, and she makes a beautiful sight. I smile at her when she notices me.

    "Getting back at it too, eh?"

    She stops. "Ah, yes. I need to keep my gestures sharp. How did your training go?"

    "So far, so good. It's tiring, but I can cast faster than before."

    She gets near me and looks at my left arm with a frown. "Good? Your arm looks worse than this morning!"

    I follow her stare. Maybe some more veins popped, but I don't really care at that point. "I feel fine, Saber. I will be able to support you or fight a Master if I need to, perhaps more efficiently than before."

    She hesitates for a moment and tilts her head. "Do you need a training partner?"

    I don't feel like being beaten up by her at the moment, honestly. "You need to save energy. I want you to be in the best possible condition when we'll face the enemy."

    Her expression turns sheepish. "That is true, but don't you also want to train with your blade? There is no point in hiding it anymore."

    I'd like to, but our last training session in Rin's basement was pretty much useless in that regard.

    "I'm not really feeling like getting my ass kicked, to be honest."

    "Ben!"

    Before she can throw a tantrum, Ilya's voice echoes from the mansion entrance. "Do you need some training, Benben?"

    We turn to her. Apparently, Sella carried her here and just let her down. Leysritt is with them too, and they are looking at us with curiosity. I start walking to the odd trio.

    "Shouldn't you be resting, Ilya?"

    "I can still move around with some help. Did you succeed in using your magic?"

    I've got to play strong in front of her. She must be going through much worse times than us, and she's still trying to help.

    "Yes, it actually works even better now. For the defensive part, that is."

    She answers in a still calm tone. It's kind of depressing compared to her usually energetic self. "You do know that you are becoming a time bomb, don't you? You are just like me, although being human."

    I gulp. "A... time bomb?"

    "Your arm looks worse than yesterday. I'm certain that you feel better, but once you go too far with your seal loosened, you will likely die, and no artifact will change that."
    Saber seems shocked. "Ilyasviel..."

    I take it from there. "You may be right. However, we have to fight, and I won't stay out of it. I will do what it takes to survive until the end, and deal with that seal problem afterwards."

    My Servant turns to me. "That is completely unreasonable!"

    Ilya shakes her head. "It isn't, Saber. Well, yes, it is, but right now Benben is our only chance. If he dies, you disappear and we are finished. I will summon the Grail no matter who uses me, but if I can pick... I want you two to win. For that to happen, he must stay in that state."

    I smile bitterly. "That's a good analysis. We will give our deepest thanks to Rin and Archer when we cross their path for that."

    Saber grits her teeth and looks away without a word, admitting the hard truth. Ilya smiles at me. "You wanted to train, right, Ben?"

    "Yeah. What of it?"

    She looks to her right. "I can ask Leysritt to be your partner. She is pretty tough so she should do, and Saber will save up her energy."

    Fighting against Leysritt? That's surely less frightening than Saber. I don't want to hurt her too much or anything, though.

    "Why not? Let's do this, then."

    Ilya speaks to her servant. "You can spar with Ben."

    The robotic voice answers. "Spar?"

    The small girl's cheerfulness partly comes back. "It means fighting for fun. Try not to kill him, okay?"

    "I do not understand why, but I will obey you, Ilya."

    Sella glares at me, and I can't say I like it. Leysritt walks to face me, and Saber steps back. Though not really afraid, I take my usual stance. Ilya sits on the steps leading to her house while my soon to be opponent looks at me.

    "Fighting... Then, here I come."

    She is on me in an instant.

    "Protège!"

    My limited barrier blocks her superfast punch, but she still sends me flying backwards. I land and immediately stand back. Without protection, I would have been knocked out for days with a punch like this. I smirk.

    "Come on, really?"

    Ilya claps her hands. "Oh, yes, I forgot to mention that my servants were also created to defend me. Go all out, Benben."

    I ignore Saber's expression and cast my enhancement spells. "Vitesse, force divine."

    With my seal loosened, I can now reinforce my legs and fists at the same time. I dash at the maid as fast as she did and try to punch her. She pushes my wrist away with a fluid hand motion and returns the gesture. I stop her fist with my reinforced other hand, but she is still overpowering me.

    "Ugh!"

    I jump back carefully. Ilya sighs. "If you cannot take Leysritt on, we are definitely done. Don't you have anything else?"

    She's talking about her as if she was a frail human! That maid isn't a light opponent. Feeling vexed, I raise my arm.

    "Yamato."

    The small girl is surprised. "Wow, you have a weapon? That's great!"

    Leysritt speaks up. "The enemy is armed."

    She extends a hand and... a halberd as big as her materializes.

    "Wait, WHAT!?"

    What kind of ridiculous weapon is that? Ilya giggles. "You may have made a bad call there, Benben."

    Saber steps between us two. "I cannot tolerate such a dangerous fight! Master, please stay your blade."

    I shake my head. "No, Saber. I need to fight, and this will be perfect training. Don't interfere."

    Before she can get back at me, Ilya speaks up. "Exactly. After all, I have never seen your actual abilities. Leysritt doesn't know how to fight without killing. It's not something that she was taught, obviously. If you want to prove to us that you can obtain the Holy Grail, try to survive against her."

    Saber is astonished. "This is too much, Ilyasviel! Even if I trust you to call her back if Ben gets into a bad position..."

    The red eyes narrow. "You are a Servant. Ben is the one who will decide if he wants to fight or not. What is your answer?"

    Everyone looks at me. I pull out the blade from its sheath and keep both in my hands. "Bring it on, I need some warmup before taking on Rin or anyone else."

    Saber stares at me for a moment, flabbergasted. Then she walks to her original position, leaving the field free.

    I stare at the emotionless eyes and the absurd weapon. Instead of terrifying me, they send adrenaline through my veins and make me forget about my state. One can gauge their opponent's state of mind in a duel from their facial expressions, but that's out of question against her. I have to think like I am fighting a robot. She runs to me almost as fast as before and delivers a vertical blow. I step aside and go for her chest, but she hops around the shaft to kick me in the stomach. I have to step back again. If I cannot use limited barriers with efficiency, I will fall soon. Focus, Ben, focus...

    She doesn't let me do so and immediately runs after me, going for a piercing strike with the tip of the halberd. I dodge to the right thanks to the energy in my legs, but she uses the momentum to follow me with the axe part, slashing horizontally.

    I saw that coming, though. "Protège!"

    I cast a barrier that covers my chest. It repels the strike violently, suprising us all. This is what I want to reach! I put my sheath on my belt and take Yamato in both hands before rushing at Leysritt, completely absorbed in the battle. I must avoid direct clashes with her weapon as much as I can, so I've got to be faster. If I can get close to her, its size will be more of a bother than anything.

    I grit my teeth and channel more energy into my legs before reaching her. A small barrier to my left blocks the swipe she tries to greet me with while I attack her. She blocks me with the shaft, and my blade collides against it. As I put energy back into my arms, we cannot overpower each other for a moment. Her face still shows no emotion while she jumps back with agility and stares at me, her halberd pointed forward. She takes the initiative this time and attacks me with the end of it again.

    "Protège!"
    I cast a limited barrier to protect my upper body, but she was expecting it. She retreats the weapon before it hits it and follows with a sweep motion using the axe.

    "Ugh!"

    I jump back just in time. How can she maneuver such a big thing that easily? And damn, she got used to my protections in no time. She runs after me immediately. In that case... I raise a hand.

    "Repousse!"

    A more costly spell casts a pink wall in front me. It's the same one that I used against Kuzuki. She hits it once and gets repelled lightly. I focus while she readies herself to hit more heavily. She will kill me if I am too considerate, so there's no need to hesitate. I ignore the chill due to her stance, halberd raised and ready to hit twice as hard as before, and prepare the next spell. My timing must be perfect. The axe hits the barrier and shatters it. I ignore the shockwave as well as I can and simultaneously cast.

    "Brûle et ne laisse aucune trace."

    A wave of fire assaults her. She steps back and dismisses it with another swing. However, it blinds her for an instant, allowing me to put energy into my legs and run to the right to hit her from the side. A frown. I saw a frown! She groans and parries Yamato with the shaft again. The spell only damaged her outfit, but I gained the momentum.

    I stare straight into those red eyes and drop my blade, as I did against Saber once. Leysritt doesn't have an instinct as sharp, so her weapon follows the motion.

    "Force divine."

    I put energy into my right fist and punch her face without hesitation. It sends her flying a few meters back, her axe still in her hands.

    I hit her!

    "Ben!"

    I ignore Saber and pick up my blade, ready to fight more. I can feel something throbbing in my left side but I couldn't care less. My opponent takes back her stance. Her expression is back to flat but a dark mark decorates her right cheek. I would feel guilty when seeing blood dripping from her mouth if she wasn't that menacing.

    "Leysritt, this is-"

    I raise my hand towards Ilya without looking away from the maid.

    "One more time."

    I take out the sheath and put Yamato back into it, in my left hand. My blood is boiling in anticipation. I know that we should stop, but I won't accept ending this on a small hit. I dash straight at her, ignoring the girls' shouts and the pain. She keeps her position and strikes horizontally in order to prevent me from closing in.

    "Protège!"

    A limited barrier slows the halberd down just enough for me to step forward and put the sheath upwards, against the shaft. I put more energy into my hands to be able to hold that position, and the hand that is on the handle of Yamato takes it out. She sees it too late, and I slash her side seriously. Nothing lethal, but blood spills out. She retreats, looks at her wound, back at me and... raises her weapon.

    Before I can even think about reacting, something hits me like a truck and carries me away. Ilya's voice echoes.

    "Stop, Leysritt! It's over!"

    The thing that took me lays me down on the grass and looks down on me. "Ben, what are you doing!?"

    Oh, it's Saber. Unsurprisingly, she looks unamused.

    "Training, duh."

    She shakes me by the shoulders. "Your arm! You went too far!"

    Now that she says it... "Ugh!"

    I feel like a thousand needles are piercing my left side. Both of our stares fall on the crimson piece of clothing, and I smirk.

    "Don't even think about it. Help me up, please."

    Emitting a strong aura of disapproval, she extends a hand and does so. I walk to Leysritt with difficulty. Sella has joined her and is staring at her wound.

    "I knew it was a bad idea... Bringing a Master and his Servant here? Only dire things can result from that."

    "I am fine, Sella."

    "Hey."

    I walk to them, but the angry maid stands between me and my goal. "You did enough damage as it is!"

    I sigh. "Well, if I hadn't fought back, I might be dead now. Let me heal her up. Minor wounds like these are an easy job for me."

    "You are not getting near her!"

    "Sella! Let him do it."

    The servant looks at her mistress and clenches her fists, reminding me of Saber when I disagree with her. That comparison makes me smile.

    "... Understood, my lady."

    I walk to Leysritt. She cast off her weapon and is emotionless, as usual. "Nice duel. I really had to go all out, you are way too strong."

    She tilts her head. "I was made to defend Ilya."

    I extend my hand over her side wound, which vanishes after a couple of minutes. It costs me additional energy that I could need later, but there's no way I'd leave her like that. I also take care of her cheek much faster, under Sella's intense glare. There is no sign of gratitude, but Leysritt's eyes and mine meet for a moment, and there is... something. I can't see her as a robot. Ilya calls her a failure, but I'm sure there is something beyond that. I turn back to Saber, rubbing my left arm in pain. She gives me an unhappy face.

    "Are you done consuming all the energy you were able to recover in two days, Master?"

    I snort. "I will be able to fight when the time comes, don't worry."

    We all get back to Ilya, who gives me a wistful look.

    "What's up, Ilya?"

    "I... I went overboard. I'm sorry you used so much energy."

    I wave my right hand. "Don't worry about it. My arm is painful, but I should be fine."

    "You really cannot understand your condition, can you?"

    She and Saber looks at each other knowingly. Yes, I'm in pain, but I feel like I can stand this for a while. I will do everything I have to in order to win this war.

    "As long I can fight, I will. If I must self-destruct at the end, so be it. It's our only chance of winning anyway."

    Saber gasps, and I enter the castle.

    "I knew you would say that..."

    Ilya's saddened voice is painful to hear, but I step forward nonetheless.


    ---


    "Saber!?"

    Once inside, my Servant immediately takes me by the right arm and drags me in a lone room. She then faces me with a terrifying glare.

    "What in the world is wrong with you, Ben?"

    She doesn't help my rising headache. "Didn't I fight well?"

    She grabs my collar firmly. I've rarely seen her that angry. "What is this nonsense about self-destructing? I will not tolerate any decision of the sort!"

    I raise my voice. "It's our last chance! If I cannot maintain a high level of energy, we will all perish and you know it!"

    She grits her teeth while shaking her head. "You don't get it, you don't get it at all... Take off your shirt."

    "What...?"

    Her glare shuts me up instantly, then she unbuttons it without ceremony.

    "Wait, Saber, this is-!"

    She opens it with energy and removes it entirely before stepping back. "As I thought. Take a look at yourself."

    I stare down, and my mind freezes. The marks extended to the left side of my chest. Seeing them awakens a very uncomfortable pulse.

    "Damn..."

    She comes to me and extends a hand. "This is expanding to your neck too, Ben."

    Pierre really made me a poisonous gift, didn't he? I back away from her and touch my neck. I can feel veins throbbing there too. I try to defend myself as well as I can.

    "Ah... but I've never felt so powerful. My energy is flowing nicely if I overcome the pain."

    Her eyes widen as a voice echoes from the entrance. "Power is tempting, Benben, but you must be careful."

    "Ilyasviel, you should be resting."

    She dismisses Saber's concern with a cute head shake. "I will soon, but I need to address this. I don't know how you got that seal in the first place, but I understand it better now that I saw you actually fight."

    She frowns. "I hope you curse who gave you this, because it isn't suited for a human at all."

    I rub my left arm while answering. "Oh, really?"

    "From what I've seen, you would be as powerful as a low level Servant if you took it off. That's how violent it is."

    Saber looks at my shoulder. "I had figured something close to that."

    Ilya nods. "Of course, you would also die in a matter of minutes because your body wouldn't take it."

    I groan. "I know that. I don't plan on loosening it more, if that's what you two are worried about."

    "Benben... I told you before, but this has already gone too far. Your body is slowly deteriorating, like mine. The process will only accelerate if you fight like you just did."

    That makes me mad, and I answer sharply without wanting to do so. "I know that, Ilya! However, it's Saber that will deteriorate if I don't keep it that way, and we cannot hope to end this war without fighting!"

    She flinches and looks at me like I just hit her. Damn. A heavy silence follows. I pinch the bridge of my nose and try to calm down.

    "Sorry for yelling. My headache isn't really helping."

    I grab my shirt back and walk to the door, surprising them. "I will protect both of your lives. That's my goal, and you won't change my mind."

    It is such a stupid thing to say, isn't it? A Master wanting to protect two people condemned to vanish soon. I wonder if it's because I'm sharing their fates in that regard...

    No. Deep down, I know that I would act the same if all of this was real. I wander aimlessly in the castle's corridors, trying to suppress the pain without much success. My body is crumbling away, thanks to Rin and her damn Servant. Everything could have gone well, but I had to loosen the seal, and now I'm a stupid time bomb, lost in a war that doesn't even mean anything to me. I want to win because I want Saber to win, but that's it. I know that the so-called Holy Grail is a corrupt thing that won't grant her anything, yet I'm letting her believe in it. I feel like I'm about to vomit.

    "Ben!"

    Someone jogs to me, and I don't need to look to identify whom.

    "Saber. Are you going to lecture me again?"

    I turn to her and she stops a few steps away. Her expression is a complex mixture of emotions that I can't precisely point out.

    "Lecture you...? Please, stop acting like a child."

    "Yes, I'm a child! I'm a bad Master, and I just said something very stupid about protecting my Servant and a girl that's going to turn into a portal to infinite power within a couple of days! How stupid is that?"

    She is speechless for a second, astonished. I don't even know why I am shouting. She takes a deep breath. "Indeed, it is unfitting for a Master to voice such a wish. You wanting to protect me sounds like a joke, as I have sworn to be your sword and shield."

    The resolution in her voice falters as she speaks. "However, I have sworn to help you grant your desire as well. I do not want you to protect me, but fight at my side, and please stay alive. If you die, I..."

    She looks away.

    "You what?"

    "... Ben?"

    I coldly spit my next words out. "All that matters, as you said, is to end this war with a victory. What happens after shouldn't bother you, since you will vanish and become a 'true' Servant. Why would the rest be of any importance?"

    I don't know why I'm being so angry, but the growing pain is definitely one of the reasons. One other is her confusing behavior.

    "That is unfair... You cannot ask me to be insensitive after all that happened. You are important to me."

    I can't stand looking at her anymore and turn to the window. "Then you are not the emotionless king you told me about. There is a person under that armor. A person you are actively trying to kill."

    My mind races. I have no idea where I'm going with this.

    "You..."

    Her hand reaches my right shoulder from behind. What happened to that promise about our relationship from earlier?

    "I killed Emiya Shirou."

    Silence.

    "... What?"

    I turn back to her and look straight into her surprised eyes. "You heard me. Lancer hurt him but I finished him off. I stole his Command Spell too."

    I couldn't hold that anymore. "I never was worthy of being your Master, and you wouldn't be in that situation if I had never shown up."

    She steps back with an almost comical doubtful expression. "Is this serious?"

    "Yes."

    There is a very heavy silence before she speaks up again. "Why...?"

    That's a logical question, I guess. "Well, I needed to-"

    "No, why are you telling me this now?"

    She is trembling. Before I can do or say anything, she walks to me and puts her hands on my chest. Her voice is low and emotional.

    "You always do that... You reveal truths at the worst moments and only drive my heart into confusion. And every time I think you have finally opened up..."

    Her right hand closes and punches me softly. "Every time you show me how much you believe in us, you add something like this..."

    She groans. That behavior is so unlike her that I'm at a loss of words.

    "Why do you keep playing with me?"

    The hand hits me two more times. My voice wakes up and is as broken as hers. "I'm not playing with you! I just... I couldn't tell you."

    She doesn't look up and her hands clench on my shirt. "Then why can you now?"

    "Precisely because I hate doing that. I'm... I'm sorry, Saber."

    There is another long silence.

    "It does not matter anymore."

    That surely surprises me. "Uh?"

    "It is not like I had excluded that possibility, but you were the one to summon me. You are my Master. I am satisfied with that, and any events prior are irrelevant."

    She takes a long breath. "If these days at your side have shown me anything, it is that you are a not a cold-blooded Magus. You want to help Ilyasviel, you spared Rin's life numerous times... Besides, even I..."

    She doesn't finish her sentence.

    "Saber... aren't you angry?"

    She hugs me without warning, her head resting against my chest. "I am very angry, but now is not the time to be fighting each other. I am worried about your state."

    I can't believe she let me get away with this. I guess our desperate situation helped. I wrap my normal arm around her softly.

    "I'll manage."

    She looks up to me with a sharp stare. "You better do so, after this morning's show. May I voice a request?"

    "Uh, yes."

    "Do not lie to me anymore. Please."

    We stay like this for a bit. I wish I could tell her everything else, but I really cannot explain where I come from for obvious reasons.

    "Ah, there you are!"

    We turn towards the voice. Ilya is sitting on Sella's shoulders. "Oh, am I interrupting?"

    Her smug smile contrasts with the intense glare the maid is giving us. We separate in a hurry and I try to play it cool. "You aren't. What's up?"

    She raises both of her arms with enthusiasm. "Let's have lunch!"

    She instantly lightens my bitter mood, and I couldn't be more grateful. I genuinely smile for the first time today. "That's an idea, I haven't eaten anything since that bowl of rice."

    A bowl that didn't stay in my stomach for too long, I may add. I walk to the girl and her angry mount. As I don't hear Saber's footsteps, I look behind me. She hasn't moved from her spot and seems lost in thought.

    "Saber? Don't you want to eat?"

    That's a thing I never thought I would ask her. She stares at me with an unreadable expression before jogging to us.


    ---


    Lunch is taken in a big reception room, and it's surprisingly filling. Two of us dig in to the rice and meat with delight, while Ilya stares at her food. After emptying a bowl with a happy sigh, Saber turns to her.

    "Are you going to eat, Ilyasviel?"

    The small girl grabs a spoon of rice and munches on it absentmindedly. Her maids are standing nearby. I wonder if they even need food... I glance at Leysritt but she doesn't react in any way.

    "Just a bit. I cannot taste food anymore, so I just take what I need energy wise."

    That ruins my mood for a second, but she follows her statement with a smile. "It makes me happy to share it with you two, though! Eat as much as you can!"

    "Don't tell that to Saber, Ilya."

    "Ben!"

    My Servant blushes and glares at me while filling her bowl again. "I need as much additional energy as I can gather! Make sure you fill your stomach properly too."

    "Well, don't mind if I do."

    There's a long silence as we keep eating. Once the upbeat atmosphere disappears, the arguments from earlier come back to my mind. I sigh.

    "I'm sorry for earlier. I'm not planning on self-destructing. I stand by what I said, though: we will win, and no one will have Ilya but us."

    She smiles softly. "Well said, Benben. I'm sure you can do it."

    We leave the reception room and reach the entrance hall. As I wonder about what we could do, Ilya's voice echoes from Leysritt's shoulders.

    "The forest..."

    My head jerks towards her. Her red stare is lost in the distance.

    "What's happening, Ilya?"

    Saber tenses up too.

    "Someone entered."

    That's not really a surprise. I'm already astonished we got almost two days of rest. The biggest question, though...

    "Who?"

    She stares back at us with a flat expression. "Rin and her Servant. She knows I saw her."

    I can almost picture Rin glaring back at some sort of magical security camera. Saber arms herself. "How much time do we have, Ilyasviel?"

    She shrugs. "She shouldn't know where the castle is, so a couple of hours at least."

    I sigh in relief. "Then, we can organize our defenses. Normally, she doesn't know that we are alive. She must be here for Ilya. Saber, what's your state?"

    "I can fight normally, but as I said, using my Noble Phantasm would consume all my remaining energy. I haven't recovered enough."

    "I see. Do you think you can take Archer on, still?"

    Her fierce stare is quick to show up. "Of course. I will face the one who tried to shoot you down with all my might."

    Sella interrupts us. "Our only purpose is to protect our mistress, thus we cannot help you concerning fights. We shall guard her in a safe place."

    I nod. "That's exactly what I was going to say. Ilya will rest in her room, and you two will defend it in the case of a failure from our part. I trust you to run away if necessary."

    She glares at me without a word. I'll take her lack of disapproval as an agreement.

    Saber turns to me. "I agree. Master, what is your plan?"

    My mind is strangely clear. "I will face Rin."

    "You..."

    She is definitely surprised. Ilya's eyes widen.

    "We established that long ago, Saber. I take care of the Master, and you handle the Servant."

    "That... is true, but how do you picture that happening, exactly?"

    I rub my left arm, trying to stop that latent pain without much success. "It's simple, really. Saber, you will wait for them not too far from the castle, but far enough for us to be separated. Emit your energy as a taunt. Archer won't be able to shoot you from a distance thanks to the trees, and they should come to meet you. Then, tell Rin to join me here. I will defeat her within the castle itself."

    "Why would she accept, Ben?"

    "An intuition. She knows that her jewels cannot hurt you, and given her personality, she should be eager to fight another Magus. If she refuses, take her down without mercy."

    She frowns. "That is a quite optimistic statement, but I shall obey you. We do not have many possibilities anyway. Though Ben, can you face Rin?"

    "With my current energy, and given what I pulled off against Leysritt, I can take her on. I just need to be careful with her powerful jewels. Also... I want to beat her. Even if she didn't technically betray us, we are in this situation because of her. I promised her a Magi fight, and we will have it."

    "... Understood."

    "Now, I need to prepare this room with barriers since I have free time ahead. Sella, Leysritt, please take Ilya to her room and defend her. We won't let her fall into the enemy's hands."

    Ilya's small hand brushes my shoulder as the trio leaves, and she only mutters three words.

    "Don't die, Benben."

    "I'll try."

    Saber, armed and ready, is standing a few meters away, still looking at me. The realization hits me like a truck: two uncertain duels await, and there is a big chance that this is our last discussion.

