Caster is a charlatan, in other words, an exceptional liar. It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that he lies as naturally as he breathes. He's an intelligent man who, despite his rustic demeanor, possesses a sophisticated and mesmerizing way of expressing himself. Engaging in a conversation with this man is enough to fall under his mystical charm. For each individual, Caster is capable of wearing an entirely different mask. But who is he truly? Behind these lies and deceptions, what is the core of his thoughts?
Caster wants to survive. More than anything in the world, he wants to endure in this cold and harsh world. A mentality well-suited for a peasant who grew up in Siberia but accentuated by the trauma of coming close to death in his childhood. The truth is that Caster is profoundly thanatophobic, plagued by a pathological fear of death. He is willing to do anything to preserve his life, even committing the most horrendous acts if it means he won't die in the end. To him, the most suitable method of protection against death is to receive direct shelter from the highest authority in the land. Although there are numerous flaws in this approach, the sensation of being safeguarded by a powerful figure is one of the few things that can somewhat ease his mind, so he prefers this form of protection. However, this doesn't mean he hasn't learned from his mistakes; he is now prepared to abandon this authority figure if they were to lose their power.
It's easy to think of him as nothing more than a demon, a remorseless man who inflicts harm for his own gain. But Caster is aware of this aspect of himself and is the first to despise himself for it. Despite appearances, he is a man of faith, and that's why he genuinely believes himself to be a demon. He is the worst of individuals, a living wretch, but no matter what his morals dictate, he is incapable of restraining himself because his selfishness outweighs everything else. He has accepted his role as a monster, but in exchange, his mental health leaves much to be desired. The monk is constantly haunted by his past; two children appear wherever he goes. One is Andrei, the brother who should have survived. The other is Anastasia, the girl who was killed because of him. He knows they are illusions, but the weight of these deaths bears heavily on his mind.
"Andrei... I am a terrible man, am I not? When I look at you, I feel no sadness. On the contrary, I'm delighted that you died in my place! Aaaaaah! How monstrous, I am nothing more than a selfish man. I want to be judged, and yet, I'm the first to flee from my judgment! ...And you, Anastasia. My dear Anastasia... Oh, you were a victim from the start. I did nothing but deceive you and your family. Andrei is my past... but you are my future. I have nowhere to hide. I have nowhere to forget. I cannot be forgiven, and I cannot pay with my life. Anastasia... please, speak to me. You, who has seen my fate, tell me what all my sins should cost me! I would run, but prove to me... that I am indeed the devil."
But that's not all; in addition to his thanatophobia, he is severely afflicted by aquaphobia, the fear of water. This was a condition he already had in life, stemming from the trauma of nearly drowning in a river as a child. This explains why he never bathed. However, this phobia is now exacerbated by the circumstances of his death (drowning). He is absolutely terrified of water; even drinking it is agonizing for him. When he is near bodies of water, he can display symptoms of high anxiety and hysteria, becoming abnormally irrational.
Therefore, despite being a man who exploits the mental vulnerabilities of his adversaries to manipulate them, he is likely the one who’s the most psychologically fragile.
"What is a demon? I will answer that question... a demon is someone who is fundamentally evil. Someone who, no matter what they do, cannot change their nature. This is the true identity of Grigori Rasputin. I am Kochtcheï, the devil himself! My body refuses to believe in the goodness of the Lord, and here I am imprisoned in this world of illusions. I will continue to deceive men because I am selfish. I will continue to sin because I am far too attached to this repugnant material world."
Wish for the Holy Grail
His wish is simple; being a selfish man, Rasputin likely desires immortality. However, this wouldn't necessarily alleviate his fears and anxieties. Ultimately, what would truly help him is probably someone or something convincing him that death is not as frightening as it seems. That he can have faith in this grim and uncertain future.
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