Random Thoughts Thread

[Mattias]

Yes. Yes he is. He got the job for being the BF of the Manager's Wife's Highschool Friend. There's about a dozen other stories I have about him, such as spending his entire paycheck on a pair of Jordans (or some other expensive sneaker, I don't know fashion) then having to beg his GF's dad for enough money to buy a carseat for their incoming child, or insisting on being the one to always drive the aforementioned car, even though he didn't have a license due to his impaired driving charge.


It was a pain in the ass to live through but now any time I feel down about the goings on in my life, I can look back and think "at least I'm nowhere near as bad as him".

[Deathhappens]

Not quite the same thing, but I was briefly involved in a "let's get this guy fired" club in highschool. Though I guess calling it a club is a bit too charitable, more like a... gossip corner? Anyway, some girls really didn't like a teacher and, yeah, highschool girls are scary. I didn't really "attend" much and nothing came of it as far as I knew.

Looking back on it, I guess it was more like a tsundere fan club than anything, lol.

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Yes. Yes he is. He got the job for being the BF of the Manager's Wife's Highschool Friend. There's about a dozen other stories I have about him, such as spending his entire paycheck on a pair of Jordans (or some other expensive sneaker, I don't know fashion) then having to beg his GF's dad for enough money to buy a carseat for their incoming child, or insisting on being the one to always drive the aforementioned car, even though he didn't have a license due to his impaired driving charge.


It was a pain in the ass to live through but now any time I feel down about the goings on in my life, I can look back and think "at least I'm nowhere near as bad as him".

I really miss those "Faith in Humanity" posts some bloke used to put up. It's been a dwindling resource lately.

[Prix with a Silent X]

Mm...
It just these feelings come from people that I should being neutral with rather than some guy that openly hate me...

This is how you are feeling about how others feel about you, though, isn't it?

Yes. Yes he is. He got the job for being the BF of the Manager's Wife's Highschool Friend. There's about a dozen other stories I have about him, such as spending his entire paycheck on a pair of Jordans (or some other expensive sneaker, I don't know fashion) then having to beg his GF's dad for enough money to buy a carseat for their incoming child, or insisting on being the one to always drive the aforementioned car, even though he didn't have a license due to his impaired driving charge.


It was a pain in the ass to live through but now any time I feel down about the goings on in my life, I can look back and think "at least I'm nowhere near as bad as him".

Always good to know you're not swirling in the dregs but useful to remember that irresponsibility like that is often cyclical if not personally justifiable.

[Spartacus]

This is how you are feeling about how others feel about you, though, isn't it?

Yes. But I mean, that's the entire premise of it. I was wondering exactly because I feel that way. I aware that this is all born from my feeling because I don't know what happened behind things that I can't see.

When I saw someone in similar position but being treated differently. When I don't think I have ever done anything to them to deserve those treatment. When I asked directly to them is there something wrong and I willing to change, but they say there isn't, but they still treat me differently anyway after that. When from time to time people talk shit behind others back, in a different group that the guy isn't there.

Maybe there is no exaggerated thing like such a club, but being treated differently are real. Acknowledging this is all from my head will not help a lot when it keeps happening again and again. It will periodically comeback.

[Deathhappens]

Yes. But I mean, that's the entire premise of it. I was wondering exactly because I feel that way. I aware that this is all born from my feeling because I don't know what happened behind things that I can't see.

When I saw someone in similar position but being treated differently. When I don't think I have ever done anything to them to deserve those treatment. When I asked directly to them is there something wrong and I willing to change, but they say there isn't, but they still treat me differently anyway after that. When from time to time people talk shit behind others back, in a different group that the guy isn't there.

Maybe there is no exaggerated thing like such a club, but being treated differently are real. Acknowledging this is all from my head will not help a lot when it keeps happening again and again. It will periodically comeback.

Sounds like you're devoting a lot of headspace to people that aren't worth the consideration. I get the "what am I doing wrong?" feeling, it's perfectly natural, but the answer most often is "literally nothing". Someone might not like you because your face reminds them of their ex. Someone might be an asshole to you just because they woke up with a headache and then drank a ton of coffee. People don't always make sense. If you checked yourself once and found you good, then chances are the issue is the other guy.

[LegalLoliLover]

Aggressively trusting a yandere:

Direct the Beast; don't be directed by it.

[Deathhappens]

Didn't watch the video but there's a manga like that, I'm pretty sure.

[RoydGolden]

Didn't watch the video but there's a manga like that, I'm pretty sure.

Stalker x Stalker?

[LegalLoliLover]

Got that covered, too:

[Prix with a Silent X]

Yes. But I mean, that's the entire premise of it. I was wondering exactly because I feel that way. I aware that this is all born from my feeling because I don't know what happened behind things that I can't see.

When I saw someone in similar position but being treated differently. When I don't think I have ever done anything to them to deserve those treatment. When I asked directly to them is there something wrong and I willing to change, but they say there isn't, but they still treat me differently anyway after that. When from time to time people talk shit behind others back, in a different group that the guy isn't there.

Maybe there is no exaggerated thing like such a club, but being treated differently are real. Acknowledging this is all from my head will not help a lot when it keeps happening again and again. It will periodically comeback.

I agree with what Deathhappens said about it. To add, I experience a lot of the same feelings sometimes. Again, not in any way a doctor, but maybe you could look up "rejection sensitive dysphoria" -- it's often comorbid with ADHD or autism but I think it can occur on its own. A couple years ago I realized that I experience this. Knowing that I do doesn't always help, but it might give you a starting place to look for ways to cope if that is indeed your issue.

Basically RSD is when you experience a severe overreaction to rejection which is real or perceived, and that perceived part will bite you every time. Make you make an idiot of yourself if you keep feeling pushed aside by force that either wasn't there or which wasn't directed at you. At least knowing what your brain is doing might help. Also, try being more explicit in terms of how you discuss what you are feeling or the questions you ask with anyone you do consider a close, trusted friend. Be willing to make adjustments or to let certain relationships go when they are hurting you and basically putting you in emotional debt.

It's tough out there, man.

[LegalLoliLover]

Back in the day, playing Disgaea 1 after watching Elfen Lied was that best feeling. Nowadays, that doesn't excite me as much. To get that same high, I instead watch Shiki then watch Overlord.

[Laserman]

[July]

havent been here for a LONG time

[Deathhappens]

Nothing ever changes.

[Mattias]

I caught myself singing old highschool rugby fight songs to myself in the mirror. I think it's time for bed.

[Deathhappens]

Sometimes when carrying heavy shit or otherwise performing strenuous activity I unconsciously take up army chants too.