    "Saber... I..."

    She puts her hands on her hips. "Master, it is too late to tell you to stop being reckless. It was too late from the beginning. I have only one thing to say."

    "Don't die?"

    She smiles. "Win, and come back to me."

    My heart skips a beat. Such trust, after all the lies I've told her... I smile back. "Same for you. Defeat that arrogant red knight and we'll summon the Holy Grail soon."

    Our faked joy doesn't last long and a nasty feeling starts growing in my chest.

    "I will go now, Ben."

    She turns to the door.

    "Saber!"

    "What is it?"

    The stare that meets mine asks me to not make this harder.

    "When you win, if I were to... die, make a pact with Ilya, or Rin if she wants to. Do not lose your war because of my weakness."

    She shakes her head. "I only have one Master and it is you. Do not voice such absurdities again."

    She heads to the door and adds something in a quiet voice. "If you fall, I fall too. Follow your oath to the end."

    I stay still for a long moment after that, feeling very lonely all of sudden. Wasn't that my line? Gah, focus, Ben. If I can fight as I did against Leysritt, I should be able to beat Rin. I walk to the door. Let's start with an external field... We don't want to be disturbed.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    The longsword and Excalibur collide in a deafening sound. Archer's projection is solid, but it cannot stand against Saber's blade for too long. After a short exchange, he jumps back with agility. She runs after him, but five blue swords materialize above him and fly at her. She has to stop to parry them, surprised. Meanwhile, the red knight takes out his bow and adds a barrage of red arrows to the attack. She manages to repel most of it, but that kind of strategy will be dangerous in the long run.

    She does not like to admit it, but rage is driving her right now. Every time she sees the bowman's eyes, she sees her Master crawling on the ground, agonizing after a supposed victory. It actually serves her in some way, as her current energy level is far from optimal.

    Her following rush is met with the twin swords again. She groans and overpowers him, forcing him to retreat. While he does so, more swords appear above him and fly at her again. She jumps to the side to avoid them. They are not lethal individually, but she must be very careful.

    She glares at him. Something feels off. "Tell me, Archer, what happened to you? Your energy is definitely not as high as a few days ago."

    He smirks. "It seems that we are both weakened. I defeated the king of heroes, and you... I guess you tried to keep your Master alive while having a much better choice at hand."

    She cannot help being surprised. Archer certainly seems powerful, but defeating Gilgamesh on their own is a feat that should stand beyond most heroes' reach. He must have some kind of powerful Noble Phantasm. The golden hero being gone is a great relief in any case.

    "Ben is my Master, no matter what. Wouldn't you do the same thing for Rin?"

    He shrugs. "I pick the side that has the highest chances of victory. For now, it means staying with her. Once we defeat you two, only Lancer will remain."

    That only accentuates her anger. "Such a twisted hero... I cannot comprehend who you are, or anything that you do."

    She readies herself. Further discussion is useless. He takes out his bow and more swords hover above him. This is dangerous.

    "As I said before, I am no one, Saber. However, I am glad to see that your emotions are finally driving you. You're almost making me regret stopping you here and now."

    That makes zero sense to her. Why does he seem to know her so well? If she had had such a knight at her side, she would definitely recognize him.

    "At least you will fall for a valid reason this time. It's not like anything awaits you further ahead."

    "What are you talking about?"

    She gets more and more confused as he speaks, but for some reason his words have a strong impact on her mind. It feels like a retake on that night when he tried to shoot her alongside Assassin.

    He prepares an arrow and sighs. "There is no use elaborating on that. The cup just isn't as 'holy' as one would expect."

    A murderous intent emanates from him while the swords point at her in unison. "Though if you want to see it for yourself, you will have to defeat me here. I doubt you can do that given your state. Really, you followed your heart at the worst moment."

    As soon as he is done speaking, the swords are all shot at her. She has to get through. If she cannot reach an archer, she cannot slay him. It is as simple as that. She lowers her body and dashes through the rain of blades, parrying them thanks to her instinct. A couple of wide swings is all that it takes for her to approach him, barely scratched. As soon as she is out of it, he fires a single arrow. He puts much more energy in that one than usual, even if it is incomparable to the one he used on Assassin. She blocks it with her sword, but the shock completely stops her charge. Archer glares at her, emotionless.

    Anger fills her mind. If she was in her normal state, such an attack would barely slow her down! Another arrow is prepared as the enemy realizes their efficiency. Saber runs to the nearest tree and avoids the projectile. Fighting in a forest is the only advantage she has in this duel. Projecting all these weapons must be costly for him. She has to survive until an opportunity presents itself. She promised her Master that she would win and she will, no matter what.

    "I bet you can't even use Excalibur, right? Well, that is perfect for me. Don't think that the trees will save you, Saber."

    The trunk behind her is hit multiple times as he shoots at it. She can get to him with an energy burst, but she is afraid of the results. Her prana has regular disturbances because of the state of Ben's seal. It could backfire like that time against Rider. However, she has no choice. She focuses and prepares a much heavier charge than the previous ones. She waits for the small pause between the waves of arrows and reveals herself.

    "Archer!"

    Her energy bursts and she almost flies at him at high speed. Her body screams against such a decision, but she ignores it for now. He tries to block her with his newly projected twin swords, but she breaks through his defense thanks to the additional power. The swords break, and Archer escapes with a wound on his chest. It could have been fatal but his defense is amazing. At least it should weaken him enough for her to deliver the finishing blow.

    His sarcastic facade drops as he shouts in an ominous voice. "To quote you... Such tricks won't work!"

    It happens in an instant. Swords land all around her, creating a sort of cage. He had been expecting her action. She could break through without much trouble if her opponent had the intention of allowing her the time to do so. The red knight's energy rises more and he jumps high in the air while raising a hand.

    "Trace, on."

    A sword is projected. A sword that Saber can recognize easily. Reproducing such an unrefined weapon must be easy for him, and it holds all the power he needs to end this fight.

    Berserker's sword is raised, eager to strike down the caged king.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    "... What have you done?"

    After getting through my barrier in a way that only she could know, my ex-ally looks at me from below. I'm glad that my plan worked out as expected. What I wasn't prepared for, though, is the pitiful stare she is giving me. I'm surely in a bad state, but I hope she hasn't forgotten whose fault that is.

    "Ah, Rin. I was expecting you earlier."

    I'm standing on the top of the stairs for a few reasons: dramatic effect, visual ascendency, and to activate the few latent fields I've prepared without trouble when needed. All the doubts I had about facing her vanish when I actually see her. The last evening we spent together flashes in my mind. My voice turns ice cold, and my smile is meant to threaten.

    "I am glad you respected my wish to face you alone. As for your question, I did what it took to stay alive. I am sorry to disturb your plans."

    She has the decency of acting surprised. "My plans?"

    "Don't take me for a fool. You are here for Ilya."

    The small girl's weakened state comes back to my mind, which only pushes my anger further. "You can't have her. Not you, nor Kirei. No one."

    She glares at me while crossing her arms. "Really? I thought you got along with him, since Saber and you enjoyed some time at his place."

    Maybe she had been planning that murder attempt for longer than I thought.

    "Ah, you were spying on us? I didn't expect that. It was during that weird period when I thought we were a solid team, you see."

    I raise a hand and try to keep my cool. "I only confirmed a few things about that man. I was planning to tell you about them but you didn't really leave me the time to do so."

    That much is true. I did want to keep her as an ally and tell her everything about the remaining enemy after we'd killed Berserker. Her cold stare is frightening. I've seen her angry before, but this time is different.

    "I have no sympathy for murderers, Ben."

    I can't help but laugh, given how she was probably the next to last person to ever find out. I regret it soon, though, as a burst of pain forces me to hold on my arm.

    "I knew you'd figure it out eventually, but come on, Rin! Yes, I killed Emiya Shirou and took his rights as a Master. What of it?"

    She shouldn't even care. He was just an acquaintance to her. I wonder if Archer told her the whole story. She doesn't take that too well and her voice echoes with rage.

    "What of it? You murdered someone in cold blood to take his place, then you thought that we would be allies for kicks? What kind of twisted person are you?"

    Her anger doesn't affect me much. It's difficult to take a lecture from someone who shot you in the back seriously.

    "He would have died either way. Lancer was after him, remember? You shouldn't even have saved him. I am certain that Archer agrees with me on this."

    This time she looks genuinely confused. "... How do you know that I saved him in the first place?"

    Crap, I wasn't supposed to know that. It doesn't really matter at this point, but it's the first time I let that kind of info slip.

    "That is... irrelevant. If you care about a dead Master, you are as unworthy of being one as I am. Are you saying you wouldn't have fought him if he had miraculously survived?"

    "That's not the point and you know it!"

    We both hate questions, apparently. She raises her arm towards me, and the Magic Crest on it starts glowing.

    "Maybe I should have taken you down immediately..."

    That makes me smirk, although I have trouble staying completely insensitive. "Damn, Rin, that's harsh. Believe it or not, I didn't want the situation to come to this, but you brought it on yourself."

    I really didn't want this, all right, but I should focus or I'll die. Saber's pained face pops in my mind and brings back my motivation.

    "You tried to take Saber away from me. I can't forgive that."

    She answers after a short silence. "I never asked to be forgiven. We both do what it takes to win, don't we?"

    My goal isn't winning this meaningless war, but there is no need to discuss that with her. I smile with assurance.

    "I guess we do. Then, let's begin, heir of the Tohsakas. A Magi duel as we promised."

    I'm glad that I never told her about Avalon. I feel calm and confident, even with the painful throbs that regularly invade my left side. She immediately shoots a barrage of gandr orbs. I activate the barrier I've set up earlier, which covers the whole balcony. Given her face, I bet she's starting to regret running straight into the enemy's base.

    "Now, don't you realize that I had all the time I wanted to prepare the field?"

    The big door behind her is slammed shut. The external boundary field still holds up, and the way I cast it should interfere with her telepathy too.

    "Bastard..."

    Everything is set up for me to face Tohsaka Rin. My mind is clear and the field is ready, as costly as it is to maintain it. No more words need to be said. This magnificent room shall suit what will be the most crucial duel of my Holy Grail War.



    To be continued in Third Movement - Confession
    "I must atone for my lies. You know what, Rin? I'm not even mad at you for what you did. If this is how I must fall, I will accept it."
    "Why are you hesitating, Archer?"
    "... She lost."
    "Ein!"
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    DAY 9 - THE BITTER REUNION

    THIRD MOVEMENT - CONFESSION



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    Rin shoots another wave of orbs that collides against the boundary field. Gandr is originally a curse of illness, but she improved it to the point where it's become magical bullets. I can take them for now, but she will manage to get through eventually. I have some attack plans, but I must be very careful. She may have kept a jewel or two, and she is also dangerous in close combat. Any mistake can be fatal against such a brilliant Magus.

    She stops without lowering her arm. "Do you plan on hiding behind this forever?"

    I smirk. I certainly can't match her in ranged attacks, so yes, I will protect myself for now.

    "Anfang."

    Her legs glow. A frontal attack? She easily jumps on the left side of the balcony and runs along it while shooting more orbs. They hit the barrier again since it covers the width of the hall. She stops in front of it and channels more prana into her left arm. There isn't any point in taking the hit. A shattered barrier would only disturb my concentration, thus I cast it off at the precise moment she shoots. The big orb makes a hole in the wall, and she looks at it with surprise. I take advantage of that to jump down, landing at the center of the hall. My whole body feels stiff but the pain is manageable for now.

    She stares down to me, our positions reversed. I will only be able to take her down from up close, but I have to find the right timing. Her gandr shots are definitely a pain in the ass.

    I raise my hands. "Ha, at least you're not shooting me from behind, this time."

    She groans and shoots a single orb, probably to gauge the defenses I set up at this spot. She's smart.

    "Protège."

    The limited barrier stops the attack before it has a chance to reach my head.

    "You are definitely faster than before."

    "I guess your murder attempt made me stronger."

    She walks to the middle of the balcony, above the stairs, and runs a hand through her long hair.

    "Why not give up, Ben?"

    "... Beg your pardon?"

    "I saw Saber's state. My Archer is in a much better shape and you know that she won't win. What's the point in dying here, then? Give me your Command Spells and I'll spare you."

    I clench my fists while rage pulses through my veins. "Brûle!"

    A fireball flies at her but she has all the time in the world to jump aside and dodge it. She gives me a mocking smile.

    "I knew it, you are still as touchy when it comes to her. You mentioned Ilyasviel too... I guess murderers can sympathize."

    She shoots another barrage. She wanted to make me lose my composure and it worked. I block it with a hastily summoned barrier. Pain runs through my arm due to the unexpected effort.

    She won't get away with this. I put more energy into my spell to maintain it before speaking. "Don't make me laugh. You are the last person that figured the truth out, and you are the only one that gives a damn about it."

    She keeps on shooting while I raise my other hand and focus on the preparations I made. Thanks to them, I can cast barriers at a longer range.

    "Protège."

    A pillar of pinkish light surrounds her and she stops shooting immediately. I run up the stairs and cast it off right before reaching her. She shouldn't have the time to shoot me down. I try to punch her face, planning on revealing Yamato at the best possible moment.

    "Too slow."

    She dodges the blow, twists her body and hits me in the torso with an elbow strike. Martial arts... I step back, my breath taken away. She follows the motion and goes for a punch to my belly. She is fast!

    "Prot-"

    The barrier is shattered and she sends me flying down the stairs. I manage to land on my feet miraculously, but that hurt pretty badly. She snorts and throws away fragments of gems that she probably used to make her last blow more powerful.

    "I do not care about your excuses. I will defeat you and it's all that matters."

    I put a hand on my belly and cast a quick healing spell that alleviates the pain a bit. My Command Spell throbs. Saber is fighting with all her might and I must do the same. The problem is that my opponent is definitely stronger than me, whether it's in ranged battles or fistfighting. I focus and channel more prana into my magic circuit. The pain grows and pulsates in the veins on my left side, even reaching my cheek. Rin frowns and shoots yet another wave of orbs.

    "Protège et repousse!"

    A barrier forms in the air, in front of me, blocking the attack with efficiency. She keeps on shooting nonetheless while I raise my hand. I've never really tried that before, but I'm positive I can do it... Focus on the target, the shape... I ignore the pain and send the barrier flying to her. Still deflecting her shots, it reaches her in an instant and she just has the time to jump to her right to avoid it, unable to contain a yelp of surprise.

    After a short silence, she speaks up again. "Even if you win now, that dying body won't last until the end of the war. Just give up already."

    I smirk. "Never. Are you afraid, Rin? I thought you wanted a fight."

    She walks down the stairs and faces me. "As you wish, Ben."

    The tension in the air only rises as we gauge each other silently. Then, she shoots a couple of orbs, but I know those are a distraction. I crouch to dodge them while she dashes to me.

    Walls prevent me from counterattacking, and they are expensive, so I decide to go with limited barriers again. I cast one to stop her punch, but she crouches and goes for my legs with a terrifying sweep kick. Fortunately, Leysritt warmed my reflexes up this morning. I hop above it, then try to kick her as she steps back. She grabs my foot with reinforced hands and throws me off her. I land a bit further away, unscathed but defeated. She is dangerous, that's for sure. Still on guard, her mocking smirk shows up again. It lacks its usual warmth, though.

    "Your energy is definitely high, but useless if you can't hit. You should have taken more fighting lessons before taking me on."

    Such confidence. I still have some sort of admiration for her, even after all that happened.

    "Probably..."

    She's near a particular spot that I prepared earlier. I just need to make her go there... I channel more energy in my legs and rush at her while casting a limited barrier in front of me to avoid possible gandr shots. She positions herself for another direct fight. Neat.

    The barrier parries her first hit while I release a more powerful spell. "Repousse!"

    Another wall materializes in front of me. Before she can try to break it, I motion it to push her away. It doesn't hurt her at all, but it moves her five meters in the direction I need.

    As it vanishes, she snorts. "What's the point of th-"

    She interrupts herself as the device I prepared there activates. With a simple mental command, a thin pillar of light surrounds her. It doesn't leave her any room to move save for the side facing me. Before she can realize that...

    "Brûle et ne laisse aucune trace."

    I cast my most powerful fire spell and throw it in the small opening. She won't be able to dodge it and will burn alive in that prison.

    As it is about to reach her, I hear an ominous word.

    "Ein!"

    A ray of light engulfs my spell and reaches me in an instant. "Protège et r-"

    There is a huge shock as the spell contained in a jewel collides against my defenses and completely blinds me.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    Berserker's sword is raised, eager to strike down the caged king.

    She has to bet. Archer isn't as strong as the mad warrior, nor is he at his peak. Thus, she does the only thing she should do in that situation: raising her sword. She jumps to meet him airborne because a falling strike would cause her demise. There is no hesitation in her move. She is the Servant of the sword and such a challenge only fills her with strength. She draws more energy from her stock to withstand the incoming attack and yell before meeting him in the air. The swords collide and their voices reach unison.

    "Just... give up... already!"

    He says so in a strained voice and pushes harder. She takes the opportunity to jump back, using the momentum. It costs her a lot of energy to maneuver in the air like this, but her instinct tells her that it is the best call for now. However, he sees it and throws the sword in her direction, following her escape. She blocks it with her own and is sent flying to the ground, where she crashes heavily. Berserker's sword disappears along with the now useless cage.

    Saber gets on her feet as fast as she can. That was a bad hit, but as long as she can stand, she will fight. Her whole body is painful after that exchange. The red knight stares at her. His state isn't that good either: the wound she gave him earlier is quite deep, and his breathing is ragged. It is obvious that such a combination of projections cost him a ridiculous amount of prana. She still has a chance to take him out. She won't allow him near her Master ever again.

    He summons his bow and aims at her. "You do realize that I can shoot you down easily from here? This is over, Saber."

    "Then, what are you waiting for, Archer? Fire your arrows, but do not miss once. My sword will find its way to your heart, even if I must die along."

    His eyes narrow. "Us dying means Lancer and his coward of a Master winning after killing both of ours. Is that what you want?"

    She regains her stance and gives him a fierce look. "No. This is why I won't fall to you."

    He snickers. "I admire that will. Hell, he might be nearby, ready to finish us off. Better enjoy ourselves while we can."

    Thinking beyond the sarcastic facade, she finds his behavior quite strange.

    "Why are you hesitating, Archer?"


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - ARCHER


    Is he? He frowns. He could have shot her ten times instead of talking about irrelevant matters, and yet he went for a verbal exchange.

    There was a time when they fought together. A meaningless alternate reality that should have no influence on this one. It could be the reason why he is treating her like this, though, no matter what he told Rin about defeating her. He takes a deep breath and regains his composure. For him to feel nostalgic... What a joke. The bow is readied for sure this time.

    "Sorry, Saber. Here I come."

    Given her state, going for numerous projections would be overkill and costly. A couple of well-placed arrows should do. He shoots a weak barrage to gauge her state. She jumps to her right to dodge most of it and parries the rest with a heavier than needed slash, failing to hide her heavy panting. Such a pitiful sight only makes him want to end this faster.

    "How sad to reach your limits because of a weak Master. Farewell."

    He focuses and shoots a powerful arrow like earlier. Excalibur blocks it, and Saber steps back. He readies another one in an instant and fires again. She slashes it with all her might and dashes behind a nearby tree. He keeps shooting at it, knowing that she won't be able to hold that position for much longer. What stops him before that, though, is the ominous wave of energy emanating from behind the tree. It is exactly like when she defeated Berserker during the first night.

    She gets out of her cover and faces him. He can feel a chaotic burst of prana rising from her.

    "That seal again? What a bother..."
    She answers his comment with a sharp glare. "Prepare yourself, Archer."

    Her presence would terrify anyone right now, and his usual composure is thrown out of the window.

    "Don't get ahead of yourself because you got a mere boost. We both know that it won't last!"

    She dashes at him in a straight line. The powerful arrow he shoots is deflected with a slash and doesn't even slow her down.

    "Guh- Rho Aias!"


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - RIN


    "Ein!"

    He almost got me. I thought that last move was out of desparation, but he had prepared the field. Trapped in that prison, I had no choice but to use my last jewel. He casts an emergency barrier as my B-rank spell engulfs his own with ease, and the shock resonates in the whole castle. The pillar around me vanishes. No Magus can emerge unscathed from that kind of attack, and that's confirmed when I manage to see him clearly.

    On his knees, he is holding his left shoulder. Apparently he's managed to reduce the damage, but his body is burned in a few spots and that last move altered his energy a lot. He would make a pitiful sight if his blue eyes weren't locked on mine, as alive as ever. I extend my left arm.

    "Give up, Ben. It's over."

    He starts laughing loudly before being interrupted by a violent cough.

    "... What's so funny, exactly? You've lost."

    To my surprise, he carefully stands back up and smiles. "Damn, I look pretty freaking alive though. What are you waiting for, Rin? Finish me off!"

    My eyes narrow. Does he really want me to... Wait, why am I not doing exactly that? Why does my arm feel so heavy?

    "It's easy to let your Servant do it, but now you can't finish the job yourself? Was all that talk before a bravado? I thought that emotions were only an interference for you!"

    That grinds my gears. "S-Shut up! Do you want to die that badly?"

    "Heh, you really are... well, a good person. I've always said it, after all."

    His smile turns to a genuinely sad expression that takes me off guard. "Sorry, Rin. I never wished for that fight, and I deserve everything that's happened to me. However, only Saber matters to me now. I can't come back to her if I don't defeat you here and now."

    "Only Saber... Think about yourself, for once!"

    His absurd speech pisses me off, and that anger takes over my hesitation. I shoot some gandr orbs at his face. He tries to use a limited barrier and block with his right arm, but it doesn't work that well.

    "Ugh!"

    He steps back and grabs his seal.

    "What are you doing?"

    The knot is loosened further. There is no way he can stand that!

    "It is... quite simple, you see..."

    He stares at me and manages to smile again, even though he must be dying inside. His energy rises even further, beyond anything reasonable for a human.

    "This will give Saber the energy she needs, and I will defeat you."

    "Stop speaking nonsense!"

    I shoot a heavier barrage. Even if he can cast faster, more energy won't change the fact that he isn't a good offensive mage. A barrier blocks it while he closes his eyes. The most serious burns start to vanish although his left side veins look like they're about to explode. No healing spell can do that... It's more of a strong regeneration. I remember when Kuzuki fought him in the school and said that he had a special body.

    "Are you... even human, Ben?"

    He glares at me. "Of course. However, you miscalculated greatly if you thought that you knew every ability I had."

    Bullcrap, no human magic can instantly regenerate wounds. It must be linked to Saber. Now that I think of it, his leg also healed up surprisingly fast back then.

    "Un dôme sera révélé
    Nous cernant de sa lumière."

    I remember that chant... what is he planning now?

    "Anfang!"

    I reinforce my legs and dash at him. His victorious face warns me just in time.

    "Yamato."

    A sheathed katana materializes in his left hand, and he takes it out with dexterity. I jump back at the last moment, high in the air, to avoid the horizontal strike. That's certainly new... He finishes his chant with a sentence I've never heard before.

    "Enferme-nous, arène fatale."

    I collide with something above me that sends me back to the ground violently. I barely manage to land on my feet and look around us while ignoring my hurting head. A dome covering a good part of the hall surrounds us. It resembles the one that usually protects him, but its repelling effect is much more powerful than what I've seen before. Keeping his katana in his right hand and the sheath in the left one, he stares at me with a calm expression.

    "I must atone for my lies. You know what, Rin? I'm not even mad at you for what you did. If this is how I must fall, I will accept it."

    Even I can see his left arm throbbing, and he resumes talking after a pained groan. "Though I'd appreciate if you were a good girl and let me get Saber back. This isn't really made for protection, but to ensure that none can run away."

    I can hear his reason falling apart. I've always hated how his magic worked, and I can fully see why now.

    "Drowning in the temptation of power... Even if you win, you will die soon. You really are an idiot."

    I reach for my leg and take out my azoth dagger. It certainly looks ridiculous next to his sword, but I've been putting energy in it for the last ten years. I can release all of it with a single word, which should be enough to kill anything that isn't a Servant. I was expecting some kind of mockery, but he stares at it seriously before rushing at me. He is faster than before, but nothing I can't handle. I manage to jump to the side while avoiding the dome border, and he doesn't run after me immediately.

