Originally Posted by
Xylia Pheme
"Who the hell cares? Anywhere but here. Ya don't seem to get it, do ya, Teddy Ruxpin? Why does it matter if people are fake elsewhere? Like ya said, they at least feel fake. They know what they're doing, and everybody does the same. It's a courtesy, nothing else, and we all live with that. Nobody expects anything else of others, because that's how things are."
"Huh? That's ridiculous. How could anyone ever consider that a courtesy-?"
"But here... ya can't trust anyone or anything. They don't even wanna admit they're faking it all. They masquerade as good people because they think they are. Just like ya. Putting on a cutesy act, being a klutz because that'll make people like ya more, faking yer childish ways... all the while looking down on humans like ya weren't one of them. Face it, doornail."
"Faking? Putting on an act? Me? What are you talking about? I'd never-."
Originally Posted by
Xylia Pheme
"... Yer just another shitflinging ape like the rest of humanity, no matter how much ya wanna think otherwise."
"..."
Does this girl know? Is she reading my thoughts somehow? Or is it just that obvious?
No. That can't be it. Xylia Pheme is just jumping to the worst possible conclusion based on what she's seen and heard.
Yes, that has to be it. She's wrong, as usual. I'm---.
"Totally. I don't even know you. But shitface is right. Just looking at you. It irritates me. Not to mention listening. Jesus Christ. Normal? You're whining. About your body. Gimme a break. People have bigger problems. World is full of shit. So boo-hoo. Tough luck. The fact that your body's a shrimp. Who the hell cares? It's not like you're dying."
"Whining!?"
Just from that!? I'm
complaining? But they're like me too, so... so...!
"B-but - you're also-!"
I thought... I thought they'd understand! Even a human should be able to get it, so why!?
Originally Posted by
Xandra
"She might be an asshole, but Xeni has a point. Besides, you look... tastier that way. But I get where she's coming from. After all, there's a reason why people like you and Xylia... hell, probably Xeni and myself, are not fit for society. It's because the machine functions better without us. It's always nice to cheer for the underdog against the big bad establishment... but that's biased as hell. Pardon the pun, but the little person isn't always in the right."
"T-thats, society is-."
Originally Posted by
Xylia Pheme
"Face it, garden gnome. Yer bias, that is. What if isn't humans that are awful..."
Don't.
Don't say it-!
Originally Posted by
Xylia
"... But yer the one that's awful?"
It feels like I've been physically struck. As if her words have shaken the whole world.
Me?
Awful?
This girl. No, these girls. They're..
They're ignorant. They don't understand, is all. Of course they couldn't. They don't know me. They don't know anything except what I have shown.
I've done some things I am less than proud of. Within the past few minutes, even. But
awful? To call me awful, without understanding a thing, after I shared just a few of my feelings with them?
Ridiculous. Utterly ridiculous. To think that the first time I would ever have the word 'awful' used against me would be today, by this girl of all people. It's absolutely ridiculous.
"Listen here, you-!"
So many things I could say, not even discounting the obvious. How dare she!? I'm the opposite of awful!
Except.
Except...
...
"...enjoy your pie."
I stand, and extract myself from the booth. My fingers, which had been clenched so hard that they feel numb, extract a ten dollar bill from my wallet and leave it on the table as payment.
There's nothing good that can be done here. Xylia wanted to hang out with her family, and she'll get to do that, uninterrupted. But I won't stay here to be their entertainment.
It's overcast outside. The rain hasn't fallen yet. I'll wait there and think about things.
That's the best an awful person can do.