Random Thoughts Thread

[Deathhappens]

Yes. But I mean, that's the entire premise of it. I was wondering exactly because I feel that way. I aware that this is all born from my feeling because I don't know what happened behind things that I can't see.

When I saw someone in similar position but being treated differently. When I don't think I have ever done anything to them to deserve those treatment. When I asked directly to them is there something wrong and I willing to change, but they say there isn't, but they still treat me differently anyway after that. When from time to time people talk shit behind others back, in a different group that the guy isn't there.

Maybe there is no exaggerated thing like such a club, but being treated differently are real. Acknowledging this is all from my head will not help a lot when it keeps happening again and again. It will periodically comeback.

Sounds like you're devoting a lot of headspace to people that aren't worth the consideration. I get the "what am I doing wrong?" feeling, it's perfectly natural, but the answer most often is "literally nothing". Someone might not like you because your face reminds them of their ex. Someone might be an asshole to you just because they woke up with a headache and then drank a ton of coffee. People don't always make sense. If you checked yourself once and found you good, then chances are the issue is the other guy.

[LegalLoliLover]

Aggressively trusting a yandere:

Direct the Beast; don't be directed by it.

[Deathhappens]

Didn't watch the video but there's a manga like that, I'm pretty sure.

[RoydGolden]

Didn't watch the video but there's a manga like that, I'm pretty sure.

Stalker x Stalker?

[LegalLoliLover]

Got that covered, too:

[Prix with a Silent X]

Yes. But I mean, that's the entire premise of it. I was wondering exactly because I feel that way. I aware that this is all born from my feeling because I don't know what happened behind things that I can't see.

When I saw someone in similar position but being treated differently. When I don't think I have ever done anything to them to deserve those treatment. When I asked directly to them is there something wrong and I willing to change, but they say there isn't, but they still treat me differently anyway after that. When from time to time people talk shit behind others back, in a different group that the guy isn't there.

Maybe there is no exaggerated thing like such a club, but being treated differently are real. Acknowledging this is all from my head will not help a lot when it keeps happening again and again. It will periodically comeback.

I agree with what Deathhappens said about it. To add, I experience a lot of the same feelings sometimes. Again, not in any way a doctor, but maybe you could look up "rejection sensitive dysphoria" -- it's often comorbid with ADHD or autism but I think it can occur on its own. A couple years ago I realized that I experience this. Knowing that I do doesn't always help, but it might give you a starting place to look for ways to cope if that is indeed your issue.

Basically RSD is when you experience a severe overreaction to rejection which is real or perceived, and that perceived part will bite you every time. Make you make an idiot of yourself if you keep feeling pushed aside by force that either wasn't there or which wasn't directed at you. At least knowing what your brain is doing might help. Also, try being more explicit in terms of how you discuss what you are feeling or the questions you ask with anyone you do consider a close, trusted friend. Be willing to make adjustments or to let certain relationships go when they are hurting you and basically putting you in emotional debt.

It's tough out there, man.

[LegalLoliLover]

Back in the day, playing Disgaea 1 after watching Elfen Lied was that best feeling. Nowadays, that doesn't excite me as much. To get that same high, I instead watch Shiki then watch Overlord.

[Laserman]

[July]

havent been here for a LONG time

[Deathhappens]

Nothing ever changes.

[Mattias]

I caught myself singing old highschool rugby fight songs to myself in the mirror. I think it's time for bed.

[Deathhappens]

Sometimes when carrying heavy shit or otherwise performing strenuous activity I unconsciously take up army chants too.

[LegalLoliLover]

How does the Japanese language work where 屍鬼 can both be pronounced shiki and kura?

[Deathhappens]

Educated guesses.

[Nikiri]

just like english, with words that contains "ough" part

[Mattias]

just like english, with words that contains "ough" part

So just replace it with a U and try to gaslight the rest of the world that it's always been that way?

[LegalLoliLover]

People on YouTube trying to kink-shame those who like Alcina's daughters in Resident Evil 8. Me? I've long achieved further levels of enlightenment:

[Deathhappens]

Finally caved and ordered myself a new controller online, playing DMC5 with KB/M was distinctly less than fun.
Which is weird, because for all its other faults DmC was actually really well optimised for KBM controls. I mean, different studio and all, sure, but they could've kept what worked at least.

[Nikiri]

which controller

[Deathhappens]

Logitech F310. Budget was tight.