    He sighs. "That priest must be euphoric enough at the moment, and you have to use his gift against me..."

    What is he on about now? I need to focus on the fight, but I will kick his ass and question him afterwards if he's still alive.

    "Enough nonsense!"

    I shoot more orbs at him and he repels them with a barrier. His prana pool keeps on rising... He is on me in a second and goes for my left arm with his blade. I can't really parry it with the dagger, so I dodge to my right, but the sheath hits my side. I try to stab him in response, but he jumps back, apparently aware of the danger. He always seems to know things he shouldn't...

    The throbbing symbol on my left hand tells me that it's not going so well for my Servant either. I refuse to fail at the last moment!

    Ben puts back his blade into its sheath and extends a hand. "Brûle."

    That fireball is more threatening than before thanks to his more chaotic prana flow. I can still dodge it easily.

    "Repousse les ennemis."

    As I run to my side, a weak barrier appears right in front of me blocks my way. I could destroy it easily, but he doesn't leave me the time to do that. I am ready to counter a slash from any direction, but he directly hits my tummy with the sheathed sword's guard. I jump back and... damn.

    My back hits the border of the dome, and it sends me towards him at high speed, as if I was a tennis ball. The blade is unsheathed as he readies himself. I wasn't prepared to face a swordsman, and I must admit it was clever from him...

    I tighten the grip on my dagger, ready for the clash. As the katana pierces my right lung, I stab my enemy's gut.

    It hurts. It hurts so much... but I got him. Now I only have to say one word. One word to end this man's life. I can see his expression from up close. His incredulous eyes water and he grits his teeth. Where is the cold-blooded murderer now? All that I see is remorse and despair, and the growing bitterness in my heart can only make me relate.

    One word to end him. I just have to open my mouth.

    "I..."

    I don't recognize my own voice.

    "... never could hate you... in the end... could I?"

    As my hand lets go of the dagger, his blade is removed. Blood spills out and I curse my own foolishness.


    INTERLUDE OUT

    INTERLUDE - SABER


    The flower-shaped shield blocks the knight's charge. There isn't an ounce of subtlety in her attack, and she crashes on it like a missile. Her energy level rose thanks to her Master loosening his seal. Her mental plea for victory was answered in the worst way imaginable. She has no time to lose.

    Excalibur glows as she pushes against Rho Aias more. One petal shatters... two, three... Archer raises his free hand and swords fall on her from above. Her instinct is as sharp as ever, as she repels them all with a large swing above her head before turning back to him. He casts away the shield before summoning his twin swords. She raises her own, and both glare at each other, well aware that this is the last clash.

    She dashes and attacks him. The dual swords make a solid, renewable defense, and she will be at a disadvantage if he manages to hold her off for too long. However, her rage does not waver, and she breaks his weapons numerous times. Soon her swordsmanship overpowers her opponent's, and the whirlwind of pure strength she is in this instant makes him retreat as she attempts a fatal blow. Now at a dangerous distance, he projects ten swords that are shot in a quick succession at her while preparing his bow. She parries the first few without trouble and starts running at him, but one bolt of pain assaults her and makes her flinch, allowing a sword to pierce her left shoulder.

    "Ugh..."

    The boost provided by her Master is indeed useful, but it is also chaotic and can burst at the worst moment. She keeps running nonetheless and parries the rest of the attacks, ignoring her wound. The arrow is readied as they are only five meters apart. She lowers her body to offer a harder to hit position, although she doubts she will reach him on time. As she prepares herself to face defeat, the expected attack never comes.

    Her sword pierces his torso without meeting resistance, as he seems frozen on the spot. Her eyes widen out of shock, and the enemy slowly exhales after a silence.

    "... She lost."

    "Archer...?"

    "My Master lost. There was no point in winning this anymore. I..."

    He coughs some blood that lands on the blade while confusion fills her spirit.

    "With you alive, there can be a proper winner to this war. I don't want Lancer to win, and there is little I could have done on my own."

    That angers her. "What about our duel? A Servant must not let himself be defeated!"

    "I thought I had made clear that such matters were irrelevant to me. I pick the side that wins."

    She cannot understand him, or why he has such a deep impact on her. She stares into his dying eyes and only feels sadness.

    "Tell me who you are before you vanish, please."

    "I did not lie to you. I am no one, Saber. My master and I lost this war. I wish she survived, but given her current state, she will die in a matter of minutes."

    "Then you could have run to save her! Why give up after all this? Didn't you want to kill Ben?"

    He slowly shakes his head. "I do not care about that man, though I have one question for you. Are you still following that foolish wish of yours?"

    She gasps. "It is not foolish!"

    His stare sharpens. "It is. You cannot redo the past, Saber."

    Her vision blurs. "How would you know about it? Tell me!"

    His hand reaches her cheek. "There was a time and place in which we knew each other, but it means nothing now. I am glad that I could cross swords with you, in the end."

    He is starting to disappear, yet she cannot find a proper answer. She should not care about a falling enemy that mocked her countless times, but every word he says hits her hard.

    "Is he good to you?"

    His last question is the oddest of them all. It takes her a while to put words on her emotions. "... Yes. He did condemnable things, but I committed worse sins. He is my partner and a good person, like you seem to be now."

    He manages to chuckle. "I am no good person, but hearing that is reassuring. Smile for yourself, Saber. I am glad I could see you again."

    He gives her a sincere smile that shatters the rest of the hatred she felt for him and vanishes. She can still feel the warmth of his touch on her cheek. Not caring about the fact that her Master won, or her own victory, she falls to her knees. The chaotic burst seems to have slown down, and she is exhausted.

    Archer... He never revealed who he was, in the end. He simply left, leaving a numb feeling in her that she cannot explain. What just happened? She should have lost, she knows it. He had all the time in the world to fire that last arrow, but he let himself get killed. Maybe he had planned that from the beginning. She cannot begin to comprehend his intentions, and it confuses her even more.

    She stays like this for a long moment before it happens. As a Servant, she can feel when her Master is in danger. A depiction of what is happening in the castle flashes in her mind for a second.

    "No!"

    She stands up, cursing herself for staying idle for that long and runs to their base as fast as she can, leaving behind a man whose existence was stolen from this world. Emiya Shirou's future self managed to leave a trace, in the end, as insignificant as it may have been.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    Rin's body falls to the ground after Yamato leaves it. I try to suppress the pain that's making my brain boil up, but there's no use. The seal... I've loosened it too much. I need to tighten it or I will die soon. I do so with difficulty, leaving it back to the spot it was this morning. It almost feels bearable compared to its previous position. I look down to her. Her breathing sounds weird due to the pierced lung, and her eyes are hazy. She is going to die.

    I cast off all the fields that were holding up to lighten the burden on my energy and point my blade at her. I...

    "You saved me."

    Must...

    "Could it be that Ben likes me?"

    Finish the job...

    "A cat? Why?"

    ... Right? That was the plan. Then why does my heart hurt more than that dagger in my gut? I came here for Saber! I was supposed to use Rin to an extent and kill her afterwards! Why must everything be that complicated?

    I fall to my knees next to her. I can't do that. I can't kill her. She tried to murder me and Archer might defeat Saber at any moment, but... I can't. She is too fascinating as a person, too good of a friend.

    I carefully remove the dagger, knowing that Avalon should heal that without much trouble, then I extend my hand above her fatal wound. It's selfish and Saber will probably behead me for that, but...

    "I'm going to heal you, Rin. Hold still."

    It's not like she is going to run away anyway.

    "What... are you... saying... you... idiot...?"

    She coughs terribly.

    "Quiet. You can throw a tantrum later."

    I start casting. It will cost me a lot of energy given the hole I made, but I can do it. She passes out soon. After a moment, the entrance door opens wide. I don't bother checking, as my calm Command Spell tells me that Saber won her own fight. I smile while focusing on Rin.

    "Back, Saber?"

    My voice is weak and lower than usual. I really went overboard, didn't I?

    "Yo."

    That's not... Feeling an icy chill running down my spine, I turn to the door that is slammed shut behind the intruder. Lancer stares at us in surprise.

    "Healing an enemy up? I figured you were more of the killer type. Bah, doesn't matter."

    He walks to me slowly as I stand up and get ready to... to what, exactly? He will kill me before I can even think about casting anything. He sighs.

    "It's really a bother, though. I prefer Saber over Archer, but I can't stand you. I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Where is the vessel?"

    Kirei is finally making a serious move, it seems. I was too optimistic.

    "I don't know what you are talking about."

    His murderous intent becomes clear. "I don't have the time to joke around, kiddo. I will find the girl with or without you. Step away."

    Ilya's weak figure comes back to my mind, and I advance between him and the stairs, holding my gut wound. Each step is more painful than the previous one.

    "I won't. Act like a knight, for once!"

    Bad call. Really bad call, Ben. After half a second of disbelief, he runs to me and sends me flying against a wall with a roundhouse kick. I am too tired to defend myself. He will kill me here and now, and I can't even stand back up to die with honor.

    He walks to me and summons Gae Bolg before pointing it at my chin. I gulp. "I think you didn't grasp the situation, boy. I am here to take the Grail and leave on my Master's orders. Do you think I enjoy doing that? Do you think I've been enjoying doing nothing serious since the beginning of this war? Do you think that Cu Chulainn, the legendary warrior that never lost a fight in his lifetime, doesn't strive for direct confrontation?"

    His voice is filled with a rage that isn't directed at me. I cannot form words right now, which is probably for the best. "Well, guess what, genius? I don't like it. The only small hope I still have is to fight Saber to the death when the Holy Grail is summoned, because my Master insisted to let you guys kill each other off. If doing all this shit can finally give me a good battle, I will do my job as this war's chore boy. However, the last thing I need..."

    The cold tip touches my chin. "... Is a Magus questioning my honor on top of all this. The only reason you are still alive is because I want to fight your Servant. Don't push your luck!"

    It is now menacingly hovering above my legs. "My orders are to not kill you, but I was told nothing else specific. Remember that hit I took thanks to you? Maybe I should return the favor..."

    As he starts pointing to my wound, a quiet voice echoes from the stairs. "Intruder. Leave him."

    Lancer turns his head and I follow his gaze. Leysritt is standing there, halberd in hand. No...

    "Leysritt, don't! Run!"

    She ignores my plea. "I will protect my mistress and her friends. Leave at once, Servant."

    She should be at Ilya's side. Did she actually come here to help me out? Lancer stares at her with curiosity. "Homonculus... You don't fit the description I was given, though. I suppose your mistress is the one I am looking for."

    He takes a stance. "I don't care about collateral damage. If you want to interfere, try to at least distract me."

    She runs to him as my vision gets blurry. I doubt I will be able to remain conscious for too long, as that last flight across the hall kind of finished me off. The spear and halberd collide, but my tired vision can't really see what is happening. However, I know Leysritt's level, and the outcome is tragically obvious. She manages to fight him for a moment, perhaps because he isn't really being serious. Their weapons clash numerous times, but she never puts him in a difficult position. He is just too fast and strong.

    I see one more thing before passing out. Lancer's weapon has found its way into the maid's heart. He lifts the corpse with the spear, then throws it aside while sighing.

    "Giving a heart to golems was a bad call... Sorry. You did your job well, but strength rules the world."

    He starts climbing the stairs at high speed. I take one last look at Rin and Leysritt's figures. What a sight we all must make... My body gives up on me and everything turns black.


    ---


    I wake up in the bed I slept in last night. The day is still up, but probably not for much longer. I try to raise my head, but a violent migraine assaults me and sends me back to the pillow.

    "Do not move, Ben. There is no danger anymore."

    Could this be...? I turn to my right and see my Servant, alive and well... or at least alive.

    "Saber... You came back..."

    "I am here. Focus on getting better, please."

    I close my eyes and try to relax for a second before everything comes back. I jerk back to a seated position, ignoring my body's protests.

    "Ilya! He was here for Ilya! Where is she?"

    Saber's expression answers before her words. "She was taken away. I could not return fast enough... You have my apologies."

    I pinch the bridge of my nose. "Don't. You would've been killed if you had faced him today. What happened to everyone?"

    I realize there is someone nearby and turn to my left. Rin is lying next to me. The wound on her chest still looks pretty bad, but I managed to heal it for the most part, apparently. Her breathing sounds weird but she just seems asleep at the moment.

    Saber follows my gaze. "She must have focused some of her energy along with your healing... I carried you both here in order to be able to watch over everyone at once."

    She looks away. "As for the maids... they were both killed. I do not advise you to enter the hallway right now. Sella apparently fought with all her might."

    I feel nauseous. I can't say I liked her, but she fulfilled her duty to the end.

    "And Leysritt tried to save me... Shit. We brought this here. They died because of me."

    "No, Ben! Ilyasviel is the vessel, thus this was bound to happen eventually. You told Rin to not blame herself for the death of her sister, and you should follow that advice."

    I groan. "I guess you're right. How did your fight go?"

    There is a weird pause before she answers. "I... I won, mainly because you loosened your seal. It was a really a difficult fight, and I would have certainly lost if he had been at full strength."

    "He wasn't?"

    "He apparently defeated Gilgamesh, which is reassuring for us."

    Finally something positive! "That's awesome, actually. Our biggest threat has been dealt with. Also, you would have won at full strength in any case, so that doesn't really mean anything. Nothing else?"

    She hesitates. "... Nothing worthy of interest. He did not tell me who he was. What happened in this place, Ben?"

    Changing the topic and giving a short answer? That's certainly suspicious, but I should focus on more important matters. I proceed to tell her what took place here with details, and she listens with attention. When I'm done, she lets out a long sigh.

    "You did not listen to any advice Ilyasviel and I gave you. I cannot believe you are still alive. You loosened your seal even more and healed up the one you defeated?"

    She glares at me dangerously. I'm expecting a lecture about the seal, as usual, but that's not what I get.

    "Why did you save her? There are limits to forgiveness."

    I look at Rin and ask myself the very same question. "I... I couldn't kill her, Saber. Call me stupid or cowardly if you want."

    Another pause during which I kinda fear for my life.

    "You admitted murdering someone to take his place, yet you cannot do so with one that tried to kill you?"

    I try to smile. "Heh, pretty much. I guess the remnants of our friendship were too strong."

    "Friendship... I have always found that good will towards her suspicious. You have been doing this since the very first night."

    Her stare hurts. "I guess? She is an interesting person."

    Then it dawns on me. "Hold on... Are you jealous?"

    Her eyes widen and she can't contain a cute gasp. "What? I am nothing of the sort! As a Servant, the mere concept of that kind of emotion is laughable!"

    I chuckle. "I understand now. Don't worry, you are more important to me than anyone else."

    Her face is completely red now. "T-That is not a proper thing to say, Master!"

    A silence falls on us as I enjoy my small victory, but I end it soon. We cannot stay still.

    "Anyway, Saber, what's your state?"

    She takes a long breath and comes back to serious. "I only suffered minor wounds. Now that your prana is not busy with healing your own anymore, I should be able to replenish my energy normally. Of course I still used a lot of it, thus any other fight today will prove itself difficult."

    "Good. Lancer told me that he wished for a fair fight with you so I doubt he's waiting for us in the forest."

    I raise myself.

    "No Ben, you must-"

    "We don't have time! Five Servants fell, which means that the Grail could appear anytime soon! We must be on the move."

    She has no counterarguments and helps me up. My headache is still strong, but I can move around almost normally.

    "What is your plan? I channeled some of my energy into Avalon and healed your gut wound up, but your state is still very serious."

    My mind is clear. "We will bury Sella and Leysritt first. It's the least we can do."

    She raises no objection, and I start heading to the door with her support.

    "Ben... you should wait here."

    "No. I must witness the consequences of my acts."

    I push the door open and enter the partly destroyed hallway. Further on the left lies Sella, against the wall. She is covered in slashes and her heart has been pierced. We walk to her and I close the red eyes.

    "Sorry. We will take Ilya back, so rest in peace."

    We gather the two maids and dig two holes near the castle's wall, where I fought Leysritt what seems like forever ago. Neither of us feel like making a speech, so we just stand there and pay silent respect. Saber takes my hand in hers and doesn't let go. The warmth of her presence helps me greatly in such hard times.

    Farewell, Sella, Leysritt. I won't forget you.


    ---


    We're back in the bedroom. The sun is starting to set and we both look at it through the window. I've never felt as drained as I do now, but we need to move forward.

    "Let's go, Saber."

    "Where to?"

    "Fuyuki. It's time to finish this. I want to save Ilya and win this war."

    She seems to hesitate but eventually nods. "You are right. It will take us most of the night to reach the city, thus we should take off as soon as possible."

    I turn to Rin and walk to her. She is still unconscious, but a rapid checkup tells me that she should be fine.

    "Are we going, Ben?"

    My Servant is as eager as me to leave this place, apparently. Without Ilya's happy aura emanating in its walls, this castle is ominous.

    "Yes, she will manage on her own. Bye, Rin."

    I know I won't see her again, no matter how the war ends. Suppressing the bitter feeling growing in my chest, I take hold of Saber's hand and leave the bedroom. We exit the castle as the night starts to fall. My state forces us to maintain a relatively slow pace. The migraine soon becomes the last of my concerns as my body makes sure to remind me that I did too much in a day, and soon even moving becomes difficult. Saber catches up on that and lets me use her as a support. Not that I mind...

    "Can I ask you something, Ben?"

    "Of course."

    Honestly, having any kind of conversation is better than this silent forest, especially at night.

    "Why did you go as far as killing a Master and taking his place? Now that I know the truth, I am even more confused than before."

    Okay, maybe not any kind. "I already told you my reasons to fight. Really, I have the feeling that I've spent half of my time here justifying myself."

    My voice comes out more annoyed than intended, probably because of my fatigue.

    "I apologize, Ben. I did not want to bother you."

    I sigh. "I'm just not feeling too well at the moment. The true story isn't much different from the one I told you first. I knew that Kiritsugu had been your Master, and you were the Servant I was aiming for. The Saber class is the strongest of them all, and your legend fascinated me."

    I take a breath. The funny part is that this version isn't that far from the truth.

    "Avalon hadn't been retrieved by the Association, as I found out when I dug into their files. That is why I headed to the Emiyas' household. I killed the boy because I saw his Command Spell, and Avalon appeared. It's not really an excuse, but Lancer was probably going to kill him anyway, which would have aborted your summoning."

    "I see."

    One thing bothers me, though. "Don't you hate me for being such a bad person?"

    Her grieved expression takes me aback. "I told you about my life, Ben. I killed many people, including ones that had sworn to serve me. As I have sinned more than most, I cannot judge you on this particular event, even if I do not approve of it."

    I don't want to have a debate on that topic for now, as the day has been heavy enough.

    "Thanks for your forgiveness... I really appreciate it."

    Her next words are spoken in a smaller voice. "Besides, I tried. I tried being angry at you for all these lies, I tried coming back to what a normal Servant should have been, but I could never fully do so. You called me back each time I stepped away. You... You have become more than a Master to me."

    Is that a twisted confession? I feel my cheeks burning. "Damn, Saber, you're going to embarrass me."

    I squeeze her shoulder lightly, and she stays silent after that. After another hour, the end of the forest is nowhere in sight and I'm having more and more trouble walking normally.

    "Ugh..."

    She stops. "We cannot go on, Ben. You must sleep or you will pass out soon."

    I try to fight against that idea. My energy is flowing, everything works! It's just my stupid body that doesn't want to do as it's told. I groan.

    "No, we must save Ilya!"

    She shakes her head. "I will hear no objections to this. I spotted a place that would fit when I brought you and her here. It should not be that far away."

    It turns out that it's indeed nearby, as we reach it in half an hour of slow walking. As much as I don't want to lose time, I must admit that seeing the ruin is a relief. We enter it and reach a room with a bare bed. Given my state, it will be largely enough and much better than the forest ground.

    "I should cast a field around this place before sleeping."

    Saber shakes her head. "No. You have consumed too much energy already, and there should not be any threats. I want you to be able to move around and channel energy correctly tomorrow, so spare it as much as possible."

    She's right. If Lancer kept us alive, he has no reasons to attack us during the night. I'm still worried about Ilya, but the bed is too appealing right now.

    "I will be on watch. Now that your energy flow is doing better, I can guard this place efficiently."

    "Is it really better? The seal is halfway loosened..."

    She bows her head. "It is chaotic, and I preferred the original way, but at least it should boost my recovery. It is not like we have a choice in that matter, since you will still refuse to tighten it."

    "True. I will allow that only after the end of the war."

    She sighs in disapproval and looks at the window. The night is clear and the moonlight shines on her blonde hair, exactly like when I summoned her. Seeing that makes me terribly nostalgic, and I realize that this is the last time I see her like this. Tomorrow will be our fall or victory.

    I walk to her and hug her tightly without a warning.

    "B-Ben!? What are you doing?"

    "This is our last night, isn't it?"

    "I... guess, but... stop!"

    I smile above her right shoulder. "Sorry, I just wanted to make this real one last time. Guess I am too selfish. A part of me has trouble accepting your disappearance."

    A part that is approximately one hundred percent of me, actually. She slowly raises her arms and hugs me back.

    "You gave your heart to the wrong person, I told you about that..."

    "I can't control it. Besides, I'm happy I feel that way."

    She doesn't let go before long. We separate and I walk to the bed before lying on it with gratitude. I glance at her one last time. She is looking at the ground with an emotional face, her cheeks red.

    "You keep making this harder for both of us. It is unfair."

    My heart skips a beat, and I can't add anything. She turns back to the window, and I roll to my side.

    Archer fell... I wonder what he told her. Was I right to keep Rin alive? I hope she will manage in any case. As for Saber, well, there's nothing new. I know for sure that I have completely fallen for her throughout the days, and her recent behavior is pretty obvious, to say the least.

    No matter what happens tomorrow, it will be the end for us. The thought fills my heart with an overwhelming sadness, but I eventually relax enough to fall asleep.





    For the war to end in Day 10 - Our Wishes
    "That behavior is not the one of a spectator. Whether it is salvation, greed, destruction, love or any sin... you have a wish."
    "Is this your true face, Master?"
    "I could heal you up."
    "You made all the wrong calls right at the end. How disappointing."


    It won't be split into parts, this time. Next week will be a one-way trip to hell.
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    Rejoice, the war ends today.


    DAY 10 - OUR WISHES



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    "Fuyuki..."

    Saber and I stand on the top of the hill above the quiet morning city, finally out of the forest. I woke up feeling a bit better, but I still need her support from time to time. The pain is less sharp than yesterday but it runs in my whole body now. It's fortunate that we are almost done with this war because I couldn't stand that for much longer.

    "We are back and also almost victorious, Ben. Having only one remaining enemy is a relief."

    My hand on her far shoulder, I look at her. "You're right. How is your energy level?"

    She is as serious as ever. The emotional atmosphere from yesterday night has disappeared, which is probably better for both of us.

    "I should be able to face Lancer and use Excalibur once. I am more worried about your state than anything."

    "I'll manage. No way I will give up at this point."

    We look into the distance for a while. The weather is sunny and nice, unfitting for such a day. She speaks up after a moment.

    "Where are we headed first, Ben?"

    "The church."

    She frowns. "Are you certain about that?"

    "Where else? The Holy Grail will appear soon, and it's a leyline. Besides, after all this, I hope you share my guess about Lancer's Master."

    "If you put it that way, it seems like a correct choice. That priest is our only track as of now, and Lancer sparing your life did not fit a usual Master. Let us go, then."

    "Yep, it's a long way, so we'll catch a bus. I doubt I can walk that much after the forest trip."

    We don't speak much after that. Both of us know what awaits and keeping a clear mind is already hard enough.


    ---


    It feels weird to walk these streets again, even if it has only been three days. We take a bus soon and travel to Shinto. Saber is lost in thought and I can't stop throwing glances at her. Her peaceful figure relaxes my racing heart. We are going into the enemy's den. Soon she will know how malevolent the Holy Grail is, and I will have done nothing to warn her. I lied to her, I'm still doing it, and yet she trusts me fully. We even grew feelings for each other, and all this is making me feel guilty. Of course I have good reasons for not telling her the truth, although...

    "Is something the matter, Ben?"

    "Ah... Not really."

    She looks at me quizzically and I pretend to be absorbed by the window all of a sudden. Let's deal with problems when they present themselves. We already have enough work as it is. I don't know what Kirei's plan is, and I have no idea how he will greet us. Will Lancer be waiting in front of the church? Will his Master give us the Holy Grail if we ask nicely? I'm worried in any case. The ride passes in silence while I imagine countless possibilities. There are a million things I'd like to tell her, but I can't get myself to do it. I hope I won't regret that later on.

    This war went mostly fine aside from the state of my body. Lancer isn't the worst final opponent we could have faced, and Saber has recovered. I don't regret keeping Rin alive, and no outsider should pose a problem. The situation is almost ideal for us, even if I'm not sure I can take Kirei on.

    I'm not giving up on Ilya either. We must save her at all costs.


    ---


    Most people are at work or in their homes, thus Shinto is really calm. The weather doesn't stop a cold chill from running down my spine.

    "The air is heavy, isn't it?"

    Saber nods. "It is because the Grail will awaken soon. I hope it won't do any damage to innocents this time."

    "Well, it's our role to ensure that it won't, isn't it?"

    "It is indeed."

    We reach the church. The air is definitely heavier around here and I'm starting to feel uneasy. Saber looks at me.

    "What is our plan, Master?"

    I can tell that she is very tense although there is no visible menace.

    "Do you feel any Servant nearby?"

    "I do not, though that does not reassure me. The atmosphere keeps worsening as we progress."

    "Hmm... Let's just enter and talk with Kirei. I'm sure he will be happy to see us."

    This time I won't leave her at the door. That "no Servants allowed" rule was never relevant in this place.

    "Happy?"

    She is apparently gauging if I'm joking or not.

    "Well, he kept us alive, didn't he? It's pointless to imagine what he's up to, so let's just go and see it for ourselves."

    A sigh. "You are as reckless as ever."

    She arms herself and steps forward while I chuckle. We reach the door without encountering anything and I push it open with energy. Having Saber at my side makes me feel invincible.

    The church hasn't changed a bit. We walk up the alley between the benches, focused on our surroundings. Soon, a door opens behind the altar, and Kotomine Kirei faces us.

    "Good morning to you, Benjamin and his Servant. I did not think I would see you again after what happened with Berserker."

    He is perfectly calm and holds a small smile that only reinforces the dense atmosphere. "I should congratulate you after your recent victories. You proved yourself to be a more ferocious Master than I thought you would be. I should have known, given how you started this war..."

    He looks at Saber, probably checking if she knows what I did. She just glares back at him, so I decide to answer.

    "It certainly went superbly well, Kotomine. Too bad the Grail was stolen from me at the last moment. I figured I would pay the supervisor a visit."

    "I see. That is certainly a shame. I am also surprised that you could beat my pupil. She had always been very talented, perhaps too much for her own good."

    He is not even trying to hide the fact he took part in yesterday's events. His stare lingers on my left arm.

    "What a high price you paid to achieve this, though."

    My tone switches to a threatening one. "Enough playing around. Five Servants fell, yet the Grail hasn't appeared. I want answers."

    "Then follow me. I shall not talk about it in the main room of this church."

    "Ben, this is too dangerous."

    Saber and I look at each other. Kirei makes an annoyed hand motion. "I take it that even a knight class can feel another Servant nearby, or have I been overestimating you, Saber? There is no risk in following me down there."

    That I cannot believe. She gives him a terrifying stare. "Danger can take many forms, priest. Do not try to fool us."

    "Let's do as he says, Saber. For now. We won't get anywhere if we refuse opportunities."

    "Wise words."

    We follow him to a dark staircase leading to the church basement. It's not really my favorite place to chat in, but Lancer would definitely be disadvantaged if he were to fight Saber here. For now, the room is empty and silent. Only our footsteps echo loudly until we stop in its center. I speak up first.

    "Let's not beat around the bush. You are Lancer's Master, aren't you?"

    He answers calmly. "Yes. I guess his recent actions were too obvious for you, though I had no use in hiding that fact anymore."

    Saber is surprised. "How could you maintain two Servants alive?"

    "Gilgamesh incarnated in the past war so he cannot be considered as such. I also killed Lancer's Master and stole her rights, exactly like yours did."

    Her aggressive tone doesn't waver. "Do not compare his actions to yours!"

    He smiles. "So he did tell you... You are forgiving. I guess your will to reach the Grail overrides such details."

    The conversation isn't taking a bright turn so I decide to interrupt. "Why did you kill another Master although you already had a good position and arguably the strongest hero at your side?"

    "Foreign Magi are troublesome. I did not want the Association to discover the true nature of the Holy Grail, so I took measures and decided to keep the Servant to hasten the fighting. That is partly why I immediately knew you were not from there. They do not send forces without a warning."

    I glare at him. "I guess that saved my life too, since you would have given me the same treatment."

    Saber is listening, focused. I gather my spirits and come back at him. "Now, why did you kidnap the vessel?"

    "I already told you that I would watch over the worthiest Masters. I sent Lancer in order to celebrate the end of the war properly. Who knew what was going to happen in that forest? At worst you could have all died, and the ritual would have taken an uncontrollable turn."

    My Servant's voice echoes angrily. "You used a knight for such a mission? He could have won many fights fairly if you had let him do so. Don't you have any consideration for him?"

    That question is apparently a boring matter for the priest. "Servants are here to obey and I had nothing to gain from direct confrontations. Cu Chulainn is a pawn that already has served far more that I thought he would."

    His stare sharpens, making me shiver mentally. "Remember that I ordered him to not kill your Master, Saber. I could have ended his life many times in these last days, yet he still stands at your side. Your sermon is irrelevant and misplaced."

    A murderous intent emanates from her. It isn't targeted at me but still makes my mind freeze.

    "It is as misplaced as your outrageous behavior. Your Servant is nowhere nearby in this instant. Are you expecting the same kind of mercy from us?"

    "I am not stupid enough to believe that."

    His brow doesn't even twitch. "I have prepared myself to face this kind of reaction. The vessel is not here, and Lancer is with it. He has been given the order to execute the girl if something were to happen to me."

    Ilya... It's a logical move from him, but it drives me mad. Saber groans but doesn't answer, encouraging him to continue.

    "Only her heart holds the vessel, however your Master seems to fancy her."

    His smile is quick to come back. "Besides, if I were planning on fighting you straight on, do you really think I would have waited patiently for you to recover and come to this church?"

    We fail to counter that. Saber shakes her head. "I do not understand you. What is your goal?"

    "I only wish to be entertained. It is not an immediate goal, though. I have no interest in reaching the Grail myself, but I want to witness what the winner will do with it."

    She looks bewildered. "You put so much effort in getting in everyone's way, yet you claim you are not seeking it? That is hard to believe."

    He snorts. "I do not expect you to understand. You should focus on what will happen next instead of trying to analyze my actions."

    She frowns. I decide to listen to their conversation for now.

    "I shall not question your motives furthermore, then. In that case, tell me what caused the fire ten years ago. Was it the destruction of the cup?"

    He answers in the same tone one would use when talking about a nice memory. "Surely not. You destroyed it and made Archer and myself bathe in its content, but for one moment the Grail was reachable."

    I have to act surprised once again. It's starting to get on my nerves. "You bathed in the Holy Grail contents?"

    "That is not the interesting part of the story. As I said, I was able to make a wish to the incomplete vessel."

    Saber's eyes open wide. "A... wish?"

    He smiles calmly. "Kiritsugu shot me in the back like an animal, exactly like Archer did to your Master. The Grail brought me back to life and appeared to me."

    Her eyes narrow. "I was indeed certain of your death. Are you saying you were resurrected?"

    "That is a simplistic description, but you can sum it up like that. It is one of the greatest sources of magic, after all. Stuck between life and death, I wished for destruction, and it listened to me."

    There is a heavy silence. Saber's expression makes me want to run away.

    "... You wished for that fire to happen?"

    His smile never fades, does it? "Not literally. The Grail only read my heart and saw my deepest desire in that instant. A will to take revenge on Emiya Kiritsugu, or merely a need for entertainment."

    I cross my arms. "How entertaining is that, exactly?"

    "I find my own pleasure in that kind of event, unlike most people. Some enjoy purity and happiness, and I like to witness those being tainted."

    He makes a pleased expression. "In that regard, your progression was amusing to follow. That final showdown against the ones that had betrayed you was something... You truly grasped the concept of this war."

    My Servant takes a menacing step towards him, but I interrupt her. "Stop, Saber. Don't play his game."

    She interrupts herself with reluctance. "I already told you, Ben, this man is extremely dangerous!"

    I shake my head. "We aren't here to discuss his personality but for the Holy Grail. I want to hear what he is going to say about that."

    Killing Kirei right here wouldn't grant us anything. She seems to understand that and simply answers with a frown.

    "I was only praising your actions. I will let you grant your wishes with pleasure when the Grail appears. Before that, as a supervisor, I want to hear them. It is about time I endorse my role in earnest."

    His tone is solemn. Should we really answer that? Saber glares at him. "It is just one of your tricks again."

    His calm tone contrasts with her visible tension. "I understand how little value you put in my position after all this, but I am the one who will summon the Holy Grail. It would be wise to answer my request given your position."

    She looks away, frustrated. We are completely playing his game, and he certainly won't talk about the Grail being corrupt. Bastard.

    "The one thing I do not know after all this is your reason to fight. What do you want from the cup?"

    She regains her composure and answers in a solemn voice. "I have no reason to hide my oath from the likes of you, Kotomine Kirei. My wish is to save the country I led to ruin by letting a better king pick up the sword."

    For once he is genuinely surprised. "You are seeking the Grail to cancel what made you a legend?"

    She gives him a flat look. "Yes. Is it able to do such a thing?"

    I feel anger rushing to my brain. She's still holding to that insane ideal... I hoped I could do something about that, but I guess I didn't try hard enough. There is a small silence before Kirei's answer.

    "You shall witness the infinite power it holds soon. Anything is possible thanks to it."

    He is going to hide the fact that the only way it grants wishes is through destruction... We are both lying to her. The guilt I feel keeps on growing. Looking more and more pleased, he then turns to me.

    "What about you, Benjamin? Why are you fighting this war?"

    Saber follows his gaze with the same interest. I groan, feeling like a cornered prey. "I told you before, I have no wish! I just want to see this to the end."

    "Impossible."

    What is he on now?

    "You snuck into this war, stole one Master's rights, fought more vehemently than most and almost destroyed yourself to get here. Those are not the acts of one without a motive."

    His smile comes back. "Well... I am quite knowledgeable in healing magic, and the 'almost' part is a euphemism. There is no coming back from this kind of wound. Your seal is consuming your body. At best you will remain in that state."

    Saber's expression darkens. I'm not surprised. It's not like I thought it would heal miraculously after tightening it. I got past the limit the day I was almost killed by the one I had spared.

    "I won't fall before winning, Kotomine. Thanks for your concern though."

    My voice echoes with sarcasm, reminding me of Archer for a second.

    "I will repeat myself, but that behavior is not the one of a spectator. Whether it is salvation, greed, destruction, love or any sin... you have a wish. I told you before, the Grail is merely a crystallization of life itself. Are you alive?"

    "For now, yes."

    "Ben..."

    Her stare hurts. I told her what I wanted countless times though! Or did I? I never really voiced it fully, only talking about winning the war with her.

    I don't care about this bloody battle. As the two stare at me in unison, I take a breath and speak my heart out.

    "My wish is for Saber to be happy."

    I look straight into her astonished eyes. It seems like Rin came back and threw an ice jewel at her while we weren't looking, because she's completely frozen on the spot.

    Then a laugh echoes. It starts softly but soon resonates in the whole chamber. Kirei shows actual joy for the first time. The sound of it is... pure. If Saber is the incarnation of light, the priest is the exact opposite. A man that was born as what the world calls "evil", who only finds joy in despair.

    "I am glad today. Glad that you were the ones to survive. Two wishes that cannot coexist fighting together... This is delightful."

    Saber wakes up and turns to him. "Stop disrespecting my Master or you will face my wrath!"

    "Your void threats mean nothing. If you want a conclusion to this war, meet me at the summoning place tonight. I shall see your wishes unfold... Ha, at least one of them."

    I try to regain some composure but my voice couldn't be less assured. "Then that's how it shall be. Where is it?"

    "Ryudou Temple. Remember, Benjamin, if your Servant doesn't follow your decisions, Command Spells exist for a reason."

    Unfazed by our very distinct wills to kill him on the spot, he walks up the stairs. "I will leave this place now and I suggest you do the same. Also, I doubt that Lancer will let this end without a fight. Transcend yourselves and celebrate the incoming miracle. I shall watch over its realization."

    We let him leave while a heavy silence falls on us. Soon we follow suit and leave this ominous room behind us.


    ---


    Not a word is said before I trip in the church alley. "Ugh!"

    Saber immediately reaches for me. "Are you all right?"

    "Yeah... It's just a burst..."

    The pain is blasting through my whole body and makes my head spin. She sits me on the nearest bench.

    "Take a breather, Ben. We have the time."

    She has trouble looking at me in the eye, and it's the same for me. Even her voice is uncertain. As her armor disappears, I take a couple of deep breaths. She channels some energy to my left arm with her hand, which alleviates my suffering a bit, leaving me with a numb feeling. Neither of us find anything to say and the atmosphere is definitely awkward. Soon I can't stand the combination of said atmosphere and this place, and I force myself to rise again. She steps back and gauges my state with a concerned expression.

    "You should rest a bit more..."

    "Don't tell me you want to stay in this place for one more second. I certainly don't."

    She hesitates before answering, unable to hide a hint of relief. "I agree. Let us leave."

    The sky has turned gray, as if knowing what is going to happen today. My complaint about that dies in my throat as I notice a figure standing ahead. Saber, walking next to me, stops dead.

    "Lancer..."

    She tenses up, but he just stares at us with his arms crossed and an upset expression.

    "Hey there."

    He isn't emitting anything more than annoyance. Is he just here to talk?

    "So it's only you and I now, Saber."

    A snort. "I can't stand your Master, but at least you will give me a good fight. I would have loved to kill Archer myself but it is too late to be picky."

    She readies herself. "Do you wish to settle this right here, Cu Chulainn?"

    He smiles cockily. "Heh, that's what I call motivation. However, I only passed by to see if you were in a decent state. If it hadn't been the case, I would have killed you two and proceeded with piercing Kotomine's heart for tricking me."

    I can't help being surprised. "You would kill your own Master?"

    He shrugs. "That's not relevant anymore. I can see that Saber is in a good state, so I'll face her as promised. I haven't had a single serious duel in this war, so don't let me down."

    He's about to turn back, but I have one more thing to ask him. "Is Ilyasviel safe?"

    He answers calmly, much more cooperative than I thought he would be. "For now, yes. She is under some sort of binding. I guess Kotomine wants the Grail to open when he wishes so. I've got to go now. Saber, replenish as much energy as you can before tonight. I won't forgive you if you fight lightly."

    She gives him a knowing stare. "I shall defeat you with all my might."

    His red eyes flash with delight and he takes off, disappearing in a couple of seconds.

    "That bastard..."

    My voice echoes with rage.

    "Ben?"

    "He kept Ilya alive only to manipulate us. We are dancing in Kirei's hand... Maybe we've been doing so from the beginning."

    She walks to me and adopts her trademark lecturing tone. "Do not think like that. We have earned our victories, and the fact you got his interest saved Ilyasviel's life and your own. You would have died yesterday if he was not seeking... entertainment."

    I can tell she is as disgusted as I am. I should have expected all this but I guess I got too caught up in the war to imagine Kirei's final plan.

    "I guess... In any case, I plan on defeating him tonight. He is indeed too dangerous."

    She stares at my arm. "I agree, though after yesterday's fights you will have trouble facing such an enemy."

    I groan. "It's not like we have a choice. We need to reach the Grail, after all."

    "Ah..."

    She looks away and the atmosphere from earlier comes back. Damn. I decide to abort the incoming awkward moment and take her hand in mine.

    "Let's go, Saber."

    I can picture her red cheeks without even seeing them. "Wait, Ben, where!?"

    "No idea."

    This is our last day together. I won't spend it avoiding speaking to her. I ignore her protesting voice and drag her towards Shinto.

    "There is no need to hold my hand!"


    ---


    I give her a small bag, and she looks into it with curiosity. Her upset expression from when I told her to wait here vanishes as soon as she sees what I bought.

    "These are..."

    "Eclairs."

    They look like a relic from the past to me now. Saber's eyes gleam and she wolfs down one in a few bites. The sweet smile that follows makes my heart skip a beat.

    "Thank you for remembering."

    This girl can be happy, I know it.

    We walk around for a while, but the streets lack life and the growing silence between us doesn't make things easier. Such concerns are quickly dismissed, though, as the pain in my body intensifies. Soon even walking normally proves itself difficult. She makes me use her as a support and leads me to the nearby park.

    As she sits me on a bench, our last time in this ominous place comes back to my mind. "Thanks. We sat here a week ago, didn't we?"

    She stands in front of me, gauging my current state. My voice is a bit ragged and my breathing heavy, but I should survive until tonight if the pain doesn't grow more, although that sounds optimistic. I think I'm reaching my limit.

    She answers after apparently making sure I'm not going to die on her. Her voice is calm and serious. "Indeed. It was during our first patrol in the city. This is where you told me about your wish for the first time."

    That is true... I tense up at the mention of the topic that I'd prefer to avoid.

    "I did... Then we got ambushed by Rider."

    Her green eyes narrow. "Then you proceeded to meet Ilyasviel without telling me. I still cannot believe that you survived the war."

    I chuckle weakly. "I really caused you a lot of trouble. Sorry, Saber."

    She sighs. "It is a bit late for that. I should be glad that we are still standing, even in that state."

    I try to relax and look at the sky, taking a deep breath. "I'll rest as much as I can until nighttime. It's not like we have something to do anyway. I would totally crash at Rin's place, but I'm certain she's protected it with high level spells. Better be safe than sorry."

    "Agreed."

    There is another silence.

    "Saber? Aren't you going to sit down?"

    I look back at her. Her expression turns uneasy. "What you told the priest about your true wish... was it sincere?"

    "Ah..."

    I can't answer straight away. She picks up on that and goes on. "I do not even need to ask. You were always vague about that topic, but that particular answer came from the heart. I could feel it."

    Our stares lock and I gulp. I cannot tell her current state of mind with exactitude.

    "Fine. I told him the truth. After fighting this war at your side, I became convinced that you deserved more than what you strived for. Thus my wish is simple."

    "It is not, Ben! Have you even considered what I told you about my past? You know that hoping for such a naive conclusion will lead you nowhere!"

    I feel my patience dwindling and answer with a sharper tone. "I hear you, and I still can't accept that you want to disappear entirely!"

    "Is this your true face, Master?"

    She is definitely mad now. Her tone hurts as much as her words. "I have tolerated your odd vision of our pact since you said that you would respect my wish to the end. Now you are pulling out this nonsense right before it?"

    I've gone too far to backtrack now. "What point is there in changing the past!?"

    That certainly doesn't calm her down. "I am not voicing my reasons again. You were still saying that you would see me fulfill my goal yesterday!"

    I can't really counter that. "Perhaps I did, but still, I thought you would realize that your wish meant disrespecting all the people that had fought for you! That's not..."

    I look away and say my next words in a bitter voice. "That's not what a king does."

    A silence follows, caused by her bewilderment.

    "You..."

    I look back at her and instantly regret doing so. She looks as angry as when Kirei mocked her. It isn't like the countless times she yelled at me; this is a cold, dangerous rage.

    "What would you know about how a king should behave? Changing the past? That is certainly ironic from someone that has been modifying his own story each time a new layer of lies was discovered."

    I stand up with difficulty and face her. "I know I lied, and I apologized for it! We are talking about your wish to disappear here, not my irrelevant past!"

    Her eyes narrow. "Irrelevant... Then, tell me. What is the reason you entered this war? Your actions are nonsensical, thus you must be hiding something else."

    I freeze. She is sharp.

    "I can't tell you."

    That surprises her and her frown disappears for an instant. "Excuse me?"

    "Sorry, Saber, I can't. I just..."

    I clench my fists as tightly as I can and realize how stupid my position in this war is as a whole.

    "I just... don't want you to vanish..."

    The frown is back. "Stop acting like a child. You do know that I will leave this world in any case. If you cannot tell me the truth about you, that means I should not have entrusted you with my own story."

    She looks away, her lips trembling. "To think that you would use it against me... I may have made a mistake."

    I take a step forward. "Saber, I..."

    Her stare stops me. "No. I do not want to talk about this anymore. I have given you my sword in order to reach my goal and help you accomplish yours. If that cannot be done fully, I shall defeat the enemy myself."

    She is dead serious. "Wait, what?"

    "Why would you die for a wish you cannot grant? You are already walking in an agonizing body. There is no point for you to fight anymore."

    My mouth hangs open in shock while her expression doesn't soften at all. After a short silence, my anger switch is definitely flipped and I almost shout at her face.

    "Fine! You know what? Just go by yourself and have fun, I'll go die in a corner! Ugh..."

    I grab my protesting left arm while her gaze follows the motion.

    "Are you..."

    "No!"


    This time I actually shout and turn back before walking away. I can't stand this anymore. I don't hear her following me, and when I turn back after a moment, I witness a tragic scenery. Saber, the one I wanted to save, my partner, standing alone in a deserted park under a grey sky. Her composure shattered and her eyes are now red. I bet I could see tears if I were closer.

    My boiling brain does not care, though, and I leave the park, then the plaza. Anger helps me to ignore my pain, at least.


    ---


    I had to mess up at the last moment! I'm beyond stupid. All I had to do was to see the true nature of the Holy Grail with her and destroy it. I ruined everything. The plan was perfect, but my emotions overthrew it. I couldn't let her hold on to that ideal after all that had happened. I listened to my heart.

    Tears of rage fill my eyes. My remark about how a king should act was certainly misplaced, but she didn't mince her words either. What is that bullcrap about fighting without me? We are supposed to be a team!

    Why am I not telling that to her instead of running away and debating in my head, for starters? I'm really the worst. Rin would kick my ass if she saw me like this.

    I wander through the calm streets, not paying attention to the odd stare I get from passersby. I was aware that entering a story I knew all about while acting like I didn't would be hard, but it surpassed all of my expectations. I messed up a few times and carried a bitter feeling every time I would deliver yet another lie about me. It would have been easier to do if I hadn't completely fallen for Saber and made Rin a good friend.

    I let my legs wander while memories spin in my brain, and before I know it I'm standing in front of Shirou's house. Did I really walk that much? I was too busy to care, I guess. Even the pain feels secondary now. Only Saber's crying face fills my mind. How could we reach such a situation after all these nice moments?

    People have started working on the destroyed walls, but it seems there's no one around right now. I unlock the entrance door with a spell, exactly as I did on the first night. It feels weird. The house is desert, although someone apparently cleaned up the remnants of the dinner we were having before the attack. Probably Taiga. I wish I could have met her, but that wasn't really possible, was it?

    I remember something as I reach the courtyard and head for the shed. I remember my last time here, when Saber forgave my lies and comforted me. I focus on my objective to get rid of my now blurry vision. After shuffling around, I finally find the small bottle Rin gave me forever ago.

    I stare at it for a moment, feeling more and more emotional. "Why did we have to fight each other...?"

    We should just have cooperated against Kirei. I miss her... She certainly hates me now, though. I guess I deserve it. I open the bottle and pour some of its contents on my left arm. It does some good, although I have reached a point where even Saber's energy just alleviates my suffering for a bit. I sigh, pocket it and walk out.

    The hole Saber and Berserker made in the dojo wall is still there. I guess they focused on the outside ones first. I enter the building through its normal door. The atmosphere is too calm... A part of me almost expects her to be sitting Japanese-style near a wall.

    We crossed swords here. I cried and Archer lectured me, actually helping me sort my feelings out. I guess he really cared about her. The shinais are in a bad state... I smile while grabbing one and do a few swipes out of boredom. My arms protest soon though and I have to put it back. Can I really face Kirei tonight? Will I really face him? Saber did say she wanted to fight on her own... I sit down against the wall with a groan. We are both way too stubborn.

    Taking a nap here would be irresponsible, but the idea is growing on me. After a long moment of daydreaming, a weird sensation assaults me. I stand back up in a hurry. I can't see anything odd, but the few noises I could hear have stopped all of a sudden. I'm starting to walk to the door when a hand lands on my right shoulder.

    "Yo."

    I jerk forward and turn back. That voice... "You!?"

    There is no possible mistake. Standing nonchalantly with a white shirt and a pair of blue jeans on, Pierre, the very person that brought me here, is staring at me behind his sunglasses. His expression is cheerful.

    "How is that a greeting, friend? I just came here to check-"

    He looks at my arm and his smile vanishes. "Woah, pal, you doing all right there?"

    I snort. "Superb. Are you here to take me back?"

    That makes my mind race. There's no way I will abandon Saber after our last exchange. He raises an eyebrow.

    "Of course not. I told you, the only ways of leaving are saying your safe sentence or dying, since your run doesn't have a time limit. Well, technically we can bring you back too. You see, we figured that someone could get incapacitated while still being alive, so that sentence system needs a safety measure. But I digress..."

    He walks around. I noticed how he liked to deliver long speeches a bit too much back when he was training me.

    "You have been on for one day in the real world. I was surprised that a Master pack user would last, and bosses pressured me to fish feedback from you."

    He smirks. "You see, every minute you spend here costs them some money, so they sent me to check on you. This will have no influence on your experience. How long has it been for you?"

    I can't contain a sigh of relief. He is not taking me back. "It's the eleventh day. The war should end tonight, actually."

    He whistles. "Wow. You actually managed to do well... I'm really glad. I won't ask you to narrate the whole thing since it'll be more interesting once you return. Did everything work well? Did you face any trouble regarding your avatar, any bugs in the system?"

    I wish he didn't remind me that all this was virtual now... Saber is definitely real for me at this point. I nod. "Everything worked well. Honestly, I almost had forgotten I had a real life. I feel every sensation a human can feel, and this world is amazing."

    "Hmm, good. How about the people in it? Did you find anything out of place, or did they behave like you expected them to?"

    I didn't expect some things, but overall... "They are the characters I know. Saber is..."

    I gulp and interrupt myself. Talking about her is difficult right now. Pierre frowns. "What's with her? Did we prepare enough prana for you to keep her?"

    "Yup. I had to loosen the seal because I got almost killed, otherwise we could have managed without it."

    He walks to me and looks at said seal. "Halfway loosened... I'm surprised you are still alive. Given your state, even tightening it wouldn't do much."

    "As long as I can fight today, I'll deal with it."

    He sighs. "Sorry about that, pal. I mean, technically we could create a Master class that'd have as much prana as a Servant, but the key point of the whole experience is to remain close to the original material. Do you regret not choosing the Servant option?"

    I shake my head vehemently. "I don't! I got what... who I wanted thanks to this."

    That makes him look around with interest. "I bet. Where is she, by the way? I froze the simulation but I figured she'd be standing near you."

    "I..."

    My expression must be pathetic given the way he freezes.

    "We had an argument and split up a couple of hours ago."

    He crosses his arms. "Come on, on the last day? How could you mess up like that?"

    "I confronted her ideal. I thought we had grown close enough for her to listen to me, but I was wrong. She said she would fight without me and I left."

    "Ah, Ben... You knew how stubborn she would be. I can't believe you ruined it at this point. Also, close eh?"

    I blush. "Wait... you didn't spy on me, did you?"

    There are... certain moments I'd like to remain private.

    "I told you it was a personal experience, idiot. The only thing we monitor is your real body. My current intervention is the only exception to that. Why the concern, though? Did you..."

    I can see the realization behind the tainted glasses. "No way, you pulled off the prana replenishment trick?"

    My dignity reaches abysmal levels. "Of course not! ... Okay, maybe. It was out of necessity."

    He laughs wholeheartedly before patting me on the shoulder. "Good for you, eh? Oh, sorry, your shoulder. Anyway, did that work well too?"

    I glare at him while rubbing my now more painful side. "It did. I won't elaborate on that."

    "I see! Thanks for the feedback, man. I'm glad everything works."

    I start turning to the door. "Will that be all, Pierre?"

    "For me, yes. If I may ask, though, what are your plans now? I thought you guys split up."

    "I will reform our team and beat the remaining enemies. I would hate myself if I didn't."

    "Hmm... That's the spirit. You've gotta enjoy this as much as you can. I would be mad if you used your safe sentence, actually."

    I'm about to answer that I never wanted to, but I did almost say it two days ago.

    "I agree. I will see you later, then."

    I start walking out but he interrupts me. "Who are the enemies?"

    "Kirei and Lancer."

    His voice is disappointed. "Ow, really? You knew that he was a Master from the beginning and yet you let him live? That's a rather bold move. We all know how dangerous he is. Do you have a plan, at least?"

    I groan. "I know all that! The opportunity just didn't present itself. I'm satisfied with how I've led this war until now, and no, I don't have one. We go there, beat him and destroy the Grail."

    After turning to him, I face a much more serious expression than usual. "You plan on taking Kirei on in your state?"

    I groan. "It's not like I have a choice."

    "About your physical condition, sure. But you don't seem motivated at all. Did you give up after arguing with Saber?"

    Am I still motivated? That's a good question... I can't provide an answer to him immediately, which makes him sigh heavily. He raises a hand and a western-style sword appears, the one he used in our training sessions. He looks at the blade absentmindedly.

    "Uh, Pierre?"

    He dashes at me in an instant.

    "Wha- Protège et repousse!"

    I barely have the time to cast a barrier that stops the tip of his weapon.

    "I could heal you up."

    Right after saying words that disturb my focus, he retreats the sword and extends his left hand. Once he's channeled energy into it, he breaks through the barrier and shatters it with ease. His fingers tighten around my throat as he lifts me up.

    "Ugh..."

    "Your reflexes are better than before, aren't they? So, what do you say?"

    "Bas...tard..."

    "That's not an answer!"

    He throws me across the room and I barely manage to land on my feet, one hand on the ground. I stand back up immediately while trying to suppress the pain.

    "The hell is wrong with you!?"

    He rubs his chin with his free hand. "It annoys me to see such a slob. Where are your guts? Did Kirei steal them?"

    I channel energy and dash at him. "Yamato!"

    Our blades collide. My charge is met with a lazy counter using only one hand. He repels me like nothing and I'm forced to step back again.

    "Attacking me? At what point did you forget I'm literally an admin around here, not to mention I'm using a Servant pack?"

    He walks to me while I prepare myself, still completely confused. As he is taller, his whole presence is intimidating.

    "I can heal you up."

    A vertical slash.

    "Protège!"

    The limited barrier repels his attack without disturbing his flow, as he strikes again immediately at a horizontal angle. I'm able to repel a couple more before being thrown against a wall.

    "Why do you fight, Ben?"

    I grit my teeth. My whole body is even more painful now.

    "I fight to win!"

    He snorts. "Bullshit. You know that the Grail is corrupted. There is nothing to win, and now even the one you came for doesn't trust you enough. I should at least heal you so that you can end this without crawling."

    His words wake me up and I take back my stance, boosted by anger and adrenaline.

    "I fight for her."

    I can feel his gauging stare. "Oh, really?"

    He advances, taunting me.

    "I love Saber. I will finish this story at her side."

    He smiles. "Is that so?"

    The sword is pointed at my chin. "Words are just words, my friend."

    My brain processes what I can do quickly. "Piss off!"

    My wrist rises next to the blade and a limited barrier materializes. To both of our surprise, it sends the sword flying meters away, leaving my tormentor defenseless. I don't know if it's the adrenaline or a sudden idea, but I managed to fuse the repelling effect of my strongest dome with a limited barrier. It costs much more prana, but the result is worth it. I swing my katana at him, knowing that I can't possibly do much damage. Surely enough, he stops the blade with his hand. However, my other hand grabs the sheath and hits his face with it. He steps back instantly.

    "Geez..."

    I broke his sunglasses... What a victory. He raises his hand again and the sword appears back in it.

    "I take back what I said about your motivation. However, you still haven't answered my proposition."

    The spar is over, apparently. I keep my blade in hand just in case.

    "You mean the one you were making while beating me up?"

    He nods happily. "Indeed!"

    "You just said that my state was too bad."

    "Too bad for a natural healing process, or even a magic one. However, I can totally restore your avatar to the physical state it was at the beginning. You would be in a perfect shape for the end of the war."

    That is... certainly tempting. The mere mention of getting better makes me conscious of how much pain I'm still in. He contributed to it too, though.

    "Thanks, but no thanks."

    He raises an eyebrow. "Why?"

    My mind is clear. "That would be cheating. I must face the consequences of my acts! I'm in that state because I lied to Rin, and ended up almost killing her because of it. Your suggestion is disrespectful to what I've accomplished, like Saber's wish is to her own story."

    I narrow my eyes. "That said... aren't you one of the purists that wanted to avoid anything that would ruin the experience coherence? I'm pretty sure you said that..."

    His eyes widen and he starts to laugh. "Ha! You got me. I'm totally against this kind of action, although the bosses are already thinking of healing processes or save points that would cost extra money. It sucks. I'm very happy you refused. It means you take this seriously."

    I groan. "Then what was all this about?"

    "Honestly? I just wanted to push you a bit. You seem to have woken up too, so I think I made the right call. I love drama, thought it would be a good addition to all this."

    He snaps his fingers and I suddenly feel lighter. "There, you're back to the state you were before our spar. It's your choice. Wear it proudly."

    I stare at him, dumbfounded. "I swear, Pierre..."

    "Hmm?"

    "When I come back, I will punch you. Hard."

    He grins. "You try. I can't wait to hear the full story of your journey."

    He walks backwards while talking. "I wish you luck with the war's conclusion and your lover. I would advise you to not get too attached, but where would be the fun if you didn't go all the way? Go find her and take back her heart, champ."

    He waves and disappears, then time unfreezes as I walk out. My next destination is very clear now.


    ---


    She is still there, sitting on the bench. I get nervous once seeing her from afar, especially since she must feel I'm nearby without seeing me. I take a deep breath and reach her. The walk back seemed way too long and the afternoon has begun for real now. A part of me regrets not accepting Pierre's offer, but I have my pride. One cannot simply cancel their mistakes.

    I walk around the bench and face her. Our stares cross in a quite tense atmosphere, and I can't really guess what mood she is in. I'm glad that she's stayed here, at least.

    "Ben."

    Hearing her serious voice makes my heart skip a beat. Without a word, I extend my right hand. She stares at it for a second before taking it tentatively. I help her up and pull her in a soft embrace, catching her off guard. The expected protest doesn't come, though, as she just stands still, her head lying against my chest.

    Everything feels so much better now that I can hold her. It's a childish thought, but it's never been truer.

    "I'm not spending my last day with you arguing or running away."

    Her voice is quieter than usual. "You... came back, after all that I said?"

    The hint of surprise hurts me a bit. "I said worse. I thought about all this and realized I'd been selfish. I shouldn't confront you near the very end."

    "You keep contradicting yourself and confusing me, Ben."

    "I guess that's because I'm not even sure of what I want. Well... I know what I want, but I also know that it will not happen."

    She flinches at that before looking straight into my eyes. "Then why are you still willing to fight?"

    "Staying at your side until the end is the last worthy action I can make, so I won't pass on it."

    I gulp before resuming. The intensity of her stare almost hurts. "I like you, Saber. I cannot help it."

    She takes a deep breath and raises her arms before wrapping them around my waist. "You are hopeless..."

    That makes me smile. "I guess. Whatever your choice is, I will watch over it. I trust you in any case."

    She gauges my seriousness before nodding. "I shall respect that state of mind and make sure you survive this last fight."

    I sigh in relief. "I'm happy you gave up on that idea of fighting alone. You scared me there."

    She adverts her gaze and makes a bashful face. "I did that because I would rather have you far away from danger, Ben. Your words certainly hurt, but I saw an opportunity to protect you. I apologize for being so inconsiderate."

    Protecting me via keeping me away? That's more considerate than anything. I definitely can't be mad at her.

    "Come on, I insulted you. I deserved way worse than what you told me. As for staying away from the fight, that won't happen. I'm here to win."

    Her eyes lock on mine again. "You voiced your heart, a decision which I prefer over any lie. You made some good points, but I will not abandon my oath. As for your will to fight... I was expecting such a reaction."

    Her smile is one of the sweetest she ever gave me and I feel my heart racing.

    "We are a perfect match in terms of stubbornness, aren't we?"

    She sulks. "That is not a nice thing to say-"

    She interrupts herself as I hold her closer and tighten my grip for a short moment. "Thank you. I'll face whatever is to come without hesitation now."

    I let go with reluctance and stare at her fully red face. She doesn't answer but her expression is enough to tell me that she liked these words.

    Saber... we grew closer than I thought we ever would, we even slept together (which is probably why I can still walk around) and we just have one more fight to face together. I'll let her see the true nature of the Holy Grail for herself. I wish I could have convinced her to change her wish before that, but it's too late. As for what will happen when she takes that hit, I have no idea. Maybe I will regret it later, but for now I have to move forward.

    "Ben?"

    She calls out to me, her head slightly tilted.

    "Sorry, I was lost in thought. Maybe we should go watch over the temple right away."

    A sudden pain stabs my left side and I flinch. She jogs to me. "What is it!?"

    Her voice lacks its usual composure. I grab my left arm, angry at my stupid body.

    "I'm okay! Let's just go."

    I turn back and bow down after two steps, feeling like I'm going to puke. My wounds have healed up... it's just that my body can stand these bursts less and less. It turns out to be one of my most violent outbursts and I can barely feel her taking my right arm and laying me down on the bench. During a small break between waves, I manage to open my eyes and notice that my head is on her lap. I'm not sure if that information calms me down or just drives my heartbeat crazier. My attempt at speaking turns into a weak groan. She frowns and puts a hand on my forehead.

    "Try to calm down, Ben. I will contain it as well as I can. Close your eyes."

    "We... have... to go..."

    "We will go nowhere as of now. You need to rest!"

    I want to protest but my body has stopped obeying me. I follow her command and focus on the energy flow she is sending through her hands. The pain lowers but her action results in a wave of fatigue that takes me quickly, numbing all sensations at once.


    ---


    I don't remember anything from that sleep and when I wake up, the sky is dark.

    "Night...? What?"

    The hard wood against the back of my head tells me that I'm no longer in Saber's lap. For a second I'm afraid she has left without me, but I soon notice her standing a few meters away, looking at a direction with concern.

    "Saber?"

    She answers without turning her head. "It will start soon."

    That short sentence gets my gears running for sure and I stand up in a panic. "Wait, what!? Why didn't you wake me up?"

    She turns to me with a sheepish look. "I was just about to do so! Worry not, the phenomenon started a short moment ago."

    "Damn, and I slept for the whole afternoon..."

    "Ben... are you all right?"

    Frustration fills my mind, and I speak louder than I intended to. "I'm not! I completely wasted our last peaceful time together!"

    She gives me an incredulous look. "That is... not what I was referring to."

    I walk to her side and understand what caught her attention. The sky reddened above Ryudou temple and the air got even heavier than this morning. I frown.

    "The Grail is going to appear soon, right?"

    "Yes."

    I can't help but grumble again. "Can't believe I missed half a day and made you wait alone."

    "You should focus on what is to come, Ben. Besides, I did not mind watching over you. I treated your pain as well as I could without using too much of my energy, slowly. Now you can walk around again, thus it was not a wasted afternoon."

    Now that she mentions it, the pain became much more bearable. I sigh. "Thank you. I still feel guilty about this, but I'm glad you helped me. I should be able to fight."

    I pause. "No... I must fight. There is no should or could there. There can't be."

    Her direct stare is as intimidating as ever, but I have learned to cope with it.

    "Will you help me accomplish my wish, Master?"

    I want to scream that it won't happen.

    "I will."

    I want to... but her fierce smile annihilates my thinking process. She walks to me and takes my right cheek in her hand. I gulp. What is she up to now? I understand her intention a second before she does it. She gets on her toes and presses her lips against mine, shyly. The kiss only lasts a few seconds before she steps back. Her expression is the same as before and it takes me a while to recover.

    "Saber... why?"

    She said yesterday that I was making the parting harder, and now this?

    "Consider this the memory I give you, as you did with the stuffed lion. Shall we go win this war?"

    "S-Sure!"

    She turns her back to me and arms herself while I engrave this moment in my confused brain, ignoring my burning cheeks.


    ---


    The atmosphere keeps getting heavier as we approach the temple hill, replacing the warm feeling of her last move by a barely bearable tension. Now that we are standing at the bottom of the stairs, I can feel a massive amount of energy emanating from above. We stare at each other.

    "Ben, do you have a specific plan?"

    "We must first gauge Kirei's state of mind, but I think we will have to fight. Lancer looks very dangerous, so I'll leave him to you and try to deal with the priest. If I cannot kill him, I will protect myself until you are done with your own fight so that we can finish the job together."

    She nods. "I agree with that strategy."

    "How is your energy level?"

    Her smile is confident. "I have recovered. The energy use from yesterday is replenished, and your treatment did not have any serious effect since I could spread it throughout half a day."

    My own feels forced. "Good."

    We ascend without meeting any obstacles other than an overwhelming tension in the air and the crater Archer caused back then. No one is guarding the gate but we still stop in front of it. I look at her and realize this is the last time we can talk. We will go back to our respective worlds tonight. Our story will only remain a cherished memory.

    I can't read her expression. Would she run away with me if I asked her? Probably not. She is still holding to a wish that is going to be shattered in a couple of minutes. There are millions of things I want to tell her. How much I've grown to love her, how much I am sorry for not being able to tell the truth... Now is the last time I can do all that.

    "Ben."

    "What is it?"

    "Can you promise something to me?"

    "Of course."

    "Please do not die tonight, whatever awaits us."

    That absurd request is voiced with all the seriousness in the world. I take a deep breath and try to smile reassuringly.

    "I promise. Let's go, Saber."

    "Yes, partner."

    We walk through the temple gate side by side. Now is not the time to be wistful. She is with me and that's all that matters.


    ---


    To my surprise, no one is waiting for us in the courtyard. The place is as quiet as ominous, although there are craters scattered around. I wonder who fought here... We head to the source of the waves of energy which seems to be behind the building. I know there is a lake there.

    "It is the same feeling as ten years ago... Be careful, Ben."

    I gulp. "How can something called holy emanate such an ominous aura?"

    She doesn't answer and we reach the lake in silence. The air here is so thick I'm pretty sure I could slice it with Yamato. The dark water itself is calm, for now, but we spot our goal further ahead. Far behind the temple, Kotomine stands in front of the Holy Grail, alone with...

    "Ilya."

    I feel my heart pulsating as we get closer. The vessel is hovering above the priest, naked and apparently unconscious. Behind her is a portal from which a dark matter is starting to flow.

    Kirei stares at us with a content expression. "Welcome, last Master. I am glad you were able to survive to this point. As the supervisor, I am impressed by your journey."

    My anger is quick to rise. "Cut out the crap, Kirei. I've had enough pointless chats for today."

    He keeps his never-changing, creepy smile up. "The Holy Grail has been summoned, as promised. I am sure your Servant is eager to use it."

    We both turn to Saber who is looking at the dark portal, bewildered.

    "What is this?"

    He gives her an impatient look. "I just said it. Don't you recognize it, Saber? I believe it merely looked different ten years ago."

    She gets on guard before raising her voice. "Do not try to fool me, Kotomine Kirei! You said yourself that the disaster from back then was because of your twisted wish!"

    He closes his eyes and smiles. I can tell he is savoring this instant. Disgusted by his joy, I ready myself for the big revelation.

    "There might have been a small misunderstanding. I do not deny wishing for destruction but this is what the Holy Grail is in its essence."

    She freezes and turns to me, expecting a reaction that does not come, then speaks again with less assurance. "Impossible. The Grail is a mighty vessel that shall grant anything to its possessor. That is what this bloody war is all about, and also why I became a Servant in the first place!"

    The black mud stream escaping the hole seems calm for now but I doubt that will last. Kirei stares at it. "I lied neither about its power, nor its purpose. That thing is an infinite source of magical energy which can certainly make anything possible. However, it is tainted with a curse. The greatest of them all."

    Her composure breaks along with my heart. "But... my wish... That is not what I was promised..."

    He stares at her with delighted pity. "The Grail only knows one way of granting wishes, and that is through destruction. Did you think the world would change as soon as you would voice yours?"

    He snorts. "Would someone wish for a world without fights, it would likely kill all humans in order to reach that."

    She falls on her knees. "I was deceived..."

    The priest, apparently bored with her already, turns to me. "Now, Benjamin, this is the ideal scenario for you."

    Surprise brings my voice back. "... Sorry?"

    "Your Servant's will is gone, thus you can make yours come true. Order her to drink the Grail's contents and she shall be yours in this world. You want to keep her, don't you?"

    I can feel her stare without seeing it. Of course I want to, but...

    "Will you help me accomplish my wish, Master?"


    Her words from earlier echo in my head. I take a deep breath. My decision is clear and easy to make.

    "Saber. Stand up."

    "Ben...?"

    She does so, slowly. I never thought I'd see a hint of plea in her green eyes. It pisses me off.

    "Destroy it. If that thing is just a pool of cursed energy, we do not need it."

    She raises her invisible sword hesitantly. Kirei's smile is gone. "A pool that can still give you both what you want. Would you really pass on it? All these fights for such a ridiculous conclusion?"

    Saber's assurance comes back. "Silence! We will not use a tool of destruction for our own desires."

    I can still hear pain in her voice. Her whole world was just shattered. "Now step back, unholy priest."

    He looks genuinely angry now. "A shame."

    I only see a flying blue shadow before Lancer is on Saber. Their weapons collide in a deafening sound while our enemy speaks solemnly.

    "You two have failed this war. In that case, I shall use the Grail myself. That will be rather violent, though."

    I focus on him, ready to fight. "I won't let you do so, Kirei."

    I can't tell who pushes whom further away but the two Servants disappear immediately, creating the setup we had planned. I face the last Master alone. I would feel relieved about that development if fear had not turned my sweat ice cold. I start channeling prana to my legs. There are about fifteen meters between us and I doubt he will allow me to close that gap easily.

    "Yamato."

    I summon the sheathed blade directly, as an observation round would be too risky.

    "I am surprised about this turn of events."

    His creepy cheerfulness came back quickly. I groan. "Surprised? You show us a magical killing machine and expect us not to stand in its way?"

    He shakes his head slowly. The more I can keep him talking, the better. I might need Saber's help if she is done before us.

    "Please, you can try to fool your partner with heroic words, but do not give me that nonsense. You are not one to care about saving people. That fact was proven as soon as you took an innocent's life for your own benefit."

    His words aggravate my growing headache. "Don't talk like you know me!"

    Damn, I really suck at finding counterarguments to his assumptions, probably because they are close to the truth. He stares at the direction our Servants ran to.

    "Saber suits that profile more, which makes you two an interesting mismatched duo. Why do you desire to destroy the Holy Grail, intruding Master?"

    I put the sheath to my side and take out my katana. "I do this for her."

    "The only thing you will accomplish is sending her back to her time, filled with remorse and self-loathing. Giving her soul away for a corrupted vessel... Her whole existence is a delightful joke, isn't it?"

    He allows himself a short laugh. "Destroying this is the worst thing you can do for her!"

    My anger keeps on rising. "We will end this nonsensical war right now, Kirei. Try to brainwash me as you may, I won't change my mind."

    He ponders. "Ah, unless... of course. I guess love really can alleviate the greatest selfishness. You really are... human."

    That's it, he lost me. "Eh, yes, I am. Were you doubting it?"

    More and more black mud is pouring around him while he answers calmly. "I thought you might be driven by a hidden ideal. You see, it is extremely rare to see usual humans among Magi. Their goals or motives are usually more idealistic than caring for the ones they love."

    I guess that's a good, if not a bit harsh, description of what I am. After all, I come from a magic-less world. I smirk.

    "Sorry to let you down."

    "Oh, I am satisfied. I do love humans. They fight through existence holding to pointless values. Seeing those tainted or crumpling on the verge of their deaths is my greatest pleasure, like one would enjoy art. Call it twisted if you desire, but few love humans as much as I do."

    I grit my teeth. "You are nuts..."

    He plunges a hand in the black mud. It should hurt him, but as he bathed in the Grail contents ten years ago, he is completely immune to it.

    "You will understand soon, Benjamin. The expression you will make when you lose everything before dying should be entertaining enough."

    The black mud advances towards me on his command.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    "Why are you doing this, Lancer?"

    Saber did not have to lead him to the front courtyard as he followed her naturally. Now the two knights are facing each other. She is holding her invisible sword upright while her opponent's lance is pointed straight ahead. He looks like a panther ready to leap. His red eyes show surprise.

    "Doing what, Saber? Fighting you? I hope you aren't being serious."

    As she is still shaken by the priest's revelations, her voice is louder than usual. "You also beheld it. We fought for a poisonous gift! How can you still face me when the possibility for us to grant any wish has vanished, or did not even exist in the first place?"

    He answers with a savage grin. "I think I made that clear enough. I am here to fight, period."

    He is on her in a second and delivers a barrage of piercing strikes. She can parry them all without much trouble when acting defensively, but trying to get through is going to be another story.

    "This war is meaningless!"

    She shouts that while doing a large swing that repels his lance and forces him to step back. His smile is gone. "Do not take this from me. I have endured all this crap because I wished for a fight to the death. I never cared for the Grail."

    "You just fought... to fight?"

    His tone echoes with annoyance. "As expected from a knight. Now wake up and face me with all your might, as you promised this morning. Take it as your last task as a Servant or a thrilling duel, but do not let me down."

    His passion makes her realize how weak she is being. She was certainly deceived, but as the king of knights, she can only honor one willing for a fair duel. She tightens the grip on her sword and speaks in a much more motivated voice.

    "Very well. You have my apologies for disrespecting your dearest wish. I, Arturia Pendragon, shall defeat you now, Cu Chulainn."

    He sighs exaggeratedly. "Geez, formal knights are too serious for my taste."

    His expression lights up considerably. "That's more like it, though. Don't die too quickly!"

    Her now calmer mind analyzes the situation. Gae Bolg has a powerful curse but surviving it once taught her two crucial facts: it can be avoided and he must announce its name before unleashing the Noble Phantasm. With that in mind, she should be able to beat him as long as her focus never wavers. Her Master's face flashes in her mind one last time before the two weapons clash.

    It does not take her long to notice a difference. Was he holding back the last time? His strength is incomparable to what he showed before. She could overpower him easily on their first duel, but now she even has trouble getting to the ideal distance for her sword. A spear has an obvious reach advantage that can be turned against its owner if one manages to step in their space... in theory. Lancer's agility allows him to maintain that distance at all times, stepping back without giving ground. He is well aware of her strength. Still, he cannot land a hit either. Save for the odd painful burst due to her Master's condition, her energy is at its peak. Her instinct and skills make a solid counter to Lancer's superior speed.

    He thrusts at her face. She dodges to the right and strikes back immediately. The enemy retreats just enough and the lance is swung horizontally. Repelled. She takes one step closer while it attacks from the opposite direction like a raging whirlwind. Repelled. He manages to step back using the momentum but she got used to that. She tries to force through with a heavy vertical strike. He sees the danger and jumps back. They are still gauging each other, though she can tell that she won't win without going all out. His expression is delighted.

    "I knew you wouldn't let me down, Saber."

    She catches herself smiling along, fiercely. "And I did not expect any less from you."

    She lowers her body, ready to strike. Their stares lock before they take off simultaneously and collide again. His moves flow perfectly at high speed while her heavier hits land when and where it matters, deflecting his deadly attacks every time. Soon it becomes obvious that she will not break his defense without taking greater risks. After sending the tip of the spear upwards, she goes for a low kick to make him lose his balance. That takes him off guard and he retreats again. However, this was not done as safely as his previous jumps, which gives her a momentum advantage. Holding Excalibur with both hands, she follows the motion and catches up to him with a heavy strike, releasing extra energy.

    "Guh!"

    He blocks it with a groan. The two aren't on the same level when it comes to pure strength and it is her turn to deliver a barrage of deadly strikes. He dodges some and parries others but soon finds himself overwhelmed.

    The sudden focus in his eyes warns her before he retaliates and launches a quick attack out of nowhere. The tip of the spear goes for her head and she has to block it. The warmup is definitely far behind now, as that kind of strike could have taken down someone with slower reflexes easily. Her momentum is lost. While she is recovering her balance, he takes another step back while his energy rises. This is...

    "Gae..."

    She unleashes the wind barrier in an instant. The cursed lance approaches at high speed.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    I stand still, observing how the pink cylinder I just cast reacts to the Unholy Grail contents. The black substance collides against it like a water wave. It is blocked, to my relief. I did use one of my stronger barriers.

    "Simple protection spells cannot withstand the greatest curse this world has to offer. You are naive, Benjamin."

    As soon as his amused voice echoes, the barrier starts crumbling. It is not being shattered as if it was struck down but dissolving. As much as that vision creeps me out, it gives me more time to react. If I can't move forward, the only way is above, as risky as it is. I channel energy into my legs while ignoring the latent pain as much as I can. Then, as the mud is starting to break through, I run a couple of steps and jump high in the air towards Kirei. His eyes follow my motion while a long, thin blade appears in his left hand.

    A black key... Those are used by the Church Agents. If I recall correctly, its main use is being thrown. He does exactly that, and I put my right hand in its way.

    "Protège!"

    The weapon is repelled but the throw was so powerful that my trajectory seems affected in a bad way. I still should be able to land safely... if he doesn't throw another one, which he immediately does. The second limited barrier made out of surprise shatters, barely slowing down the blade that proceeds to slash my right arm.

    "Agh!"

    The wound is minor but the shock affects my jump even more. I look at my new landing spot and only see darkness. I will die if I touch the ground. The situation calls for speed and power, which I can pull off given the state of my seal. I mentally apologize to my body.

    "Protège des énergies négatives!"

    I swear I can hear my left side scream in protest, but it worked. The ground below turns pink as I summon a horizontal barrier to hover above the pool of death. I land on it safely, aware that it will crumble too in mere seconds. That's all I need to run to him though, Yamato still in hand. He doesn't throw anything at me and waits patiently. I jump off my fragile platform and face him.

    "Un mur sera révélé."

    I cast my strongest barrier, the one that can even slow a Servant down, behind me. A large wall materializes between us two and most of the mud. I point my blade at him.

    "Just the two of us now."

    A smile. "Very well."

    His hands disappear in his coat for an instant. What comes out is more blades. Three in each hand, precisely, worn like claws. I gulp. Can I really beat that guy? Wake up, Ben. It's not about being able to do it. I must do it if I want a chance to ever see her again. His content expression stays up.

    "Acting heroic on a whim... Stop fooling yourself, boy."

    I don't have the time for pointless debates. My body is already waving a flag that reads "we won't pass the night" frantically, and we haven't even exchanged blows yet. That changes soon, though, as he runs to me. His magically enhanced speed contrasts so much with his usual calmness that he almost catches me off guard.

    His blades aren't as dangerous as mine but the fact there are six of them quickly becomes a problem. After parrying his first attacks, I have to cast a limited barrier to end a succession of fast hits, repelling his left claw. That apparently surprises him, which allows me to jump back. He follows suit, his body lowered to give less spots to aim for.

    "Brûle!"

    As my fireball flies to him, he crosses his claws in front of his face for protection. The spell hits them without much effect and he barely slows down. My elemental magic is definitely too weak... The right claw goes straight to my chest but I manage to duck under it and try to slash him vertically. He jerks his body back just enough to avoid it while the other claw comes from the side. A barrier stops it again but he doesn't lose his rhythm this time. The first claw comes back at me. I draw the sheath and hit it, breaking one blade. I take the opportunity to step in his space and try to cut his side. I don't have enough room to deliver a powerful strike so I barely scratch him.

    Our faces are now centimeters apart, yet I can't decipher his expression. Before I can consider my next move, he speaks up. "You don't have a reason to fight me."

    His head bows back, then I see stars while feeling him retreat. A headbutt? My blurry vision barely registers him throwing one blade from the broken claw at me.

    "Protège!"

    The barrier stops it, but he throws another one right behind it. It gets through easily and pierces my right shoulder, adding more pain to the one I was unconsciously suppressing. I remove the weapon with a groan while he runs to me again. His attack is too optimistic, but I understand why too late. His claw stops milimeters away from my newly made barrier and he makes me fall flat with a low kick. He is way too fast! This is nothing like Leysritt or Rin, I just can't keep up with that guy.

    As soon as I land on my back, the three remaining blades pierce my guts. His face shows clear boredom now. This is how I end... pathetic.

    "You made all the wrong calls right at the end. How disappointing."

    I try to speak but blood escapes from my mouth instead. Still kneeling over me, he continues his sermon. "You had what you wanted within your reach. All you had to do was to make her drink from the vessel. You gave up on your goal, and now you are sacrificing yourself for nothing."

    He stands and retreats his weapon. This is even worse than Archer's arrows back then. My body had the decency of passing out but this time my insides are on fire.

    "I will admit that I do not understand you. If love was your motivation, you would not fight for something that meant her disappearance. No!"

    I try to reach for my blade but he kicks it away from my hand, towards the barrier that will not hold for much longer.

    "I do not think you are hiding a deeper motive either. It just seems that you are a confused idiot."

    The worst part is that I totally agree with him on this particular point.

    "Shut... up..."

    I focus on my chaotic prana flow and my link to Saber. I have a trump card that he doesn't know about... As long as he doesn't cut off my head, I can use Avalon to some extent.

    "Your wall won't hold for much longer."

    He steps back. That sadistic personality is actually helping me. As my gut wounds start to heal, I stand up with difficulty. I close my eyes and picture the golden sheath in my mind. The wounds on my arm and shoulder disappear in an instant while the lower one becomes more bearable. He is still going to kick my ass, but at least I can stand. He frowns.

    "... Regeneration? You don't have the skill to use such a high level magic."

    His stare locks on my left shoulder. "Which means it is thanks to this or your Servant."

    He dashes at me. I try to recall what I did to Pierre's sword earlier. My prana bursts when I cast a barrier that repels the claw and shatters the three blades. I did it!

    I hear a weird noise coming from my right and jump away. Some of the mud got around the barrier and he tried to make it sneak up on me. He anticipates my escape and accompanies my motion. His now useless blades thrown away, he punches me in the chest before I can react. His fist twists against my shirt to make more internal damage before I'm sent flying backwards.

    "Pro... tège..."

    I cast a weak vertical barrier behind me which prevents me from falling on the ground. My breath has turned ragged and much heavier. Did he damage a lung? He stares at me silently while I loosen my seal further, almost as far as when I fought Rin. The damage gets repaired as my energy rises but I know I'm just buying time.

    "Kiritsugu had the same kind of annoying trick... I guess it really is linked to Saber."

    Hearing him say her name angers me. My emotions must be written on my face because he smiles. "That pathetic breakdown of hers in front of the Holy Grail will be your last memory of her. Isn't it a suitable conclusion?"

    I know he is provoking me, but my brain is burning right now. Loosening the seal that far has an impact on my thinking process. The face she made earlier, the plea in her green eyes, both fill my mind and take over everything else.

    "Not... the last..."

    His voice is back to cheerful. "Now this is a good expression."

    The pink wall I set up to restrain the black mud disappears for good.


    INTERLUDE - SABER

    "BOLG!"

    The Noble Phantasm is named as the red lance thrusts forward. Time freezes for the two knights.

    The raging wind caused by her now visible sword answers to that energy in kind. However, she knows there is no notion of blocking or dodging that attack directly. The lance reverses cause and effect and will end in her heart if she tries such moves. There is only one solution: fighting back.

    She raises Excalibur with both hands above her head before striking down, releasing additional energy to make it as strong as needed. The ground explodes, sending stone tiles flying between them. She hit in front of him to stop his charge and it worked. The wind sends him back where he came from and some rocks hurt him along. His forehead is bleeding now, making his angry expression only more threatening. Of course that last maneuver was not without effect on her either. She would like to chase him down immediately but she needs to catch her breath and recover.

    "You defeated it again... You are terrifying."

    She smiles again. That man really stumbled upon a Master that did not match his personality. Without her concern for Ben, she would greatly enjoy a duel like this.

    "Not any less than you. Besides, I am positive that you are far from done."

    His beast-like grin comes back. "Ha! You bet I am."

    A silent groan escapes her lips as she feels a sharp burst of energy in her. Her Master is also fighting on the edge of death. She has to kill Lancer soon. The confrontation resumes as they run at each other simultaneously. Saber's released weapon should overpower her opponent's in theory, but she understood long ago that this man had reached a level beyond calculations. He gives back every blow and moves around to avoid the ones he cannot block. His confidence has not lowered a bit since the demise of his Noble Phantasm and he is probably waiting for an opportunity to use it again.

    The clash goes on without a visible ascendency, as the few hits that connect are not decisive. As focused as Saber is, it is becoming progessively harder for her to ignore the uneasiness in her heart. Something is wrong, very wrong. It is not about her own battle, but her instinct screaming that she should not have left her Master alone.

    It does not take long for the horror to dawn on her. As she and Lancer are a few meters apart, something catches their attention and their heads turn towards the temple at the same time. Lancer's voice is confused.

    "What...? A Servant?"

    Then it happens.

    "Agh!"

    She clenches her fist against her chest and almost falls to her knees. A massive amount of energy emanates from her without control, making her prana overflow. She focuses on staying conscious as the enemy could strike. For now, though, he is just staring at her.

    "Hmm, not quite. Your Master's doing, it seems. I think he is going to explode soon, don't you, Saber?"

    Rage fills her spirit. She must rescue him now! Ignoring her enemy and leaving all reason behind, she starts to run. She will not allow him to die, not like this.

    "Hey, where do you think you're going?"

    The red spear enters her field of vision.

    "Move out of my way!"

    She puts all her might in a blind strike. It is blocked before the shockwave sends Lancer flying away. She turns towards him, slowly. He managed to land on his feet and his armor has dents on multiple spots.

    "What the hell? Is that your actual strength?"

    She barely registers his words and raises her sword. The intense pain she should be feeling is obliterated by her passionate rage. The knight in blue dashes at her. At this point she only sees him as an annoying insect. Her sword glows golden and she delivers a large horizontal swing that sends a wave of light to her opponent. His agility saves him from being annihilated on the spot, but his state isn't good when he lands. His red eyes show fear for the first time. Her voice resonates with power as much as her whole self.

    "Die fighting or run away, though act fast. You are in my way!"

    Lancer glares at her. "Is that so? Then, I will end this now."

    He retreats too far away to be a threat, then he starts sprinting while his energy rises. This is his final move, probably his most powerful one as well. He jumps high in the air.

    "Farewell, Lancer. Let us duel again in another life."

    "Gae..."

    The sword glows bright as she aims for the easy target.

    "EX... CALIBUR!"

    "BOLG-"

    As he starts throwing his lance, a giant ray of holy light engulfs him and pierces the red sky. Panting, she makes sure that he indeed vanished before running back behind the temple, expecting the worst.

    "Ben!"


    ---


    The scenery that awaits her is apocalyptic. A pink dome was cast in front of the Holy Grail. It looks much stronger than the ones she has become accustomed to, which is good because the black substance is surrounding it entirely, eager to devour what is inside.

    But what is inside? She can barely see anything and approaching that mud is a bold idea. The only thing she knows is that her Master is alive, for now.

    "Urgh!'

    She falls to her knees, unable to resist to the overwhelming prana flow that was aggravated by the use of her Noble Phantasm.

    The Servant closes her eyes and tries to calm down, feeling useless.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    This is bad. No matter how much I can heal myself, I cannot defeat Kirei in close combat and the mud is approaching. Yamato was caught in it before I could react. I bid it a mental adieu that makes me feel nauseous. The priest is unarmed as well but that does not make him any less dangerous. A martial arts expert that can control that curse... What am I even doing here? My last hope is for Saber to win soon and come to my rescue.

    It pisses me off. Did I really go through all this to get humiliated by a sadist at the very end? No. I will fight him with pride. I take a stance. His haunting smile stays up as he dashes to me. If I don't become more offensive, I will be a mere punching bag. He is greeted by a vertical barrier and stops right in front of it.

    "Ridiculous. Is that your only trick?"

    He throws a terrifying punch that shatters it easily. It's okay though, as its purpose was to give me more time for preparations.

    "Protège."

    I recall that sensation from this morning in the dojo before going for his face with my right fist. His left one goes to block me, which is precisely what I want. I cast the limited barrier a few centimeters away from my fist. The repelling magic is so strong that Kirei's arm bends back and twists with a cracking sound. Broken. He regroups immediately and steps away.

    "What...?"

    The cost in energy is heavy but it works! I run after him and channel more prana in my arms. His useless limb now dangling, he raises his right arm. I can do this. I decide to punch his belly. With a similar spell, it should send him into the atmosphere. I use the same tactic but this time he dodges, arching back his body just enough. He figured out the exact reach of my attack with that single blow. What a monster...

    His right hand descends like a guillotine blade before I can ever think about reacting and hits my wrist. The pain that follows is so sharp it makes me wonder if he didn't actually cut it off.

    "Ugh, you-"

    I prepare another blow immediately. If my right wrist is broken, I will simply use my left one.

    "You are forgetting something."

    Said something jumps on my back. I cannot contain a yell of pain. I didn't realize the mud had moved that far! Now my back is burning like hell, which soon becomes less of a concern as my enemy's valid hand grabs my throat and lifts me up. The substance retreats. From what I can see, it's now surrounding us. He's probably commanded it to stay away to torture me for a bit longer.

    "It's over. Rejecting one's own deepest desires only leads to self-destruction."

    He looks delighted. I can't imagine this being my last memory of the war. I prepare a fire spell but he feels it and tightens his grip. I am starting to lack air.

    "Just... finish me off... bastard..."

    He throws me away and I land heavily on my back. Then he puts his foot on my chest. "You knew very well that keeping your arm in that state would consume you. There are limits to sacrifices, and normally they are easily reached for cold-blooded murderers like us. Is your life of any value for you?"

    That brings a smile to my face. Even in my desperate situation, I manage to add a hint of sarcasm to my answer.

    "I can't die so there is no value to give to it."

    The foot pushes on me more as his smile disappears. "Is that so? Tell me, though, Benjamin, do you have any hope of seeing her again left?"

    That much is obvious. I put as much will as I can gather in my words. "Of course. If you ever stop rambling, that is."

    He bows down. "That is what I thought. I could kill you slowly and enjoy it greatly, but I just found a better way to pass time."

    The valid hand extends. It extends towards...

    "No, wait-"

    He puts it on my left shoulder, making all my remaining assurance vanish.

    "You can't- argh!"

    I try to move but both of my hands get covered in black mud instantly. The burning sensation is quickly replaced by a dreadful numbness.

    "What is it? You just said your life had no value. In that case, why don't you dive all the way into your degeneracy?"

    He starts working on the knot.

    "Stop... bastard..."

    He ignores me and smirks. "This shall prove quite ironic. From now on, no matter if you lose or win, you will die soon from that prana overflow. You didn't even get to say farewell to her..."

    In my last fully conscious moment, I realise how insane that man is. Furthermore, that I am as much. My hesitations and contradictions caused all this.

    "Now, let me take that glimmer of hope from you!"

    The seal is removed and thrown into the black sea. My vision gets engulfed in a white light.


    ---


    "I know Magi are crazy people, but this is going way too far... What if you removed it by accident?"

    "Oh, that can't happen. I have to willingly do that, otherwise it would be too dangerous. Other people can do it too if they know what they're doing."

    "... What would happen if you took it off?"

    "My body wouldn't take it, and I'd consume myself in a prana explosion. I would die, Rin. I guess that's a perfect weak spot to use."

    "Why would you tell me such a thing!?"

    Memories flash in my shattering mind.

    "It's the only solution I could come up with. It is a burst, so use it VERY carefully. Also, do not take it off entirely, and don't play with it. Basically, don't touch that thing unless you're forced to. It's... not that safe."

    Pierre. He will kick my ass if he finds out about what just happened.

    A higher-pitched voice echoes.

    "You do know that you are becoming a time bomb, don't you? You are just like me, although being human."

    I answered with what I thought was confidence back then.

    "As long I can fight, I will. If I must self-destruct at the end, so be it. It's our only chance of winning anyway."

    "I knew you would say that..."

    Ilya... I've failed your rescue. I wish I could apologize to you.

    The scene changes.

    "Don't touch it!"


    A red light. A golden-haired girl being thrown against a wall before giving me the saddest expression I've ever seen.

    It switches to the same girl looking downcast on a quiet morning.

    "I promised that I would not make you touch that thing again, but you had to do it..."

    That girl is... She is the one I came to this world for.

    "You have become more than a Master to me."

    Saber. Below all the lies and mistakes lives a simple, original wish that I could barely make clear to her: making her happy. Saving her from her own distorted ideal and meeting the young woman lost in the king's armor. Did I accomplish all that? In some ways, I hope, but I also promised her I would not die here. I guess that was another lie, unintentional at least.

    I don't want to drown in bitter memories and go back to my world. I did not tell her everything, I did not save her. I don't care if both of our existences are illusions, I love her. The priest's analysis was accurate but overly complex. It all comes down to whom I gave my heart to.

    Wake up, body. I can't feel you anymore, but I know that my time hasn't come. I just have to open my eyes, to say anything, to escape that mental loop that I'm losing myself into.

    "You are my partner. If you fall, I fall too."

    Then I refuse to fall now. My mouth opens.

    "Protège."


    ---


    The black mud on my hand is repelled. I don't know for how long I remained unconscious but the priest has backed away and is staring at me from afar. I stand up, slowly. The few wounds I had heal up in seconds, and I feel an insane amount of energy running inside me. I can even see small undulations in the air around.

    "I must admit, this is quite something."

    I barely hear his voice. All that matters for me now is to get back to her. I thought I would face an excruciating pain, but it's the complete opposite. I feel nothing but pure power, which is actually more worrisome than a physical reaction. I guess the time bomb is ticking for good now.

    Our focused stares lock, ready for the last round. I extend a hand, and he raises his valid one. His smile vanishes.

    "I told you before. Playing the hero card does not suit you."

    The black mud starts converging on me, but I'm not worried about that.

    "Enferme-nous... arène fatale."

    The same dome I used against Rin is cast instantly around us, then expands while pushing away the Grail contents. Only he and I are facing now. His right arm glows as he runs a hand above his left one. The weird angle of his elbow is fixed up and he moves it to check its condition. That's right, he knows healing magic too. He then takes a stance.

    "So be it. Let us hear your swan song, Benjamin."

    Fed up with his ramblings, I cast a wall in front of me. With a simple hand motion, it moves to him at a speed that even surprises me. That's as simple as breathing at the moment. He tries to protect himself but the moving wall pushes him against the dome border. Before I can hope that it will crush him, he groans loudly and releases a wave of magical energy to free himself. That still must have hurt, though.

    He has gone quiet, which is good because I can't talk right now. What remains of me is fully devoted to dealing with him as quickly as I can to get back to my Servant. As he starts running to me, I cast two other walls and send one at his face. I aim the second one at the direction he dodged to, and he can't avoid it. The second hit seems to hurt him even more. Good.

    I don't feel my body but that sensation of power is thrilling. I am dying while feeling more alive than ever. I summon two other walls but he is ready. His right arm glows and he punches them both with an insane strength. Keeping his momentum, he reaches me instantly.

    I'm not afraid of him anymore. I could take anyone or anything on right now, and that is proven by how easily I block his punch with my hand, adding a weak barrier to limit the damage.

    "Guh, you-"

    My other one goes for his chest while I cast a repelling barrier along with the hit to kill him for sure. His attempt of countering is dismissed by said barrier and he flies towards the dome border. I prepare myself to greet him back as he bounces against it like Rin did before I beat her. The surprise prevents him from doing anything more than crossing his arms in front of his face for protection.

    My next punch, boosted by magic and the speed he flew back to me, sends him to the ground violently. I immediately kneel over him and start punching his disgusting face. I won't have to see his terrifying smile if I make it bloody enough. I keep punching him without caring about adding energy to my fists. I just want to hurt him as much as I can.

    "She won."

    His always calm voice echoes between two hits. The gears in my brain try to turn without much success.

    "What?"

    "Your Servant won. Perfect timing from her, I must admit. She will be sitting at the front row to see you consuming yourself."

    I raise my hand once again. He is just trying to be an ass one last time. I don't care. He closes his eyes.

    "Kill me if you wish so. Knowing that you've lost what you strived for is good enough for an ending."

    Anger makes my mind boil further and I prepare a punch boosted with magic. I will smash his head this time.

    My vision turns black for a second. What is this?

    It turns black again. Then a burst of energy hits my whole body, the one I can still not feel at all.

    "Ah?"

    My fist won't move. All the energy that was flowing in my veins is escaping. Impossible!

    He notices and rolls to his side while kicking me away. I try to stand up but only manage to get on my knees. My limbs aren't responding anymore. The pain hasn't awoken yet, but if it does, I will die on the spot for sure.

    He slowly stands up. I did hurt him badly but he is still as alive as a walking corpse can be. Kirei died ten years ago but he is standing, and I failed at the last moment. It's hopeless. The energy is leaving like a torrent. The dome starts to disappear, which means I will drown in the Grail contents in an instant. I lock my eyes with his own. If I must die, I won't do it while looking at the ground.

    His bloody face only makes his smirk more terrifying. "I take back what I said earlier: I could not have chosen a better Master to stand last. Watching you squirm is delightful."

    I want to answer, but my mouth moves in vain. My body has given up and my mind is following. I look to my right and notice a lone silhouette beyond the black sea.

    Saber. She can't possibly get through the mud since it is fatal to Servants. As Kirei said, she will see me fall. We failed... No, I did. As he said, I made all the wrong calls and ended up dying alone. I close my eyes. Seeing her standing that far away killed what remained of my will to do anything. I apologize to her mentally.

    "Guh!"

    That sound didn't come from me. I force my eyes to open and see the priest flinching in pain. I understand why as something flies to him and hits his back. Then a barrage of dark orbs hits him heavily. Those are... gandr shots. Kirei's voice fills with anger.

    "Rin? That won't change anything. Die now."

    He makes a hand motion and the black sea of death starts converging on me. I gather all that remains of my energy. I have to say the words or I will die. I manage to raise my arm with difficulty. My prana bursts one final time.

    "PROTEGE ET REPOUSSE LES ENERGIE NEGATIVES!"

    I give shape to a sphere in my head and cast it around the enemy.

    "What are you-"

    I scream from the bottom of my lungs and pray for my spell to hold as I send the sphere flying towards the dark portal, above Ilyasviel.

    "SABER!"

    The black mud reaches me and starts covering me. It's okay, I don't feel anything anyway. My partner runs to the Holy Grail and draws her sword. The golden light it emanates is as chaotic as my own energy, and maneuvering it seems difficult for her. With a yell, she unleashes a wave of light towards the sky.

    My last vision of her is magnificent. The light goes above Ilya and hits the dark portal along with the priest, then pierces the night sky. The black mud vanishes with it and I end up lying on my back.

    Someone is calling from far away. After what seems like an eternity, I manage to open my eyes again. She is kneeling next to me, looking more exhausted than ever. My still chaotic energy seems to be flowing into her, which must be unbearable.

    "Sa... ber..."

    "Ben! You are... You are... Where is your seal? How are you feeling?"

    Each word is painful to voice, but there are things I must tell her before the end.

    "It burned. I feel... nothing, Saber. No pain... nothing. You?"

    She speaks loudly and fast, her usual composure thrown out the window. "I am fine! You must worry about yourself!"

    She puts a hand on my chest and starts to channel energy. After a second, she gasps and her eyes start filling with tears.

    "No... Ben... You promised..."

    "I wasn't the one... to remove it, if that can reassure you. Saber... Don't think... I was reckless 'til the end, okay?"

    I cough violently. Her hand sadly has no effect on my state. My consciousness is fading.

    "Do not speak! We are going to heal you up, and you will survive! You promised me!"

    "Let me talk... Saber. I must tell you something before the end."

    She gulps and looks into my eyes. Her crying face is a heartbreaker and I know what I have to say won't make her feel better.

    "I knew..."

    "What did you know?"

    Her hand squeezes my shirt.

    "I knew the Grail was... corrupted."

    "... What?"

    She is obviously bewildered.

    "Yes... from the start. I knew that we would probably destroy it along with our wishes."

    "Why... Why didn't you tell me that? Why, Ben!?"

    I manage to take her hand in mine. My voice is getting weaker as I speak. "Because I wanted you... to be happy. I wanted you to realize that your wish wasn't right without... without being aware that you couldn't grant it."

    I pause to catch my breath. "I was... stupid. I failed my goal to help you, and you were still hurt in the end. I'm sorry... for my selfishness. I wanted you to give up on your insane ideal by yourself. Do you understand, Saber?"

    Her tears roll without stopping. "No, I do not!"

    Somehow my mouth curls into a smile. "You will, I'm sure. Try to forgive me if you ever can. All I wanted was to save you."

    I feel like I'm drifting away entirely.

    "Do not die on me! Benjamin!"

    "One... last... thing..."

    My hand fails to squeeze hers, drained of any strength.

    "I love you."

    I said it. My vision fades away.

    "You cannot die!"


    That desperate scream is the last thing I hear from her while trying to suppress a childish hope about an answer to my confession.

    I wish I had had more time with you, Saber. Sadly, I am afraid my own has come.

    This is goodbye, partner.
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    EPILOGUE - DREAM DIVERGENCE


    I thought the trip back would be faster. I have no idea about the passing of time while my mind keeps drifting in a sea of obscure dreams. Sometimes I see her, although never clearly.

    I told her what I wanted and I hope she understood. We both likely disappeared along with the world we existed in, but we were real during the Holy Grail War. I try to push away the idea that I won't see her again and keep dreaming, replaying nice and bitter memories without distinction.

    Did I reach Arturia's heart, in the end? Did I bring a bit of happiness to her? I wish I had answers, but I will remain doubtful. It's too late now. The last thing I can do is wait patiently to go back to my world. I am not eager to do so, though. That ocean of reminiscences isn't half bad...


    ---


    I wake up without opening my eyes. I can feel a blanket that goes up to my chin and a pillow behind my head. My sensations are all numb and I realize how heavy my own body is. I don't even need to try to move to know that I can't. There is no actual pain but I'm not sure this state is better. I groan, wondering where I am. Pierre didn't warn me about anything of the sort when we talked about my return.

    "Finally awake?"

    My brain processes what was said and who said it, but the answer is so absurd that it puts it away immediately. I must be still dreaming.

    "Ben, I know you can hear me. Just groan again to confirm that."

    I open my mouth and the voice that comes out is way too low and ragged to belong to me.

    "I... hear you, Rin."

    "Good. This will be easier if you can talk."

    She sounds tired and upset.

    "What... happened?"

    Her answer comes out sharply. "No, I ask questions now. So listen and answer me without lies."

    What the hell? It takes me a gigantic effort to open my eyes. The sunlight makes them squint for a few seconds before I can understand that we are in Rin's guest room, the one I slept in with...

    My heart thumps once and I blink slowly. I slept with Saber here. Where is she? She must have disappeared after the battle, otherwise she would be with me. A Servant cannot remain in this world by themselves... I try to push that aside for now and stare at Rin. She is wearing her trademark glare, although any warmth it usually holds is gone. Her breathing makes an odd sound, which is probably due to the fact I pierced her lung.

    "Now, answer honestly. Can you do that?"

    "Yes."

    I don't care about the situation. If she wants answers, so be it. Saber is gone and the war is over.

    "What is your name?"

    "Benjamin."

    "Are you related in any way to the Association?"

    "No."

    "Did you kill Emiya Shirou and take his place?"

    "Yes, I did."

    "What for?"

    My answers come out fast, in a robotic voice. I'm almost hoping that I will say something outrageous that will push her to finish me off.

    "To get Saber."

    "Did you know about her before the summoning?"

    "Yes."

    She crosses her arms. Her blue eyes shine with eagerness, no matter how hard she tries to hide it.

    "Did you really know about the Grail being corrupt?"

    "Yes. My plan was to destroy it from the start."

    "How did you know?"

    "I can't tell you."

    "Tch. Then why didn't you warn any of us?"

    "Because I didn't want Saber to know."

    "Why?"

    "Because I wanted her to deny her wish, not for it to shatter before she could fight for it."

    She ponders before getting back to me. "You killed and put your life on the line only for that?"

    "Yes."

    There is a long pause.

    "Are you a sorcerer?"

    That takes me off guard. "Beg your pardon?"

    "I did a lot of research on your case. You do not seem to exist in this world. At first I just thought you were a renegade, but the fact you always seemed to know things you shouldn't made me come to a conclusion."

    No way...

    "I think you are a user of the second great sorcery. Or a time traveler. You come from the future or another dimension."

    She is completely serious. "You knew the setup of this war. That's why your guesses were always correct, that's why you found Saber's Master so easily. That's why you knew about the Grail and all the rest. That's why you lied so much to all of us. It was all because the truth was impossible to believe."

    I never doubted the fact she was brilliant, but this is beyond all expectations. She runs a hand through her hair. "To be completely honest, Archer was the key to my epiphany. He comes from the future, as you probably know. You do not exist in his past life, which makes zero sense."

    I can't come up with anything and that makes her impatient. "The truth, Ben. Am I right?"

    "Mostly, yes."

    Her eyes widen. It must be a big shock for her. She starts muttering to herself.

    "No way... I pictured sorcerers as amazing spellcasters... this guy...?"

    "Hey now."

    She realizes I heard and gasps before blushing slightly. That behavior is more like her.

    "Then what will happen, Ben? Are you going to disappear without a trace?"

    That is a trick question. I could leave this world right now if I wanted to, but I need explanations on the war's aftermath.

    "For now, I just want to know what happened, Rin."

    I try to move but give up immediately.

    "I never said the interrogation was over."

    She walks to my side and sits on the bed, near my waist. Feeling her that close while not being able to escape is as embarrassing as terrifying, especially with that serious expression.

    "Now, tell me. Why did you heal me up?"

    "Do I need a reason?"

    "Yes, idiot. I shot you in the back with the intent to kill you. There are limits to stupidity."

    I sigh. There is no way I can say the truth without worsening my blushing.

    "I tried to hate you but never could. It's not like you betrayed our pact."

    Her eyes narrow. "Still nonsensical to me. How can your will be that random?"

    I smile for the first time. "Good question, which I can't answer as I have no idea. Plus, I made the right call, since you saved me from Kirei."

    She groans. Perhaps she was hoping that I hadn't noticed her back then.

    "I saved the city, not you. There was no way I would miss out if I could stand. I walked all day and arrived just on time."

    She stands back up. "Rest. We'll talk about the next step later."

    "What? No! Tell me what happened!"

    She stares at me and frowns. Her hesitation makes me fear what revelations await me.

    "You want answers? Look at this first."

    Without ceremony, she grabs the blanket and removes it from my body. My protest dies in my throat as a I look at it.

    "What the..."

    My torso, arms and hands are covered in black marks. My left side still has those veins due to my seal too. That combination makes an apocalyptic sight that I can't stand for more than seconds. I look back to her.

    "What is this?"

    "These marks were caused by the black mud that covered you at the end. Your back looks similar too. Without Saber's artifact and what we did, you would have died immediately."

    "What 'we' did? Who is 'we'?"

    My brain is heating up. She shakes her head. "Don't push yourself. I must process all this, so sleep for now."

    Her hand hovers above my forehead as she casts a spell that sends me back to a deep sleep.


    ---


    I wake up again, with no idea about how much time I was away. The sun is setting and Rin is back in my room.

    "Rin... tell me..."

    She doesn't look happier than the previous time. "You came here knowing what the Grail was and yet didn't warn anyone. You do realize that you risked countless innocents' lives by holding that information, don't you?"

    "I know that. The war would have taken place anyway, though. Would you have believed me?"

    She considers that for a moment. "Given how many proofs you would have been able to show, I could have. Then we could have worked together in order to stop the whole thing instead of fighting meaninglessly."

    I manage to smirk. "That implies our Servants would have accepted."

    She sighs. "That's a fair point... It was still very selfish."

    "I told you, Rin. I came here for Saber. Judge me all you want, I don't care anymore."

    We glare at each other for a moment before I resume. "Also, preventing it means killing Ilya. I wouldn't have done that. Did she survive?"

    "You wouldn't hurt that girl although you killed Emiya without hesitating? She tried to slay us all countless times!"

    "She is a good person at heart."

    She walks to my side without a word and looks down on me. "I should finish you off, you ungrateful, lying, absurd jerk."

    She extends a hand. I still can't move and start panicking.

    "Wait, no! What happened yesterday!? Tell me!"

    "Yesterday? You've been in this bed for a week."

    With that, she puts me to sleep again.


    ---


    I wake up without opening my eyes. My body is still very heavy but I feel like I could try to move. My fingers answer slowly, then I try to lift my right arm. It turns out to be a gigantic effort, but I can raise it and look at all the marks on it. There is an odd one on my hand, though.

    The Command Spell is still visible, albeit barely. Wait, how is that even possible...?

    My weak limb starts dropping back to the bed before getting caught by a soft, slender hand. I turn my head with difficulty and blink a few times to confirm that I am not going insane.

    The emerald stare tells me there are no doubts to have, though. "Do not push yourself, please, Ben."

    "S-Saber!?"

    She softly puts back my arm on the bed and gives me a small smile. "Yes."

    I contemplate her in disbelief. After the initial shock, I notice that she looks beyond exhausted. Her eyes lacks their usual gleam, her hair isn't done and she is even paler than before. The morning sunlight makes her resemble a ghost.

    "Are you... okay?"

    "I am still in this world. That is the most positive description I can give you, sadly."

    My concern is overridden by a question popping to my mind. "Why didn't I see you before now? All that I had was Rin tormenting me."

    She pouts slightly. I had almost forgotten how cute she could be. "I was never awake at the same time as you, and Rin wanted to 'extract info' from you before anything. She said it was only fair since we are using her home. I did not have the strength to stop her anyway. I have been resting as much as you."

    She tilts her head. "What did she ask?"

    I'm glad Rin didn't tell her. If anyone must reveal my origins to her, that will be me. Now is not the time, though.

    "She wanted the truth about me. I guess she is satisfied since she didn't finish me off."

    She huffs. Even her voice is smaller than usual. It really saddens me, as much as I'm beyond happy to see her again.

    "Do not joke about that. You fail to realize how lucky you are to be still alive."

    "All right. Then, tell me what happened. With details."

    She keeps a depressed expression throughout the whole story. "Very well. You were almost entirely covered in the Grail contents. Fortunately I could destroy it immediately, but the damage done was... I could not even stare at your body after you passed out. The combination of your seal's disappearance and that substance just... destroyed it. There is no other word."

    She looks at the door. "Rin showed a greater strength of mind than I back then. She shook me out of my breakdown and ordered me to carry you to her house while she took care of Ilyasviel."

    "Is Ilya alive?"

    She smiles. "Yes. You saved her."

    That praise doesn't touch me much. Did I save anyone, honestly?

    "While we brought you here, I talked about Avalon to Rin. That made her understand why you had survived Archer's arrows, and why you were... still breathing."

    Her voice gets more emotional as she goes on. "Once everyone was safe, I decided I would use all my remaining energy to try to save you. I had little hope of success since your seal did not exist anymore. However, Rin did not let me do that. We spent three days taking turns to heal you up and she found a... solution."

    Her silence upsets me. "What solution? Tell me, Saber!"

    She shakes her head. "I apologize, Ben, but she wants to elaborate on it herself. I am also positive she will do it much better than I. To summarize it, your life and my existence are now fully connected."

    What does that even mean?

    "Then, uh... I guess I will wait for her to explain."

    After a long silence, her hand goes to my chest. "Master, I am deeply sorry."

    I frown. "What for?"

    "I could not save you. I defeated Lancer but your energy was so chaotic that it bound me... I could only watch from afar and hope that you would survive. If I had been stronger, you would still have your seal."

    I take her hand in my left one, which takes me several tries and gives me time to think of an answer. "I'm at fault for being reckless and too weak, Saber. That black substance is also fatal for Servants so you had no choice. We are both alive and that's all that matters."

    "But-"

    "No. This topic is closed. Also, I have one last order for you."

    "An order? I shall do my best."

    I look into her eyes and speak with as much conviction as I can. "Don't call me Master anymore. Ever."

    Her eyes widen. "Ben...? Why? I am your sword, and your shield!"

    "The war is over. You are my partner. I don't want to hear that word anymore."

    She stays silent for a bit. "I can do that, certainly..."

    "Saber?"

    Her eyelids try to fight against incoming tears.

    "I am... sorry... I feel lost..."

    They quickly surrender. "You told me you knew... and that I would understand... I think I did, partly, but..."

    I squeeze her hand gently while she goes on. "You wanted to protect me from having my wish... destroyed. My oath was perhaps foolish in the eyes of some, but it was what kept me going."

    "I was selfish in my attempt to save you."

    I realize that now. "I mean, I should have told you right away and we could have worked on some sort of solution."

    She slowly shakes her head. "There is... no point in ruing that. Whatever the way it happened, the result is the same. My path was apparently fated to meet an abrupt ending in any case."

    There is a long silence. I can't find any words of comfort, no matter how hard I try.

    "Can I stay with you?"

    I almost don't hear her quiet question.

    "What do you mean?"

    She's avoiding my stare now. "It is a selfish request, but I... I just lost my reason to be what I am, thus I would like to stay with you."

    There's no way I would refuse, but something doesn't compute. "Wait... how can you stay in this world without the Grail? How are you still even here?"

    She makes a difficult expression. "It is linked to what Rin did. Basically, the energy level you possess without your seal is enough to keep me in this world. Fighting would be hard, but maintaining my existence is possible."

    That elevates my spirits considerably. "Really? That's awesome! You don't have to ask to stay. I want you by my side."

    I feel grateful for having more time with her, even in that state. She blushes heavily. "That... makes me happy, but it is more complicated than that."

    She stands up. "Rin will explain everything to you when she gets back from school, hopefully. Please rest for now."

    I sigh. "Not like I have a choice."

    Her eyes still red, she bows over me and kisses my forehead. "Thank you. I will stay at your side until the end."

    She walks away and leaves me with a frozen brain. That was...

    I try to lift my arm again and close my fist once. My sensations are still numb but my body doesn't feel as heavy as earlier.

    "Until the end...?"


    ---


    "You didn't tell him, right?"

    "I did not. I merely said that our existences were connected."

    After getting used to the setting sun's light, I see Rin and Saber standing in front of my bed. My partner still looks as unenergetic but our host is staring at me fiercely, still in her school uniform.

    "Ah, our hero woke up. How are you feeling?"

    I ignore the sarcasm and try to move my hands with success. I give her a weak thumb up. "I still feel like I weigh several tons but I'm getting better."

    She huffs. "You surely are obstinate. At least our hard work didn't go to waste."

    "Will you finally tell me what you guys did?"

    My tone is blunt but I am tired of waiting. She looks at Saber, then back to me. "All right, Ben. I was about to do it so it's good you have the will to hear this. Bear with me and don't interrupt too much."

    I nod silently, eager to know. She takes a breath and raises a finger, as she often does when she enters explanation mode. It's a gesture I used to find cute, back in the days.

    "I'll put it in simple terms. You died."

    I frown. "... What?"

    Saber's expression destroys my hope of this being a big joke.

    "I said don't interrupt me!"

    "Rin, do you have to put it like that?"

    "Yes, Saber. Now, you must be wondering why you are still breathing. After your seal burned, you consumed yourself in a couple of minutes, like you had predicted. You would have died from that only with ease, but the Grail made sure that you would never stand back up too before Saber destroyed it."

    I can only listen with attention. So far, nothing new.

    "After we picked you up, I was really surprised that you were still alive, and she told me about Avalon. Once I had all the details and we brought you back here along with Ilyasviel, I had an idea. Before I get technical, I will state your condition simply."

    After a small pause, she drops the bomb. "The only thing maintaining you is Avalon, and by extension, Saber. Without the healing factor of the artifact that is triggered by her own energy, your existence will end. You are a corpse maintained alive by an item. I might call you Ben the Lich now."

    At least that's a badass nickname. When I think about it, it's perfectly logical. A million questions still pop in my head.

    "I understand, but where is all the chaotic mana flow that should be emanating from me? Saber said the energy level was enough to keep her in this world."

    Rin sighs. "You have little trouble taking that in... I think you don't realize how dire the situation is yet. As for your question, that is where it gets technical."

    She walks to me and pokes my left shoulder. I flinch out of embarrassment.

    "What now?"

    "You can't see it without a mirror but I transplanted a seal on you. It regulates your flow so that Saber takes most of it in a less chaotic manner."

    My eyes widen. "That can't be simple."

    "It isn't. It took us days to set it up and find a sort of balance."

    She looks at Saber and her expression darkens. "She went through a lot for you, Ben. She is still doing so."

    The Servant sulks. "Rin! I shall be fine. Do not make him worry more than necessary."

    My eyes meet hers. "Too late."

    Rin gets back on track immediately. "Anyway, your body shut itself down at a point and that's why you're not in an excruciating pain, which is practical. You will never regain full mobility, but you should be able to walk around if things stay like this."

    "Sounds good enough."

    She frowns. "As for Saber, she has enough provided energy to stay in this world as long as she doesn't spend it much. She will be weaker than what you knew, and she will go through painful bursts regularly because of the nature of your connection. We stabilized it as much as we could and this is a result I didn't even think we would reach. Of course there are heavy drawbacks."

    Regular painful bursts?

    "Wait... I don't want Saber to suffer because of me."

    The knight advances and adopts a lecturing tone. "I will stand it, Ben! I have accepted this state, so worry about your own for now."

    I disapprove of that, but Rin is already speaking again. "I should mention that Ilyasviel insisted on putting some of her energy in it too. Two of the greatest Magi families tried to save you, Monsieur Jerk."

    Ilya too? I lied to them all, yet they put all their will into saving me? I feel a wave of gratitude that is going to make me tear up if I don't speak.

    "Ilya... Is she safe?"

    She frowns. "Yes. Somehow Saber managed to not kill her with her attack and now she is resting in another room."

    She walks back to her original spot and looks through the window while talking. "Now, Ben, I want to be perfectly clear. This balance won't hold forever. I bought you time, but a day will come when your energy will kill you. The seal will have a nasty release effect if it breaks, and you will probably explode. Literally."

    Saber avoids my gaze. Time is all I need, honestly. "How do I make it as long as possible, then?"

    "Don't do anything rough. This applies to you and Saber. Magic is out of the question too. Live like an old man and you might have a few months."

    She looks back to us. "Physical transfer might help too. I don't need to explain that to you two, do I?"

    I can't contain a small laugh while Saber's cheeks get crimson red. "Rin! This is inappropriate!"

    She snickers. "Heh, it's an important point in any case. Now, to conclude all this..."

    Her face turns a bit too serious for my taste. "There are a few problems, you see. Magi must hide their existence from civilians and you dying from a prana explosion would go against all rules. Even if you won't be here to face them, the consequences could be terrible. Also, if the Association hears about a roaming Servant, they will act accordingly."

    I groan. I don't care about the Association at all. "Then we'll just keep quiet. You aren't going to report this, are you?"

    She sulks. "Of course not. But still, are you certain this is what you want? I bought you time so that you could say goodbye properly, but continuing from this point will only be painful and dangerous. You two are walking time bombs."

    Saber is flabbergasted. "Rin..."

    I decide to ask her directly. "What is your opinion, Rin? What should we do?"

    She answers without hesitating. "You died on the battlefield ten days ago. The wisest option is to release your Servant and let go."

    "Damn, that's harsh. After putting so much effort in saving me, you want me to die?"

    She is unable to stay emotionless and her voice breaks a bit. That reassures me, in a way. "I don't 'want' it! I'm just saying that it is the easiest call for everyone. You will go through hell if you decide to live like this."

    I smile. "Hell is better than death, still. Saber?"

    She answers my call with a pained face. "Rin, you may be right, but I have sworn to protect Ben. If he desires to live, I will look over him until the end."

    I don't want her to stay only for my survival, though. "Will you be able to bear it? Don't stay only to make me live for a bit longer."

    She shakes her head vehemently. "I want to stay because... because..."

    She looks down. We follow her internal struggle with interest.

    "I would prefer to stay with you."

    That's it. She just thought about herself before her oath. It was partly because of the desperate situation, but I like that improvement. I still have a chance to make her happy.

    Rin crosses her arms. I can't guess if she is satisfied or not. "I'm not really surprised, given how stubborn you two are."

    I smirk. "Look who's talking..."

    After a "hmph", she gets back at me. "As I said, the Association is your biggest threat. I won't turn you in but they are probably going to investigate on this war. Keep your head low and find a place that won't attract people."

    Well, I can think of a very good location easily.

    "Yeah, I got the hint, Rin. When must we be out?"

    Again she doesn't hesitate. "As soon as you can walk. Obviously you will take Ilyasviel with you. There are too many murderers of innocents in this house for my taste."

    She starts walking to the door and adds something. "By the way, she doesn't have much time remaining either. Her body was built to last until this war. She wasn't supposed to remain afterwards."

    I already know that, but it hurts nonetheless. Rin shuts the door with energy and Saber looks at it, apparently shocked.

    "That was quite harsh from her."

    "She's had bad days recently too. I won't hold it against her, especially since she saved us."

    She smiles. "You are right. Try to rest as much as you can so that we can leave her at peace soon, Ben."


    ---


    The week passed peacefully. I started to regain mobility and managed to pay a visit to Ilya after a few days. She looked drained but agreed on coming with us when we would leave wholeheartedly. I was really glad to see her alive and I thanked her more than once for putting some of her energy in the seal. Apparently, cooperating with Rin was a huge deal for her.

    As for the house owner, she mostly avoided us outside meals and didn't talk much. That awkward atmosphere didn't suit me at all so I focused on getting better as fast as I could to leave soon. Now I can walk slowly without getting tired and some of my sensations came back, along with painful bursts. Saber has been saying she was fine but I'm sure I caught her being in silent pain a few times.

    In any case, we are leaving today. Rin is waiting for us in the entrance hall while we gather our stuff. There is nothing much and we will definitely need to shop before heading to our destination. Saber got her plush back and she was very happy about it. The atmosphere is really heavy and no words are said while we walk to the front of the house. The morning sun blinds me for a second.

    Ilya simply makes a short reverence with a "Goodbye, Rin," that sounds more polite than gentle before heading to the street. Saber looks at both of us for a moment before speaking.

    "Thank you for your help, Rin. I wish you a happy life."

    "Goodbye, Saber. Take care of yourself."

    The Servant grants her a small smile and bows before walking away. The two of us are left staring at each other awkwardly. A good friendship that crossed the border of enmity when we tried to kill each other off... There is no coming back, although I wish I could. Her stare is cold and it doesn't suit the person I've grown to appreciate.

    "Bye, Rin. Thanks for your care."

    I turn away before getting to emotional and start walking.

    "Ben."

    Back to her, then. Now a few meters away, her facade falls apart and she makes a depressed face.

    "I... well, try to be safe."

    That does it. I walk back to her at a brisk pace (well, as fast as I can, at least) and give her a hug that makes her panic.

    "W-W-What are you doing now!?"

    "I'm sorry for everything, Rin. I promise I won't forget you."

    She stays still without pushing me away, and I let go of her after a moment. I take one last look at the best friend I made in this world. Her cheeks are fully red and her blue eyes are glaring at me for good measure.

    "You are the worst."

    She checks behind me, apparently gauging Saber's distance before whispering. "Will you go back to your world before the end?"

    "Yes. But before that, I will accomplish my goal and make Saber happy."

    She frowns. "You better do so, after the mess you made. Don't hurt her or I will personally chase you down."

    Now that is the Rin I know. I haven't grinned like that in forever.

    "I won't. Farewell, my friend."

    This time I turn away for good, engraving her last smile in my memory.


    ---


    Saber greets me with a suspicious glare. "What was that last gesture for, Ben?"

    I scratch the back of my head while avoiding her eyes. "Eh, she saved us all. I know we tried to kill each other off, but I still consider her as a friend. I realized this when I had to say farewell."

    "Is that so...?"

    A singsong voice echoes. "Saber is jealous!"

    Ilya happily waltzes around us, making me chuckle. Saber's reaction is to be expected.

    "That is not true!"

    The small girl turns to me. "So, Ben, are we going to my castle?"

    "Yup. We will stop for groceries on our way. It's far away but it will be the safest place for us three."

    She nods with enthusiasm. "Shopping sounds fun! Let's go!"

    She runs ahead while Saber walks to my side. "Are you all right, Ben?"

    "Yes. I do feel like Ilya just got the oddest parents ever, though."

    She chuckles lightly. That's a rare occurrence. "That is one way of looking at it."

    The more I think about it, the crazier the situation sounds. We all could die tomorrow. Ilya's longevity is at its end and Saber and I rely on a fragile balance.

    "Is there a problem?"

    I can't hide anything from her, can I?

    "I'm just afraid of what awaits us."

    "Benben!"

    I look at Ilya. She stopped and turned back to us.

    "I told you to stop using that nickname!"

    She giggles. "You have no choice! I helped you stay alive using my energy so you are my Servant now!"

    Saber gasps while I laugh. It sends a wave a pain through my body but it's worth it.

    "I guess I am, Ilya."

    "Of course, I knew I'd win eventually! Now let's go, you two are too slow!"

    I feel a soft touch as my Servant links her arm to my right one. She then speaks in a reassuring voice.

    "This is the path you chose. There is no point in being afraid when you are not alone."

    She is right, I'm overthinking things. I look at the bright sky and smile from the bottom of my heart. I was given a chance to have more time in this world, and I won't spend it worrying.

    "Then I won't be. I shall work on making my wish come true by myself."

    Making her happy is still my priority.

    She squeezes my arm lightly. "We shall."

    We catch up to Ilya and head for the shopping district, ignoring the stares that are thrown at the odd trio we make.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    Once in the safety of the castle, they proceeded with living peacefully. Like Rin had predicted, Ben's state proved to be random but never quite good. As much as he tried to hide it, he suffered heavy bursts of prana and had to spend some days in bed. Saber had similar problems and regularly felt like she was going to collapse. They quickly found a few solutions. Ilyasviel drew a complex magical circle and performed a ritual with Ben every day in it, allowing her to channel some of her energy in him with a long spell. He refused at first because he knew that it would shorten her life even more, but she lectured him, saying that it was her decision. As for his link with Saber, they resorted on the physical way. They had done it already during the war and he showed much more motivation towards that. She blushes while thinking of it. It still embarrasses her, even if she cannot really say she minds. It does help stabilizing their link so there is really no complaint to make.

    It has been three weeks. A snow storm hit the forest two days ago, for the joy of Ilyasviel and Ben. The small girl has been dragging him around to play and he followed as well as he could. For now Saber is in the room she shares with him, reading a book he bought her on their last shopping trip. He insisted to come along, probably tired of staying indoors. She cannot help throwing glances at the courtyard regularly to watch them play. Ilya runs around like a little kid and her "Servant" tries to keep up with little success. She smiles tenderly. Does she deserve such simple times?

    Guilt wouldn't leave her mind at first. Her oath was a failure and seeking personal happiness sounded as absurd as tempting. She thought it was disrespectful for all the ones that had died for her, for the country she had destroyed.

    Ben dismissed these doubts as soon as she voiced them. "Atoning for your sins? Saber, you are out of the time loop. Taking some for yourself is free, so why would you refuse it?"

    He was right. The time she had gained was an opportunity to focus on herself, to focus on the one that she had pushed aside after pulling out the sword from the rock.

    She led a country to ruin, yet a lot of people told her to not regret it because a true king does not look back. Behind him stand the people that trust him and his only path lies ahead.

    She looks at the book and frowns. Does her wish make her a worse king than the one she was?

    The door opens and Ben enters slowly. Her expression softens immediately as she greets him with a sweet smile.

    "Damn, she is way too energetic for me. What's up?"

    He takes a couple of steps towards her with the help of a cane they bought him. Saber thought he might feel insulted but he called it "awesome" and carried it everywhere after that.

    "I was reading. Did you abandon Ilyasviel under a pile of snow?"

    He raises an eyebrow. "I wish I had. We were wondering when you'd join and I said I would go ask you. It's more of an excuse to catch my breath, but..."

    That makes her chuckle. "I see. Do you want me to join, then?"

    "Yup. Have you made progress in the book?"

    He stares at the item with curiosity.

    "I am almost done. I shall postpone its ending to after our walk."

    She closes the book titled "The Legend of King Arthur" and puts it on the nightstand before grabbing her white coat.

    "'Walk' is a funny word for building an army of snowmen or having a snowball fight, because I'm afraid that's where Ilya's brain stopped."

    She walks by his side, holding the arm that isn't using the cane. "Let us do as she wants for today. You are her Servant, after all."


    ---


    As the weeks passed, Ilyasviel showed less and less energy. She hid it from Ben as much as she could but Saber was not fooled. The inevitable happened on a grey morning, as if the sky itself knew what was going on.

    Ben and her are standing in the small girl's room, waiting for her to draw her last breath.

    "I'm sorry, Ilya."

    He apologizes for the hundredth time and the homonculus gives him a cute glare. "Stop saying that. I would not have lasted much longer anyway, so I'm glad I could be of use to you."

    Saber watches the scene silently. She also grew close to the girl and she knows that this won't be easy for any of them.

    "Still..."

    "I was born as the Holy Grail vessel and I failed. I went here to avenge my family but my targets were already dead. This war was a joke from the beginning to the end..."

    Her voice weakens. Ben sits on the bed and takes her hand. Her head soon lays on his shoulder.

    "You two killed my Servant. I hated you at first, but you saved me from all the other ones that would have used me without mercy."

    Saber cannot contain a small protest. "You did try to kill us a few times before that, Ilyasviel."

    The small girl nods. "Hmhm, that's true. I thought that you had saved me because I was the vessel, but Benben told me that he liked me as a person before anything."

    She smiles. "I'm glad I decided to check on you when you were shopping."

    "And I'm glad I escaped Saber long enough for it to happen."

    That makes the knight sulk. She knows he is just joking around, but she cannot help it.

    "That is not a nice thing to say."

    Ilyasviel's smile stays up. "Saber is nice too, for a Servant. These last weeks were the best moment of my life since Kiritsugu's departure."

    That name brings back bitter memories that she pushes away. Now is not the time. A long silence follows, and Ben's expression becomes progressively harder to bear for her. The small girl speaks again, her voice quiet as a whisper.

    "Worry about yourself instead of feeling sad for me, Benben. Without my energy, you will probably die sooner."

    They are all well aware of that fact. He smiles at her. "I'll manage. I'm just going to miss you a lot."

    Her small hand get a firm grip on his own. "Promise me you won't cry, okay?"

    After an hesitation...

    "Okay."

    Her little finger perks up. "You didn't harm me as you promised on that day... You will keep that one too, right?"

    He retreats his hand slightly to tangle his own finger with hers. "I promise."

    Saber can barely hear these words, given how broken his voice is. It is unlikely that he will respect that pact, but she cannot possibly blame him for that.

    "I'm just... going to rest for a bit. Please don't leave."

    "I'm never leaving, Ilya."

    The knight walks to the bed and sits next to them before removing a hair strand from Ilyasviel's face. She always found the Einzberns' white hair fascinating.

    "I will also stay at your side, Ilyasviel. You saved us as much as we saved you, and you have my deepest gratitude for that."

    A weak nod. "I miss... Berserker..."

    The red eyes close to never open again. Her breathing slows down and stops after a moment that seems to last forever. A water drop hits her cheek.

    "I lied again, didn't I?"

    She looks at Ben's crying face and feels her own eyes watering.


    ---


    They both contemplate the grave while the sun is setting. Its location was obvious for them, and now Ilyasviel von Einzbern lies at the side of her two maids.

    "At least she faced a more peaceful death..."

    She says so while holding firmly to Ben's arm.

    "Yes..."

    After a long silence, he speaks up. "She was right. Without her help, I don't think we will hold up for too long."

    She does not like that. The situation is not new, but the weeks she spent with him have made its inevitable conclusion harder to face.

    Hearing no answer, he turns to her. "Saber."

    It looks like he has something important to say. Her heartbeat accelerates.

    "Yes?"

    "There is one more thing I want to do. Will you follow me?"

    She gives him a fierce nod. "Always."

    They turn away from the grave where a stuffed lion sits.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    There was one thing. A small detail I checked with Pierre during my training, out of curiosity.

    "Did you only recreate Fuyuki and its surroundings?"

    "Good question. It turns out that the story's creator liked the idea of having the actual Association implemented too. I doubt any player will travel there, but the organization exists, and its surroundings too."

    I asked him a more precise question, which made him smile. "Oh, yes, we included that location too. Planning something?"

    "Nah, just curious."

    A soft voice echoes. "Ben? Are you all right?"

    I flinch and open my eyes. Saber is sitting to my right, near the plane window.

    "Ah, sorry, I was spacing out."

    She sighs before taking my right hand and channeling a bit of energy through it. As expected, my state hasn't been the best since Ilya's death. Having a goal feels great, though. Once she's done, her hand stays on mine.

    Can I call us lovers? We've definitely been living like a couple lately, but she never answered my confession. I'm still unsure if she is happy with the situation or not. I caught her wistful expression too many times in the castle.

    "Will you ever tell me why we are headed to Britain?"

    "I will once we're there."

    The flight ends without problem and we land in this world's version of Saber's country. There is not much to see but I can tell that she pays attention to every detail. We catch a train to Glastonbury and she eventually gives up on asking what I am up to. We finally reach an abbey that is in a bad state. I heard that it burned before they found what I am looking for.

    "Ben, what are we doing here!?"

    I walk as fast as I can ahead of her, using my cane as a support. My whole body screams in pain but I couldn't care less. There...

    She catches up and stops to read the sign.

    "This is..."

    I answer her gasp. "It's your grave."

    That sounded better in my head. Oh well.

    I step back to give her some space, and she kneels in front of it without a word.

    "Britain certainly went through a lot after your fall, but now it is a prospering kingdom and King Arthur is remembered as one of the greatest leaders of all time."

    Her voice is smaller than usual. "Is that why... you made me read the book?"

    "Yes. The thing I wanted to show you is that... you didn't doom the future, nor your country. On the moment, perhaps, but what remains is a legend that no one wants to disappear."

    "That does not forgive my sins."

    She is really stubborn, isn't she? "Of course not, but as I said, redoing the past is a fantasy. You refused the Grail because of its nature, but wanting to cancel your whole reign was already an outrageous idea. King Arthur is among the most respected legends. People know that what he did was fair until the end."

    She stands up and turns to me. I can't decipher her expression but she makes a beautiful sight.

    "You are binding yourself, Saber."

    "Is that so?"

    For a moment, I'm afraid we are going to fight like during the last day of the war, but she walks to me and hugs me tightly, ignoring my groan of pain. Her muffled voice echoes against my chest.

    "Then, what awaits me, Ben?"

    "Freedom. You've done enough work. It's time to think about yourself."

    Her head perks up and I see the emerald stare from up close. It doesn't intimidate me anymore.

    "It is not as simple... but I like the way you put it."

    "It is. Don't forbid yourself happiness."

    I take a deep breath. "I came from another dimension to meet you... I wanted to make you happy, Arturia. As I said, it's always been my only goal."

    I can see surprise on her face. Is she buying it, after all the lies I told her? Still in my arms, she makes a childish smile that catches me completely off guard.

    "See, Ben? The truth wasn't that hard to say, was it?"

    Was it... really that simple? She snuggles up against my chest and I feel a wave of euphoria taking over everything else. While my head is resting on hers, I speak up.

    "Ne me quitte pas."

    She looks back to me and tilts her head. "What does that mean?"

    "It means 'don't leave me', Saber."

    The fierce confidence I fell in love with shows up once more.

    "I won't."

    "Is it out of duty?"

    She frowns. "Of course not. It is because I love you."

    After getting on her toes, she kisses me tenderly. It's not our first one but it feels like it, and it lasts for a moment that seems eternal. We do separate eventually. There is no blushing, no embarrassment, just pure happiness.

    "I will leave you alone for a bit, Saber."

    I look at the grave and she understands. "Thanks, Ben. Please wait for me, I shall not be long."

    I walk away and take one last look at her. She is staring at the grave with a difficult expression.

    "Adieu."

    I utter that final word for myself. The rest is up to her now. My part here is done.


    INTERLUDE - SABER


    "I am sorry."

    She says so to her past self. It is only natural to apologize to someone you have wanted to erase the existence of.

    "I must stop regretting who I am."

    That is the conclusion she has come to. It is ironic that she had to become a Servant to realize that her reason to do so was foolish. It might be the first time she is selfish but she must move forward. Backtracking would mean ignoring everyone that died for her, disrespecting her own people.

    Ben made her believe in the fact that the king and the girl who picked the sword could live in harmony. Her guilt should fade over time, and once her time with him comes to an end, she shall die normally. That is the correct decision. Seeking the Holy Grail holds no purpose, and it would lead to her forgetting him... She does not want that.

    A wave of happiness takes her. Can she really wish for herself?

    "You've done enough work."


    His words echo in her mind as she turns to the abbey walls and walks towards them without looking back. She finds him a bit further ahead, standing with his back turned to her. He is looking at the sky. Something... feels off. She does not dare to speak because her instinct tells her that it might shatter everything.

    He turns back to her very slowly and smiles. His wistful blue eyes, the hint of sadness in his entire attitude, those leave no doubt about what is going to happen. She wishes that she was wrong, but his body starts vanishing right after.

    She runs to him, knowing that she has little time.

    "I am happy, Ben! You made me so! You granted your wish!"

    She shouts her heart out before reaching him. Her hand goes through his now barely visible chest, and his smile stays up. Without a word, the hand on which the Command Spell is goes for her cheek. She does not feel its touch but it calms her down nonetheless.

    He vanishes as if he had never been there. She looks at the sky and smiles sweetly.

    "You really pushed yourself, didn't you?"

    There is no sadness in her heart, as Benjamin granted his wish before the end. She will not betray it.

    "Let us meet again... Master."

    Her own body starts disappearing too, unable to be maintained without the Grail.


    INTERLUDE OUT


    "It looks like the Magus' presence is weakening, Miss. That is weird."

    The woman answers with a sharp tone. "What about the Servant?"

    The man adjusts his magical lenses. "I can't see her... oh, wait, she's coming back. Should we do something?"

    The other Magi get ready, but the woman just gives him a glare. "No. She will disappear immediately without an anchor. There's no need to do anything, idiot."

    She sounds upset. The man sighs. To be sent on a mission led by a foreign Magus... He never questions the Association decisions, but that girl has quite the temper.

    "There... They both vanished."

    Hiding in nearby woods, they all watch in awe as the knight disappears in a golden light.

    "Mission accomplished, I guess."

    He stands back up, disappointed. When a Servant was detected, he was really glad to be picked as a sentinel, but there was no action at all, in the end. The girl turns her back to everyone.

    "Miss...?"

    "Don't talk to me."

    Her voice is weird. He walks next to her to check what is wrong.

    "Miss Tohsaka?"

    "Shut up, idiot! Let's go!"

    She wipes her tears without much success and walks away at a brisk pace.

    Then... the world disappears. A mere memory. A deeply emotional one but in the end, just one more memory to bear for the one that witnessed it.


    WORLD OUT


    I hear beeps and people rummaging around me. My head feels really heavy until something big is removed from it. Before trying to open my eyes, I focus on my body. It feels weak and apparently is lying in a bed. Am I back to Rin's room? I doubt that.

    "Damn, man. You're going to get me fired."

    That voice... Ah, right. I open my eyes and recognize Pierre after a blind second.

    "Hi there."

    My voice is really weak and ragged. He crosses his arms. "Welcome back."

    Some nurses and doctors are buzzing around, apparently checking on my state. Pierre sighs. "What the hell happened, man? I find you half dead, and then you stay in the simulation for a frigging whole week before using your safe sentence?"

    The realization hits me like a truck. I am back. I mean, I was expecting it, but experiencing it is another matter.

    "You're going to get... fired?"

    He snorts. "Of course not. I convinced my superiors that it would be a good test for the adventure's longevity. You cost them more money than expected but hey, a free run is a free run. I must congratulate you."

    I should smile, but right now I have trouble feeling any emotion. "Guess that's good. I feel weak."

    He pats my leg. "Of course. One week in bed being fed through drips is serious business. Now, tell me, why did you leave the simulation like that?"

    I don't feel like explaining at all as the events are too fresh. The doctors save me, though. They kick him out after telling him that I need medical attention and that he is only being a bother. That does manage to bring a smile to my face. They keep me for the whole day before deciding that I'm good to go. Memories from the end of my trip spin in my brain during that, and I don't pay much attention. I'm given a decent meal before my departure. Pierre enters the room again while I'm eating.

    "Phew. What's up, Ben?"

    I swallow with difficulty. "Nothing much. I'm trying to get used to not feeling insane levels of pain anymore. Also, didn't I promise I would punch you hard?"

    He grins. "You did."

    I shrug. "I take that back. I'm too tired to try anyway."

    "Good. Can I have the whole story now?"

    That irks me. I don't want to tell him everything that happened. Not right now, at least.

    "Can we postpone this, Pierre? I just want to go home and have a good rest."

    He looks disappointed but complies. "Ah... I understand. Getting back must be difficult. I'll just call you later, okay? Doctors say you are good to go."

    "Thanks."

    Soon I leave the building and drive to my home. The world around me seems surreal, and my own body feels like a stranger's. As I step out of my car, I extend a hand.

    "Protège."

    Of course it doesn't work. There is no prana in me, no Avalon... no Saber. I walk to my studio and crash on the couch, feeling void. Two hours later, my phone vibrates and wakes me up. The name on the screen doesn't surprise me.

    "What do you want, Pierre?"

    "Sorry, I couldn't resist. I can wait for the long story, but give me the short one! Are you satisfied with your experience?"

    I answer while walking to my window. The city's night sky relaxes me.

    "Completely."

    "Wow, that's a pleasant feedback. Were you able to do what you wanted to?"

    "Yes, I was. I made her happy."

    No matter how stupid this story sounds, a world exists where Saber and I fought together. A world exists where we loved each other. As long as I remember it, it will exist.

    I was granted a wish.

    Some would call it a lifetime opportunity, others a childish fantasy.

    I jumped on it without an ounce of hesitation.

    "Ben?"

    "I'll call you later, Pierre. Treat me some beer and I'll tell you what happened in details."

    "That's the spirit!"


    I say goodbye and hang up.

    "It is because I love you."


    Her words resonate in my heart. I shall use that vibe to move forward, whatever awaits me.




    FIN
















    In a world, only once touched by forces beyond its comprehension, lies an unmarked grave. And upon the withered stone lays a prophecy.

    "In two worlds they must wait, having met across an impossible bridge. So long as one remembers and the other smiles, they shall meet again..."


    (My dear friend Taylor after reading this story)

    - - - Updated - - -

    Well... That's it. I don't know if anyone here has been reading this until now, but thank you if it's the case. This took me one year and a half of ridiculously hard work, as I am a non-native speaker. I didn't even intend to publish it but my friends helped me to edit it and supported me.


    I'd really like your opinion if you have the time.
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    Perfection. ffn.net is, as expected, full of philistines.

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